Chapter 18 : Thinking

-"I beg your pardon ?"

-"I want to join your team."

Levi arched an eyebrow:

-"I don't think so. Killing for revenge isn't the same as killing for business like us."

-"Then teach me."

-"No. I'm not going back on my decision. Now, Petra will take you back to the apartment while we dispose of the bodies."

-"But..."

-"Don't argue with me", Levi scolded.

Eren took a step back and cowered slightly under the dominance of the Alpha tone. The redhead woman rushed between the two men and put one hand on the shoulder of the Omega:

-"I'll take him back to the apartment, boss. There's no need to get upset."

Levi nodded to Petra, and the young woman hastened to get Eren out of the room, not without the young man trying to struggle. But a simple glance from the Alpha stopped him:

-"Don't touch anything and keep your hands to yourself", Petra asked him.

A simple glance at his hands made him understand why. They were stained with blood. The young man didn't say a word the whole way home. He was far too lost in thought, staring at his bloody hands.

Eren slammed his bedroom door and let himself slide against it. He nested his head in her hands and sighed deeply. He was furious with Levi. Why didn't he want him to join his team? He closed his eyes and Reiner's face appeared behind his closed eyelids. A huge smile stretched his lips as he thought about what he had done. He had finally done justice to his parents. For the first time in his life, he felt light. The weight on his shoulders had finally disappeared. He felt serene and at peace. It was a delightful feeling. The young man felt like he was on a cloud... Yet he was upset. Why did he take so much pleasure in killing three people? He wasn't raised that way. And he had never felt the need to do harm... Was it because those people were the murderers of his parents? But if Levi was avenging his clients, why wouldn't he want him to help him? The Omega wanted other people to feel that sense of relief. He had to convince Levi to let him join his team. He felt a deep need to. But how do you get into Levi's team without going through Levi? Eren pulled his head out of his hands so quickly and abruptly that he slammed the back of his skull on the door of his room. ERWIN! He was going through Erwin. But how to get in touch with him without awakening Levi's suspicions?... HANJI! He was going to wait for his blood test results before asking her to arrange a meeting with Erwin. In the meantime, he was still going to keep trying to convince Levi to integrate him into his team.

But until he could do something about it, he needed to take a shower. He needed to wash the blood that was still on his hands... and probably in his hair by now. He wasted no more time and took off his clothes, leaving them on the floor as he walked to the bathroom. He didn't lock the door completely and ran himself a bath. The bathtub had been giving him an eyeful since he had arrived here and he had not yet tried it. The water was hot and his muscles relaxed as he went in. He sighed contentedly. This day was almost perfect. The Omega closed his eyes and let himself slide a little more into his bath. He hadn't taken a bath since his parents died. There was only a small shower in the apartment he shared with Mikasa. So he hadn't stopped himself there, right away. Eren let himself slip into a slight drowsiness, the hot vapors from his bath helping greatly.

The air was filled with a smell he loved. He felt safe, protected. He felt good. He bit his lower lip so as not to moan with pleasure when a gentle caress was lavished on his right shoulder. The caress slid down to his throat. The fingers that squeezed his throat were firm but soft. A simple pressure of the thumb under his chin made him tilt his head backwards, exposing his throat:

-"You're playing a dangerous game Omega," whispered a voice in his ear."

Eren suddenly opened his eyes and straightened up completely, forcing the hand to leave his throat. The young man turned his head towards his interlocutor, not without pulling his legs against his belly and crossing his arms over his chest. His face was only a few centimeters from Levi's face. He hadn't dreamed of the smell that had saturated his nose with delight. Eren found himself unable to express the slightest word, too focused on the proximity of his naked body and the fully clothed Alpha he liked, even though he wasn't quite ready to accept this fact yet:

-"It's pure provocation from you to take a bath without closing the bathroom door."

The younger one blushes:

-"I… It wasn't…"

He was forced to keep quiet when Levi put his thumb on his lower lip and caressed it delicately:

-"Why do I want to possess you so much?", he grumbled as if to himself.

Eren couldn't take his eyes off Levi's iron eyes and felt a tension between them. He wanted to kiss the mobster. What would happen if he gave in to his desires? Just once... But the Alpha was faster than him and backed away, not without grumbling in frustration:

-"I just came to make sure you were okay..."

-"I'm... Good."

-"Perfect. I have a meeting with Erwin. If you need anything, use the beeper."

The young man was unable to answer anything as Levi left the bathroom. When the door closed, Eren stood still for a moment before sliding into the bath water. Despite the coolness of the water, he felt that his whole body was on fire. He realized that his mind was slightly confused by the first steam of desire and that he shivered with pleasure as small waves of excitement swept through his being. The young man closed his eyes and took a deep breath. If a simple closeness and a little sexual tension between them put him in this state, he did not dare to imagine what would happen when he would have his first heat here. Eren stood still for a long time before finishing washing and getting out of the bathtub. He quickly dried off before wrapping himself in a robe and going back to his room. He chose new clothes and lay down on his bed to try to calm down before going down to the living room. When he did so, he returned to reading his book. He needed to take his mind off things before Levi returned, to be able to think about how best to join his team.

When the elevator door opened, Levi came cursing out of it. Eren quickly closed his book and turned to the couch to see the Alpha:

-"What a bunch of idiots."

The young man swallows:

-"Levi?"

The person questioned turned sharply towards his interlocutor:

-"Are you all right?"

The Alpha approached Eren and touched his cheek:

-"I'm fine."

-"What happened?"

-"There's nothing I can't handle. And nothing you need to worry about, sweetheart."

Instinctively, the Omega leaned a little more against Levi's fingers:

-"And should I be worried about what happened earlier?"

The mobster remained silent for a few seconds before saying:

-"You should. Cause even I don't know what would happen if we were in another situation like this."

Indeed, if even Levi didn't know if he would be able to control himself if they found themselves in a similar situation again, there was cause for concern. Eren moved back and got up from the couch:

-"In that case... Let's try not to find ourselves in another similar situation."

Internally, he was not happy to say this, but he had to avoid tempting the devil. It was dangerous for him, for his future and for his life.


Eren couldn't sleep. It was 2:00 in the morning and he had had an emotional day. Still, the sleep didn't want him. So he sat on his bed and stared at the city lights through his window. He found it beautiful and relaxing. He left his room quietly and went down to the kitchen. He drank a glass of water and turned his attention to the elevator. He approached it slowly and touched the card case with his fingers. In the movies, these little things always seemed easy to break or hack into, but now that he had one in front of him, he was convinced that it wasn't. He was convinced that he had a card. The Omega turned around and sat down on the living room sofa. He bent his knees up against his chest, wrapped himself in a blanket, and settled down so that he could observe the city. He wanted to enjoy the view for as long as he could.

He didn't move when he felt the place behind him sink, he had recognized the smell of Levi. Levi said nothing at first, just put his hand on Eren's neck, then:

-"Do you feel remorse?"

-"No. -No."

And it was true. He had no remorse:

-"I don't have any... I should, though, after killing three people."

The young man turned his head slightly so that he could look over his shoulder at Levi:

-"Am I... abnormal?"

Levi's thumb stroked his neck:

-"No, you're not abnormal. Killing for revenge doesn't always bring remorse. On the contrary, it usually offers some form of satisfaction and peace."

The Omega nodded his head and returned to his contemplation of the night landscape:

-"Is that what's keeping you awake at night?"

-"That's not the only thing."

Levi applied a new caress to the neck of the youngest:

-"Talk to me, sweetheart."

Eren changed his position to face Levi. The Alpha's face was different than usual. The moonlight and the reflections of the city lights gave his face a more mysterious, darker look, and yet, Eren found it simply more beautiful:

-"Do I… If I ask you questions, will you answer "them truthfully?

The Alpha didn't react at first, seeming to think, but then he settled more comfortably in the sofa:

-"I'm listening."

The young man took a deep breath before he started:

-"Are the... Contracts you honor based on revenge or Erwin's interest?"

-"Both. Some people come through Erwin and ask me to avenge them in exchange for a fat payment. And sometimes Erwin contacts me to remove an obstacle to his plans. Most of the time, I handle the killings alone while the others secure the perimeter, but sometimes I have to ask them to remove the obstacle to our goal."

-"Are we talking about the same kind of revenge as mine?

-"Rarely. It's more often of the kind where so-and-so steals something from someone and the first one demands "justice". Bullshit like that. It's rarely as personal as your revenge. And often a more dangerous one to fulfill the contract.

-"Didn't they cause any trouble?"

-"Reiner put up some resistance."

Eren waited for the mob to develop a little more, but only silence answered him:

-"I want to work with you."

-"No."

-"I didn't say I wanted to go out in the field. I said I wanted to work with you."

-"And how do you want to do that?"

-"You have a club, don't you?"

Levi arched an eyebrow:

-"You want to get behind the bar?"

-"I'm not sure I know how to do it, but I can learn."

The Alpha sighed and let his head tilt back:

-"Let me think about it. But if I come to say "yes", are you fully aware of what that will mean for you?"

-.".. I'm not sure..."

-"You'll become a full member of the Survey Corps. You'll have to follow our rules and abide by our laws. You can't go back to the way things were."

-"Do I have a chance to go back to my old life?"

-"... Not really, no."

-"Then let me start a new one."

The sad, moaning tone of the Omega made Levi wince:

-"I'll think about it. In the meantime, do you want to go back to sleep?"

-"I'm not sure I can sleep..."

The Alpha got up from the couch and held out his hand to the young man:

-"Come with me."

Eren took Levi's hand and let the blanket slide off his shoulders and onto the couch. They climbed the steps together, but to the Omega's surprise, they did not enter his room but Levi's room. The whole room smelled of Levi. It was large, and quite dark, since he had drawn the curtains in front of the large bay window, which he never did to enjoy the scenery. It had more or less the same configuration as the one he was occupying, although the mobster didn't have a simple wardrobe but a large dressing room:

-"You can look at my suits another time, come to bed."

Levi made him sit on his bed, it was harder than his own, and the sheets were soaked with the smell of lye and the smell of the Alpha. Instinctively, Eren lay down in the bed and buried his head in the pillow. Even though it wasn't the one Levi was sleeping on, he still smelled like purred with pleasure without even thinking about it and hugged the pillow against him so he could curl up against it. The smell of the Alpha made him feel good, safe and soothed:

-"Turn around."

The young man took his head out of the pillow and looked at his neighbour:

-"Why?"

-"Just do it."

With a grunt he obeyed. Once he was lying on his left side, he didn't waste a second to curl up against the pillow again. However, he stretched out, feeling an arm wrapping around his hip and a body sticking to his:

-"Levi?"

-"Shut up and sleep."

Eren couldn't help smiling before burying his head in the pillow and savoring the warmth that Levi's body against his own was giving him. He felt even better than just smelling him. Sleep soon took him away from his body in a peaceful manner.


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