"I'll see you later" I called out to my parents as I left the house, I jump into my truck and started it up. I wanted or more like needed to do something before visiting my Isabella. I drove into forks and parked outside the flower shop; La push did not have many shops neither did Forks, if you needed anything you had to travel out to Seattle but lucky enough we had what we needed to get by without having to travel to Seattle all the time. Turning off the engine, I turn my head to the shop to see Mrs Jones looking at me with a wide smile, I sent her a smile back, a sigh left my lips and my heart began racing, did I want to do this? Was it the right time to do this? I kept questioning myself, taking a sharp breath I exit my truck and locked the door and made my way to the shop.
Mrs Jones was an sweet elderly women, she was very warm, welcoming and easy to talk to "Hello dear" Mrs Jones says as I enter the shop, she walks over to me and gives me a hug "It has been too long" she scolds me.
I wince at her, I haven't been to the shop for a couple of weeks, due to me joining the pack. I am usually here once or twice a week "Hello Mrs Jones" I greeted her "Yeah" I rubbed my neck nervously "Sorry about that, things are crazy right now"
Mrs Jones eyes me carefully "Crazy enough to not visit her" My heart fell at the look in her eyes, I lowered my gaze to the floor, maybe this was going to be a bad idea. I swallowed the lump in my throat and just nodded my head giving her an answer "Well then" she muttered and moved from me "Same as usual then Bradley?"
"Only the best" I answered with a small smile, I watch as she moves towards the flowers and pick up a dozen and puts them in a bag for me, then walks over to me, I pull out the money for then but Mrs Jones stops me.
"On the house dear" She says handing me the flowers, I went to protest but she shut me up "Do not argue with me Bradley" She sternly says, I raise my hands in surrender "You will not win"
"Clearly" I say with a wide smile before bring the women in for a hug and kissed her cheek "Thank you" I whisper.
"Your welcome" she replies moving from the hug "I hope everything gets less crazy for you my dear"
I nod my head "Bye Mrs Jones" I say sending her a wide smile and then left the shop "Not bloody likely" I muttered to myself, thinking about Isabella and what trouble will follow from imprinting on a former leech girlfriend, especially if the ex comes back. I growled to myself as I get into my truck and start it up, putting the flowers on the seat; I don't regret the imprint, but then again can we regret the imprint, the pull is so strong on our side that the connection is instant. To be honest the whole imprinting thing is a mystery to even the elders, there isn't a lot of information on imprinting, just the stories of how it feels and the law of no harming a an imprint. That an imprint is someone who would make us a better wolf, a better protector and give us children, not that I am in a rush to have children, I do hope Isabella would want children someday; an imprint is our hold to the world, to make sure that we do not lose ourselves and to make us happy and help us throughout hard times. I believe right now Isabella needs me more then I need her and I will do whatever it takes to make her smile, laugh, giggle, have fun and even listen to her if she needs to rant to me; though it will be hard to hear her speak of the leech if she ever talks about him.
Pulling out of my thoughts, I finally pull up to my destination, I look out to see it was empty, taking a deep breath I picked up the flowers and got out of the truck and made my way over to her. I take a shaky breath and look at the head stone in front of me, with a watery smile I place the Lilies in the vase "Hello Lillian" I whispered looking at her name
Here lies Lillian Marshall
Loving Daughter, sister, granddaughter and girlfriend
I place my hand on her stone "I'm sorry I haven't been to see you lately" I managed to say without bursting into tears "Thi-ngs. ." I sighed "things are crazy these days Lily pad" I pause a moment at the sound of her nickname leaving my lips, in taking a breath I continued "You wouldn't believe it" I move my hand from her head stone and slowly sat by her "The legends are true Lily pad" I let out a shaky laugh "It's - I still find it hard to believe to be honest with you Lily pad and I'm the one that turns into a huge wolf" I let out a shaky laugh "it's unreal" I pause a moment "But I've learnt to love it" thinking of Isabella and my pack and their imprints "There is five of us up to now, Sam thinks more with phase soon" I tell her "As you can tell I am speaking to Sam again, now that I understand everything, you see Lillian he did not want to hurt Leah but Sam imprinted on Emily" I tell her looking to my trainers, I began to play with the laces as I felt the nerves build up to my confession "Imprinting is when you see her and nothing else matter, it's like gravity moves and it's her holding you to the earth and you would do anything for her, be anything for her" I smile softly thinking of the moment I imprinted on Isabella; the strong emotions I felt at the time, I snapped out of my though as the wind brushed across my face, I look back at Lillian's headstone and the Lilies I put in the vase, tears began to form in my eyes "The reason I came today Lily pad i-is" I sniffed out "I-I" I took a deep breath why was this so hard to say to her, I look up then moved closer to Lillian, I place my hand on her head stone and took another deep breath "Lillian" I sobbed out "I imprinted" as the words left my mouth I broke down, Isabella is my imprint but you never forget your first love and with Lillian not been in the world anymore, I did not it to seem like that I was replacing her with someone else "N-o mat-ter wh-at Lily pa-d yo-u wi-ll alw-ays be in m-y hea-rt" I sniffled out, taking a calming breath "I wanted to tell you" I say running my hand over the head stone, I got to my feet "I am going to see her after talking to you Lily pad, her name is Isabella Swan and she is going through a hard time right now, her boyfriend who is a leech by the way, dump her in the woods and I found her that's when I imprinted" I tell her with a small smile. "I went to see her the next day and gave her father my number and she phoned asking if we could hang out" I continue on with my story.
I slowly move away from Lillian's grave "I just wanted you to know first, I know you can not tell me what you think of the situation or how you feel about it but i-I just had to tell you first Lily pad" I croaked out "Maybe it's a way to get me to feel less guilty of what could have happened if you where still here, I would have broke your heart and that hurts just thinking about it" I sniffed out "Or maybe I wanted your approval of Isabella" I sighed out and rubbed the back of my neck "Or maybe it is me finally letting go"
I move forward and kiss Lillian's head stone "No matter what I will never forget you and the times we had together Lily pad" I move away from her grave "I'll try and visit you soon and maybe I can bring Isabella with me to meet you" I tell her "Or maybe that not, I'm not sure where things are going to go but I can't wait to find out" I say slowly moving further away from Lillian "Goodbye Lillian"
I leave the graveyard feeling like I can let go of the past and look forward to the future with my family, pack and my imprint.
A/N: What an emotional chapter, hope you all enjoyed the chapter let me know what you all think and I will try and get the next one up as soon as possible
Stay safe guys
Angel Wings
