IF YOU WANT ME YOU CAN HAVE ME-PART 32

Hi everyone. I hope nothing has changed since yesterday and you are still safe and healthy. Thank you for your support and reviews. Yesterday's chapter was not my favorite one, because due to the lack of time, I didn't put as much effort to it as I usually do, but that's history now. We are moving on.

In this one, I decided to skip one month forward, so we are now few days before Christmas and Beryl's wedding. Due to her upcoming wedding, Beryl has a special request for Elsie-this is an idea that was in my head for some time and I hope that you will like it as much as I do. Their little conversation will be ideal to take our minds from the horrible things. Enjoy!

A little M-ness by the end of the chapter.

Few days before Christmas was never a peaceful time at Downton. The servants were overloaded with work. Charles and Elsie felt like they were in the middle of the cyclone. Dealing with all sort of stuff. All day. Everyday. They ate all their meals at the Abbey now, to spare some time and when they came back to their cottage at night, they were so tired they could barely speak and they went to sleep right away. Elsie was now 8-months pregnant and she was astonished that she was still able to walk. She felt like she weigh a tone and every little movement was painful. Charles begged her to quit working now, but she told him that she has to stay till Christmas and Beryl's wedding, which was suppose to take place two days after Christmas. She didn't want to leave her friend alone, because she remembered very well how her friend helped her before her own wedding. Beryl who was normally rather cheeky, has gone rather quiet recently and let herself be absent minded. Elsie noticed that right away and she wondered what was the cause of that. In all this confusion, she didn't have the proper chance to ask her about that, she was just hoping that everything was all right between her and Bill. Bill was visiting the Abbey almost on daily basis now, during tea-time and Elsie, kind as she was, offered them her sitting room, so they could have their little wedding talks.

It wasn't more than a week to Beryl's wedding and Elsie was particularly grateful that her half-day off was tomorrow, even though she knew that she will have to spent it alone in the cottage, because Charles couldn't be there, she didn't mind. In all this time of craziness, she was more than happy to have some time to herself. She was slowly sipping tea in her sitting room, when Beryl went in.

"How are you feeling Elsie? Is everything all right? Do you need anything?"

"I'm fine, thank you Beryl. And how is our blooming bride?"

"Tired, anxious, exhausted, you know, just the usual."

"Tell me about it. I'm so happy that I have my half day off tomorrow. It will be so much fun to have some rest finally."

"About that Elsie..I have a request for you, I hope you won't mind. I scheduled my half day off for tomorrow also and I would be really grateful to you if I could visit you in the cottage. There is a very important matter that I need to talk to you about. Is it acceptable for you?"

"Of course Beryl. You can come to the cottage. Is everything all right? You are not getting a cold feet, I hope?"

"No! No such thing..But..There is a delicate matter, that I can discuss only with you..Will you be alone or is Charles going to be there too?"

"No. Charles won't be there. As usual, the uppity minx has some special request for him. That girl has still got no clue that his situation has changed."

"Don't worry, she will understand once she will see Charles holding your babies. Anyway, I'm glad that Charles won't be there, I do not wish anyone to be present during our conversation."

"My,my Beryl! I'm starting to feel scared right now."

"You needn't be. I'm sure we can manage. Well, I'm back to the main quarters right now. It's time to prepare dinner. I see you later Elsie."

"See you later Beryl."

Next day-Charles's and Elsie's cottage

"Are you sure you are going to be all right hun? Maybe I should stay with you?" Charles was so preoccupied with his wife's condition these days, but that no longer annoyed Elsie, as it did in the beginning of her pregnancy.

"I'll be all right Charles, really. Besides Beryl will be here in about half an hour."

"I was meaning to ask-what's the thing about Beryl? Why does she want to visit you all the sudden, you see each other every day?"

"She told me that she has some delicate business that she wants to talk about and she doesn't want to do it in the house, with all the staff around and constant interruptions."

"I can understand that...It's better that she will be here with you, by the way I wonder what that is? She is not getting cold feet, is she?"

"I've asked her the same question and she denied. Will see what she wants, I will tell you later, if it won't be a secret."

"Can't wait. I have to go now sweetie. Please take care of yourself. I'm going to miss you. All three of you..." Charles bent and kissed his beloved wife gently on her lips.

"We will miss you too, all three of us..Come home soon daddy!'

"Uhmmm...Daddy..I think a like that..Have a nice day Els.."

"You too Charles."

It wasn't more than twenty minutes , when Beryl knocked at the cottage door, Elsie opened the door and offered her tea, but Beryl told her that she is to sit and she will take care of that. Soon there was a teapot of hot tea and some biscuits on the table. Elsie couldn't help but notice how nervous Beryl was, all her usual cheekiness seemed to be gone somewhere.

"Beryl are you sure that everything is all right? You are so different than usual. Did you and Bill had a fight?"

"No! We are all right, a little nervous I suppose, but all right. But there is one thing that bothers me a lot and I have no one that I could talk to about it. Since my mother and my sister are dead. You are my closest female friend Elsie and the only one that I trust..."

"Well Beryl..Once again you've managed to surprise me..I'm very touched, thank you. So, how can I help you?"

"Just promise you won't laugh at me, although you shouldn't, because you had the same doubts before getting married."

"You mean...Beryl..You want to talk about...?"

"Yes Elsie, that's precisely what I want to talk to you about..You see, Bill and I promised ourselves that we will be totally honest to each other in every possible question. We established that we will talk over all the most important things, concerning our married life and so we got to the question of you know..A full marriage.."

"Have you indeed? And what is your decision regarding this matter if I might ask?"

"Well we decided, I mean Bill decided, that is me and Bill have decided that we want one..Full marriage that is.."

"That's great Beryl. I'm very happy for you. It's a good decision."

"I don't know about that..Elsie...You know my age...I've never been with..Well with a man before...All I ever experienced was some hurried kisses from the village boys, when I was young, but that's all and Bill was already married and had children. He knows everything about it and I know nothing."

"That's ok Beryl. You needn't worry about that. It was the same for me. I also didn't have any experiences of that kind, before I married Charles. I'm sure Bill will be happy about that. I know Charles was very happy and proud when I told him that he was my first.."

"Was he? That's good to know. I hope that it will be the same with Bill, but that's not all Elsie. There is more..."

"More?"

"Yes. You see, I love Bill very much. He is a kind and decent man and I know he has high hopes about our marriage. I wouldn't want to disappoint him in any way."

"I'm sure he won't be disappointed Beryl. He knows how you look like and he loves you and wants to be close to you, so what do you worry about?"

"It's not about my looks Elsie. I know how I look and it won't get any better, we all know that, but I meant my inexperience...What should I do when we...During our wedding night? How should I behave? Please give me a clue about it.."

"Well Beryl..." Elsie's cheeks suddenly went red..."There isn't much clues that I can give you..It's different for all people...Maybe you would like to read Marie Stopes book-"Married love". There are few important informations in there. Maybe this will help you."

"No Elsie. I want to hear it from you. Please, tell me what it's like..And do not think that I'm joking now...I know I have driven you crazy in the past, constantly joking about you and Charles and your love life, but that's different now. Please give me some basics information..."

"As I said before..It's different for everyone, but in our case it was all so simple and natural, of course after your little intervention my dear friend.."

"I remember. Not to sound too ungrateful, but isn't it time to reciprocate the favor now?"

"Beryl, what I will say to you now, must stay between us. Those are the most intimate details, that I do not wish to share with anyone else, you promise?"

"Cross my heart Elsie."

"All right. So when me and Charles clarified all our pre-marriage misunderstandings, the magic part began. We couldn't take our hands off each other before the wedding, as you very well may remember..You've witnessed it all by yourself."

"I have and I will never forget that.."

"You see, me and Charles we love each other so much..We loved each other for so many years and we kept it in secret. We had to show restraint all the time, so later it was like an invisible barrier was broken..We were all over each other all the time. At one point, two days before the wedding, we thought that we won't last until the wedding night.."

"Really? Where?"

"In your kitchen Beryl Patmore, on the kitchen floor..."

"Oh bloody Mary! I will always giggle now, looking at the floor!"

"Beryl! You've promised!"

"Sorry, won't happen again. Please go on Elsie.."

"I was very nervous about our wedding night..My mother always told me that it's a painful thing that women should go through with dignity. From the way she described it, it felt like an unpleasant duty, so I was really scared, even though I knew that Charles would have never hurt me in any way.."

"So tell me, was it awful? Did it hurt?"

"It did a bit, I won't deny..But only for a moment during our first time, but later on it was better and better.."

"You mean..You've enjoyed it..?"

"I did...Immensely..That's mostly Charles's merit...He was..is so loving and delicate...So you really needn't worry about that. Bill loves you very much and I'm sure it will be quite the same for you too.."

"But should I actively participate in this? Do any particular stuff? Behave in any way?"

"Beryl, you can't plan these things..It's all a question of a moment...When you will get there, you'll instinctively know what to do.."

"Maybe there is anything that I could do what he might like? Tell me what Charles likes, I'm sure it's similar in case of all men.."

"Beryl..I'm not sure that I should tell you such things..It's so intimate.."

"Oh come on Elsie..I'm not asking you to give me vivid description. Just some little details.."

"Well...Charles likes when I'm nibbling his bottom lip and when I run my fingers through his hair..He also likes when I kiss this special spot behind his ear..He groans loudly, every time I do that, so I believe he may like it...He also adores when I'm kissing his chest..I think that's his favorite caress"

"And you do that Elsie? Does it give you pleasure too?"

"Of course it does! He is my darling man and I love everything about him. Everything!"

"Everything? You mean...This too?..."

"Beryl! I'm not going to answer that! I think you've heard enough today and you are laughing again, you little devil! Just wait, after your wedding with Bill, I will have my portion of jokes too!"

"Sorry Elsie.. I didn't mean to do that, but I just can't help it. Suddenly my imagination went wild, when I pictured Charles and.." Beryl was laughing loudly and Elsie soon followed her.

"Really Beryl, it's impossible to talk seriously with you. I don't know what am I going to do with you!"

"You will still be my friend. Always."

"You can bet on it. So do you have any other questions?"

"Just one..There is some question that bothers me...Tell me, how often it is expected to do that..I mean to engage in such activities?"

"Again, it's very individual matter. It depends how much you love each other and how often do you feel a need to..."

"And what about you and Charles? How often did you feel a need to do that?"

"In the beginning of our marriage, on our few days off in the cottage, we felt a great need of it.."

"Meaning? How many times?"

"Three, maybe four.."

"Per week you mean?"

"Per day Beryl..Per day..."

Beryl's eyes suddenly turned round, like they were about to bug out..

"Per day Elsie...Really? That much..? My, my, who would of thought that...That Charles..In his age? He can still do that so often..?"

"I can assure you Beryl that he is in a perfect condition and has no problems in that area."

"So our old grump is in working properly! That's good news.."

"For me it is. Of course it's different now...Now we had to take a break from our activities, because of..this..Them.." Elsie pointed at her pregnant belly.

"Doesn't he miss it?"

"I'm sure he does, but recently we are so tired, that we haven't got time to even talk, not to mention this..."

"You should change that Elsie...He shouldn't feel neglected and neither should you.."

"Look at my little pro! One conversation and she already knows everything.."

"I had a good teacher! Thank you Elsie, you've managed to calm me down a bit. I was really worried about all this."

"Don't be. Just listen to yourself and I'm sure it will be wonderful for you and Bill, just like it is for me and Charles..And remember not to repeat this conversation to anyone."

"Of course, I won't Elsie...I would never do that. Well, it took my wedding to finally know the details of your love life! If I had thought before.."

"Beryl, if I weren't pregnant you would got a clip around your ear now!"

"Thank God you are! Oh, I think that Charles is coming back."

Charles went inside, wet to his bone, as a result of the huge rain outside, carrying boxes with food.

"Hi Elsie, I went home earlier, I've managed to get all things done and I've asked Her Ladyship to give us time off, till the rest of the day. Hello Beryl! I didn't see you."

"Hello Charles, don't worry, I'm going now..I won't disturb you. You can have a quiet lunch on your own."

"It's raining like crazy Beryl, maybe you should wait and stay with us for lunch?" Elsie suggested.

"Elsie is right. It's raining like crazy. I'm all wet."

"You should change at once Mr Carson. Get rid of those wet clothes. Especially your shirt, your chest seems to be soaking." Beryl looked at Charles audaciously, blinked to Elsie understandingly, while Elsie blushed a bit. "Well I'll be off now, have to get back to the house."

"Are you sure you are going to be ok Beryl?"

"I'll be fine. Just close the door behind me and have some rest. Thank you for your time Elsie. Take care and see you tomorrow."

"Bye Beryl. Take care!"

When Beryl left, Charles prepared (that is heated), a lovely lunch for him and Elsie. He was so protective recently and Elsie was extremely grateful to him. He put everything else aside and treated Elsie and her needs as an absolute priority. They sat together to the meal, enjoying it immensely. When they ate, Charles did the dishes and joined Elsie at the comfortable sit on the couch.

"So did you enjoy your little talk with Beryl?"

"I did, although it was rather unusual."

"Why is that?"

"You wouldn't believe Charles...She and Bill agreed that they want a full marriage and Beryl had some questions about that.."

"Oh my Lord! What did you tell her?"

"I did the best I could to allay her doubts, although it wasn't easy."

"Kind of wish I was there to hear it. So what did she ask?"

"Different things..She asked if I enjoyed this part of life.."

"She did what?" How could she ask you something that personal?"

"Calm down Charles..It's not like she was asking the exact description of our wedding night. She just wanted to know if this is something enjoyable.."

"And what did you tell her?"

"How do you think? There is only one possible answer that I could have given her..I told her that I enjoy this part of our life very much, thanks to my wonderful husband, who has mastered in that area.."

"I don't believe that Elsie.. You really told her that?..No wonder she was looking at me in such way..God knows what she is thinking now.."

"What can she think Charles? Nothing more, rather than her friend is happy and very much in love with her lovely husband, who is not only an efficient butler, but also a very efficient lover.."

"I hope you didn't tell her..."

"Don't worry love..I didn't tell her that, that last part was only for you to hear..." Elsie's lips traveled on Charles's neck, heading towards the special place behind his ear.

"Mmmm...Els...It's been so long since we...Oh god..That feels so good.."

"I know love...Unfortunately, right now I'm in no condition to...You know.."

"Oh Elsie...I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that...I know you are tired sweetheart..I don't want you to feel guilty in any way, just because we aren't.."

"I'm not feeling guilty Charles..I just miss you so much..I'm in no condition for a full love act, but that doesn't mean that I can't please my adorable husband in other ways and I very much want to..."

"Elsie...I love you my sweet girl...You don't need to..."

"But I want to..Very much...Come on Charles, let's get your very heavy wife upstairs.."

Soon they were both upstairs, undressing. They laid on the bed, kissing and caressing slowly. Charles shuddered violently, when he felt Elsie's fingers clutching around his shaft gently. She moved her hand up and down, never keeping her eyes of her husband and she watched with enormous satisfaction, as he was gradually heading toward his climax. She watched him all the time, enjoying every reaction of his body and when he reached his peak, whispering her name and trembling all over, her eyes were full of love and devotion...

"Elsie...That was..You were wonderful...You've given me such bliss..I missed that.."

"I know you have love...You are so sweet and understanding, but I know that you missed our closeness and so did I..."

They've kissed lovingly, caressing their faces...

"My little sweetheart, don't think for a moment that I haven't missed you as well..I miss the beautiful body of my wife all the time..."

Charles's lips moved over Elsie's body, slowly marking it's way down. His hot breath on her skin, his delicate caresses on her sensitive skin, was more than she could possibly ask for...She was gasping when he reached her breasts, tasting each one of them and she moaned deeply, when his lips and tongue have reached her centre...He drove her wild very swiftly, working with his expert tongue over her clitoris and she reached her release easily, feeling immense pleasure, which overtook her completely. It was like she lost a contact with reality for a moment and when she opened her eyes, she saw love and pride in her husband's eyes. They smiled at each other and kissed softly. She could still feel her taste on his lips...They hugged closely, as closely as it was possible considering her enormous belly and soon drifted to sleep, once again blessing their wonderful life, full of love and wonder.

That's it for today guys. Quite a long one, but I hope you won't mind. I couldn't hepl myself, I just had to reverse the situation and let Elsie taste her own medicine, while her "sex talk" with Beryl ;-) I hope you've enyojed it, because I was surely having fun writing it. If you liked it let me know. Sorry for mistakes and please stay safe! See you soon!