Guest: Thank you so much for your comment. The south asian culture really has some sweet moments in them and I'm so glad you like the story and that it reminds you of some of the good people you've come across. Your words are so kind and heartfelt. I don't meant to make people cry but Ana and Nita are inspired by a cousin of mine who's suffered a lot of heartache and finally found someone worthy of her. I look forward to hearing from you again, just a quick favor, please do leave initials or a pseudonym, I can identify you with. I don't want all my guest reviewers to be nameless haha.

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Without further ado... let's see what's cooking at GEH.


Chapter 14 – Fetish for my love.

Monday, December 9th 2019.

CPOV

Monday morning, back to reality but before that, it's another first for us. Getting ready for work in the morning with Ana. It's just as effortless and sweet as when we were at the resort. We're so comfortable with each other. Ana plays her music, her "morning vibes" playlist as she calls it. She says it helps her get in the right mindset to walk into GEH. She's every bit animated and adorable. She tells me it's her morning routine with Kate, they both sing out loud all these power anthems to take on the day.

For the money, I'm a savage, yeah
Got me itching like a habit, yeah
I'm surrounded twenty bad bitch, yeah
But they didn't know me last year, yeah
Everyone wanna act like they important
(Yeah-yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah-yeah)
But all that mean nothing when I saw my dog
(Yeah-yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah-yeah)
Everyone counting on me drop the ball
(Yeah-yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah-yeah)
Everything custom like I'm at the border, yeah, yeah
If you fuck with winning, put your lighters to the sky
How could I make sense when I got millions on my mind?
Coming with that bullshit, I just put it to the side
Balling since a baby, they could see it in my eyes

Congratulations – Post Malone.

I walk back into the bathroom all dressed and Ana is done doing her hair, she's recreated her fun high pony look from the wedding and finished applying her makeup which is as always minimal, letting her eyes shine. She's still in my robe that drowns her and it's comical to her tiny frame lost in it. She sees me walking in behind her and her jaw drops.

"Damn Grey, who you all dressed up for and be careful on how you answer that" She whistles appreciatively.

"There's this girl at work, just trying to get her attention." I shrug.

"Well I can assure you that this..." she points at me from head to toe, walking towards me. "...will get her attention FO SHO. And if she doesn't fall for you, she's a fool." I smirk and she sticks her tongue out at me.

She disappears into the walk-in closet to change into her clothes. When she comes back out, she looks to die for. I don't know why she ever thought she didn't fit in at GEH, she's the epitome of it.

She's wearing high-waisted pants with a slight wide leg paired with a loose silk white shirt. It's an effortlessly modern look that she pairs with nude heels she wore at the wedding. She looks like she could be an editor at a high fashion magazine.

"Damn, Miss Steele, who are YOU all dressed up for? I say seductively.

"Moi? Trying to schtup the CEO, I heard he's super handsome and rich. Tryna lock in that 401k life. As my buddy Post says 'For the money, I'm a savage'." She says playfully. That fucking mouth, God I love her.

She walks to me and pulls my face to her. I can't help but hold her tightly, never wanting to let go. We sway as we kiss the life out of each other as she lets out small moans and gasps. I love that I can have this effect on her.

"I'm going to miss you Mr. Grey." She says tracing my lips with her finger.

"Miss Steele, I'm going to miss you more, I might end up coming to the 18th floor to schtup you in front of everyone."

Ana laughs "At this point we have a list of HR violations a mile long, might as well make it an interesting read." She giggles.

"Miss Steele, that smart mouth of yours gives me life." I feel like i'll have a permanent smile plastered on my face for the rest of the day.

We both walk in to the kitchen and Gail is making breakfast and tea for us. "Good morning, Miss Steele, I made you some tea and an omelet, I hope that's okay, and please let me know if you'd like anything else." Gail asks.

"Oh gosh, thank you Mrs. Jones, you didn't have to. This is perfect."

Ana walks over around the island to get something, as I start to dig in to my breakfast.

"Miss Steele, I wanted to say thank you for the halwa it was delicious, you must teach me how to make it! And before I forget, I have a surprise for you. Mr. Grey said you really like this." Gail goes and pulls out a small pitcher of pressed pineapple mint juice and places it on the counter. Ana's face lights up and she gives Gail a big hug. It takes Gail by surprise and she's not entirely sure how to react in front of me.

"Mrs. Jones, you're the absolute best, you've made my day already." Ana says holding her hand. Gail places her hand on Ana's and gives it a squeeze and walks out leaving us to our breakfast. Ana walks over to me and gives me a kiss on the cheek. "Thank you for being so thoughtful Mr. Grey." I turn to her and hold her face "Anything for you Miss Steele."

I'm consistently awed by her interactions with people. That moment with Gail was so heart warming.

"Ana, there's a car waiting for you downstairs to take you to GEH, I understand you want to keep this under wraps so we'll go in separate cars and arrive 10 minutes apart and I'll use the executive elevator in the garage while you can use the public ones. You will also have security from now on. Sawyer has been assigned to you. He'll keep a safe distance but will always be around when you're outside of GEH."

"Um, Christian, I can just walk to work or take the bus, you know. I mean I've been doing it for the past few months anyway and please, I don't need security. Chill out. No one even knows about me." She rolls her eyes.

"Ana, this isn't up for discussion. Everyone in my family has security. Even Elliot and Mia do. I had security go with them during the Cabo trip as well, they just keep a very safe distance so you'd never pick up on it. Now that we're together, your safety is my top priority." I say willing her to stand down.

"Okay, okay, relax I hear you. God..." She says with a small voice. I can tell she's uncomfortable with all this but it's in her best interest.

We both take the elevator down the garage at Escala and I introduce Ana to Sawyer. She shakes his hand and thanks him. It's really sweet. She turns to Taylor.

"Good morning Taylor, I hope you had a nice weekend." Ana says with warmth.

"Yes it was good, thank you for asking Miss Steele and thank you for the halwa, it was great!" Taylor gives a smile and nod.

"I'm so glad." Ana beams. Taylor and Sawyer retreat to their positions in the two respective cars and I look at Ana; she brings so much warmth into every moment. Even the simplest ones of saying good morning and asking how someone's weekend is. What is she doing to me? I give her a long and deep kiss that leaves her off balance and she giggles. I love this girl.

Taylor informs me that Ana has reached GEH and is already on the 18th floor, I make a change of plans and tell him to drop me off at the front entrance instead. I walk in and nod to Jim, he gives me his usual smile.

I wait for the elevator and hear two men talk behind me.

"Is she back yet? Did she send the email out yet? I made a vow to not miss out on my chance this week."

"Nah man, it was her cousins wedding in Big Sur last weekend or something, I don't even think she got the chance to breathe. Stop thinking about yourself."

WHAT THE FUCK? Why are they talking about Ana? Who the fuck is this man? The elevator pings and I step in. I turn around and give them the death stare. They look confused and give me a slight nod. We press our respective floors, the elevator makes a stop at the 6th floor and a young blond woman walks on, she acknowledges the two men and asks the same question whispering "Did she send the email? Is she back yet?"

They reply in the negative. Suddenly their phones ping at the same time and the blond one reads the email to them.

"Hi guys, hope you all had an amazing thanksgiving weekend. I'm sorry for the lack of cookies this week. My cousin got married on thanksgiving weekend, then I was on vacation all of last week, and I got back late last night. I promise to make a huge batch for you all next Monday! Till then, meet me for lunch on 5th and tell me exciting things that I missed out on here at GEH and your lives.

Best,

Ana"

Wait, what? She makes cookies for everyone and she knows them. How did I not know this? Who is she? The elevator stops at 11th and another guy steps in expressing his disappointment at the lack of cookies on this Monday.

I finally get to my floor and I am so utterly confused. I approach Andrea and Olivia's desk and hear Olivia whine about the Monday blues and lack of cookies. How does this woman have every human being here under her spell?

Olivia and Andrea stand up and greet me a good morning. I take my messages "Andrea, I'd like a word." I call out as I walk away.

Andrea follows me in and waits till I take my seat. "Yes Mr. Grey?"

"Andrea, why the hell is everyone talking about cookies this morning?" She blinks a couple of times and recovers herself. "Uh, sir, there's a GEH employee who makes these amazing chocolate chip walnut cookies and brings them in every Monday morning. They are first come, first serve. She's not selling them or anything; it's just a nice gesture to create a bit of community here. "

"I see." I honestly want to smile but rein it in. "Who is this employee?" I ask.

"Sir... is she in trouble? I can talk to her, I know her and she's a really sweet girl. Wouldn't want her to be written up."

"No Andrea, I'm not that heartless. I was genuinely intrigued. Have you had said cookies?" I ask softly.

Andrea smiles "Yes sir, I have, she made a special batch for me when my niece and nephew were visiting from New York. They are some of the best I've ever had." God, Ana is such a fucking saint. I am falling even more in love with her.

"Sir?" Andrea pulls me out of my reverie. "Yes Andrea?" I ask. "She really is a nice person, her name is Anastasia and she works in legal, only started a few months ago and has really rallied and created an inter-departmental community of sorts. People actually get along with each other and it's improved working relationships. Who know cookies had the power to bring people together?" She half smiles. I'm so fucking floored right now.

"I appreciate that information Andrea, I guess I'll have to figure out how to get on this cookie email list." I smile back.

"I can add you to the email chain sir if you'd like, the cookies disappear in minutes so all of us have got to be quick. Some will even camp outside of legal sometimes, it's quite funny." Andrea laughs a little. This is the first time Andrea have had a conversation that is remotely amusing and she's worked for 6 years now. Ana isn't even in the room and working her magic.

"I appreciate that Andrea. That will be all."

"Thank you, sir."

Well, well Miss Steele is quite the enigma around here too. I'm going to have fun at lunchtime today.

Lunchtime rolls around and I have a renewed sense of purpose. Time to see the magic Miss Steele is weaving around GEH. I tell Andrea I'll be back in an hour and head down the elevator as I check my phone. A few people step in from 19, I turn sideways, still on my phone replying to messages and checking emails. I have no interest in elevator small talk with people at work, unless it's Ana.

The elevator pings with the doors opening again and I hear a few more people step in and I hear the giggle that lights my life. I look up and Ana has already turned her back to me. I guess she didn't notice me. She's talking animatedly about the wedding and there are two men and another woman with her as they head down to 5th where the lunch hall is. As they exit I follow behind keeping my distance. I see Ana walk away, hips and hair swaying in time with her hands in her pockets. She throws her head back laughing at a joke one of the men makes. It makes me jealous to my core.

As she turns to walk into the atrium, I hear various people yell out "cookies! cookies! cookies!".

"Heathens! The lot of you, does no one care about me?" She asks. They all cheer for cookies again. Ana laughs out loud again and promises a large batch for next week. She heads on over to greet some people and give hugs to some of the female employees who they hover around her to look at her henna tattoos and she shows them pictures on her phone from the wedding. Soon more people join and she animatedly tells them everything. She's the fucking center of attention here. They all just gravitate towards her. Truth is I've never been to the 5th floor atrium all that much. So I'm a little lost. I decide to head back after taking one last look at Ana. She's laughing out loud, her head thrown back, I've got it so bad.

On my way up I stop at HR on 15th. As usual it's a bunch of simpering women melting as I make my way to the head of HR's office. I knock.

"Oh Mr. Grey, please come in. You should've messaged me, I would've come up to your office instead." Catherine offers. She's a woman in her early 50's who runs a tight ship, just the way I like it.

"Thanks Catherine, I was actually on my way up so I'd just thought stop over instead."

"So, how can I help you today Mr. Grey." Catherine asks.

"I wanted to check the temperature of the company morale so to speak. How are employees doing, how are interdepartmental working relationships working out? And if there have been any incidents of fraternizations and if so, how they were handled in terms of our company policies."

"Hmm, well company morale is good, in fact it's improved significantly over the past couple of months. We have had a new employee who innocently started a cookie initiative and it got everyone buzzing and talking to each other to the point where people actually prefer to have lunch in the 5th floor and people from different departments are interacting with each other and we're having less issues with lack of communication. Work productivity has gone up 20% since she came in. In terms of fraternizations, I'm sure there are some that are happening but unless there is a formal admission or complaint, there's not much we can do. Should individuals come forward and disclose their relationship, company policy looks favorably and in light of leniency as opposed to someone getting caught. Again we've had maybe 3 incidents of that happening since the formation of GEH. "

"What about non-romantic fraternizations? Are employees meeting after work for drinks and bowling or a softball team, whatever people do? I say waving my hand dismissively.

Catherine laughs "Well no, we don't have a softball team though it wouldn't be all that a bad idea. I have not formally seen or had any complaints of employees 'hanging out' after work as the kids call it these days. We honestly cannot control or be responsible for what happens outside this building especially if it's not a GEH related event."

"Hmm, understood, and who is this employee who started a cookie initiative, what's that about?"

"Oh, her name is Anastasia Steele, sweet girl and a great fit at legal. Mr. Travis speaks highly of her work, we recently had her 3-month review and she passed with flying colors. Mr. Travis has recommended her for a raise too. She started bringing cookies in just to get to know everyone and pretty soon it became a Monday tradition at GEH, it's kind of sweet. She's become quite popular among all the departments now which has helped legal move through things far more quicker than before" Catherine smiles with maternal affection.

My heart is fucking soaring right now. Anastasia is a miracle worker.

"I'm surprised I've never heard about her before."

"You're a busy man Mr. Grey with your own set of agendas to keep track of, one cannot fault you for not knowing all the daily happenings at GEH on the employee level, it's why you hired us."

"Thank you for running a tight ship Catherine. And please put Mr. Travis's recommendation for Miss Steele's raise into effect immediately. I want employees who bring a positive effect to GEH to be valued for their dedication."

"Consider it done Mr. Grey." Catherine smiles.

I head back up to my office. I'm so fucking proud of Ana. I really have hit the jackpot.

I exit the elevator on my floor replying to an email and hear Ros ask Olivia "Is Ana back yet, were there cookies today?"

"No ma'am, everyone's gutted about it." She laughs.

"Damn it, Gwen is going to kill me, I promised her this week I'd get some again. This demonic pregnancy will be the end of me."

What in God's name? What are these cookies, crack or what?

"Hey Christian, can we talk in your office?" Ros asks turning to me. "Yeah, sure."

We walk into my office and Ros proceeds to sit down on the couch and we discuss some minor outstanding issues with the Gotha deal and the new acquisition we're looking into. She gets up to leave.

"Ros, before you leave, I have to ask, what the fuck is it about these cookies that has everyone moping around the office? I have heard 15 different people bitch and moan about it." I feign annoyance.

"There's a girl in legal, Ana she makes these amazing chocolate chip & walnut cookies, shit's like a drug and this will be the second week we're going without it. Gwen is going to murder me, pregnancy has turned her into this demon and I made the mistake of promising her I'd get cookies for her today."

"Ana?"

"Yeah, Anastasia Steele, she works for Travis. Solid hire, caught a huge mistake with the Gotha contract recently, saved us a good $10 million on it that we would've been giving away for free over the next 5 years. I told Travis to recommend her for a raise. You'll meet her eventually." Ros says and then heads out.

My whole world is turned upside down again. Fucking hell Ana taking over my life in the best way.

It's about 3:30 and I decide to head down to 16th and see what Barney is up to with the new schematics for the tech we're developing for the defense department. Barney is a lucky son of bitch, he has a half a floor as his office, and he's like a mad scientist and is a good kid with a brain that's always going a million miles a minute. He's been with GEH since the beginning and is one of my favorite people to talk to in the company. I step out on 16 and walk towards his lab, the door is open and I hear giggles and laughter. What the hell is Ana doing here?

I wait and listen by the door.

"Okay so now, tell me everything? Did you at least say hi to her?"

"Aww man, Ana I got really shy at the last minute. I gave her this goofy smile she probably thinks I'm a creepy stalker" Barney stammers a bit.

"Well that wouldn't be entirely false now would it? I bet you have her social security number already". Ana laughs. "Listen, if you're really struggling to start a conversation, maybe send her some flowers with a sweet note? I can help you write it. And also, don't just use any random flower service or buy bodega flowers. Really go for it. I'm going to email you the name of this florist based here Seattle who does bomb work, she creates the most beautiful arrangements and trust me when a girl gets a beautiful arrangement like that, it shows her you see her as this wonderfully unique human being. Don't worry too much, you got this dude, and then when you and Emily are married, I'll be giving a speech at your wedding and you'll name your first born after me." Ana laughs out loud.

"Anaaaaa, don't tease!."

"You're so adorable Barney, you got this! Before the year is over we're getting you a date with Emily. And I'm going to take you out shopping; you can't go dressed like this. You work at GEH and I'm sure you get paid the big bucks so lets go spend some of it. None of this hoodie crap anymore, you're a grown ass man."

Barney laughs, "Yes ma'am! Thanks Ana, you're a doll."

"I try, I try," she says playfully. "Okay I'm going to head back up, I'll email you the florist info. Text me if anything!" I hear her head towards the door and quickly rush into the men's room to hide leaving the door slightly ajar, I see her walk by humming a tune and exit to see her walk away.

I am a goner, this woman is taking over my life and making me irrelevant in every way and I'm okay with that.

"Barney!" I say as I enter his lab. "Oh hey Mr. G, I'll get the new schematics up, one sec"

"Barney, who was that woman talking to you about flowers and stuff?" I ask Barney, trying to get some more information.

He gets a little shy and runs his hands across his forehead, the kid is a goner just like me "Mr. G, there's this girl I really like in my apartment building and the woman you heard talking is Ana, she works up in legal. She's been helping me try to get with Emily but I keep messing up. She's the only one who talks to me like I'm a person. Everyone else here kinda ignores me which you know is cool; I'm cool with that I don't need the distraction but Ana is really rad, Mr. G. She's like a big sister even though she's younger than me. Plus she makes these amazing chocolate chip walnut cookies. That's how I met her. She came here and offered me some. Too bad she has the recipe in her head otherwise I would've hacked her computer to get it." He laughs.

"Sounds like a good friend." I smile.

"Oh yeah, the best! She comes by a few times a week and checks up on me. Makes sure I'm not wearing the same hoodie more than 2 days in a row and has lunch with me too sometimes." He chuckles. "Okay, I've got the schematics up here, let's take a look" Barney starts to show me a serious of slides.

My heart fills up with emotion. I really don't deserve her. Fuck, I need to talk to Flynn.

After my meeting with Barney I decide to text Ana.

CG: Miss Steele, how is your day going?

AS: Mr. Grey, it's been quite busy, catching up with everything and everyone. How is your Monday going?

CG: It's been enlightening. I'm starting to see GEH in a different light now.

AS: I hope it's a good light. I would love to hear more about it when we meet next.

CG: Do you have to go back your apartment tonight?

AS: I do, I have a lot stuff to catch up on. Dresses to return, mail to sort through, bills to pay all that exciting stuff. I'll call you tonight, I promise. Now I have to go before my boss's boss reprimands me for texting my boyfriend at work, haha. Xoxo.

CG: Your boss's boss sounds like such a tyrant.

AS: He has an incredibly sweet side too :)

CG: I love you.

AS: I love you.

I get back to my day and go through the scheduled meetings and reviewing of documents to pass the time. I check the time and it's 5:30 and I wonder if I can see Ana for a bit this evening at her apartment.

CG: Kate, I hope all is well. Do you and Ana have any plans for tonight, I wanted to come by and surprise her for a bit.

KK: Hi Christian, that's really sweet. I can go hang with Elliot for a few hours. That'll make Ana's day. I've been waiting for her to experience this side of life. She deserves it! :) I'll probably come back around 9ish. See you then.

CG: thanks Kate, see you then.

KK: Sure thing, also, do you have any free time this week for lunch, say Wednesday afternoon? Need to discuss something re: Ana. She's fine, I promise but I've been meaning to talk to you.

CG: I'm free Wednesday, meet me at the Mile High Club? 12:30pm?

KK: Perfect. Will let you know if anything changes.

She really is a sweet friend but now I'm a little apprehensive about this lunch meeting we're going to have.

I make my way down to the garage and tell Taylor we'll head to Ana's place. Before we head out, I wait in my car by the front entrance to get a glimpse of Ana leaving work. It's dark outside but thankfully our plaza area is well lit. She walks out arm in arm with two female employees and they're laughing. She looks exquisite.

Taylor catches my attention "Sir, Miss Steele requested that Sawyer not open the door for her when she approaches the car as to not raise any suspicions and for it to look like she ordered an uber so we have someone from building security keep watch out when she walks out."

"That's fine Taylor, as long as there is security around her, I understand her concern."

Ana gives the two employees a hug and watches them walk away before she heads into the car.

"Taylor... do you know of a good bakery I can get apple pie from and I have to stop at a grocery store too before we head to Miss Steele's"

Taylor looks to me and gives a small smile "I know just the place, sir."

He takes me to a bakery Gail recommended so I know it will be perfect. When we get to the grocery store I have to ask for Taylor for help because I am so lost. He gives a small smile and walks with me inside and we find the ice-cream aisle so I can get Ana's favorite ice-cream, honey roasted caramel with almonds by haagen dasz. We pay and head back into the car.

"Thanks for your help with Taylor, it's kind of a new world for me."

"Sir if I may?" Taylor asks carefully.

"Sure, Jason."

"Miss Steele is really wonderful. Security and facilities at GEH adores her. She checks on them a few times a week and always makes them their own separate batch of cookies every Monday. I'm really glad you too are able experience that."

His confession stuns me and a lump forms in my throat.

"I was initially concerned when Sawyer and Ryan first mentioned her but then when I got updates about you both throughout the wedding, it made me relieved and honestly happy for you both."

"Thank you, Jason, I really appreciate this and all you've done for me in these past 6 years considering my... life choices. I know I've made some questionable ones I realize that." I offer apologetically.

"Sir, no need to thank me or dwell on the past. You're a good man, just look to your future with the help of Miss Steele." He says with a smile and soon enough I'm at her apartment building.

She lives downtown as well, about 10 minutes from Escala. It's a decent building. Kate's father bought her the apartment as a gift and Ana tells me that she offered to pay for maintenance fees, bills and groceries as her way of rent even though Kate was against it. Ana won in the end. My girl is so headstrong and strong of principle.

I knock on her door and she opens it with bills in her hand. Her answering smile is like seeing the sunrise.

"Mr. Grey! What brings you here?" She giggles, smiling brightly with her head cocked to the side. "Please come in and welcome to our humble abode."

"I missed you Miss Steele and had to see your beautiful face." I lean in and kiss her. "I brought you something."

"What's this?" She asks taking out the contents of the bag. I smile and take a seat at on the barstool by her kitchen counter. "Well, I was coming to your place for the first time, I didn't want to come over empty handed so I brought your favorite." I say.

"Oh god, Christian you really didn't have to. That's so thoughtful." She comes over and kisses me with her arms around my neck. She tastes divine, of oranges and mint. She takes over my mouth and we're tongues, small moans escaping her as I run my hands over body. I try to pull her pants down but she breaks the kiss. Slightly embarrassed. "Um, I can't."

"Why baby?" She scrunches her nose and closes her eyes, this is her alternative embarrassed face I notice and it's adorable. "I'm on my period so I'm out of commission for a few days." I laugh and kiss her neck.

"We can still have sex if you're on your period, I don't care about that shit" I say laughing. "Yeah well I do. I don't feel comfortable." She's trying to keep a straight face.

"Okay baby, whatever you're comfortable with. Do you have cramps?" I ask. "Not yet, they'll come down like a hammer by tomorrow at most inopportune time I can feel it. Thank god for modern medicine." She muses. "Then don't go into work tomorrow baby, relax." I suggest.

"I just came back from vacation Christian, plus I've been dealing with this for forever, I'm a pro at it now." She laughs, she's still in my arms and letting me plant small kisses around her face and neck even though they tickle. She makes to walk out from my embrace and puts the ice-cream in the freezer and opens the box of apple pie and gets so excited telling me she can't wait to try it. My girl is all about the simple pleasures in life. I don't know how I could fall even more in love with her after all the revelations I heard at GEH. She has no fucking idea how perfect she is.

"Would you like a beer? We don't have anything else right now, I haven't been grocery shopping and Kate is hopeless with anything remotely domestic. She'd die if I went anywhere for more than a week." She laughs.

I take the beer and see her take one out too. "I thought you didn't drink alcohol?" I ask. "Oh! The one I'm drinking is non-alcoholic ginger beer... here try some" she passes it to me and I take a sip. It tastes good, I nod and hand it back to her.

"So tell me baby, how was it being back at work?" I ask, desperately wanting to know.

"It was good, lots of work to catch up on but it was nice to see everyone again and hear their life updates." She tells me as she sorts her mail. "Oh guess what happened today? I got called into HR, I thought I was going to die of heart attack and that they found out but it turns out Mr. Travis recommended me for a raise. I just had my 3 month evaluation meeting recently and passed it, thank god! Anyway, your girl out here makin' some serious moolah now" she says swaying to the music and laughing. God I fucking love her energy. "It came at a great time. I really needed it."

"What do you mean?"

"Well this wedding tapped me out Christian, I just graduated in May and then got my dream job at SIP, only to be let go when they went bankrupt after a month. Thankfully I got the GEH job within 2 weeks but I had a lot of bills, student loans, prepping for the unlimited wardrobe collection for this wedding, outside of the 3 outfits that Kiran got me for the wedding because she knew I'd never be able to afford them. I mean you only saw three events. I had to fly back and forth for the other 6 and I'm not joking there were 6 additional events, plus going to the resort to make sure everything was going smoothly. GEH has its own dress code so buying clothes for that was a bit torture. Thank God for Kate and Kiran, but still it adds up. Then since I was on my 3 month probation trial, I didn't have insurance so paying for any doctors visits was a lot... heck even therapy started to feel like a luxury item in life." She says a little sad and it breaks my heart, she's also cleaning up the kitchen as she tells me, I can tell Kate is a slob. "By the way I don't mean to sound like I'm complaining or anything, it just became very real last night as I was doing the mental math for my upcoming bills. I'm really grateful that I have a job but I get really tired sometimes. Hopefully I can pay off my loans by end of next year and focus on saving up to buy my own place. That's honestly all I want, my own place where I can decorate it how I want, be a cat lady and entertain my friends all the time."

I'm overcome with so much emotion for her in this moment.

"You really only want the simple things in life don't you?" I ask.

She smiles a sad smile "Yeah, I've always lived a pretty simple life and have grown up money adjacent if that makes sense. Like, Nana was a has a shit ton of money in holdings in the US and Europe with some in Australia too which Nita and Alia Khala are set to inherit, Kiran's dad and his brother are industrialists in India and have holdings in Asia and Middle East only. So I've grown up around it but I'm not enamored by it. I can appreciate it but not long for it. I can carry myself in the south asian elitist crowd and hold my own, Nani taught me the social graces to do so but it's all fleeting. I'll never be a part of that world nor do I have the desire to be. I just want to be able to pay my bills on time and be comfortable enough to not think twice before buying something or going on a trip."

Holy shit, this woman is the realest thing to walk the earth.

"Ana, you do more than hold your own you have every person eating out of your fucking hand. Seeing you at the wedding, people hung on to your every word and I've never seen anything like that. When people listen to me it's because I'm paying them large amounts of money or because they fear me, it's always an ulterior motive. With you, it's all genuine emotion and adoration. They listen to you because they want to not because they have to. You have such a hold over everyone you come into contact with. Women have always thrown themselves at me but you, you were so self contained and genuine in your interactions and I felt no ill will from you, in fact you didn't give a shit about me and that was refreshing. You put me in my place." She looks at me like I have two heads. She doesn't understand. I get up and walk to her and hold her face in my hands, looking into her ocean eyes "you have complete control over me Ana and what's more is that I love it. I crave control in my life, it's either my way or the fucking highway but with you, I'm at your feet happy with whatever you give me." I and kiss her with all the love that I have for her, we both get lost and stand for I don't know how long, mere seconds, minutes or hours but we drink each other in, little moans escaping her. When come up for air, she's looks a little lost and then giggles. I love that fucking sound.

"I love you Anastasia Rose Steele."

"I love you Christian Trevelyan Grey." She smiles back.

After Ana clears up the kitchen and sorts through her mail, I help her carry her luggage to her room. It's light and airy with a mid century modern aesthetic, she's got amazing taste and her room is warm and inviting just like her. Everything is organized to perfection with little accents that showcase her layered and varied interests. She makes way to put away all her clothes and makeup; she's so meticulous with everything she does, a little OCD at times. She separates her rental dresses and repacks them to send back. I need to call Caroline Acton to set Ana up with an appointment so she can shop to her hearts content and not worry about the bill. Ana goes to start a load of laundry and walks into Kate's room to get hers; Kate's room looks like a warzone in comparison.

"Kate's a real slob isn't she?"

"Oh god, let's not talk about it. We once had a huge fight about it in the beginning of our friendship. We almost broke up but I learned to loosen up so here we are." She laughs.

"Yeah, you're OCD in comparison" I tease as she starts a load of laundry.

She laughs and then her face falls a little. "After I was raped, I was off center for a long time, paranoia set in and manifested into extreme OCD and it became hard me to leave the house sometimes." She then begins to smile "my fight with Kate was a turning point, she's tenacious that way I guess, broke me down a little and now my OCD isn't that bad at all."

I move into hug her and kiss her. She looks up, "I promise, I'm fine Christian." I kiss her again.

We go back into her room and she puts on some music as she puts away the last of her things, I look at photos of Ray and her, family photos with Nita and Nani and her other cousins and some with Kate from college. There's one beautiful one of her with Ray, she's sitting on his shoulders, she's about 4-5 years old and they're standing next to a green mustang and Ana is laughing with her head thrown back. She's beautiful.

"Ray was a handsome man." I muse.

"Yep, my man of Steele! I wish you both could've met." She says wistfully. "Me too, Ana." I smile back.

I turn towards her world map. She's got red pins all over with only one green pin at Cabo and I realize she's never left mainland USA. I see the places she wants to visit and they're small towns away from all the usual tourist traps, unique selections just like herself.

"Ana, you've never been outside of the US?"

"Nope. I mean I went to Cabo a couple of weeks ago and that was I guess my first "international trip" so to speak. It was such a thrill to finally get a passport" she giggles "Growing up Ray and I would spend summers hiking and fly fishing or at the shooting range. And even though Nita's family did these extravagant holidays, we were always invited but Ray didn't want me exposed to that luxury before I grew up a little. I was only allowed to go to SF and then sometimes to the east coast but that was rare. By the time I did grow up, I had been in recovery from the accident, Then traveling outside of the US wasn't an option with all my physical therapy and doctors visits.

After that college started and that was hard on it's own because I had to work lots of jobs and then all summers to support myself. Nita helped a bit but I felt weird allowing her to pitch in after a certain amount. Kiran kept trying to drag me on family vacations in the summer and the annual winter trips to India but Vishaal was always part of those trips and there was no one way I was going to be in a foreign country and at his mercy.

Cabo was different because Kate was with me and there were so many other people with us, that I felt relatively safe. I've been dying to go to India but it's dangerous for me without proper protection, maybe someday in the future." Her smile is small as she continues "Ray and I were supposed to go to Italy the summer I graduated high school, for a few weeks, to trace his Italian heritage in Palermo. It was going to be our first international family trip with Nita and in doing so hopefully I'd learn Italian because I love the sound of it but my brain is tapped out with all the hindi and urdu." She giggles.

I smile back and my heart aches at all the struggle she's been through and all she was denied. I want to give her the world and more.

"I've always wanted to learn Italian too, we could both take lessons and go next summer? Would you be into that?" I ask, wanting her so desperately to say yes. Even though I know enough conversational Italian, I want the experience of discovery with her.

She looks up and beams "Really? Yes of course I'd love that, oh god that'd be so fun." She walks to me and runs her finger along all the places she wants to visit in Italy, they are small towns. "We can take a road trip and just go at our own pace and soak it all in." She says throwing her arms around me and kisses me. "Thank you Christian Grey. I can't wait for next summer now!"

"Anything for you baby, I'll look up Italian tutors and we'll work out a schedule." I kiss her again and smiles back at me.

"Oh by the way, can you log into my computer and order some Chinese food on postmates. When you visit the website my account is already logged and you can check the Chinese restaurant in my faves and order whatever you'd like!"

I struggle a bit and she looks at me. "Oh god I'm dating an old fart! You don't ever postmates? Oh wait of course you don't, Mr. Billionaire!" She throws her head back and laughs and kisses my cheek. She orders a bunch of food in anticipation of Kate's possible late night craving as well. She really does think of everything.

APOV

The food is finally here and I set it up on the coffee table in front of the couch. Christian and I sink into the couch, legs tangled in each other as we eat and laugh our hearts out. He's so funny and sweet and so gorgeous that it hurts. I never would've guessed that he was funny, he's by no means a comedian but his one liners are always on point. I always wanted to be with a guy who could make me laugh. I remember once walking by the conference room on our floor a few weeks ago, they were having a meeting and Christian was just looking out the window. He looked incredibly sad and lost or maybe I was just projecting. I quickly dismissed the thought and him. Rich people problems I mused. I can't believe I was so wrong. As good looking as he is, it was never something that appealed to me. All my male cousins are good looking, I grew up with self-aware men who knew they looked good, except for Ray and Nana of course, as good looking as they were, they remained humble. The others took advantage of it for sure, so you could say for me, it mattered more about how good of a person the man was. Was he kind, was he respectful, did he see women as his equal? That has always been the my focus.

He went into work wearing this beautifully tailored black suit with a black skinny tie and that unruly copper hair. I wanted to jump him when he showed up at my door but I have to wait and what an excruciating wait this will be. I drink in the sight of him in front of me, sans tie and jacket. His crisp white shirt with the sleeves rolled up now and the top two buttons open. I know it's the hormones too but I really want him to fuck me. He brings me back to earth immediately.

"So wait, you can shoot a gun?" He asks a little surprised.

"Shoot a gun Mr. Grey? I never miss a shot." I say back smugly. His jaw drops open. I laugh "I used to be very good but then after the accident and with recovery and college, I never went back, so I'm probably really bad now. I'm not pro gun by the way but Ray wanted me to have that life skill just in case I had to disarm someone, he also taught me self defense but I haven't been to recover my mental equilibrium properly since the accident. I can feel my instincts are off sometimes. Plus I can't imagine myself doing all that stuff for fun without Ray, he was my best friend you know? I was his girl of Steele." I muse and suddenly realize I'm spiraling and will worry Christian so I quickly change track.

"What about you, did you always want to learn French?" I look at him and his eyes are intense. He gives me a small kiss on my lips. "I kind of had no choice, Grace wanted her children to have a minimum of 3 skills, language, instrument and a sport. For Elliot it was Spanish, the guitar and baseball. For me it was French, the piano and tennis and for Mia well, Mia wasn't having any of Grace's shit and she's the only one who got away with saying no to her. She was slated to learn Italian, the cello and Karate but she put her foot down on all three and only agreed to French and tennis because she was closest to me. And she took voice lessons because she loved singing."

My heart warms at the story. "I love the bond you have with her, Christian. The way she looks at you is so heartwarming and beautiful." He smiles shyly. "I see a lot of our relationship with you and Elliot. He's obsessed with you and you guys are on the same wavelength it's fucking hilarious to watch sometimes"

Christian laughs and I have to laugh as well. "He was the best in Cabo, the life of the party and he's such a gentleman, I met my match, I instantly felt safe with him and he's what I've always wanted in an older brother. He reminds me a bit of Ray sometimes especially when Ray tried to be funny and cheer me up and he's not so bad on the eyes either." I can't help but giggle. "A part of me wishes you had come to Cabo but I'm still so happy we met the way we did." I say. Christian leans in to kiss me hard and I almost drop my plate of food. I hear the click of the door and pull away giggling, Christian smiling at me.

I look back and see Elliot walking in covering his eyes

"DON'T WORRY I CAN'T SEE A THING, KEEP DOING EACH OTHER." Elliot bellows.

I have to cackle, Christian laughs too "Fuck off Lelliot!" he says with such adoration. And we all fall into a laughing fit. Elliot and Kate sit on the chairs opposite us and I go to get more plates and beers for them. I'm so happy they're here. My life feels so full of love.

"Where did the name Lelliot come from?" I ask.

"Elliot has a lisp when he was a kid, it was the funniest shit ever!" Christian laughs.

"Hey, don't be mean!" I smack his arm.

"Yeah bro, listen to your lady. You could learn a thing or two." Elliot teases as he winks at me.

"What about Christian, did you guys have a nickname for him?" I ask.

"Yeah, it was asshole. Though I quite like Dorothy now." Elliot laughs and Christian flips a chopstick at him making me and Kate laugh our asses off.

The conversation between us flows so well, we laugh so much and tease each other mercilessly. I preheat the oven and set the apple pie in to warm it and go to take out bowls for everyone. Christian brings over the leftover food and helps me put it away. We work in rhythm and he plants kisses on me every now and then. Kate and Elliot go into her room to change and tell us they'll be back out in a bit.

"Stay the night with me, Mr. Grey." I ask. "I'd love to baby but I don't have any clothes here for sleeping or for tomorrow morning, plus I don't want to bother you, if sleep with you, I'm going to want to do a whole lot more than cuddle." He bites my bottom lip.

I can't help but let out a small moan, I love it when he does that. "Well in regards to the clothes, consider it taken care of. I stole once of your t-shirts when we were at the resort, I wore it to sleep while I was in SF." I give him a wink. "...and I just did a load of laundry so it's clean and I texted Taylor asking him to go home and relax and bring you a set of clean clothes tomorrow morning. You don't take that long to get dressed any way." I smile at him.

He looks at me surprised and then moves to what it seems like, kiss the life out of me. "How are you so fucking amazing?" I giggle. "I just have the gift of foresight Mr. Grey." He looks at with an awed expression. "Wait, you texted Taylor? He works for me you know, at least I thought the bastard worked for me, I see where his allegiances lie now." he says annoyed but chuckles "He works for you and you work for me. So technically I'm his boss's boss." I wink at him. "And in regards to doing more than cuddle, I trust you can work your imagination to find us both a happy medium?"

He smiles "Oh Miss Steele, I'm positive I can come up with something to satisfy us both." He says as he plants a big wet kiss on my lips and tickles me, making me laugh out loud. I hear the oven timer ping.

"Dessert is readyyyyyyy." I yell for Elliot and Kate. They came out in their pajamas and I cut pieces of apple pie into bowls and ask them which ice-cream they'd like, vanilla or honey roasted almond, everyone goes for the honey roasted and we resume the flow of our conversation.

"What are you ladies doing tomorrow night?" Elliot asks. "We having girls night with Mia, we're gonna start a new show and do mani-pedi's and order in pizza. It's been our tradition since Cabo. In other words, No boys allowed." Kate declares. I see Christian smile. "Damn, okay I'll have my people call your people to schedule our next hangout" Elliot laughs.

"By the way guys, a little warning, Ana and I really crank the music up in the morning. So it might get annoying." Kate warns.

"Yeah, it's our anthem workout. We gotta sing at the top of our lungs as we run around getting ready and eating breakfast. And you're more than welcome to leave whenever you want. One of us can leave a key so just lock up after yourselves and Kate and I can co-ordinate accordingly in terms of coming back home for access to the apartment." I explain.

"Bro, you ready to endure this?" Elliot teases. "There's only one way to find out." Christian chuckles.

CPOV

I'm going through a Vivian Maier photobook on Ana's bed to pass the time as she takes a quick shower. Wen she's done she comes in and hands me my laundered t-shirt and handkerchief from that night at the resort, both are neatly folded as she gives them to me. She tells me that her bathroom, which also doubles as the guest bathroom, is right outside the door and gives me an extra towel to use if I'd like to shower, and that there are extra toothbrushes in the mirror cabinet if I need one. She's so incredibly thoughtful, I feel so cherished. Her bathroom is an extension of her bedroom in terms of aesthetic, everything neatly placed, her mirror cabinet is mostly empty with only some beauty products, she doesn't own much and keeps it pretty simple. Her perfume collection is simple too; it's between a rose scent and a Chanel scent. She's sophistication personified. I'm done with my shower and head back into Ana's room while she's on the phone laughing, it's 10:30pm who on earth could she be talking to?

"Barns, I'm so proud of you. I knew you could do it." Ana says lovingly. "As long as her dog likes you that's your in. Once you send her that gorgeous floral arrangement and some dog treats with a bomb ass note that yours truly will write, you guys will be on your way down the altar in no time" she giggles. I realize she's talking to Barney and it makes me chuckle, she goes on to continue as she gets her outfit ready for tomorrow morning. I see her holding different dresses to herself, all while holding the phone with her shoulder and testing different accessories. "Yes, I'm totally free Wednesday evening. Meet me at the front say around 6:15pm or so? We'll head to and Club Monaco to start and see how we fare there, I'm not sure where they are so I'll leave you to create a map for that and we'll get dinner!" Ana says excitedly. I want to laugh, kiss and worship the ground she walks on, Barney is a lucky bastard. "Okay sounds like plan, I'm so excited for you Barns. You're gonna sweep Emily and her pup off their feet... okay good night!" She hangs up and goes to look for some shoes.

"So I guess you have a date with another man on Wednesday?" I feign jealousy. She looks back wide eyed "He's my friend at work, a really nice guy, just trying to score a date with this beauty in his apartment building. He's a diamond in the rough, just need a bit of polishing." She smiles and looks to me. "besides Mr. Grey, I only have eyes for you." she sings. I walk up to her and kiss her. "You better only have eyes for me Miss Steele, I don't like sharing." I say playfully and spank her ass making her giggle.

"So tell me, do you have a lot friends at GEH or is it still an adjustment period?" I ask, desperate to know more from her.

"It's definitely getting better, I've made some friends in various departments. PR and marketing still scare me though so I have no contacts there, the women there scare me and they all look like they desperately need to eat a burger." She quips. She's giving nothing away. Two can play at this game Miss. Steele.

"Interesting. By the way, your name came up in conversation today with Ros."

She immediately gets nervous and looks away from me "uh huh, and?" she asks trying to hide her face by putting her laundry away. "Apparently you saved us $10 Million dollars on the Gotha deal. So thank you for that."

She shrugs, "it was a lucky catch, Mr. Travis asked me to read it over and I found some grammatical errors and found a clause that didn't make sense to me, again it was a grammar problem that would've cost you 10 million. And they say English majors are useless." She says with a small nervous smile and continues, "Now Mr. Travis wants me to read through all contracts and ask any questions if there's something I don't understand, the simpler and clearer it can be written out the better we are at avoiding these mistakes. " She shrugs again.

I walk up to her and give her a kiss and go in to deepen it, desperately wanting to thank her with my body but I know she'll be uncomfortable. I break the kiss and look her in the eyes again. "Thank God for you baby, you should be proud of yourself, that's such a huge thing to do for GEH. Enjoy the praise." She gives a small smile. " I was just afraid someone else was going to get into a trouble and I didn't anyone to think I was trying to step on toes and stir shit." She's a little panicky now.

"Anastasia, give yourself some fucking credit. You're a smart woman and you caught a mistake that saved the company millions, that mistake shouldn't have been there to begin with so if someone gets into trouble it's because they actively dropped the ball and I don't pay salaries for people to drop the ball and cost me a shit ton of money." I say with finality, she gives me a smile but still looking down. I lean in to kiss her again. "I'm taking you to bed wench!" I declare and she laughs uncontrollably.

We lay face-to-face in bed talking, she's got one of those color hue lights in her room and it's set to pink and she looks so fucking hot bathed in it. Her bed is much smaller than mine but more than comfortable enough for us both. Her linens smell like jasmine and I run my hands along her on her thighs up to her hips and up her sides.

"Stop trying to distract me from the conversation Mr. Grey." She giggles. "I can't help it Miss Steele, you're a very distracting woman."

"If you keep doing this, I'm going to want more than just you feeling me up." she quips. "That's the idea baby. Trust me?" She looks to me and nods. "Okay baby, you're going to have to be very quiet for this, you cannot make a sound, I don't want our neighbors to know our business." She bites her lip and nods. "Good girl."

I take of her pajamas and see she's wearing pink boyshort panties and she's looks so adorable. I give her a small kiss inside the band on her hip. She giggles and jumps up a bit. Her skin is so sensitive right now, and her temperature is rising by the second. This will be fun. I take her shirt off and she lays naked in front of me, bathed in intense light with twinkling eyes and lips parted, God I am so in love her.

"Raise your hands and hold on to the headboard. Do not let go. Nod if you understand and not a sound out of that delectable mouth of yours." She nods trying desperately not to giggle as she grabs the headboard.

I start off my attacking her mouth as I lightly trace lines inside her thighs. She knows she can't moan so her body arches up for me every time she feels the need to. I trail kisses down her jawline to her ear and bite her earlobe and she turns her body into me to avoid gasping, she's doing so good and pretty soon she'll be where I want to be exactly.

"Baby, there's so much I want to show you and teach you about your body. I can't wait, I'm going to take you to places you never even knew existed." I say as I lick her neck and I see her eyes are tightly shut head it arched back as she moves her knees up to keep her from making a sound. I move down to her breasts and bite down hard and she bucks up violently and I hear a sharp exhale... my poor baby but I love seeing her like this, she's doing so incredibly well so far, I'm proud of her. I take one nipple in my mouth and knead the other breast with my fingertips. Her body is now writhing and begging for some form of release.

I immediately stop and she opens her eyes, biting her lip and her look is so intense. I start to lightly trace my fingertips in circular fashion from her ankles up her legs, to her thighs, lightly brushing over her panties, that sensation gets a reaction out of her again. I move up her sides to her breasts up to her neck as her face is still arched back, gripping the headboard tight, I can see and feel the tension in her arms she is so close. I lick her lips and kiss her, taking everything I want from her, I go back to kneading her breasts and she moves her body, begging me with her movement. I suck on her bottom lip and she arches her head further back, any further and she'd snap her neck. She's so beautifully arched up.

"You can let go baby, scream if you want to." I say and as I twist her nipple and force my tongue in her mouth and she screams but I absorb the sounds as her body shivers violently. She's never come like this. I know it. I keep kissing her, she's still holding the headboard, she's so good at following instruction, I climb between her legs with my own raging hard on through my boxers and nestle it in between her legs over her panties and grind into her and she reacts. I bring her arms down, still kissing her, massaging her biceps to help her relax. I let her gasp for air a bit and she's crying, no doubt from the intensity. Her eyes are still closed as she tries to calm her breathing and I kiss her neck. Small moans escape her, I cup her face and look at her, tear stained and pink, lips parted and breathing.

"Open your eyes baby." I say softly, she slowly opens them, filled with tears and starts to laugh. I wipe her tears and kiss her the corners of her eyes, she's having trouble speaking.

"A little too intense maybe?" I laugh and she giggles. I kiss her warm lips and she raises her hands and grabs my hair. Her skin is still on fire.

"Christian..." she says panting. "Yes baby." I move to kiss her neck "I can't wait to be done so you can fuck the living shit out of me. That was so intense..." I smile.

"Baby, there's so much more from where that came from. I'm going to have so much fun with you this weekend. You better rest up this week." I warn.

She giggles and throws her arms around my neck and I rest to my side and turn her body to flush it against mine as I kiss her again. "Sleep baby, I love you."

"Hmmm I love you more." She whispers as I throw the duvet over us.


Tuesday, December 10th, 2019.

Mommy? Where are you?

She is dancing around in a white dress, red ribbon in her hair, it's snowing outside. Come dance with us daddy she calls out and spins around with the baby boy. Let's go eat some cake with daddy, baby boy. I kiss her. We love you forever daddy.

I wake up and see everything in pink. Where the fuck am I? I raise my hand to my head, I'm not sweating, okay good. Not a nightmare. I look down to my chest. Ana's face is on my chest, her hair hiding it partially and she's humming. I can feel the vibrations through my chest.

It's not painful, it's not burning it's just... I don't understand what it is. It just is. I brush some of the hair off of her face and I can see her beautiful face in full view now, faint sounds of humming with each breath, just little melodic moments. I wonder about her dreams. I caress her cheek and she hums a little more. I don't have the heart to move her. I'm going to try and sleep again. I'm feeling so conflicted.

...

I hear humming again and the scent of roses. I open my eyes and it's a little dark but I can see a light coming from the door and I realize Ana is already up and getting ready. I look for my phone and see it's almost 7:30am. I sit up on the bed and go over the dream from last night and the sensation of having Ana's face on my chest, skin to skin. I felt so vulnerable yet calm yet... conflicted, it gives way to a vivid memory of sleeping on the crack whore's chest, as she lay dead.

I feel something on my neck and I whip to catch it and I see I've caught Ana's wrist in a vice like grip and I see the fear in her eyes. I immediately let go. "I'm sorry baby, I didn't mean to, I was just in a... I'm sorry... I had a weird dream last night... I just..." I can't complete my sentence because I don't know how to. Ana comes and stands in front me and I raise my head to look at her. She's standing with a towel wrapped around her body and hair in a messy bun, she puts her hand on my cheek and gives me a small smile. I wrap my arms around her waist, trying to soak her in somehow.

She lowers herself on to my lap and straddles me and pulls me in with one arm around my neck as I nestle into the crook of her neck and just inhale her scent. I need this so much. She doesn't say a word, she just let's me take whatever I need as she runs the other free hand through my hair kisses my cheek. "I'm here for you Christian, I'm here." She whispers into my ear and I crush her to me, I feel tears form in my eyes and I try my best to keep them at bay. We stay like this for I don't know how long. She pulls away and looks me in the eyes and before planting a soft kiss. "I love you Christian." She whispers. "I love you, Ana." I whisper back and kiss her again.

Kate and Ana are hilarious in their morning routine. They have their own language, half spoken sentences met with extreme reactions and laughter. The music is just as outrageous but gets them going. Ana makes us all breakfast; eggs, bacon and toast plus cereal for anyone who wants some. She apologizes for the lack of variety given her inability to do grocery shopping after she came back and that next time she'll be better prepared. She's the best host.

Elliot looks at me "Bro, we're the luckiest sons of bitches alive right now." He says laughing. "Can't disagree with that Lelliot." I'll never disagree with that.

Ana and I say our goodbyes to Kate and Elliot and we make our way to the elevator. She's wearing a green dress that's slightly off the shoulder, her hair blow dried to perfection with blush on her cheeks. She's really blind to how fucking perfect she is. She's engrossed in her phone reading the news and I check out our reflection in the mirror and we look perfect. I push her against the elevator wall and kiss the living shit out of her as I grind into her till we get to the 1st floor, she moans my name and it calls out to my dick. Thankfully we were alone. I let go of her in time for the elevator doors to open and drag her out by the hand, she stumbles a bit and then giggles.

"Something amusing you Miss Steele?" I ask, standing in the lobby, holding her before we head into our out and sit in our respective cars.

"Yes, my boyfriend, Mr. Grey, he can't seem to keep his hands off me. The thought does things to me." She giggles. I love her so fucking much. "When will I see you next baby?" I ask and I know I sound like a lovesick puppy.

"Friday, I promise!" she gives me a quick kiss on the lips and heads to her car.

KK: Hey Christian, I've been thinking, lunch in a public place is not a good idea. What I need to talk to you about will need more than a lunch hour, and it's a heavy discussion. I know Ana is helping out a work friend on Wednesday evening, could I come by Escala?

Oh fuck. I'm suddenly a bit nervous at how serious this conversation is going to be.

CG: Kate, Wednesday evening at Escala is good for me. 6:30pm?

KK: Okay perfect, see you then! Thanks Christian.

AS: I'm back home now. With Mia and Kate. I trust you had a good day at work Mr. Grey?

CG: It was honestly dull, the thought my secret girlfriend 2 floors below me was quite distracting.

AS: I felt the same way about my secret boyfriend, I missed him a little too much. My imagination kept running a little wild.

CG: So was mine, I'd love to compare notes next time we meet.

AS: Consider the agenda set for our next meeting, Sir.

CG: Oh Miss Steele, I miss the taste of your smart mouth.

AS: You'll taste it soon enough. I promise. I must leave you now, I have to go do a facemask and take part in some serious girl-talk with Kate and Mia. No boys allowed. Love you, xo.

CG: I love you, Ana.

Wednesday, December 11th, 2019.

I haven't had my fill of Ana in 3 days now, well technically 2.5 days but whatever. Her being back at the apartment and on her period is not something I'm adjusting well to. Is this what modern dating is? Constant rescheduling and penciling in? No, it's okay like this because we're keeping this under wraps. I have half a mind to have the company policy changed just to make life easier.

It also doesn't help that she's actually is 2 floors down. Images of fucking her on my office table, couches, floor and elevator fill my mind. It needs to be Friday already. I also need to meet with Kate tonight and that in it of itself is something I'm apprehensive about. Not sure of what to expect.

My phone beeps and it's a text from Ana.

AS: Mr. Grey?

CG: Miss Steele, how can I be of service?

AS: Need to talk about something personal. It's urgent. Can I see you for 20 minutes?

Fuck, I hope she's okay.

CG: Yes baby come up. Take the executive elevator from the garage though. Code is 0618, I'll meet you at the elevator.

AS: Okay. See you in a few.

I don't feel nerves like this... ever. It has to be serious if she wants to meet me at work.

I call Andrea and tell her no interruptions for the next hour and walk to exit my office from the back door that's closer to the executive elevator.

A few minutes later the elevator pings and I see Ana, a complete vision. Cream white buttoned blouse, grey pencil skirt and silver patent heels. Sophisticated with an edge, why didn't she say she fit in here? Her hair is in her signature ponytail and her cheeks are flushed with a hint of red on her lips. Her expression is unreadable and I'm concerned.

We walk into the office and she turns to me stopping at the chair across from the couch.

"Are the doors locked?" She looks so small. "Yes baby the are."

"And our voices won't carry from the room right?" She whispers looking down.

"No baby, no one will hear our conversation. Is everything okay Ana?"

She looks up with her beautiful blue eyes and pulls on the lapels of my jacket and crushes her lips to me. What in the holy fuck? Her hands and now in my hair and she immediately lets go of me panting.

"Mr. Grey, please sit on the chair." I follow her instruction. "Slide down a little more, please." I do as she says.

She lifts her skirt and straddles me. "Lay your head back and close your eyes, Mr. Grey. You cannot touch me or look at me. Please tell me you understand." Her voice so innocent and seductive at the same time. My brain is on fire. "Yes Miss Steele I understand." I pant. I feel her fidget and then I hear music, set to low so that only we can hear it's on her phone placed next to my head.

Take it or leave it
Baby take it or leave it
But I know you won't leave it
'Cause I know that you need it
Unh, look in the mirror
When I look in the mirror
Baby I see it clearer
Why you wanna be nearer

I'm not surprised
I sympathize, ah
I can't deny
Your appetite, ah

You got a fetish for my love
I push you out and you come right back
Don't see a point in blaming you
If I were you, I'd do me too

You got a fetish for my love
I push you out and you come right back
Don't see a point in blaming you
If I were you, I'd do me too
You got a fetish for my love

She positions herself and grinds hard and she leans in softly singing in my ear. Fuck. Holy fuck. I thought she didn't want to have sex. I'm lost and confused and horny as fuck right now. She kisses me across my jawline and bites my lips. Grinding to the beat, in a circular motion. "Oh fuck Ana" I moan. This is what dreams are made of.

Reaching your limit
Say you're reaching your limit
Going over your limit
But I know you can't quit it
Something about me
Got you hooked on my body
Take you over and under and twisted up like origami

I'm not surprised
I sympathize, ah
I can't deny
Your appetite, ah

You got a fetish for my love
I push you out and you come right back
Don't see a point in blaming you
If I were you, I'd do me too

You got a fetish for my love
I push you out and you come right back
Don't see a point in blaming you
If I were you, I'd do me too
You got a fetish for my love

She pulls me up and sings against my lips, grinding to the beat and then immediately stops, kissing me only, we're all tongues as she unzips me. And suddenly she pushes me back and kneels between my legs, I'm dying to open my eyes but she'll stop I know she has that level of control. She runs her hands against my thighs and grabs my dick. Oh shit. She kisses the top and swirls her tongues and then suddenly she takes me all in. Fuck does she not have a gag reflex. She takes me in deep, massaging my balls, sucking me and it's so fucking hot. I then feel her tongue on my balls and my makes me jump up and I can sense her smile against me as I feel her moan through my dick. This woman will kill me and I'll die happy.

The way you walk, the way you talk
I blame you 'cause it's all your fault
Ya playin' hard, don't turn me off
Ya acting hard, but I know you soft
You my fetish, I'm so with it
All these rumors bein' spreaded
Might as well go 'head and whip it
'Cause they sayin' we already did it
Call on Gucci if you ever need and
I'll be South Beach in the drop top gleamin'
Water diamonds, Aquafina
Just need you in a blue bikini

You got a fetish for my love
I push you out and you come right back
Don't see a point in blaming you
If I were you, I'd do me too

You got a fetish for my love
I push you out and you come right back
Don't see a point in blaming you
If I were you, I'd do me too
You got a fetish for my love

The music is perfect. As the girl starts to sing again she picks up speed and I feel I'm about to explode. I let go in time as soon as the song ends "oh shitttt baby... fuckkkkk." and my body jerks but Ana keeps her mouth on me and I completely empty in her and she drinks every last drop.

My breathing is out of control I'm panting and desperate and my eyes are tightly shut. I hear her giggle and zip me back up. She straddles back on to me.

"You may open your eyes and touch me Mr. Grey." she says every so sweetly. I open them immediately to find her hovering over me, biting her lip, a drop of my cum at the corner of her mouth and ponytail swept to the front. She's a siren. I take a second to drink her in. I pull her to me and me and invade her mouth and taste myself on her. She moans into my mouth with her hands in my hair. She kisses me urgently pulling on my jacket for dear life but then immediately lets go pushes my shoulders back down.

She gets up from me and straighten hers skirt and retrieving her phone. "Thank you for lunch Mr. Grey, I'll see you later." She says innocently and walks out.

HOLY FUCK. Here I am. Left like a panting fool in my office and barely able to speak. Another first, or a series of firsts to continue hopefully. I've never had sex in my office. I've never had her mouth on my dick. I'm going to need a minute or 15 to recover.

APOV

I walk out of Christian's office half amazed that I pulled that off. Did I really just do that? Fuck. That was an experience for sure. I feel alive and on fire. I feel so undeniably confident. I make my way down to the garage and go to access the public elevators and make my way back to 18th. I stop by the Ladies room before heading back to my desk. I can't help but smile. He's mine. Christian Grey belongs to me and I was able to stun Mr. Hotshot CEO. My phone pings.

CG: I'm in love with a literal goddess.

God, he's such a romantic man. I reply back.

AS: I can still taste you in my mouth.

CG: Oh baby, I'm never going to be able to focus in my office again.

AS: We aim to disrupt and please, Mr. Grey. How did I do for a first timer?

CG: Baby, you've earned a PhD in the field. I look forward to more discussions on this subject matter.

AS: You're so kind Mr. Grey, xo. I'll call you tonight after my shopping date with Barney. Love you!

CG: Be safe, baby.

The rest of the afternoon passes by in a haze. At one point I'm in Mr. Travis's office discussing the agenda for his Friday meeting with other department heads in regards to a series of possible new acquisitions, that GEH is eyeing. Suddenly I hear Mr. Travis's phone beep, he presses to accept the call and sets it to speakerphone. Suddenly I hear Christian's voice, "Travis. Grey. The renewal contract for..." and I can't help but blush and try my best to control my body from responding. God he sounds hot. Luckily Mr. Travis is going over some documents and they honestly could be talking about my little pony at this point because my body has other plans.

How am I going to continue working here I wonder?

I meet with Barney outside GEH for our shopping date. He's so nervous and excited. We head to and find some amazing pieces for him. He's so shy but all he needs is some confidence and he can have it all. Club Monaco also ends up being a hit. I can't wait for him to now get a decent haircut and a facial. Just a little polish can go a long way I tell him. We get sushi for dinner and talk about our families and time at college. I feel such a kinship with Barney, he's a sweet soul, only a few years older than me and incredibly kind. He's definitely one of my favorites at GEH. I give him some pointers for conversation starters and we practice, he stumbles every now and then but he's on his way to success.

CPOV

A million scenarios run through my mind in anticipation for this meeting with Kate. I can feel it in my bones that it's not going to be good. Or is really my guilt of keeping the BDSM lifestyle hidden from Ana that's projecting itself on to everything. Fuck me.

When I get back to Escala , Gail has prepared and set out a cheese board and some other appetizers for Kate's arrival. I get a bottle wine out and pour myself a glass to calm the nerves.

6:23PM, Taylor messages me that Kate is on her way up. Showtime.

Kate walks out of the elevator and makes her way to the great room.

"Hey Christian, thanks so much for meeting with me" she says softly and we half hug.

"Sure Kate, thank you for changing the venue, this is a safe space. Will Elliot be joining us? I ask, secretly hoping he won't.

She looks down, "No he won't, I don't know how he will react if I tell him all this info about Ana, he sees her as if she were another Mia and I can't bear to see him in pain over it. It is also breaking my heart to tell you but now that you're in Ana's life, it's imperative you have this info because she herself doesn't realize much of this stuff that I'm about to tell you."

Holy fuck. I'm going to need something stronger to drink.

"I understand. Would you like some wine?" I ask. "Oh god, yes please, I'm going to definitely need wine..." Kate says. I pour her a glass and carry the bottle with the cheese board to the couches to begin.

"First thing's first..."


Authors Note: Bet y;all got used to all the chapters that ended all nicely wrapped up with a bow and I love yous, hehe. I had initially thought I'd include Kate's conversation in this chapter but it's really... heavy so I decided to split it into two chapters. Drama... so much drama and tears coming up starting with next chapter.

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Music

Congrtulations - Post Malone feat. Quavo

Fetish - Selena feat. Gucci Mane.