IF YOU WANT ME YOU CAN HAVE ME-PART 34

Hello all. I hope you are all doing well. The home isolating thing is still going on and it gives us many disadvantages, but one, important advantage too-all the Chelsie stories are still created or continued (as in this case). I have to tell you that I love this. Writing gives me a chance to forget about all the bad things. As I mentioned before, the story is slowly heading to an end. But we still have two chapters to go, plus an epilogue. Hopefully, I can get manage to write them during the weekend. In this chapter, Charles and Elsie are trying to cope with the idea of an approaching parenthood. Each in their own way...Plus, Beryl gets back from the honeymoon and Elsie is curious about her thoughts on marriage ;-) Hope you will enjoy it.

Along with the nearing labor date, Charles and Elsie were getting anxious about it. Each in their own way. There was no doubt that those last weeks, before the due date, were the hardest. It was actually quite interesting, that with this important day approaching, Elsie was becoming more and more quieter and calmer. She was extremely focused on the task that was ahead of her and she knew that only a reasonable approach to the subject could save the situation. So she was steady, but at the same time her need for affection and tenderness grew with each day. She spent most of her days alone in the cottage, as Charles was coming to work at the Abbey, but she wasn't going to visit the big house until Beryl's return. When Charles went back home every night, all she wanted to do, was to being close to him all the time. So she was nestling into him, whenever she had a chance and she was longing for his kisses and light caresses all the time. Of course their active love life was on hold now, due to the existing conditions, but that didn't stop her from wanting to be around him constantly. Sometimes she felt guilty a bit, because she knew how difficult was the servant's life and she knew how tired Charles was after the whole day at the Abbey, but she just couldn't help herself. She needed her husband very much and to say she was all over him all the time, was not any kind of exaggeration. She might have been calm, but she knew that Charles wasn't. So as usual, she had to be the one who was keeping both of them steady.

Charles indeed was insecure about all this. He knew that he would become a father soon and as much as he enjoyed that thought, it was also frightening in a way. Watching the relations between children and parents all his life, he realized that being a parent was not an easy thing to do. He had so many doubts about different things, so many fears, whether he is going to make it, considering his age and a number of babies-two babies are always more difficult to handle than one. But then again, in the same time, in those moments, he always reminded himself about all those secret dreams that he had all his life, taking care of the Crawley daughters, especially Lady Mary. Didn't he always subconsciously dream about having his own children? Of course he did. Now his dreams were about to come true. In a double way to be exact. Other than those thoughts, he was terrified about Elsie. Even though she was constantly assuring him that she was not afraid of the labor, he knew that it would be something difficult to get through. She might not have been scared, but how to explain her recent need of being so close to him? He didn't mind that, he loved being close to Elsie, in every possible way, but he sensed that there must have been a minor fear in her too. God knows he was afraid..Very afraid..If something was to happen to her during labor...Charles's heart was aching, at the very thought of it. He wouldn't be able to take it. His world and his life would have no meaning without her, even with the babies around. She had to stay safe. There was no other way. No other solution. Sometimes his fear overtook him. Especially at night, when he was watching a peacefully sleeping Elsie by his side and he was hugging her closer to him, like he wanted to make sure that she was all right. Often, when he did that, she was sighing deeply in her sleep and there was a faint trace of smile in her lips and she instinctively cuddled closer with him. Those moments always made him very emotional.

That night, when he got to the cottage, he was very relieved. This January was exceptionally cold. The short walk between the Abbey and the cottage, was enough to freeze his bones. When he came back to the cottage, bringing dinner with him, he was happy. As always, when he was coming back to his beloved wife, just to found her safe and happy. They ate dinner together and then cuddled on the sofa in their parlor, sitting in front of the fire. It was so wonderful to have her close. Months of their marriage and her advanced pregnancy, didn't weakened the special bound between them.

Tonight, Elsie had an especially big appetite for kisses and she started to give him sweet, little kisses all around his face, as soon as he sat near her. Finally, her lips landed on his and they were kissing for a longer time, changing the dynamics of the kisses, every once in a while. Getting from the light ones and very tender to more passionate ones. When they were lacking breath, Elsie put her head on the crook of his neck and she inhaled his scent, cherishing this moment. He kissed her forehead and her hair lovingly. Neither of them ever wanted this moment to end...

"Charles..Honey, I'm sorry..You must be tired after a whole day of work and here is your heavy wife, tiring you with her kisses.."

"Elsie, you never tire me with your kisses. You know that I could spent the whole night here, kissing you..."

"I wouldn't say that twice if I were you. I might just do that.."

"I would have absolutely nothing against that love.."

"You wouldn't? I know I'm a little pain in the neck lately, but I just really need to be close to you.."

"You never have to apologize for that sweetie. You know how much I love you and need you.."

"I know..As much as I need you...Besides I want to keep you steady...You know..Remember when I promised you to keep you steady?"

"Of course I remember our lovely day at the beach..I will never forget that..But why do you want to keep me steady?"

"Because I can see how anxious you've become recently. You are worried and you are overprotective of me. Even at night. Instead of sleeping and getting rest for another day, you are hugging me in the middle of the night.."

"And you feel that Elsie?"

"I do...You think it's so difficult to wake me? When you are hugging me so close that I can barely breathe?" -Elsie smiled to her husband, teasing him a bit.

"Was I really so awful? I'm sorry Els...I will try to avoid waking you.."

"Well, I don't always have a chance of a proper sleep, I don't know why, but your children are very active at night time. It's not a good omen for us, as a future parents..I'm afraid we won't get much sleep in the next few years.."

"My children you say? Aren't they our children Mrs Carson? Of course they are active. How could it be any different? Given that their parents were also always very active. Especially at night time and they are a living proof of that activity.."- Charles decided that now, it was his turn to tease Elsie...

"Mr Carson, I ask you...Saying such things in front of our children!"

"They should get use to it..Because they need to know, from the very beginning, that their father loves their mother very much and he is not afraid to show it."

"And their mother loves their father very much and she is not going to stop showing this.."

They've kissed again, teasing their lips gently. Elsie shuddered inside, as a warm feeling came through her body...

"Oh Charles..How I wish we could...I miss you...Who knows when will we ever have a chance to..You know..Return to our active love life..."

"Soon after the babies will be born, I hope..."

"Dreamer! I don't see a chance for that happening with two screaming little ones.."

"We will find the way Elsie, you'll see.."

"I hope we will Charles...And you know what else I hope?"

"What's that Elsie?"

"That neither of our children will have your nose.." Elsie burst with laughter, seeing Charles's offended face.

"That's it! I'm going to sleep in another room. No more cuddling with daddy in the middle of the night!"- Charles wanted to get up, pretending that he was incredibly offended, but he was soon stopped by Elsie, when she nailed him down to the sofa, placing sweet kisses on his nose...

"I was only kidding Charles..I love your prominent nose...You look so manly with it.."

"Do I really?"- Charles was grinning with joy at her words. "And you know that I love your sweet little nose too? I told you before, that when you are frowning it, I can't help myself..I want to kiss it all over again"-he placed few, sweet kisses into her nose...

"So that's settled now. We both love our noses"- Charles and Elsie both burst with laughter.

"Elsie, sweetie, let's get some sleep. I know you would probably want to go to the Abbey tomorrow, to meet Beryl."

"And I know that you are probably against it."

"It's not that I'm against you meeting Beryl, it's just you should really be careful now.."

"I will be careful sweetie. Don't worry. We will walk together in the morning. I have to see Beryl. Can't wait for her thoughts about honeymoon.."

"Oh dear! Poor Bill. You will probably laugh at poor guy tomorrow. Women are cruel!"

"We won't laugh. We are just going to compare are insights about marital bliss.."

"You are going to do what?"

"Calm down Charles...I was kidding."

"I hope you were Els. I wouldn't want to know that you and Beryl are sharing some dirty jokes."

"All right, al right. No need to panic Charles. It's just a girl talk.."

"I can't fight with you too. No way that I would win."

"No way at all Charles. Let's have some sleep. Goodnight my love"

"Goodnight my sweetheart. And goodnight my babies, remember to give mummy a chance for some sleep."- Charles lowered his head down, to Elsie's pregnant belly and he placed a gentle kiss to it.

Soon they were both fast asleep, nestled into their bodies.

Next day-The Abbey

Elsie and Beryl were so happy to see each other again. It was so good to reunite with her old friend again. Beryl was glowing. She had that post honeymoon glow, that Elsie knew very well. Elsie was happy to be with her friends again. She spent those two last weeks alone, in the cottage, deprived of normal, human contacts and she was craving for it. Everyone was so nice to her, asking about her health, caring about how she felt, but she was really anxious to be alone with Beryl, to find out about the details of her married life. When the occasion arrived, she literally dragged her into her sitting room and closed the door.

"So, tell me Mrs Mason, how married life is treating you these days? Was it worth to wait so long to get married?"

"Well Mrs Carson, I can only say one thing-now I can understand why you are so smug all the time, ever since you got married."

"Now, wait a minute. We are not talking about me here. We have already done that a numerous of times. Now it's your turn Beryl, come on, give me some saucy details.." -Elsie was making fun of Beryl openly.

"Saucy details? Oh bloody Mary! Are you not getting enough of your saucy details with Charles, that you want mine too?" Beryl was more than happy, to match Elsie's sarcastic remarks.

"I'm getting all I need from Charles. Thank you very much. Come on, tell me, how was it like?"

"Oh Elsie, it was wonderful. You were right about everything. Bill is such a great man. So kind, so gentle, just like your Charles. He treats me like a lady, even though I'm far from a lady..He was so thoughtful during our wedding night. It was a beautiful experience.."

"Beryl..You don't know how happy that makes me to hear that..I had a feeling that he would be sweet for you. He is very much in love with you and it's obvious."

"Elsie..I want to thank you for all the advices that you gave me before my honeymoon. I have to admit that I actually used some of those on Bill and it worked quite well.."

"Oh? Really? My, my! That's interesting to hear..So which advices did you use exactly?"

"I want tell you that! It's to private, Bill would not be too comfortable with it!"

"Wait a minute here, aren't you the one, who was bugging me constantly about the details of my intimate relations with Charles for all those months and now you don't want to tell me anything? I don't think that's fair my dear friend.."

"Well, it is how it is and you are going to have to accept it.."

"For now. Soon I will invite you to Sherry and I will drag out all the details from you!"

"That will be the day! How are you Elsie? How are you feeling?"

"Generally I'm fine and I feel well, although I have to tell you that being in the last stage of pregnancy is certainly not a picnic...I feel tired all the time and I look forward for my due date. It's Charles that I worry about.."

"Why? What's wrong with him?"

"He is terrified. He won't admit it, but I know that he is..He is more frightened of the labor than I am.."

"Men! Instead of supporting you, he is worry about himself?"

"It's not like that Beryl. He is loving and caring. I couldn't ask for anything more..But I would like to ease his fear a bit..Actually, I have a favor to ask you..I'm not sure if you will agree, but I need to ask you.."

"What is it Elsie? How can I help you? I will do anything"

"Would you...Would you be with me during the labor? I know it's a lot to ask, but I need someone with me to get me steady..And that's definitely not Charles. He needs to be outside the room, otherwise he would have flipped out."

"Oh Elsie..Of course I will be with you...I'll do anything to help you get through this moment.."

"Oh Beryl, I'm so grateful..I'm not really afraid, but I will like to have someone like you with me. Sensible person, who will be in control of situation. I couldn't ask you before, but now, when you are already married..."

"I will be delighted Elsie. After all, I will be the God mother of one of them, so it's only reasonable that I should be with you during the labor. But what about Charles? Doesn't he want to be with you?"

"He wanted to, but I said no. First of all, I don't want him to see me in such state. That won't be a pretty sight and you know how men are. He would have never looked at me the same way again...Besides, he is so sensitive..He fainted when I told him that we will have twins!"

"Indeed he did. It was funny!"

"Not for everyone Beryl, not for everyone! Thank you for that, you are a true friend...I'm so grateful.."

"I'm always there for you Elsie and always will be.."

"As I for you Beryl, as I for you.."

That's it for today guys...I'm pretty happy with his chapter and I hope you will too. In the next chapter, Elsie will gave birth to her twins. With Beryl being present. Something to wait for ;-)

Please stay safe and take care of your health. Sorry for any mistakes and I hope you will enjoy it. If you do, please let me know. See you soon!