The air
Cold and sharp
In the dim of the hallway
Heavy atmospheres
Like a blanket
Shrouding
Draped on his shoulders
Suffocating.
Recent epiphanies
Knowledge and revelations
Like another chain
Shackled on him.
And indeed.
Knowing more
Means you have more
Shit to deal with.
I never read memoirs.
My own memories
Are sickening enough.
Why do I need someone else's memories?
It is almost laughable.
Not so funny
When it fucks you.
But hear.
"...only care because she is your successor."
"...think everything is about business?"
"Well aren't you a hypocrite."
"...long time ago. And I regret treating her as a mere pawn."
"You are too late."
"I am. But you? Not yet."
There comes a point
Of no return.
"...make the same mistake as I have."
The greatest failure
Is not failure itself
But
Failure to learn.
In childhood
We used to write
With pencils.
In adulthood
We write
With ink.
Why?
A reminder
That when we are young
When our judgement
Erronous
Small mistakes
Can be erased
Rewritten.
But in life
The ink
We write with
Permanent.
Errors in writing.
Figuratively.
And even the sage
Who claimed
She who had none
No regrets
Lies.
But he knew.
Remember
Learn
Understand
Honesty exists
But not without deception.
Philosophical concepts
Defined
By the coexistence
Of a counter-philosophy.
As light exists
Because there is darkness.
Black is not a color.
It is merely the absence of light.
Thus
Good
Is merely
The absence
Of evil.
Corollary to this
Good exists
Acknowledged
By the existence
Of evil.
Cold
Sad
Bitter
Truth
Purpose
Defines us.
Without it
Is to say
That a man
Who can only inhale
And spit out air
Then the air conditioning unit
In the room
Has a much more
Meaningful existence
Than you.
Source: a certain ice Queen.
Successor
To a hereditary burden
That is, life.
No exceptions.
Looking closer.
In life
We gain
We lose.
Invest
Time and effort
Chance of profit
Determinable
By a variable
Of factors.
Utilize logic
Calculate
Inert judgements
Perhaps a bit of luck
And common sense
To make the best choice.
The brain is calculating
The heart
Is believing.
Quite contradictory
Even counter-productive.
The human body
Is a Leviathan
And a single entity
Be it heart or mind
But it must be
Only one
Who controls it.
It is better to have
One foul decider
Than two good ones.
Because two things
That contradict each other
As matter
To antimatter
Will result
Self-destruction
Annihililation.
Basic quantum physics.
Even applicable
To macroscopic scales.
Business.
Perhaps everything is.
Perhaps
Society
Function
On a capitalist principle.
It tries
For a delicate balance.
Providing enough
Be it material or metaphysical
Objects of interest
Enough to keep
From becoming violent
And taking the possessions
Of other people.
Her propensity
For insidious
Possessiveness.
Hypocrisy.
But everyone is.
Beasts are cruel by instinct
But the cruelty of man by intellect
Makes it all the more
Evil.
Hypocrisy is when you ask me
To be compassionate
When you are not.
"Maybe this does not mean anything now..."
The vicious cycle,
"...but I still love her. Yumiko."
In the grand scheme,
"...forgive me. My son."
Always will spiral around you.
Step
Slow
Out
Farther
And away
Her red coat
Vanished
In the distance
Of gray.
The sage
Did
Run
Away.
Regret, is when we can sin no more.
