Thank you all for the lovely reviews I hope you're liking this. I know some people have requested that they want to know what happened when Carla was away, I am currently incorporating it and it should take place around chapter 21, so keep tuned for that.
It was a few weeks later and Carla was refusing to face up to her current predicament and to be blunt about it Peter was reaching the final straw. He had been calm and considerate when dealing with Carla but he needed to know what she was going to do about the baby growing inside of her; they both always struggled to bring it up. The situation was brought to a head today as when Peter woke at five, panic set in at first but then he heard the gut-wrenching heaving from the bathroom, he knelt down beside her grabbing her toothbrush from the pot and putting a generous amount of toothpaste on it ready for when she had finished vomiting.
"Here" Peter smiles handing it to Carla as she smiles brushing her teeth before sighing in annoyance
"Sorry about that, if I scared you" Carla replies as Peter nods grabbing the hairbrush and brushing her hair, this was one of the tactics Sandra, Carla's counsellor, suggested to use to get Carla used to Peter touching her again
"I think we should talk about it don't you?"
"I guess" she replies dismissively as Peter continues to brush her hair allowing her to fall back into his body
"Do you want to keep it?"
"I can't get rid of it" she states as Peter nods slowly knowing she would most likely be reluctant to get rid of ii "What do you think I should do?"
"I can't make that decision for you, Carla. It's your body, you have to carry that baby"
"You think I should get rid of it don't you?" Carla replies somewhat hurt as Peter shakes his head taking her hand and placing it on her tummy
"That's your baby, a piece of you. If you want to keep it then I am with you, even if I am not it's biological father"
"I just worry about you" Carla smiles as Peter kisses her on the head
"Why?"
"Well I don't want you to resent it because it's not yours, I know it sounds harsh but…"
"It doesn't. It's a perfectly reasonable statement on your part" Peter smiles as Carla groans in response before kneeling down and throwing up into the toilet
"Done?"
"Mmm" Carla responds standing up again and falling into his embrace "We could just lie"
"How do you mean?"
"Well we could tell people that you're the father, only me, you and 'Chelle would know otherwise"
"Yeah I mean, it's up to you, it's your baby" Peter responds as Carla sighs in response
"Peter if you want to be this baby's father then please be a little more enthusiastic" Carla murmurs against his chest as Peter sighs, it was difficult for him he wanted to be happy but right now it was just hard for him to come to terms with it
"Sorry" he starts "it's just a lot to take in"
"I should probably book a scan in the morning" Carla suggests as Peter nods going along with it wanting to support her as Evie's cries interrupt them
"She's probably hungry" Carla smiles as Peter nods kissing her forehead and going downstairs to make her bottle leaving Carla to calm Evie a bit
"Oh sweetheart I know you're hungry, daddy's gone to get you a bottle so don't worry" Carla reassures her as Peter appears handing Carla the bottle for her to feed Evie, Carla gagging slightly
"I think I'm going to be sick again, can you?" Carla questions as Peter chuckles taking Evie as Carla dashes to the bathroom to be sick, returning a short while later
"Why don't you get some more sleep? I'll put her back to bed"
"You don't mind?"
"No, you need your rest. You need to do anything to help grow our baby" Peter smiles as Carla smiles back, her heartwarming at the fact Peter said that the baby was theirs
"Alright, goodnight Evie, I'll see you later baby" Carla smiles as she heads into the bedroom
A few hours later and both Carla and Peter were awake both of them snuggled under the duvet as Evie sleeps peacefully in the cot when they glanced to the baby monitor on the bedside table, Peter was holding Carla close in case she felt out of sorts again but she just continued to stare intently into his eyes causing a cheeky grin to appear on his face, She leaned up and kissed him on the lips her tongue roaming over them as she sucks on them moving a hand to his hair; her fingernails grazed his scalp as Peter pulled her in closer knowing that she wanted to feel close.
"Are you sure?" Peter pulls back as Carla nods "I'll go really slow, tell me to stop if you need me to"
"I will" she smiles as Peter presses his lips against hers, his tongue massaging hers as he moves a hand to the hem of her makeshift nightwear; a long t-shirt of his, he pulled it up so it was bunched around her waist
"Are you ok?" Peter questions as Carla nods bringing his head down to her neck, allowing him to continue with arousing her, Peter pulling her underwear off as she moans at the cool heat against her aching centre, relieving the heat which was building there
"Please" Carla begs as Peter traces his hand around her entrance causing a lustful gasp to emit from her lips, Peter nipping at the neck on her skin as she moans, Peter inserting a finger into her pulling some of her juices out and massaging them into her clit her body tensing slightly as he does
"You ok?"
"Yep"
Peter grabs his length after removing his boxers and rubs it between her folds causing Carla to groan in frustration as she bucks her hips on his length, Peter poising it at her entrance as he pushes into her letting her feel an inch of him at a time; Carla gasping in response
"I'll go at your pace" Peter whispers as Carla nods unable to speak as she rocks her hips against his, feeling him slide in and out of her as she whimpers before freezing, her eyes shooting open as she pushes Peter off her frantically before gasping and leaning her head against his forehead
"It's ok" Peter smiles bringing her into his body as she shakes in fear, Peter rubbing her back comfortingly to calm her "We've stopped"
"Thank you"
"You don't need to thank me. Are you ok?" Peter questions as Carla groans in response before jumping out of bed and heading to the bathroom to throw up, Peter pulling her hair out of the way
"This is worse than Evie" Carla moans as Peter chuckles slightly grabbing a brush and brushing her hair
"Do you want me to get Evie?" Peter questions as Carla hums in response; Peter leaving the room to collect Evie before returning with her to place her on the bed with Carla
"Hey princess" Carla smiles lifting her so she was sat on the top of her legs, Carla rubbing her stomach gently to ease her nausea
"Come here" Peter smiles taking Evie off Carla
"I'm going to get a hot water bottle I think" Carla sighs as Peter nods allowing her to slide out of bed as he coos over Evie who was resting on his chest whimpering to herself
"I'm back" Carla smiles holding up her hot water bottle pouting her lips noticing Evie was whimpering to herself "What's up with her?"
"She wants a cuddle from her Mummy" Peter laughs as Carla places her hot water bottle on her tummy turning to face Evie who smiles at her, Carla stroking her cheek tenderly
"Hey baby" Carla smiles as Peter grins down at both of his girls
"I guess I better get the bar ready, are you ok being left on your own" Peter asks knowing it would be the first time she would be on her own since it happened
"Yeah I think 'Chelle's giving me and Evie a lift into town when I go and see Sandra" Carla smiles as Peter nods in response handing Evie over to her who cuddles up to the hot water bottle which was easing Carla's nausea
"Just call me if you don't feel right ok?" Peter smiles kissing her forehead as Carla smiles patting Evie's back gently
"We'll be fine, I'll book that scan whilst we snuggle, do any days suit you?"
"Maybe earlier on in the week?" Peter questions putting some clothes on as Carla nods grabbing her laptop and putting it to her side being careful not to disturb Evie
"Right be good for Mummy you" Peter smiles pointing to Evie as he leaves the room to get the bar ready for the day, bumping into Michelle who let herself in with the spare keys "Oh hi Michelle"
"Is she up yet? We're meant to be heading off at 11 and I know I'm early but I thought she might want to do some shopping beforehand?"
"Yeah she's up, she's just cuddling Evie in bed as well as booking a scan" Peter whispers as Michelle nods slowly
"So she's keeping it then?" Michelle asks quietly as Peter nods running a hand through his hair
"She's very sensitive so just go easy on her" Peter smiles as Michelle nods grabbing her bag and heading upstairs seeing Carla and Evie cuddling in bed as Carla fiddles around on her laptop
"Hey," Michelle says quietly as Carla frowns glancing at the alarm clock at the side "I decided to come early, I thought you might want to do some shopping before you see Sandra?"
"Yeah I guess we could, I want to stock up on some more 6-month clothes for Evie as well as get some more leggings for me" Carla smiles as Michelle nods sliding into bed next to her
"Peter said you're keeping the baby"
"I can't get rid of it 'Chelle, I know that if I went to a clinic to get rid of it I would just come away still pregnant" Carla sighs as Michelle nods fiddling with one of Evie's hands as she smiles at her
"That's a very well thought out decision, how do you feel about it?"
"I'm happy with my decision, I know I would never see, you know, again so that relieves me a bit that I didn't know him. If that makes sense, the baby would be none the wiser?"
"I'll back you whatever you need, you know that?"
"Yeah I know, I actually just booked the scan it's September 1st" Carla smiles as Michelle nods slowly running a hand through her hair as Evie looks up at her "Do you want to have a cuddle with Auntie 'Chelle whilst I get ready?"
"We don't have to go, you look comfortable" Michelle smiles as Carla nods slowly
"I might just take Evie for a walk, let her soak up some sun as the weather's hot outside" Carla smiles as Michelle nods taking Evie off Carla. Evie laughing at Michelle who pulls funny faces at her.
"Gosh I feel rough" Carla moans as Michelle chuckles slightly Evie squealing in excitement
"Why don't you stay in and I take Evie out? Or she could come with us to see Sandra, I'm sure she'll love to see her as you talk about her a lot"
"Yeah I might do that, bring Evie in with me" Carla smiles as Michelle bounces Evie up and down on her lap "I also need to make some brekkie as well before Peter starts whinging that I haven't eaten anything"
"Why don't I do that whilst you get ready, I'll get Evie dressed as well" Michelle smiles as Carla nods grabbing some clothes and heading into the bathroom to get ready as Michelle takes Evie downstairs holding her on her hip as she makes breakfast for Carla
"I think I'll give Mummy a little bit of everything" Michelle smiles pecking Evie's head as she rests it on Michelle's shoulder
"What's this?" Carla questions, her hair scraped back into a ponytail as Michelle smiles at her, giving her Evie so that she could have a cuddle
"I've made you some toast, scrambled eggs and a couple of slices of bacon, is that ok?" Michelle questions as Carla nods sitting down at the table as Michelle places the plate in front of her, taking Evie so she could eat in peace
"Mmm this is lovely 'Chelle, thank you" Carla smiles as Evie clings onto a piece of Michelle's hair, shoving it into her mouth "You want to watch her"
"Oh, Evie" Michelle gasps prying her hair away from her grip "Look what you've done!"
"Hmm she can be a bit of pain when it comes to hair, that's why mines up" Carla laughs shoving food onto her fork and putting it into her mouth as Evie giggles again
"She's a poppet though, she's very curious about everything, you'll have to get toys to go in her pram" Michelle laughs as Carla nods getting up quickly and grabbing a bag and handing it to Michelle
"There's some in there I just haven't had the time to attach them yet, it's been so hectic over the last month" Carla smiles as Michelle nods getting the toys out the packet, Evie's eyes lighting up at the sight of them
"She likes them" Michelle laughs waving one of the toys in front of Evie's face as she tried to grip onto it "Do you want me to put them in her pram?"
"Yeah, we need to think about getting her a bigger one, she should be ok until she reaches around 6 months" Carla shrugs as Michelle nods taking Evie's car seat and attaching the toys to the arm ready for it to go into the frame "I like that one as it's easily portable, you just lift the car seat off and you can take it anywhere"
"Yeah I mean it's pretty good, I wish I had stuff like this when I had Ryan"
"Hmm I remember that massive atrocity of a pram you had" Carla laughs as Michelle rolls her eyes, of course, she was going to bring that up
"That thing was awful, it took at least three of us to shift it through the front door, I just ended up carrying Ryan most of the time"
"I remember I just let you struggle with it most of the time, I found it hilarious"
"I know you did!" Michelle laughs hysterically "I wouldn't change it at all. Now you're here with your daughter and another one on the way, how times change eh?"
"Yeah, I just-" Carla starts getting up to close the door "-worry about Peter. We had a little disagreement earlier about the baby and stuff, I think he wants me to get rid of it."
"It's bound to be difficult on him sweetheart, you just need to be honest with each other and it's your body, don't let him pressurise you not that he would"
"I think we're on the same page now because we did talk it through, maybe it will be different when it's born, I don't know" Carla shrugs picking away at her nails before taking her plate out to the kitchen and placing it in the dishwasher for it to be washed
"It's probably just hard for him to bond with it because he knows it's not biologically his, give him time then he'll learn to fall in love with it, it's like when I got with other blokes after Dean, Ryan was always sceptical but right now-"
"Carla!" Simon huffs as Carla raises an eyebrow "Where's dad?"
"He should be out in the bar…?"
"Well, he's not!" Simon rolls his eyes as Michelle bites her lip bouncing Evie up and down in her arms
"Alright!" Carla retorts "I'll go and check in the cellar"
"Thank you Carla" Simon groans taking a seat on the sofa as Carla rolls her eyes, heading out into the bar briefly before going down into the cellar
"Peter!"
"Hey, love" Peter smiles "I was just getting another barrel, everything ok?"
"Simon's in the back, he's not happy" Carla folds her arms as Peter nods lifting the barrel up "Need a hand?"
"Yeah go on then" Peter laughs as Carla helps him lift the barrel up the stairs "Tell him I'll just attach this then I'll be with him"
"Alright" Carla smiles pecking him on the cheek before sauntering off into the backroom seeing Simon on his phone "Your dad's just sorting out one of the barrels then he'll be with you, I'll leave you here, me and 'Chelle are going to head out anyway"
"Alright" Simon mumbles "Sorry for shouting"
"It's ok. Come here Evie" Carla smiles taking her from Michelle as they both go into the lobby, Carla strapping Evie in her pram and attaching her changing bag to the frame then grabbing "Right let's head off"
Michelle drove Carla into town where her counselling session was taking place, helping her with Evie knowing how hard it could be when doing it on your own. Carla's nerves were starting to heighten she knew she was just being silly and that she had a good relationship with Sandra but her nerves always made everything seem so much worse than it was, Carla decided to hold Evie wanting some comfort.
"Hi Carla" Sandra approaches her as Michelle smiles gesturing for her to go with Sandra
"Sorry, I had to bring her with me…"
"It's fine" Sandra smiles as Carla nods picking up the changing bag "Why don't we come into my room, you can cuddle with Evie whilst we talk?"
"I'd like that" Carla confirms as Sandra gestures for her to go into the room
"I'll be back in a couple of hours" Michelle smiles as Carla nods taking Evie into the room; a room filled with comfortable sofas, stress toys and bundles of cushions
"Take a seat Carla" Sandra smiles as Carla nods, placing Evie on her lap as she gurgles up at her Carla cooing over her
"I wouldn't usually bring Evie but I had no choice, I hope that's ok?" Carla smiles as Sandra nods with a small smile on her face "Hopefully she'll be well behaved"
"She's lovely. How have you been this past week then?"
"Alright really, me and Peter have been talking about the baby a bit which has been difficult but I think we're on the same page now" Carla smiles as Evie giggles at her, gripping her t-shirt
"That's good, what decisions did you come up with then?" Sandra questions as Evie glances to her with a smile on her face, Carla rubbing her hair gently
"Peter was wondering if I was keeping the baby as we hadn't spoken about it since I came out of hospital, I think I shocked him when I said that I was" Carla smiles as Sandra nods, Carla grabbing a toy for Evie to hold while they talk
"How did that make you feel?"
"I don't know really, quite hurt but at the same time I knew I couldn't get rid of it even if Peter wasn't the father and the baby wasn't conceived consensually, I just hope I've made the right decision"
"It's a big decision to make. Do you feel like, with other people's opinions aside, it's the right decision for you?"
"Yes" Carla replies firmly "I just worry in case he favours Evie over this baby because she's biologically his, this one isnt and I just want to live in an environment where everyone is happy with my choice I guess"
"That's understandable with everything you've been through. I have an idea if you're willing to give it a go?"
"Hmm" Carla narrows her eyes "Depends what it is?"
"Why won't you bring Peter to one of your sessions with me and we can just talk about things which are bothering the both of you about this whole situation"
"Hmm I'll put it to him but I don't think he'll be interested" Carla mutters as Evie starts to whimper on her lap as she drops her toy on the floor, Carla rolling her eyes and handing it back to her
"Why don't you try? I think it would really benefit both of you" Sandra compromises as Carla sighs in response glancing to Evie
"Fine" Carla rolls her eyes
"So how have you been doing?" Sandra questions as Carla sighs in response thinking back to how she felt over the last week "You can say whatever you like I won't judge"
"Well me and Peter we tried to, you know, but I freaked out and felt uncomfortable" Carla mumbles pulling her sleeves down over her hands as Sandra smiles at her gently "I just wanted to feel normal"
"I know it's hard for you, but you need to recognise the progress that you've made since you were raped and you have made such tremendous progress Carla"
"You reckon?"
"I do, you were very anxious when I first met you and quiet now you can speak openly about what happened to you, that in itself is a lot of progress don't you think?"
"I guess so" Carla shrugs dismissively as Sandra smiles at her "I should know how to recover from it thought shouldn't I? It's not like it's the first time it happened"
"Every experience is different," Sandra says as Carla sighs in response "Is there anything you want to ask me?"
"No, not really, I should really be more prepared shouldn't i?"
"Why don't you write things down during the week if you think of something? That way we can discuss it"
"Yeah I might do that actually" Carla smiles glancing down to Evie who was starting to get tired, Carla adjusting her so she could sleep a bit better
"Good now I want you to go home, talk to Peter then hopefully next week we can start making a bit more progress yeah?"
"Alright" Carla smiles lifting Evie up and holding her on her hip then grabbing the changing bag "I'll see you next week, with or without Peter"
