A/N: This chapter has sexual assault and the section will be marked. This can be a trigger, so I want to be upfront about why I have chosen to include it. 1) I was raped in my early twenties and the best coping I have for dealing with that trauma, is to write about it. If I bottle it up, I'll just sink into a big depressive bubble that will kill me which brings me to 2) To bring about suicide awareness. 3) The story is made to be angsty, so drama is necessary. 4) The tragedy is what drives Gini into taking down the yakuza before the Pros do their thing in the anime/manga (that I don't own) and I think people that use their tragedy as a ladder to become powerful symbols are the most beautiful people in our horrible world.
I hope this doesn't deter readers! I value feedback, so don't be shy! Thank you for reading!
Her Peace
I don't want to be alive,
I don't want to be alive,
I just want to die today
I just want to die
~1-800-273-8255 by Logic~
Emi gave Keigo a skeptical look. He had been smooth with his delivery and she would admit, even a little suave. She still wasn't convinced by what he was suggesting though.
"She wouldn't do that," Gini's cousin replied for the third time.
"Ms. Joke, may I just say that your hair is looking extra vibrant today?"
"That's cute, but you don't have to flatter me kid. You're like a little too young to be trying that with me," Emi giggled, impressed with his attempts, nonetheless.
"Okay, okay. Listen, I'm not saying that she's acting like a criminal. I'm only saying that my resources saw her making some sort of exchange with a young yakuza member that is trying to make a name for himself. Should I also remind you that she has yet to come home?" Hawks replied.
He rarely made a point to visit heroes at their personal residences, but he had questions for Gini about Dabi and her last case involving the Todoroki family. He was greeted by the Outburst hero instead much to his dismay.
"She has a knack for spontaneity. I'm sure she hooked up with the guy from the band at your party and is too embarrassed to do her walk of shame right now," Emi replied, completely leaving out the fact that her cousin had told her that she was moving away and would be back later to get some things.
"If you hear from her, birdie, let me know okay? I'm worried that she may be interfering with one of my investigations by hooking up with a target."
"The cute redhead is your target?! No way!" Emi giggled again. Damn her cousin sure had a knack for attracting the wrong ones.
Hawks simply smiled and rubbed the back of his head before leaving.
-POV Change-
Ginsui rushed to the bathroom to puke. She thought the whole 'morning sickness' shebang would be over by now. It wasn't until Dabi turned on the light that she realized more than vomit had come up. Remains of the pill and blood swam in the bowl.
She quickly flushed to hide the horror, hoping Dabi hadn't noticed.
"The hell did you eat yesterday? That smells awful," Dabi complained from behind the hand he held over his face.
Ginsui apologized and flushed again, making sure that any evidence of foul play was gone.
"Will you excuse me for a minute? I need to make a call."
Dabi shrugged and moved aside, pinching one of her love handles endearingly as she walked by.
"May I speak with the doctor please? This is Fukukado Ginsui. Yes, I'll hold," Gini politely replied, despite the panic building up.
She quietly paced around the balcony, double checking that Dabi wasn't eavesdropping.
"Hi! I know it's not time for my next appointment, but something has come up and I would be forever grateful if you could fit me in."
"That depends on the symptoms you're having. What's going on?"
"To make a long story short, I'm vomiting blood."
"Dear God woman! Come in immediately," her doctor advised and turned to issue commands to her staff for Gini's arrival.
Gini hung up and quickly changed into a casual, loose-fitting sweater and a pair of ripped bleached jeans.
"What the rush, doll? We haven't even gotten to make up from the months apart," Dabi asked as he blocked her exit, rubbing a bandaged hand under her sweater and down her back to undo her bra.
"Not right now, you're hurt and...look I'll tell you when I get back, I promise," Gini sputtered out. She wanted to stay and feel his warm hands trace her body but now was not the time.
"Okay, sure babe," he bit his tongue to keep from saying more. She was distressed about something, so he knew it was better to let her take care of whatever it was first.
-The OBGYN-
"The blood results from the samples we took will be ready in about ten minutes. In the meantime, has anything changed in your diet?" The doctor began.
Ginsui didn't want to keep anything secret. Her little one's health was worth the truth.
"I...I've taken a few quirk suppressing pills. I assumed they were made from something similar to the medication you used for me in the hospital. But now, it's clear that they're not," the sunset eyed woman explained.
"The good news is that your ultrasound results turned out perfect. Baby Fukukado is healthy and growing at a normal rate, although it is a little on the small side. It is possible that the quirk pills you bought may impact its own quirk development. We won't really know until it's older though. I was also able to see its gender, if you're interested!"
"You can see the gender already?"
"Yep. You're measuring about seventeen weeks along, so it's pretty obvious now."
"I think I'll wait for the next appointment and bring my cousin. She's going to want to find out with me," Gini's heart fluttered at the thought. Knowing the gender would make it more real.
"That's understandable."
"And you said that it's possible that these pills could prevent its quirk from evolving?"
"That's right. But, it almost seems that you would be okay with something like that happening."
"I'm...scared that it will have its father's quirk, or worse...mine..." Gini expressed her concern.
"Modern medicine is trying to keep up with these fast-pacing developments of mismatched quirks. I'm sure by the time it gets old enough to use the quirk, we will be able to give it more help than we were able to give you and his...dad."
Gini nodded as the professional's words comforted her.
"Pardon me as I review the blood results," she asked Gini as she stepped outside.
Ginsui picked at her nails impatiently as something very nasty clicked. She couldn't read the emotions of everyone around her. She had solely been interpreting her own thoughts and feelings for the last twelve hours. Twelve, not eight.
"Ms. Fukukado?" Gini jumped as the doctor announced her return.
"Oh, sorry to frighten you! So, I reviewed the evidence and there's some disturbing information. I'm required to turn it over as evidence of a crime. Did you acquire the pills while working a job for Sir Nighteye?"
"Oh...uh...yeah," Gini half-lied.
"Okay, I'll let him take the samples in then. Sweetie, there was human DNA other than yours in the toxicology report. It suggests that a person was used to help create the drug you took."
"What?" Gini gasped.
"If this dealer of yours is someone you're investigating on Nighteye's behalf, then I suggest you tread lightly."
"No kidding," the silver haired woman agreed.
She immediately called her Great Uncle to see what was going on. He had always upheld a chivalrous squad to keep his small organization afloat. If people were being used to make quirk suppressants, then something was terribly wrong.
"The Boss is unavailable right now. May I ask who's calling?" A gritty voice answered.
"Ch...Chisaki?" Gini asked, unable to hide the tremble in her voice.
"Oh, Ms. Gini it's you. I'm sorry to be the one to tell you this, but your uncle has fallen ill and is currently in a coma," the acting leader advised.
"...what did you do to him?" Gini spat into the phone, quickening her pace to the League's hideout. Shigaraki needed to know that the line of succession had changed.
"What makes you think that I would harm him? He was a father to me. I was looking forward to seeing you later, but I'm not sure you would be pleasant company now that I know you lack manners."
"I lack manners? Your last pill could have really hurt me! You should have given me a heads-up that you made changes...and that you were using actual people to make them! What the fuck is wrong with you?"
"Oh, you didn't like the changes I made? I thought you could use the extra time of peace. You are at your most perfect when you're quirkless, you know?"
"You bastard. You fucking bastard. If people were killed for that pill I took...and if what you did is permanent, I'm going to —"
"—to what?" Kai's voice echoed from the phone and from the alley to her left.
Ginsui dropped the phone and slowly stepped towards the street, her eyes zeroing in on the alley to see if she could spot him. He wasn't there. Perhaps she was imagining the echo.
"Whoa babygirl, what you are doing being so jumpy today?" Dabi's calm voice spoke up as he bent down to retrieve her phone.
She didn't reply at first. Her lack of emotional connection to those around her left her blind and jittery. Once she realized that she was safe there with Dabi, she jumped into his arms.
She feverishly kissed the staples on his face before reaching his mouth. He embraced her tongue with his own, letting the sporadic makeout continue for a few minutes.
"I'm not complaining, but what's up with the mood swings? You were panicky at home, you looked terrified minutes ago, and now you're all over me. You okay?"
"Dabi..."
"Look babe, you need to start being honest because I'm not liking all this secrecy shit. As much as I adore you, I will walk away if you keep it up," he warned as he carefully placed her back on the ground.
"Okay first things first."
"All right, I'm ready."
"I took a pill to stop my quirk."
"Like the shit they gave you at the hospital? My mom told me about them and how they seemed to help get you out of there faster. So what's the big deal?"
"They didn't come from the hospital and the second one I took—"
"Wait, you bought something off the streets and thought it was okay to take more than one? The fuck is wrong with you Gini why didn't you say something last night?"
"I wasn't expecting you to be home last night to have to explain myself, so there's that."
"Fine. What were you saying about the fucking drug you took before I interrupted?"
"It was what made me sick. I went to the doctor and everything is fine. I'm okay I just need to not take anymore."
"Oh, so you took illegal shit from who knows where made from who knows what, went to the doctor about it, and you're just now filling me in and it's just a-oh-fucking-kay, huh. Are...are you quirkless right now? Is that why you didn't know I was following you?"
"I didn't think you of all people would be so harsh on me, and yes I don't feel anything around me and it's weirding me out," Gini mumbled.
"What's that supposed to mean? That because I'm out here roasting people that you can start making shitty choices too? You're supposed to be more mature than that. And to think you were going to be the mother of my kid. It looks like we both have a lot of growing up to do," he spat and turned to light a cigarette.
"Wait, there's more," she barely choked out. How was she supposed to tell him about the baby after his last comment?
"More? For fuck's sake woman you are so much more trouble than I thought. You're lucky you're cute, I swear to god," he grumbled, inhaling the nicotine to mellow him out.
"Can I get a hug first?" She asked, desperate for his warmth.
He rolled his eyes before pulling her close. The thought of her buying drugs like an addict still hurt him.
"Was this drug deal the job you worked out with Shigaraki?" He asked before she could tell him about the 17-week-old fetus growing inside her.
"Yes," she sighed.
He removed her arms from around his waist and began walking to the hideout.
"Dabi I still haven't told you about—"
"Go home and rest, Ginsui. I don't want to hear anymore right now. I have shit to take care of with Shigaraki. I'll call you later. I don't know when I'll be home, but I'm sure it'll be a few days at the least."
"A few days... at the least?" She was going to freeze to death.
"Oh, you don't like that? At least it's not a few months," he snidely replied.
Gini blinked in rejection as he retreated away. She hadn't even told him the biggest news yet. If he was handling her working for Shiggy poorly, the latter was going to be hell.
She should have followed. She even thought about yelling 'I'm pregnant' as he sulked away. She wasn't brave enough.
Instead, she softly said "Please don't go away. I'm pregnant," into the morning air. He was too far to hear and soon, he was in the building and far from where any yelling could be heard.
"Pregnant? By that disgusting creature of a human? You are quite the slut. I never would have imagined," Kai interrupted her silent brooding.
"I've slept with two people my entire life, so I don't think I live up to that word," Gini smarted.
It was easy to sass dangerous people when she couldn't feel their thoughts.
"What if another number was added to your count?" He chuckled. Her eyes widened as she interpreted his meaning.
This was the worst possible time for her quirk to be nullified.
****TRIGGER WARNING****
"I can imagine you looking at me with those big, innocent eyes with your mouth around my cock," he chuckled again as he reached out to grab her.
She let out a bloodcurdling scream before he quickly took off a glove to seal her lips together.
"Shh, shh, shh, you can speak again if you behave," he smiled behind his beak as he led her deeper into the shadows of the alleyway.
She was trembling so violently that she could barely walk. She forced herself to follow and prayed it would be painless.
"That's right, we wouldn't want the baby to be hurt would we?" He antagonized her as he unbuttoned her jeans and tugged on her panties so that they would fall around her ankles along with her pants.
He pushed her over a stack of boxes that were just tall enough to support her and high enough for him to get his dick inside of her. The sound of a condom wrapper opening let her know that the worst was about to come.
He pushed her sweater up so that his gloved hands could dig into her hips greedily. He slowly inserted himself into her. A soft groan escaped his covered lips.
"You feel better than I imagined, especially knowing that the abomination of a person you call a boyfriend was in here. I wouldn't know any better if I didn't overhear your little conversation with him. I would never leave you like he did," he spoke as he continued to pound into her.
He took a fistful of her hair and pulled her head to the side. Her face glistened with tears and sweat.
"Such pretty eyes. It pains me to see those tears, Ms. Ginsui. I can give you a better life so you'll like this more next time."
Her eyes widened. Next time? He planned on bringing more of this torture? And who was going to stop him? Dabi was going to be gone. Will the League protect me? Not after I betrayed them, the damsel thought horribly as Kai's shaft continued to shove into her mercilessly.
She wanted to kick, hit, and fight her way out of her predicament, but even the slightest hint of aggression would cost her the baby's life. She had risked its life before and it nearly broke her and Dabi. She wouldn't survive another fallout with him.
Ten minutes later, Kai pulled out, removed the condom, and came onto her back.
She quickly rubbed her back against the stack of boxes before pulling her underwear and pants back on. He waited until she was finished cleaning up to unseal her mouth. His thumb rubbed over her bottom lip affectionately.
****SAFE****
"Please be careful out there Ginsui Fukukado. It would bring me great displeasure to think of someone taking advantage of you, now that you belong to me," he coldly stated as he walked away, tossing a pill box at her.
Gini collapsed onto the filthy ground and pulled her legs up to her chest. She opened the box and saw the remainder of the week's supply in it. She dumped it out was going to crush them until she realized that she could turn half of them over to Tomura and the other half to Nighteye.
She had cared for rape victims before. Hell, she had almost been one herself on numerous occasions, but her quirk always saved her.
She cried as she carefully put the drugs back into the box. Her insides throbbed in pain with each movement. She couldn't believe that something like this could actually happen to her.
Not to her. Not to her. Not ever to her. She couldn't be this broken girl in the dark alley with dirt and cum on her. No, not her.
It didn't really happen. It wasn't real. She was having a nightmare. It was all a bad dream she concocted because of her anxiety with working undercover again and from needing to tell Dabi the truth.
"I'll wake up soon. I'll wake up and be snuggled in a blanket of Dabi's warmth and I'm going to spit out the big news of him being a dad. He's going to smile and we're going to be happy. We are going to be happy!" She chanted until she could feel the truth sink in.
She sobbed harder as she punched and stomped at the ground around her repeatedly. If anyone walked by they would see a grown woman throwing a tempter tantrum like a toddler.
A few shards from broken beer bottles rested beside her. She thought about grabbing one and digging trenches into her forearms to wake herself up. If it didn't work, then at least she would die and be free from this horrible hell she found herself in. If only it wouldn't hurt. The pain of cutting herself open was the only thing stopping her.
"Wake up Gini. Wake up woman," she kept telling herself as she continued to rock back and forth, sparing the glass a few desperate looks.
Eventually, she picked a piece up. Her breathing became heavier. She felt the sensation of a panic attack coming on. She lowered her hand, the edge of the glass starting to cut into her flesh.
A slight tickle in her abdomen stopped her. Was that a kick from Baby Todoroki? She gasped, tossed the shard away, and placed her palms over her stomach to feel more.
"Ma'am?" An officer approached her.
She jumped and looked through clouded eyes up at the man.
"A civilian reported a scream. Are you hurt?"
She sobbed, unsure she heard him correctly.
"Someone heard me? And they didn't come help?" She must have misunderstood.
"Please remain calm, miss. I'm sure they thought a Pro would have been here sooner. What happened?"
"Remain calm? Remain calm? Are you shitting me? I was just raped and you're telling me that someone heard and could have helped stop it?!" She started to yell as she climbed back to her feet.
"Raped?" Himiko Toga asked from behind the officer.
She was wearing PJs and her hair was down, so no one would recognize her. She thought she had smelled Gini's blood and she wanted a taste.
"Let's get you to a hospital and checked over," the officer asked and reached out a hand to get her.
"Leave me alone! Don't fucking touch me!" Gini snapped and slapped him away.
"Ma'am control yourself! If you hit me again, I will charge you for assault!" The policeman warned.
She glared at the man. He needed to go back to school to learn how to treat victims. What a piece of shit cop. Her anger and disgust at what happened to her took over her sensibility. She closed her right hand into a tight fist, pulled her arm back, and then slung her fist into his face with all her weight behind the punch.
He dropped to the ground, blood streaming from his nose.
"Wait! Get back here!" He called after her.
She began to feel her quirk return as she ran past the fallen officer. She heard him call for backup. Her beautiful sunset orbs transformed into burning rubies as she let the anger flow from her skin and into the air around her.
This sleepy town was going to feel her hate. They were going to feel her rage. They were going to feel the wrath of the Silver Sorceress. They were going to feel the scorch of a pregnant woman's scorn.
Kai Chisaki awoke a slumbering demon within the tame woman, and he would rue this day. Her parents were right; her quirk was a curse. She was never meant to be a hero. She was meant to break down cities. She was meant to destroy countries.
-LOV POV-
Hey, bossman Shigs. I really need you to check the tapes," Toga pleaded with Shigaraki as he continued to argue with Dabi.
The two had been at each other's throats in utter disagreement about Gini's current job for over twenty minutes now.
"Not now, Toga," Tomura sighed.
"But it's important!" She insisted, pouting and hoping that she hadn't heard Gini correctly.
Her Gin-Gin couldn't have been...raped. That didn't happen to the good guys. That only happened to outcasts like her.
"You know what? Fuck you Shigs. Gini isn't working out her debt to you. Think of something else for her to do. I'm out. I now have a pill-popping woman to support and I don't have time for your dawdling."
"She's not a fucking pill-popper, don't be so dramatic. She's only trying to get mental breaks for crying out loud. Stop turning this into something it isn't," Tomura snarled. He hated Gini, but he didn't think she should be called out of her name. Only he, her boss, could do that.
"Shigaraki, please, look at the tapes of the alley by our place. GINI was hurt! I heard her tell the officer outside that she was...that she was..."
Tomura, Dabi, and a few of the other members that were present stopped what they were doing and turned to her.
"That she was what?" Dabi spoke up first.
"Please just watch. I can't say it. I can't say the word," Toga cried.
-Gini POV-
She was mad. She was furious that she let Dabi walk away from her. She was mad that she hadn't been honest with the one person that tolerated her more than anyone else. She was mad that she let some twenty-year-old yakuza kid get the best of her. She let that anger out into the world so that she wasn't suffering alone.
Screams of angry mobs forming around her invigorated her need for destruction. She watched groups of people argue over the littlest of things. She let the disgust flow through the crowds until her eyes landed on a baby in a stroller.
She froze and looked at the damage she had created. Three building were already on fire. Were there children in them? She blinked and took a deep breath. She could still fix this.
The red-hot glare washed away and was replaced by a cold, stone grey stare. People began to quiet down. Control began to set in. Pros were able to rush in and organize the chaos. She closed her eyes and focused on the burning buildings to see if anyone was hurt. She couldn't feel any fears there. Either the victims were already dead, or no one was in danger. She hoped for the latter.
"GiGi?" Shota's cold tone snapped her back to her own position.
She watched his hair float in the air and his eyes erase her quirk. Her nostrils flared in response.
"Give it back! I'm fixing it! I'm fixing the mess!" She demanded as she stomped over to him.
"What's going on? Please tell me that you didn't do this. The media has you running through the streets like you're hell bent on something. Do you have any idea how much trouble you're in?" He asked, lifting his hand to run his fingers through her tangled hair.
He had avoided her after his therapy with her was done. He hoped it would help him get over her, but he was mistaken. Seeing her lost and absolutely trashed stirred memories of her.
What he would give to relive that day they took the same bus as teens. He still cared for her which was why he hadn't arrested her right away. She deserved a chance to explain herself first.
"Don't touch me," she snapped and pushed his hand away. "Please don't touch me, ZaZa, I'm gross," she sighed.
He blinked in concern. A grave mistake.
"I'm sorry," she cried and activated her quirk to put him to sleep. His eyes rolled back and he passed out in deep sleep right there on the street.
She thought she was in the clear until she saw large red wings swooping towards her.
Holy shit they brought him into this? Gini thought as she desperately began to think of a way to get him off her trail.
He was the number three hero for a reason. Sure, she hadn't kept up with him too much, but she wasn't stupid about the ranking system.
There was a secret entrance somewhere on the next street. If she could just get to that, she would be okay.
"Ms. Gini. We need to talk," she heard Keigo's cool tone overhead.
He could fly faster than she could run, but she had one small advantage: her quirk. She quickly released a wave of confusion at the flying hero.
"Huh?" She heard him whine and land on a rooftop to her left. She sprinted to the exit she needed.
Soon, she had shaken him off her scent and was at Dabi's apartment. She took a shower to wash the nastiness from her, packed a bag of essentials, and made her way to her uncle's mansion. The yakuza was going down and she was going to be responsible.
She knocked on the door and was greeted by a young man with downward-pointed grey hair.
"The Boss isn't here right now. And how did you get in? How did you get the code?"
She pushed a finger up to his lips to shush him. Her eyes changed to a shade of beige, the color of persuasion and authority.
"I'm the boss. I make the codes," she stated dryly.
The man's brow furrowed as if fighting the daze she was putting him in.
"Yes ma'am," he eventually lost and drunk in her quirk's trick.
"Take me to the others. I need to know what's been going on while my great uncle's been asleep."
"No problem," he replied and led her to the den of yakuza thugs.
