"There are no reasons to deny it"
(Tododeku ending)
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It was strange to Todoroki that Midoriya hadn't withdrawn from his embrace, or that he mumbled, panicking over the matter, without anticipating it, he felt his small arms wrap around him in his grip and the entire thought silenced him. An uncomfortable silence invaded him, overlapping him of not committing another stupidity.
He was painfully reminded that Midoriya was still Bakugou's boyfriend, not his.
But despite his constant reminders, he was always honest with Midoriya, he always told him what he thought and what he felt, and perhaps it was enough for Midoriya to realize that he was a better choice than Bakugou.
He wish things would turn in his favor once. Just one time.
"Todoroki-kun?" He uttered, separating his head a few inches from his chest, resting his hands on his forearms.
"Yes?"
"I'll break up with Kacchan" He commented decidedly. His green eyes expressed determination, one impossible to explain. Todoroki saw him stunned.
What did he just say?
"What?" He said incredulously.
"I won't be with Kacchan anymore" He suddenly confessed, with a smile.
Did that mean that his feelings had indeed changed?
"I've had enough of running after him" He continued. "It was enough that it makes me feel bad every time I talk to you or the girls"
Ah yes, Bakugou also made him jealousy scenes when the girls approached him, even when they say "good morning" he made a drama. It seemed ridiculous to him that he was jealous because his companions talked to him, if it was obvious that they had no ulterior motives for him, more than pure friendship.
If Bakugou was Midoriya's boyfriend, he should know that Midoriya was one of the most popular guys in classroom 1A, besides having good grades and being an accessible boy. Midoriya was popular for being himself.
All those in room 1A were his friends, there were no excuses involved.
"What you want to do is fine by me" Todoroki replied politely.
He was pleased to know that he had just opened his eyes regarding Bakugou and his incessant grumpiness.
"Thanks for listening" He said, giving him a quick hug, and then parting from him. "Well, I'll go to sleep, see you tomorrow"
"Yes" He nodded, walking him to the door.
When he adjusted his red tennis shoes, Midoriya took him from the hem of his shirt, exalting him; of which, he made a questioning gesture.
"I love you, Todoroki-kun" He reaffirmed, looking at him extremely determined. His heart couldn't help but skip a beat. "Don't forget it"
"No." He put his hand on top of his. "I love you too"
Hearing him, Midoriya smiled genuinely, and went to his room, saying goodbye to him.
Things had turned in a different direction in a matter of blinking.
Again, there was no reason to deny it.
During breakfast the next day, he didn't see Midoriya anywhere, other than his friends, who approached him again, and to top it off, the same topic from the night before.
"You meddled in, didn't you?" Uraraka asked, unsatisfied.
"I didn't intrude on anything you think" He denied flatly, frowning.
The two looked at him without realizing that they understood him, since it was obvious that they didn't . Todoroki took a large sip of green tea, feeling the hot liquid soften his throat.
"Besides, Midoriya has his own decisions" He stressed, slightly opening his eyes. "He can decide everything on his own without me intruding"
"Don't say that" Iida snorted, folding her arms, pulling back in his chair. "Whatever you say, Midoriya always listens to you"
"Don't look for excuses to blame me for what happens to Midoriya" He said annoyed.
Why was it that his friends didn't believe him?
He didn't like that at all, it was as if they were against him and not in favor of his actions.
"If you have complaints about it, discuss it with him, tell him everything that bothers you, but don't get me involved in his affairs"
"You well know what you did" Uraraka accused.
"I didn't do anything I regret." He emphasized that sentence, taking another sip of the tea, tasting it like a bitter gulp, just like the emptiness that was gnawing at his throat as it passed the flavor and all its contents.
He knew that perhaps his past actions were not given by inertia, because he acted as his feelings dictated, but he didn't regret anything, well, one thing he did regret enormously: To have left Bakugou the way free.
It was worth mentioning that his impulses led him to commit acts, such as keeping quiet during the fight where Midoriya almost died, and he knew that from there everything went into decline.
His loneliness did nothing but increase.
That was his torment. His insatiable and irreparable torment.
After allowing the thunderous silence to surround them, he decided to break it himself.
"Midoriya will end things with Bakugou" He announced, seeing the surprised faces of his friends with delight, and yes, they deserved it for accusing him of stupidities without doing anything to remedy it. "And that for your information, he decided it on his own" He dropped those words linked between nets, in nets that were breaking, because Todoroki was already tired of everything. Tired that his loneliness was his only company, apart from the sorrows he endured coming from Midoriya's mouth until his tears brought out the best in him and the silence enveloped them between sobs.
There was no denying that this was simply heartbreaking for the soul.
Classes would soon come to an end, as they would be given a few weeks of summer vacation, where they could go visit their parents, or go on to get a residency at a hero agency of their choice and later get accepted.
Summer residency wasn't obligatory, but Todoroki saw it as an opportunity to run away from it all, even if it was for a few weeks.
A chance to run away from the accusations, from the frivolous looks of Bakugou, from the whispers of his classmates, from the whining of Midoriya. Yes, it all sounded tempting, and without much ado, the images of Midoriya's blinding smile weakened him from making that decision and standing still from parting with him.
If he separated from him, perhaps he would find himself caught up in the tangle of Bakugou's manipulations and possessive and dominating jealousy.
But that wasn't his business, it never was.
Todoroki Shouto was single, rather, available to go out with whoever he wanted, and if he felt like it, have a partner, and not deal with all that snubbed past that he no longer thought of experiencing.
But, he was still hopelessly in love with Midoriya. It was incurable, an irremediable curse, a sore that bled at the slightest attempt to tear it with his teeth, a shadow that chased him and clung to his skin, a hand that held and caught him tightly.
His case was beyond remedy.
And there were no reasons to deny it, there were no reasons to fall out of love because he was already deep inside the prism that made up the so-called Izuku Midoriya.
"Todoroki-kun." Midoriya mercilessly touched his arm. Both were allegedly studying in the library.
He nodded without wanting to see his face. It still hurt to see him, it hurt because if he saw him, he would remember that he was Bakugou's boyfriend. They were still a couple, right?
"Will you apply for a residence?" He asked curiously.
"Probably" He replied, trying to intrude on the content of his book. Midoriya's steady gaze sought to connect with him, with a little of her attention. "And you?"
"Me too." He placed his right hand on his forearm, shaking him with an electric shock. "Todoroki-kun" The one he knew said in a different tone.
"Not now." He tried to wriggle out, but Midoriya's strength was greater than his will. He stayed hanging in the attempt.
"You're evading me" He mused, pressing each finger to his skin, sending thousands of electric shocks to his body.
"I don't." He shook his head in another direction.
"You're doing it right now" He said, and with a jerk, he pulled him by the arm, so his eyes met his, and he lost the strength to run away from him.
"Why are you doing this?" He asked, showing his suffering-type face.
Midoriya intensified his gaze, increasing every ounce of those green eyes cast over his bichromatic ones.
His heart did nothing but beat wildly.
"I want to thank you for everything you've done for me so far" He confessed suddenly, startling him from head to toe. "You don't know how much your unconditional support has meant to this day"
For a moment, he thought he would tell him something else, or that he broke up with Bakugou, but no. He said thanks to him.
"Eh, sure." He nodded, recovering from the impression; of being a prisoner of his heart pumping at full speed.
"The fact that you listened to me during this time is undoubtedly the reason why I can't let you go from my side." He saw his cheeks change to a reddish color, almost the color of blood. "It's inevitable for me to walk away, because I am always looking for you and for a long time, I can't stop thinking about you anymore"
"Midoriya" He sighed in a stunned whisper.
"If I said something you hated" He commented, releasing his hand from his forearm. "You can repel me, I will accept everything"
"Why do you say that?" He exalted himself, seizing by hand the hand he had just removed from his touch. At this, Midoriya looked at him for sure.
"Because I'll finish things with Kacchan." He placed his hand gently on his, drawing him to his chest, right on the side of his heart. Todoroki was surprised to feel it beating at fast rates; it was a sign of vitality, a manifestation that Midoriya was nervous, but wouldn't give up on the way. "And I'll let you know my feelings, because I don't need more time to think about it, because I've already known the answer for a long time." He chuckled embarrassed.
"What do mean when you say you will let me know your feelings?" He dared to ask him, not hiding his mental maladjustment. "You mean they changed?"
"What do you think?" He smiled gently, depositing his surplus hand over his, wrapping his hand between his. He could see, his inevitable blush, the undoubted shine of his eyes, his freckles adorning his face.
He nodded amid the friction.
There was no longer any doubt that they were approaching an irrevocable tune.
Midoriya laughed softly, and remembered that they were still in the library.
"Okay" He breathed out, returning his eyes to his things, putting his supplies back in their case and closing the notebooks.
"Are you leaving?" He asked, taken under guard.
"Yes, I'll go talk to Kacchan" He said decidedly.
A sense of alarm lashed out against his mind. Leave him alone dealing with that explosive guy? Of course not.
"I'll go with you" He offered.
"It's not necessary"
"You don't have to deal with Bakugou by yourself." He held him back, unwilling to take no for an answer.
"I got myself into this mess by myself" He explained, with a small smile. "I was the one who confessed to Kacchan and thought things would work, when it didn't."
"Please, Midoriya" He pleaded, taking him by the wrist. "Don't face him alone"
"Okay." He gave in to his selfish insistence.
Todoroki knew that his love for Midoriya was not vicious, or to some extent obsessive, but was a silent and greedy love, the way he wanted him. His longings would be satisfied by embracing him, not as his friend, but as his lover and letting him know how essential his presence is in his life since he met him.
"You can come" He agreed, nodding a bit.
"Thank you"
Midoriya nodded, and the two of them put away all of their things before leaving.
When approaching Bakugou in the garden of the entrance to the bedrooms, it was a terrible idea on his part, because the explosive boy's screams were tremendous and above all, when he saw him arrive behind Midoriya, only unleashed his indomitable fury as poison injected into the guts of one.
Midoriya, on his side, tried in vain to calm the situation, but it ended up being counterproductive, and in a matter of seconds, something happened that made Todoroki's blood boil.
"Listen to me, Kacchan!" Midoriya exclaimed, trying to calm him down.
"You're an idiot, Deku!" He pushed him at his defense, enraged at his approach.
"Kacchan, what I'm trying to tell you is not easy for me" Midoriya explained. "It's not the end of us, I just want us to be friends again"
"Since when have you and I been friends?" He barked bitterly.
"But Kacchan." He approached again, concerned. "Please Kacchan, it wasn't my intention, I didn't imagine that things were going to change, I am really sorry" A slap directly swept against Midoriya's right cheek, followed by a thunderous sound, meaning that he punched him the other side of his face.
"Shut up!" He yelled furiously, his body twitching. "You're always apologizing for everything!"
"Why did you do that?" Todoroki chimed in, alarmed to see Midoriya shocked by the blow.
"You don't even mess around, bastard!" He pointed at him contemptuously. "This is not your business"
"Yes, it is" He argued. "If It involves Midoriya, it's my business"
"Oh yeah." He laughed wryly. "Go where you belong, imbecile"
"Kacchan hit me" Midoriya mumbled static.
"Midoriya," Todoroki approached him, but he walked away, blinking with exalted eyes. "Are you okay?"
"Leave it" Bakugou hissed, clearly jealous to see their exchange.
"Why, Kacchan?" Midoriya looked at him in pain, and he could see that Bakugou was regretting his role. Was expected.
"Die, Deku" Was what he said, trying to get up from the question.
"Why did you hit me?" He rubbed his cheek with a marked hand on it, but the obvious disappointment he felt inside was visible in his eyes. "I was just trying to talk to you, to tell you how I feel"
"Pure nonsense, Deku"
"It's not nonsense," Midoriya protested, stepping forward. "Kacchan, please"
"If what you want is to break up, then let's break up" He said, resigning himself, clenching his jaw. "I didn't think you were going to change me for someone inferior"
"Did you just call me inferior?" Todoroki snorted sarcastically.
"The truth is the truth" He scoffed, showing his palms sparking. "Or do you want me to set your face on fire and make it a campfire?"
"Enough Kacchan!" Midoriya interrupted. "None of you is inferior"
"Hah!" Bakugou laughed, hinting at a pain as friendly as a shot of liquor filled with all the worldwide eviction. "I expected better things from you, Deku"
"And me from you too, Kacchan" Midoriya replied with all the calm he could exert. It was impressive how calm he was in that situation after the hit. "But, I didn't expect things to end like this, even though I wanted ours to never end."
Bakugou said nothing.
There was nothing more to say after what Midoriya said.
"But, everything that begins has to end" He ended in sadness. "And our relationship is over, Kacchan, it's over from today"
Bakugou regarded him with resentment, his body twitching even with anger and disdain, his posture in defense not to break in front of them. From so much hatred between them, Todoroki began to understand the explosive boy's behavior depending on his emotions; his body was like an open book, compared to his insulted words.
There was nothing more to say, but the cruel goodbye.
"I wish you well, Kacchan" Midoriya mentioned gently. "I know you will be the best hero of all, better than me, even" And with that, Bakugou nodded and left with his head down, his hands inside his pockets and the aura of unease surrounding him from head to toe like a blanket that it covered his face so as not to remove the mask of vulnerability.
Midoriya looked at him still, standing there, without any mismatch in his features. A determination deeply rooted in his physiognomy, in that palpable sensation that was visible on his skin.
At that, Midoriya turned to see him, and gave him an overflowing smile.
"I'm done with Kacchan" He said it as a reminder.
"I know" He replied, stepping firmly to his side, excited by that. "Midoriya, what will you do now?"
"Be with you" He reported without an ounce of shame, without ruling out that his cheeks turned red and his smile brightened more than the sun.
"Are you sure?" He asked, in case he had a doubt, of course.
"I like you, Todoroki-kun." Midoriya laid his hands on his shoulders, both faces meeting eye to eye.
"I like you too." He swallowed, terribly nervous. He couldn't bear the intense rain of sensations that overflowed inside his body, and he didn't pretend to pretend that on the outside he came to see himself as composed as he used to be.
Midoriya smiled genuinely, hitting both fronts.
"I love you" Todoroki muttered, his face red. "I hope you don't regret being with me"
"No" He said immediately. "I really want to be with you" He swore. "Starting today, as soon as he admitted that I liked you" He added, laughing softly.
Those laughter that filled his heart, reflecting sunrises, skin changes, color changes from opaque to light. That laughter that whipped in the wind, the very door that he opened in the most hidden place of his heart.
Todoroki put his hands on Midoriya's waist, clutching his forehead with more intensity than before.
"So, are we dating?" That question emerged from his voice with a hint of illusion. Midoriya laughed, nodding at him.
"Yes"
He didn't think twice about daring and bending down to give him a kiss, from which, Midoriya received him without saying a word, closing his eyes and accepting his gesture.
At last Todoroki was able to breathe in peace.
That journey, which was so painful and seemed so unattainable, became real, felt with every particle of his being, smelled like a skin through every pore until it burst.
He gave up as a coward, but he didn't abandon those feelings that were already tattooed all over his skin, attached to his mind.
And with that kiss, he sealed his relationship with Midoriya. Their relationship that had just sprouted from a small and painful seed, in which little by little beautiful and radiant petals of a precious flower would emerge.
He sealed that important moment with that gesture, and he wouldn't wait for the future to bring him better things because his present had just become a blessing.
The fight was worth it after all, because now he had the person he loved by his side, hoping that it would be for something permanent.
And yes, there was no longer any reason to deny that his love will undoubtedly end up being reciprocated.
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P.S. This is the Tododeku ending version of this story.
The next one is the Katsudeku ending.
In the same way, I made this ending very suddenly, but I didn't know how to finish it in this Tododeku version, because I like Katsudeku better; In addition, I have other stories around this fandom, you can read and comment if you like, if not, I do not know whether to do a second part of "I always find you", what do you think? Do you want 2nd part?
Personally, I will try to upload more stories, if you have suggestions, you can comment right here. I read them all.
If it's Katsudeku, great.
If it's is Tododeku, no.
Ok no, Tododeku is accepted too, so I'm open to suggestions.
Another thing, I do not usually edit my chapters, as I write them at the moment, so I publish them, I only make spelling corrections, because if I super edit it, it makes me lose the message as I want it to be. intention and that's why I leave it at that.
I don't know if you have problems with my way of writing, or if my narrative is good, you can still tell me.
