BPOV:
I take Jasper's hand and smile a little.
"Well i guess it all starts with when James was after me." i said as i felt Jasper tense at James's name.
"While we were in Phoenix, Alice had left the room to talk to Carlisle on the phone and to go hunt so it was just us in the hotel room. Jasper and i had started talking and it felt like something just clicked." I said kissing the ring on Jasper's finger. ,
"I felt like I had never been honest before in my life, I felt like I could trust him with every secret I ever had. When we got back from Phoenix, he asked me to go to dinner with him. We went to a little pizzeria in Portland, and I jokingly ordered a piece of pizza with extra garlic. We walked through the square, and it started to rain, but I wouldn't let Jasper take me home until we danced in the rain. I can't dance to save my life, but to feel the freedom to be weird and dopey was very liberating. I've never felt like that with anyone." I said smiling softly. My eyes glanced over the people sitting in front of me, and I swear if Alice was alive, she would be purple from holding in whatever reaction she was having to my story.
"On our third date, well I think of it as our third date, someone however just says it was a trip to the bookstore that involved hot chocolate and macaroons." I said jokingly glancing at Jasper who nuzzled my neck, he flashed me my favorite lopsided dimpled smile, the one he only used when he knew he was being naughty. I hoped our little girl inherited the same smile, the smile of my Texas cowboy. ,
"I was trying to reach a book on the top shelf, but I was just a few inches too short. I was just about to ask the cashier if she had a ladder when Jasper's arms wrapped around me lifting me up high enough to grab the book. He knew I would stubbornly tell him I could have gotten it myself if he had reached up and gotten it himself. When he set me down, I turned around, and the entire world seemed to shrink until there was just him and I and the space between us. Then he kissed me, and I forgot everything else." I said smiling as Jasper chuckled softly. ,
"If my memory is any consolation you kissed me, you looked up at me with those deer in the headlights eyes, and you dropped the book threw your arms around my neck and kissed me." He said amused as my cheeks turned bright pink. ,
"I-I forgot about that actually." I whispered as Alice stood up disappearing down the hall, but even that distance didn't keep from everyone hearing her squeal. ,
"THAT IS SO ROMANTIC!" She gushed before running back down and sliding back into her seat regaining her composure as Emmett snickered. ,
"Not a word Emmett." She hissed as she turned to me batting her eyelashes. ,
"What happened next?" She asked as Carlisle coughed to cover a laugh. ,
"She was getting to that when you interrupted." He said calmly as Alice nodded quieting down as I smiled nervously. ,
"The next night Emmett and Edward went on a hunting trip, and they were going to be gone all night. Jasper came over, and he helped me with my trigonometry, even at a hundred Edward is terrible at math, and when I was ready for bed I fell asleep in his arms. That was the first night I didn't have a nightmare, and since Jasper's been back I haven't had one since." I said as Jasper kissed my forehead. ,
"I always make sure that you stay calm and happy when you're sleeping, no more nightmares." He reassured as I kissed him softly. He smiled and i couldn't help but smile too. I looked up at the Cullen's and sighed.
"Which leads us to my birthday." i took Jasper's hand knowing he still blames himself for what happened. I snuggle close to him trying to keep him calm.
"I don't blame you Jazzy, you know that. It was an accident and if Edward hadn't thrown me into that table i wouldn't have gotten cut up so badly." i look up at Jasper to see him nodding in agreement.
"I know love and you're right, i just hate that i lost control like that." he said and i shook my head.
"You didn't you were feeling your blood lust on top of everyone else's that couldn't have been easy for you." Peter interjected and i nodded.
"It wasn't Peter i could tell from just looking at him." Peter nodded and i turned back to the Cullen's.
"That night after Edward had dropped me off at home, i had gone upstairs to change and wait for Jasper to come and get me for my surprise gift." i blushed a little. I didn't want to share that night with anyone else but Jasper so i didn't say anything more on it. I took a deep breath knowing that i need to tell them about the day Edward left and everything, but its still painful to talk about even now.
"The next day i got home from school and Edward was there waiting for me… h-he said we needed to talk so he lead me to the forest behind Charlie's house," i said barely getting it out. I felt Jasper wrap his arms around me and i continued,
"he said you guys had to go that it wasn't safe and that i didn't belong in your world. That i was only human and that i would move on." i took a shaky breath.
"I-i felt like my whole world was falling apart, yes i was in love with Jasper so i'm sure I would have been fine with him being gone but he said all of you were leaving and I just couldn't handle that." i looked down at the floor.
"He said it would be like you guys had never existed and that's when he left and i tried to follow him. Jasper found me a few minutes later and promised me that he would be back someday and that he loved me. He then took me home and stayed the night and the next morning with me just holding me." i smiled a little remembering that.
"After he left, i missed him a lot," i look down starting to feel a little depressed just thinking of him being gone.
"I got depressed, i had nightmares too. It sort of felt like there was a hole punched through my chest." i could feel tears start to form as i continued.
" Jacob would come over every day and it helped some. But one day about a few days after my birthday while he was over i got sick and he made me go see Dr. Snow." i smile placing my hand where my daughter just kicked.
"That's when i found out about our little flower. I was shocked at first and maybe a little sad because i didn't think Jasper would be here for it. But i was also happy that Jasper wasn't really gone he had left a piece of him behind with me." I looked up at Jasper and smiled as he leaned down to kiss me. I was so happy that we were going to have this little miracle of ours.
JPOV:
I could feel everyone's emotions and i knew they felt guilty for causing Bella so much pain but a part of me still sort of blamed them for making me leave her on her own. I looked up at them.
"You are all feeling guilty and you should, leaving Bella was the hardest thing for me to do but i did it because i knew if i didn't it could ruin our coven and i didn't want to be the cause of that, but you should feel guilty for also leaving her unprotected with Victoria still out there. Yes, the wolves were here to help as much as they could but we all know Victoria is smart." Carlisle stood up and nodded.
"You're right Jasper we have every right to feel guilty and we're sorry for what we did but we are a family and we are here to help you and Bella with the baby and anything else that comes up." he said placing his hand on my shoulder in a fatherly manner.
"Thanks Carlisle, i know we'll need help when it's time for our little flower to be born. The only problem is she's half vampire so i'm not too sure when that will be."
"well judging by how far along Bella looks i'd say within the next week or so." Carlisle said deep in thought.
"Do you already have a nursery set up?" Esme asked worried.
"No we…" Bella started when i smiled sheepishly.
"Actually love we do i-i may have put it together a few nights ago." she looked at me and smiled.
"Well can i see it?" she asked and i smiled,taking her hand i lead her down the hall to the room next to ours. I opened the door and heard her gasp.
BPOV:
I looked inside and gasped in amazement. The walls of the nursery were a pale blue, robin to some. It was textured as is someone had spilled it on the wall by accident and tried to blot it away with paper towels. The crib was simplistic sturdy and oaken painted a perfect angelic white. Draped over the crib was a blanket made of flowers and pink satin, the perfect accessory to the room of a young girl. In the foot of the crib was a patchwork pillow made of dozens of patches woven together sitting atop the pillow as if it were a throne was a velveteen elephant a smile peeking out from beneath it's trunk. Adorning the wall were a series of hand made dream catchers of all sizes, all secured on a mahogany plank draping the dream catchers down on silk threads. I couldn't believe how perfect it was!
"Oh Jasper this is absolutely perfect!" i exclaimed happily as i hugged him. He smiled as he hugged me back.
"I'm glad you love it darlin' now we just need a name for our little flower." he said and i knew immediately what we should name her.
"How about Lily Whitlock?" i asked. Jasper smiled absently kissing my cheek as his hand ghosted over my stomach, over our little flower. ,
"That's a perfect name for daddy's little flower." i smile and yawn a little.
"Then that will be her name." Jasper then picked me up and carried me to our bed.
"I think it's time for you to get some sleep darlin' you had an eventful day." Jasper said as he set me on the bed and covered me up.
"You're right Jasper." i agreed as i snuggled into the covers and fell asleep hoping for a peaceful nights rest.
