Because Oikawa was an extra bitch, my emotions got even worse.
Especially considering I now felt like I should work on answering at least one of the confessions. My life was hard…
Not that hard to be honest.
I mean, school was infinitely easier than it had been the first time around if you ignored my Japanese, I had quite the number of friends turned suitors, a great and loving family even if our father was missing and I didn't feel like dying half of the time.
All in all, life was great.
The thing was just that I didn't know how to deal with my feelings. It was difficult to know which one of my very handsome friends I had feelings for. Especially because they were very handsome.
Though… I don't think I've ever been completely interested in looks alone. That would make me quite the shallow person. As cliché as it sounds, the personality of a person was far more important to me than looks.
Not that something like that helped my case. All of my friends were absolutely wonderful people. So, you know, not too helpful there.
Wait a minute…
Have you ever heard of the coin flip method? I like to use it whenever I'm hesitating about something. Basically you grab a coin, make one thing heads, the other tails and then flip the coin. Whichever one lands on top is the one you'll choose.
Except that I did it a little different, when I would flip the coin I would always realise which one of the options I would be hoping for.
Maybe I could do something similar with this…
That sounded kinda insensitive, but it would work. It would get my emotions under control. Hopefully.
But how was I going to do that with so many different choices?
Oh! I know!
Long live the internet! I'm going to grab a random number generator, give the guys a number and let the machine take its spin.
The number it landed on was 4.
Honestly, I wanted to scream. Because as the numbers flashed across the screen I had realise that the one I had fallen for, the one I wanted to be with was the same person.
Tendou Satori.
To think that my first ever friend would become my first ever boyfriend, even taking into consideration my last life. I didn't get a lot of action back then okay, don't judge me.
Still, that I'd actually have feelings for Tendou. It felt weird to say the least.
Perhaps that's the result of denying my own feelings for so long. Oh well.
Now then, here's the real problem. How in the hell do I tell Tendou that I do, in fact, love him. Especially after I told him that I didn't know my feelings yet.
Argh! Why was this so difficult!
Should I just… tell him? Call him to my place and tell him?
Wait, wait no. Not here. Not in my own home where I had nosy siblings watching my every move. Somewhere else then. A place the two of us knew about…
Wait, got it. I thought of the perfect place to confess to Tendou.
What better place than the gym we met?
Ahh, looking at my old middle school brought back so many memories~
Spiking volleyballs into the ground back when I could barely reach over the net, running until I thought my lungs would collapse. Inari-sensei stimulating my observing skills until I dropped with an overload of information.
….
Good times.
Back to business!
Calling Tendou to our old middle school was the most nerve racking thing I've ever done. And I've faced Daichi's wrath on multiple occasions! I didn't actually call him, just shot him a text.
I had gotten there a bit early. And with a bit I meant an hour. So it wasn't a big surprise that Tendou wasn't there yet.
"And here I thought I was early." Jesus fucking Christ, Tendou! Did you have to prove me wrong at the exact moment I mention you in my thoughts?
Of course he did, it was Tendou. That guy lived to annoy me. And to help me with my increasingly sadistic pranks but that's a conversation for another time.
"Matsu-chan~ Why did you call me out here this late." Huh, I honestly didn't know Tendou could pout, but here we are.
It looked disturbing on him, yet my stupid ass loved it anyway.
"I kinda wanted to talk to you."
Tendou stared at me silently for a bit. "I don't know what I did but it was Yuuji-kun I swear."
I snorted. "You're not in trouble, if that's what you're wondering. But I thought I needed to tell you this first."
"Yeah, I'm seriously getting a bad feeling right about now." Tendou narrowed his eyes in suspicion. "You didn't hire a hitman to take me out did you?"
"If I wanted you dead I would kill you myself."
"Fair."
Once more silence fell over us.
Okay, Matsuo, you can do this. It's just a few words, not that difficult. Hell, you've kissed Atsumu and that was supposed to be more terrifying than this!
And yet it wasn't.
"So, I don't know if you know that everyone's confessed to me yet." I began.
Tendou hummed. "I did actually, Kuroo-kun gets his hands on information so fast it makes me think he's a spy master."
"Shhh, be quiet before his ears hear you. You'll be put on a hit list if he knows that you've figured him out."
Tendou nodded solemnly. "Thank you for watching out for me Matsu-chan. I'll take your words to heart."
The two of us burst out in laughter. Man, it had been a while since I felt this at peace. Though I guess that is to be expected when you're around the person that you love.
…
Right, the one I love.
I came here to confess to him. Maybe I should get to that.
"Satori..." I began, "You've probably already figured out that I called you here for a reason."
"Like I said, whatever you think I did, it was Yuuji-kun. So please Go be mad at him."
I shook my head. "I'm not mad. I just… I figured out who I'm in love with."
And there it was, the sweet sound of silence. And while I usually loved it, this time it felt suffocating. Though that was mostly because I was too busy observing Tendou's reaction.
His face had gone carefully blank. "Oh? Who's the lucky guy?"
Wait, did this fucker really not realise that I had called him here to confess to him? Did he seriously think that I'd drag him out here in the middle of the night just to tell him I was in love with someone else?
"Satori you're a fucking idiot."
"Hey! That's not nice-"
Before Tendou could yell anymore and wake the surrounding area, I put my lips on his.
Only for a few seconds, but it still counts.
"It's you, obviously." I told him even as I held him at his collar. "Do you really think I would've dragged you out here just to tell you that I'm in love with someone other than you? Cus if so then you're dumber than I thought."
It took a few seconds before my words set in to Tendou, but when they did…
"Really? Me?" For his height Tendou sounded rather small. Like he couldn't believe what he was hearing. "You love me? Not Oikawa, or Kuroo, or or Akaashi? You chose me? Why?"
Something that I should probably mention is that Tendou isn't considered attractive by this place's standards. The ones he mentioned are. It's no secret that Tendou was insecure about it.
"Yes you, it could only ever have been you. You're my best friend and while I do adore the others, you're the one that caused these feelings inside of my. So you'd be take responsibility."
And with that it seemed like all the strings holding Tendou back snapped. He engulfed me in an embrace that I still can't fully describe.
Perhaps it was desperate, perhaps it was disbelief, maybe it was even pure love. Either way, I loved it.
"Now this is something I can get used to." I smiled inside of the embrace.
"Me too." Tendou returned my smile. "I love you so much."
This time, I had a sufficient answer for that.
"I love you too, Satori."
