Sorry for the long wait guys, its been very stressful. So, before I lose it, here's a chapter.
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Guadadominguez4: Hahaha! I got caught, oops. Think of them as small teasers before the main event, 'cause—spoiler alert— brace yourself for one very soon. This made me laugh. Hm...sorry, what if I said I still don't feel guilty? (I should be related to illu) Lol, no offense. I'm glad you're enjoying it though—sorry for the long wait & thanks for the review!
Disclaimer in first chap.
Prepare yourself for some—ahem—intimacy. Remember, incest, wanna back out? Now's the chance.
Chapter 33: HBD Killua 2
Killua wasn't allowed to break away from the kiss until he was practically out of oxygen. As the younger panted with a string of saliva, Illumi had his forehead glued to the other's.
The ravenette's breathing was also a bit out of sync while he stared down at the teen and commented, "Too cute..."
Resolving those words, Killua pushed the elder away. 'Now he was suddenly annoyed.' "Stop treating me like a kid already—don't you think that's enough. I turn fifteen today!"
Illumi wasn't anticipating that and stared at him with his usual expressionless face. That's when he abruptly yanked the teen's face up, straight towards him. "...Do you want me to treat you like an adult?"
'What the...he scared me for a sec there...' "What kinda question is that, of course I do..."
"...You won't regret it?"
"No...?"
The elder smiled ever so slightly. "Alright, then wait for me after the party." He pecked the teen's spiky head and opened the bathroom door.
"Eh?" Killua only felt the spot he kissed with a hidden blush, while wondering what on earth the other was up to.
One moment the teen was saying goodbye to his friends and the next moment he was being led by his elder brother into a five-star hotel. Illumi dragged him all the way to their 'booked' room and didn't release his hand until the very moment they entered.
"Uh, what's going on again—eh!" Kiru found himself being hoisted by Illumi himself and gently thrown on the large master bed, hovering over him with his hair raining down like a silky black curtain.
"This is the only place we won't be disturbed." Illumi was already positioned in between his legs, leaning most of his weight on the bed, with his face at Killua's chest level.
It took the silverette a split second to put two and two together until he finally did. 'Ah.' "Wa-wait…" The teen couldn't help but blush at the realization. 'Crap, he needed time to be mentally ready—Illumi can't just throw a ball like that.' Illumi kissed the back of his hand, before his lips moved to his knuckles and then his fingers. The younger shuddered at the affection. "Is this really okay...?"
"Why not? I've been waiting forever for this. I want Kiru." The elder placed a chaste kiss on his younger brother's palm now.
"I-I know that…but I mean…we're…still brothers…"
"So?"
"Sigh."
"I love Kiru. Does Kiru love me?"
"…yeah, I do…but..."
"Then that's all that matters. Well—" Illumi looked up into space while he formulated the rest of that sentence. "—even if Kiru didn't love me, I'd still do this eventually."
"Hey! Be a little more respectful here!"
"My apologies."
'Geez his older brother sometimes. Well, whatever, his family wasn't the most normal to begin with. And apparently, he wasn't much either if his mind could even think for a second that this was okay—to do such a thing with his older brother... but then again, he really wouldn't want this with anyone else...'
"Kiru," Illumi grasped the other's attention fully as he kissed his ear. "Don't think. Just look at me." The elder continued to plant kisses down his cheek all the way to his chin.
"O-okay...then what do you want me to do...?" Killua surrendered to the all the gentle kisses.
"Nothing. Let me worship Kiru today."
"Eh...mh—" The teen thought that was a weird way of putting it but didn't resist the kisses on his neck. "Ah! Ow..." He flinched when the other bit him but instantly licked the area down. Illumi removed the teen's vest, unbuttoned his white dress shirt and removed his pants all in one go, tossing everything aside. Killua inevitably turned a shade darker being fully exposed like that but that didn't seem to bother Illumi as he licked the younger's chest. "Ah, wait, I think I was sweating..."
"It's okay, I'll take anything from Kiru."
"Really you..."
The raven haired then nibbled on one of the teen's small nipples. It was rather too small to be sucked on, but he let his tongue flick it and play with it. Killua clenched his jaw. 'Crap...if he keeps doing stuff like that then...I won't be able to hide it...' the teen attempted to squeeze his thighs together to hide his growing erection.
"Hn? What's wrong Kiru..." The elder posed until he saw what Kiru was trying so desperately to hide. Illumi scoffed. "No need to be embarrassed Kiru. It's beautiful." He automatically lay off the younger's chest and sat up, pulling the other's legs apart and lifting them higher so everything was in view. "With this, I've seen everything now, haven't I? Kiru is so adorable."
Killua couldn't even understand what expression to make anymore, and so he resorted to covering his face with his hands instead. "St-stop—what nonsense are you—ughhh!" He would never be this embarrassed in his life. A part of him still wondered how he let Illumi get away with all this. The raven haired held the other's waist up as he took Killua's length in his mouth, licking and sucking on it. The back of the silverette's head buried itself deeper into the soft pillows as he was extremely sensitive to every action Illumi's tongue carried out. "Ahn...oh—an-aniki...ha!"
The elder didn't stop until Kiru became restless and practically began begging him to time out before he spilled himself. Killua panted as he hazily watched Illumi wipe his lips. The elder didn't stop there and kept the younger's butt lifted in air, to moisten his unprepared hole.
"N-no—you idiot—that's dirty, don't...lick..."
"It's not." Illumi only managed to say, impatiently probing the hole and listening blissfully to Killua's moans. After a while, just to make it less painful and more complete for his brother, he reached under the pillow and grabbed hold of two different lube tubes and some condoms. He had especially ordered two different types since he knew it would be Kiru's first time. He first poured the lavender scented gel on to his fingers and slowly added one finger which slipped in quite easily.
"Uhn...em...aniki...my back..."
'Ah, it must be uncomfortable to hold this position for long...' Illumi mused. So, he decided to turn the other around. "Sorry about that Kiru, this should be more comfortable."
"Mh..." The younger didn't agree nor disagree but one thing he knew for sure was that this position on his stomach with his butt raised was much more humiliating.
"Ah—er—hng! H-how much longer are you going to..." Killua felt as if he was laying there for ages now, face buried in the pillow while his brother continued to thrust his long fingers in. The teen felt as if he would come from the fingers alone at this rate, if he hadn't already.
"I'm preparing Kiru. See it's taking four fingers in."
"Ha-ah—I, I get it...un..."
"Are you ready?" Illumi finally pulled the fingers out. He took the chance to remove his shirt as well—which was all sweaty by now anyhow—and unzipped his pants.
"Mhn..." Killua honestly wasn't sure of the answer, but he was able to put some trust in his older brother. There were plenty of instances the teen lost trust in Illumi but he always seemed to come back to him. That was just Illumi for you, he had his twisted way of doing things but in the end, he always had one goal: to protect and cherish him. Only him.
Killua snapped back to reality when Illumi lay him on his side. "Only you, Kiru." The elder stroked the younger's hair off his forehead so he could see the teary expression better. "I only want to do this with you. I only want you."
Killua looked into his eyes and realized something. 'He said you, not Kiru.' Illumi lifted the condom and brought it to the younger's teeth.
"Bite this Kiru." Killua obliged. He felt too intoxicated to protest against anything at this point. The elder leaned forward and bit the other corner of the condom package. "Hold tightly," He ordered before cleanly ripping it open with a head motion. "Good boy." He took the condom away and wore it over his throbbing erection. Personally, he'd prefer to do it without, but he'll cut Killua some slack.
Illumi lifted one of the younger's pale legs and positioned himself towards his insides. "Breathe Kiru." He instructed as he impatiently yet very carefully inserted himself in. The teen jerked and felt something much bigger than the other's fingers but thanks to all the 'preparing' Illumi did, it didn't feel excruciatingly painful. "You're doing great Kiru, breathe with me and relax." Illumi kissed him once more, thrusting a little deeper each time. The teen felt his stomach flip as he ejaculated again.
"Illu-nii—ah! Arg! Feels weird—!" Killua's smaller body rocked with the other as he kissed back. The raven haired then began planting kisses all over him again as he was being squeezed by the younger. His elder brother pecked his forehead, over his eyes, his tears, the bridge of his nose, the tip of his nose, his cheeks, his chin, his Adam's apple, his pounding heart, his packs, his knees, and finally he took both of the smaller hands in his and kissed them together. He split the hands apart from his view to catch a glimpse of the teen's flustered face, which was beat red fully attending him and eyes dripping with innocence.
"Kiru is the most beautiful person I'll ever see." Illumi meant it with all sincerity and even during moments like this the younger couldn't understand how the other maintained such an expressionless face. Albeit that wasn't entirely true because on close inspection, one could see a faint blush on the elder's pale cheeks and his hot breath proved how much he was enjoying it too. He gripped both the silverette's elbows and thrusted once more. Killua's back arched as he felt the other move.
Even though it was Killua's first time, Illumi didn't back down from doing it multiple times that night.
The next morning—no afternoon, when the teen managed to open his eyes, he noticed the elder gripping him tightly in his sleep. 'Ugh...' The younger felt sore just from merely attempting to sit up, which was impossible anyhow with the way Illumi was clinging to him. The teen sighed instead, recalling the events from last night. 'What a night...' He was completely mind blown. All of a sudden, he was doubting his brother. 'Who knew behind such a hollow face, he could be such a...Anyhow what time was it?' The sun was well beaming behind the closed curtains, so it had to be at least early in the afternoon.
"Finally awake?" He heard a familiar voice speak from behind him.
"Eh—you were awake?"
"Yeah, for a long while now."
"What the—then why didn't you say anything? Geez."
"But Kiru was asleep." Illumi innocently answered.
"Forget it." There was a pause. Killua's mind felt blank as he searched for things to say. He couldn't find any of his usual out-smarting remarks. He was suddenly seeing Illumi in a different light...he felt so much weaker and vulnerable against his brother now...
"Are you hungry?" The elder's words broke his awkwardness as they caressed the younger's stomach.
"Huh...uh, yeah kind of I guess..." 'Now that he thought about it, he was indeed famished.' "But how did you know?"
"Hmph. Isn't it obvious? Kiru always eats first thing in the morning, and especially since we were so busy last night."
"Urk..." The teen couldn't stop himself from blushing and turning his face away. 'Thank God Illumi was behind him.'
"Should I order room service?"
"Yes..." Illumi finally released his iron grip on him and reached for the hotel phone. While the other spoke on the phone, the silverette gently slapped his cheeks. 'Calm down dammit! Nothing changed from yesterday. He's still the same person.'
"They'll be up in fifteen minutes. How about a shower?"
"Oh okay, yeah, good idea." Killua managed to calm down automatically as the other behaved like his normal self. "My freakin' body is sore though."
"My bad. Come, I'll carry Kiru then." Illumi extended his arms.
"Eh—no that's oka—." However, before he could finish, the elder was already gathering him in his arms and carrying him bridal style to the bathroom. He placed the younger inside the tub and turned the warm water on. "Soak well." The elder ruffled the younger's hair as he sat in as well. Killua's heart couldn't help but skip a beat at that. 'Geez, he's being so gentle, it felt wrong.' That's when he recalled something from last night.
Only you, Kiru. Silent warmth spread through the younger's bones as he recalled that. 'It wasn't such a bad feeling.'
They were dressed in their robes as they sat by the small table for two in their room, right across from the window.
"Oh yeah, I almost forgot, what gift did you get me?" Killua asked while stuffing his face with pancakes.
"... can't I give myself as a gift?"
The teen almost choked. "Huh?! No! 'Cause you're already—ah, I mean, we're family, plus…you've already long dedicated yourself to me so that doesn't count plus we already did that too..."
"I was joking Kiru. I do have something for you." The teen eagerly stared at him, waiting for the elder to present it anytime soon. Illumi glanced around the room. "…"
"Well?" The curiosity was practically killing him.
"Oops. I may have forgot to bring it with me." Kiru's shoulders dropped.
"Are you serious?! Unbelievable. Oh well, when we get home then I guess."
"My bad." Illumi nonchalantly ushered.
To Be Continued…
I feel like we just crossed some boundaries here that we can't ever go back on… let that moment of guilt sink in… our sins are stacking… Well on that note—congrats! Finally! These two have been connected spiritually and physically—hahaha. (Btw, the age of consent federally in japan is 13, but then again, we're in HunterxHunter world so…yah?) Aw man, all the blood, sweat and tears to get to this point, I never thought I'd see the day lol. I remember starting this fanfic and fantasizing about this point in time VERY briefly but at the same time thinking I'd never make it anytime soon 'cause there was so much past and backstory to cover. No kidding it took time alright (me and my freakin' career choice). Can't believe we're really here. After all, the entire point of this fandom and this fic is to make them from brothers to "lovers" right, –or both! Hope you enjoyed~
