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Six months passed by since he confessed his feelings to Midoriya, but his heart had not healed at all. It still hurt when he saw him in Bakugou's company, or when he heard him laugh at any other comment.
However, he was struck by the fact that their relationship was not going well, and it was mostly due to Bakugou's constant jealousy that kept Midoriya away from his closeness. Those discussions started by the explosive boy, ended with him screaming in anger and Midoriya crying, ending up running out of the classroom.
It hurt to see him suffer in their relationship, his chest burned knowing that Midoriya saddened with every discussion he had with his boyfriend.
Todoroki was reluctant not to take action on the matter.
It was recalled that Midoriya was in a relationship, that is, he was not single as he was six months ago.
But yes, he was intrigued to know if the relationship would survive or die trying, or simply stop working as the seasons pass.
Although it was worth mentioning that the closeness that Bakugou lost, Midoriya obtained it with himself, what to say? They grew closer and closer, and their union clung as if they were scattered with honey.
His bond with the freckled boy grew, they were tied by an invisible thread that detonated their relationship, which at the same time was uncertain, and which it wouldn't, for that reason, cease to exist and expand slowly.
Todoroki would not let go of that tie, would not let go of his grip on the thread that bound him to Midoriya.
He wouldn't let go because he was still in love with him.
He casually dined in the dining room, alone.
Midoriya had stayed studying in his room, and Uraraka and Iida finished before dinner than he and they would wait for him in the living room to watch TV with the others.
Well, that was what he thought would happen, but it wasn't like that.
When he had finished eating, his two friends approached him at the table, returning him to his chair with expressions of concern.
What was happening?
Todoroki frowned.
"What's wrong?" He questioned.
"Todoroki-kun, don't play the innocent" Iida scolded, grimacing with dismay.
"What are you talking about?" He said absorbed in the subject of the talk.
Uraraka eyed him indignantly.
"You've been very close to Deku lately" She accused him with an annoyed frown. "You're confusing him with his relationship with Bakugou"
"Midoriya he is doubting his feelings towards Bakugou" Iida chanted. "They had an argument yesterday, and Midoriya didn't beg for Bakugou's forgiveness, but instead doubted that relationship and he may be thinking of breaking up with him"
They both looked at him expecting an answer from him, but Todoroki was blank, sitting there, his thoughts crashing into each other.
What piqued his interest was the last thing Iida mentioned: "He may be thinking of breaking up with him."
"What do I have to do with it?"
His friends saw him stunned.
"Don't you understand what we are trying to tell you?" Uraraka exclaimed incredulously.
He shook his head.
Uraraka exclaimed in frustration, while Iida interpreted that action, as an indication to intervene himself.
"You are destroying the relationship between Bakugou and Midoriya." Iida adjusted his glasses. "Your actions confused Midoriya, who seeing that things are not going well, runs to your arms, when it shouldn't be like that"
"You say it's my fault that their relationship is a failure?" He assumed, raising an eyebrow. They both nodded, nodding.
"It's not my fault" He defended himself. "I can't leave Midoriya suffering alone, I cannot do that"
"Let Bakugou fix things" Uraraka overlapped, looking at him cautiously.
"Bakugou truly loves Midoriya" Iida added "I have seen it with my own eyes, I say, and despite the fact that he is not an affective person, he does everything possible to make things go well with Midoriya"
For Todoroki they seemed pure banalities, pointless accusations. If Midoriya suffered, he would do something to heal his pain, even if it was through a hug, just to see him smile at the end of the day, that would be his privilege to be his friend.
"Although I admit that Bakugou's jealousy is horrible" Iida nodded modestly. "Not for that, you must intervene in a couple relationship, it is of two, not three"
"Are you telling me that my friendship with Midoriya is bad?" He asked, not knowing which direction the conversation was taking, since everything was meaningless to him.
"No, we don't say it's bad" said Uraraka. "What we say is that you don't get into what is inside a couple"
"It concerns us because we are his friends" Iida said. "And you're supposed to be, too, in theory"
"I am" He replied, annoyed.
He knew they were worried about Midoriya, but they didn't witness his tears pouring down until his eyes were red with pain, or how his cheeks reddened to a bitter color, or his eyelids fell in tune with his sad feelings.
"I'm friends with Midoriya" He proclaimed, before standing up and leaving the dining room, leaving them with the conversation halfway.
That topic was enough.
No one would tell him how to treat Midoriya, nor his friends.
While meditating in his room, his thoughts were interrupted when they knocked on his door. When he opened the door, his heart skipped a beat when he saw the person who was looking for him on the other side.
"Midoriya" He said, surprised to see him. He watched him clenching his lower lip, moving nervously.
"Todoroki-kun" He greeted him with a small smile. "Can I pass?"
"Of course." He let him in, thinking it strange that he showed up late at night and that he was supposed to be asleep. "Shall I offer you something, Midoriya?" He offered his bed as a seat and he sat across from him in his study chair.
Midoriya was uncomfortable.
"Is there anything I can help you with?" He dared to ask him; his heart was pounding, and his hands vibrated.
He noticed him nod.
"What's going on?"
"It's Kacchan" He replied awkwardly, closing his eyes as he said it.
He was not impressed to hear that, as it was quite common to know that the reason for Midoriya's eviction was because of Bakugou. It was always for him.
"What happened this time?" He rolled his eyes at just imagining Bakugou doing his jealousy scenes and then leaving without giving his arm to twist for anything in the world.
"Em, he doesn't like us being friends" He mused, grimacing in discomfort. The pit of his stomach closed at the sound of it. "But I don't want to end our friendship, Todoroki-kun"
"Neither do I" He reaffirmed, seeing Midoriya breathe a sigh of relief.
"It's that I love you, Todoroki-kun" He exteriorized quickly. Todoroki's chest clenched, his heart pounded, and his face showed all his surprise. "I don't know how you feel about me after this time has passed, but what Kacchan doesn't know is that I love you"
"I" he inhaled lightly, trembling inside. "I still love you"
"I figured" He supposed, looking at him with those beautiful green eyes that melted him every time he saw them.
"You tell me that your feelings have changed?" He employed, trying not to be delusional, because he didn't want to allow himself to be illusioned. Doing so was prohibited.
"I'm confused" He confessed in ambiguity. "As much as I try to be happy with Kacchan, I can't." He saddened, lowering his gaze. "It's so difficult to reason with Kacchan, he doesn't listen to me" Todoroki nodded mutely, those details did not seem new to him. "It hurts me a lot that our relationship is not as I expected"
"I figured that." He nodded sideways.
"The more Kacchan drives me away." He stood up. "The closer I get to you"
Todoroki opened his eyes, blinking.
"I enjoy being with you, Todoroki-kun." He flushed his cheeks, but that didn't stop him from continuing to speak. "It's impossible for me to be away from you now; You know how special you are to me, Todoroki-kun, that has not changed since this time and I value our time together"
"I appreciate it too" He added, a small blush appearing on his cheeks. "I value when we are together, and it is inevitable that I want to be with you all the time"
That said, Midoriya smiled in excitement.
"If you say you feel something for me" He stood up, moving closer to him. "I will never let you go on my side." To those extremes, Midoriya looked redder than a tomato, his lips as pink as cherries, his eyes so green that they resembled a forest.
"Todoroki-kun" Midoriya grew small between his shoulders, ducking his head. Not refusing to have him like that, he rushed to hug him, feeling him tense in his arms, but after a few seconds, he ended up giving in.
He vowed not to fall again, not to delude himself in vain, and yet he was wrapping Midoriya's body between his.
He couldn't wait for Midoriya to calmly meditate on his feelings and clear up his confusion, and he allowed himself to hug him, let him know that he would not let him go like that time when he surrendered and admitted defeat, but this time it would be different, in any case from that Midoriya would accommodate her, and hopefully things would turn out that way.
It was only missing that Midoriya made his decision.
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P.S. I am going to make two endings because this is the penultimate chapter.
One ending will be Tododeku and the other one Katsudeku.
