P as Parallels

Nowadays - In the unremarkable house

"No, Mulder! Don't bring back parallel universes!"

"Wait, what? You're unfair, Scully..."

"Stop your bat crap crazyness. It's just what I'm saying."

"Don't bat crap me neither, Scully. It's science. Hard science. Hypothetical but physics and mathematics."

"That's all you have to justify your nutty Sasquatch theory?"

"I'm just looking for new theories... I'm keeping an open mind. I'm drawing parallels and from that I..."

"...Drawing parallels? Mulder, have you ever imagine a universe where our paths are strictly parallel lines. Never reaching each other. Always apart."

"Too painful. I'd prefer the one where they are intersecting lines. We just cross our paths once, for a brief but intense sexy moment."

"And what about our universe? Is it worth it?"

"I don't want another universe, Scully. We had convoluted and chaotic trajectories since we collided into each other. There were some missteps and disconnections but we are now on the same smooth straight happy path."

"Have we ever followed parallel paths for a while? Being apart but moving into the same direction, at the same distance from each other?"

"I'm sure of that, Scully."


Spring 2000 - In an alien ship/In Mulder's apartment

[Mulder]

Once again awaken on this damn hell chair. For how long this time? For how many sufferings? Why these fucking aliens don't keep me on drugs until the end? Until my end...

Scully? Scully...

Maybe it's my blessing. To quit the numbness of the drugs. To quit this dreamless limbo. So I can be with you, Scully. You with me. In my mind and heart and senses. To feel you as if you were just a few inches or yards or miles from me. Out there. Not far. Looking for me.

Scullay! Scullay!

[Scully]

All I want is to disappear. Right now. For as long as needed. To melt into your shirt and your bed. Mulder...

To sleep and forgot my loss. To quit that damn harsh reality. To enter a dreamy limbo. So I can be with you, Mulder. You with me. In my mind and heart and senses.

If I close my eyes I can see you. I can reach you.

Mulder? Mulder!

[Mulder]

It's so cold, Scully. It's a freezing hell. It's unbearable, Scully...

I remember you in that alien pod. Naked. Frozen. How you almost died in my arms. When you rescue me, Scully, don't forget to bring me a snow parka.

Scullay!

I'm freezing but my heart is still warm. Burning with love. Our love. They can't take it. They can't test it. They can't shrink it. Scully, keep my heart warm and alive.

[Scully]

My heart is cold. My blood is freezing. Your absence is unbearable, Mulder...

I remember you on this operation table. Naked. Crucified. How you almost died on your cross. I will rescue you once again, Mulder. I will help you, I will get you up.

Mulder...

I'm shivering on your bed but my womb is warm. A flame is burning in it. A life is growing inside. Our baby. Our love child. Mulder, stay warm and alive.

[Mulder]

I can't move. These fucking aliens have crucified me on that chair. All I can do is open my eyes. To stare into the darkness. To contemplate my own damnation.

Scully, I'm a prisoner. I'm punished for my arrogance. For my faith in my quest. For the truths I have seeked.

Scully...

A deadly damnation for not having stepped away when it was still time. Time to live another life. A normal life with you, Scully. A freer life for both of us. For our couple. Time to nurture our love in an endless world.

Scully? I was a fool and I am a culprit. Would you ever forgive me?

Scullay! Scullay!

[Scully]

I don't want to move. I don't want to get away from your bed. From your den. I close my eyes and I see you. Lying on that bed. Gazing at me. Contemplating my body.

Mulder, I'm unsettled. I'm both free and tied. I'm both condemned and rewarded. I carry the burden of your abduction and I carry your child.

Mulder...

I'm blessed with a miracle. Another life. A chance to live a normal life. A child to nurture with an endless love. I'm damned for my extreme expectations. For wanting a blissful life for both of us. For our couple.

Mulder? I am guilty. To have let you go back in Oregon and not stop you when it was still time. Time to make you step out of your quest. Will I ever forgive me?

Mulder... Oh, Mulder...

[Mulder]

Scully, the smell is awful. It stinks. I stink. There's the strong smell of dried blood. Of fresh blood and burned skin. And also... No, I don't want to identify the odors. It's so horrible.

Scully...

That chair is just stone. It's hard. It's sharp. It hurts. There's all the piercing metal. The nails, the wires, the screws, the... No... It's so abominable.

Scullay! Scullay!

[Scully]

Mulder, the smell on your shirt is a drug. To get high. To ease my pain. There's the faint smell of your dried sweat. Of the unique flavor of your skin. I want to deeply inhale every bits of your scent. It's so addictive.

Mulder...

Your pillow is just fabrics. But it's comfy. It's soft. It cures me. I can dive into its silkiness. It's so soothing.

Mulder...

[Mulder]

They won't be long to bring back their torture devices. To break the silence. To make me agonize and scream. I just want a moment of peace and reprieve.

[Scully]

I just want a moment of peace and quietness. Before coming back to the reality and resuming my search for you. Before crying and agonizing.

[Mulder]

I'm asking for still seconds. For a heavenly eternity contained in one heartbeat. Like the one I lived staring at you. Holding my own breath while you held Teresa's baby in Oregon. A vision expanding the possibilities of my whole future with you, in a heartbeat. My red-hair Madonna in a FBI black suit and a white blouse...

[Scully]

I want to pause time forever. To keep holding your striped shirt endlessly. The shirt that makes you a so gorgeous FBI's Agent. The one I love so much. The one you had on when you stared at me. Holding Teresa's baby in Oregon. When I saw in your eyes my whole world expanding into possibilities I'd never dare to expect before.

[Mulder]

I remember the two blissful days that had followed ...

[Scully]

...once we came back from Oregon.

[Mulder]

Two days off.

[Scully]

Just us. Together.

[Mulder and Scully]

We couldn't help ourselves. We couldn't stop touching each other. Exploring each other bodies. Murmuring sweet words in each other ears. Moaning with pleasure. Shouting our names in ecstasy.

Coming back to Oregon where all has started. Seven years of work being weighed by an accountant.

That was challenging our priorities.

We were insatiable. We were passionate. We didn't want to keep losing time. There was so much love to share. So much love to come.

I was still worried for you, for your faints and dizziness. But you kept saying you were fine.

If only I had known I was pregnant. If only I had deciphered the signs my body was sending to me.

On these two blissful days we had expanded our perspectives. We had envisionned our future. We had seen an endless world of love.

And fate has tricked us.