The Courage To Love Him
A/N: This is just a short chapter I wanted to post because I like to read you guys reactions. Hold on to you reading glasses because this chapter may make you throw them across the room. Short and not so sweet. Let's go!
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Chapter 9
"Mr. Grant I'm sorry to bother you but a Ms. Pope is trying to contact you, she said she was family and it was important." Fitz takes the message from Lauren his secretary and crumples it up. "Thank you Lauren but as I said, I'm unavailable for the next two weeks my family has my personal number." "Yes Mr. Grant." Fitz nods and continues out the door. He was taking time for himself. He needed to get Liv out of his system but he must admit it felt good knowing she was trying to reach him. His phone alerted him of a blocked caller and message. It's been almost two weeks and now she wants to contact him. He might have been willing if she had tried sooner. He wasn't over her but he was over proving his love to her and wanted nothing to do with her.
He got it, all this time he waited to hear from her to tell him she wanted him, but he now knows what she don't want. She don't want this… she don't want them. So he would deny his love and feelings for her because he didn't want her to throw away her whole life for him because that is what she would be doing if she was in a sincere relationship with him…right? He loved her too much for that. Yes he would give her what she wanted an easy out.
Fitz decided he would leave Boom in Washington with his dad since his dad was due to come to LA at the end of the month and just fly straight home. That's the best thing about having a private aircraft of your own. Once Fitz arrives back in LA he walks to his blacked out BMW 2019 8 Series. Something he purchased for himself because he liked it and Mellie thought it was and unreasonable purchase for himself and told him so. Fitz decides he's not ready to return home and goes out for a drink before heading home.
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Liv is becoming anxious. She really needs to find Fitz. So she calls Abby. "Hey Liv what's up?" She answers with a cheerful voice
"Abby are you by chance with Stephen?"
"Ahhh yeah…why?"
"Nothing really can I speak with him please?"
"Umm sure hold on." Abby passes Stephen the phone "It's Liv she wants to speak with you." Stephen already knowing why takes the phone. "Hey Liv what's up?"
"Hey Stephen sorry to bother you while you're with Abby but Fitz and I had a bit of a falling out and I really need to speak with him."
"Okay just call him."
"I tried…I can't get through. I think he blocked me." Stephen sighs because if Fitz truly blocked Liv then he's done with her and would be pissed if Stephen got in his business. "I'm sorry to hear that Liv but I don't know where he is."
"Okay umm…can you give me his address I can just drive over and talk with him myself?"
"You don't know his add?"
Liv takes a moment before answering "Nooo, I've actually never been to his place or asked where he lived."
"Oh…oh wow okay, sorry Liv if he truly blocked you…" "HE BLOCKED HER!" Abby spirts out while listening to Stephen's one sided conversation. Stephen hunches his shoulder at Abby and Liv shakes her head knowing that Abby will be want to talk and now was not the time. Abby snatches the phone from Stephen "He blocked you, what happened Liv I thought you guys broke up?"
"We did Abby and I'm trying to fix it now can you please put Stephen back on the phone?" She hands Stephen back her phone "I'm sorry Liv but I can't give you his address if he hasn't done so himself it doesn't feel right besides he's not home anyway."
"How do you know he's not home Stephen, please Stephen I just need to speak with him."
"Because he took the jet and didn't say where he was going just that he'd be out of town for a while."
"Fitz has a jet?"
"Ah yeah you didn't know that either?"
"Noo I was too busy being selfish and never inquired about certain things in his life and now I'm paying for it. I really messed up Stephen and I'm just trying to make things right."
"I can text him and tell him to call you."
"No that might piss him off more putting his best friend into our drama."
"You've already put me in it Liv."
"Yeah but I don't think he would be angry about me knowing he's gone or has a jet, he'd probably be happy I now know. I kind of insinuated several times about how he couldn't afford me or my lifestyle."
"Bloody hell Liv. Look I can do is tell him you called but not much else but I will say this don't give up no matter how much he pushes you away if you truly love him don't give up."
"Thanks Stephen just tell Abby I will call her later." They end the call and Liv cries and cries feeling like she's lost him for good and he may never get to know he's about to be a father
Stephen dials Fitz and he answers on the first ring. "What up Stephen?"
"Hey man look don't get upset I didn't know, but Liv called and she's looking for you. She says it's very important she speak with you. She wanted your address." Stephen says as Abby looks at him understanding because if the shoe was on the other foot she would do the same thing for Liv. At least Stephen gave her some encouraging advice. "Cool anything else?" Fitz says unconcerned like
"Just call her mate, hear her out."
"Goodbye Stephen." Fitz end the call and heads home
He needed to do things different this time. He understood Liv was not Mellie or any other woman he dated but each time he'd allow women another chance without them earning it, things didn't work out. This just may be the same thing. The thought of being crushed scared the shit out of him and Liv had the power to do just that. The feelings he had for her were different than any other woman he ever dated. He's never fell for a woman at first site before, this time was different and he had to handle the hurt different and make sure it never happened to him again. As much as he loved Olivia he loved himself more and needed to make sure he took care of him this time around. Liv would just have to get over him just like he was trying and failing to do with her.
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It is now the day of Karen's wedding and the guests are beginning to arrive at the church. Fitz exits his truck and reaches in the back to retrieve his suit jacket when he hears her before he sees her. "Fitzgerald honey there you are. I thought I missed your arrival. This is perfect now we can walk in together."
Fitz sighs then turns and begins walking "Mellie what are you doing here?"
"Oh don't be silly I was there when you got the invite and I was and still am your plus one even if we aren't together." She says while trying to keep up with his pace
"Where's you little Richie Rich?"
"Oh dear Fitzgerald he was cheaper than you, beside his parent are the ones with the money he couldn't afford me."
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Liv is already inside having arrived a short time before Fitz and entering through different doors same entry when Edison approaches her from the back. "Hi Olivia."
She turns to him "Edison. What on earth are you doing here?"
"I know Kevin from one of the conventions. Olivia I really need to apologize for the fiasco at your mother's home. Honestly your mom had me thinking you were interested in me and I…I just want to say I'm sorry and I promise to respect your wishes and ask if we could at least be friends. We will be around the same circle of friends as you can see me being here and I just don't want things to be awkward. I truly am sorry Olivia.
Liv looks at Edison and is unsure if he's being truthful or not. "Please. I promise I won't try to come on to you…just friends."
Liv smiles and agrees "Friends." She shakes Edison's hand and they walk towards the table to receive their yarmulke. Edison holds his hand out in front of him with his other hand on the small of Liv's back and they proceed forward. What she doesn't notice is Fitz has arrived and has come through the left side doors of the same entrance and he sees Liv and Edison walking together. He's momentarily frozen when he hears Mellie say "Fitz we should get our yarmulke." Filled with jealousy and anger Fitz slowly steps forward as Liv looked up as Mellie called his name. She's momentarily frozen and filled with fear and jealousy. There they both stand across from each other with someone of the opposite sex standing next to each of them.
Fitz just smirks at Liv in disbelief as Liv is still in shock. So Fitz does something petty and speaks to Edison first. "Hey aren't you Edison? You were at Liv's housewarming right? "Yes. I don't think I got your name." Edison says already knowing who Fitz is from the party and the fact Liv stated she was dating him when they were at her mothers. "Fitz, oh hey Olivia and this is Mellie."
Liv heart drops into her stomach "So are you two back together?" Mellie catches on to Liv's question by the look in her face and takes advantage. "Yes…yes we are." Looping her arm around Fitz's arm and he allows it then smirks again to mask his anger and jealousy. "Well Mel we'd better go find our seats. Liv, Edison." He says with a nod and walks away.
Abby has seen the entire interaction when Liv excuses herself from next to Edison and swiftly walk down the church hall not caring where she's headed Abby follows grabbing Lisa and Angela in the process as Kim comes up the rear.
A/N: Dam Dam Dam…..Until next time…Keke
