He looked at her with respect and smiled. "How did you get so smart?" Rose laughed, "Mum called it baby brain. It happens when you're pregnant. Remind me to tell you about the eyes in the back of my head!" He laughed but was still hurting inside.
Chapter 22 Contentment
She held his face and kissed him slowly, lovingly, wanting to take away the pain she saw behind his eyes. She looked at him shyly and said, "You know, it's been three months, and Alice is sleeping…" The fire in her eyes sparked his own. "Are you sure?" he asked honestly.
Life had been a bit hectic after Alice was born, being such an advanced child she needed almost constant care and attention, and making love was just not on the top of her list.
She kissed him again, gently, and felt the beating of his hearts quicken. Her hands began unbuttoning his shirt and pulling it open. She began kissing her way past his ear to his neck in small sweet circles. Running her hands along his collar bone. He shivered with hunger for her. It had been a long time for both of them. He shook his head breathing rapidly, his eyes hungry, "Last chance." Giving her time to change her mind.
Straddling to his lap in response she began to unbutton his trousers. He grabbed her waist a bit roughly in eagerness, kissing her lips and throat, pulling off her blouse and bra. Her breasts had stretch marks, but were still firm and full. Alice had long ago not needed them, and her milk had stopped. Another advantage of an advanced child.
His mouth and hands wandered over both of them unable to choose, sending shivers up her spine. He was surprised by his own lack of control, desperately needing to touch every inch of her. They stood, him reaching for the zipper on her pants. Rose had already opened his, they dropped to the floor with his boxers.
The pile of clothes that quickly accumulated on the floor was covered by the couch cushions as they built a comfortable nest on which to lay. Sinking gently to the floor with urgent kisses and caresses. They moaned together as their skin met for the first time in months. The feel of her under him again was exquised, the feeling of him on top of her was glorious. Their desire carried them to paradise. No words were spoken. None were needed as they joined together in ecstasy. It was over all too quickly.
They lay in each other's arms waiting for their breathing to return to normal. He looked at her lovingly, "I don't understand how I could go for 750 years without, and now, I can hardly stand a few months without feeling you beneath me." He sighed in surrender, "I missed you so much."
He rolled onto her for another moment to capture her lips in a deep lingering kiss. She pushed him onto his back to finish it. "Don't ask me. Another week and you wouldn't have been given an option." She rolled off him and they started to laugh, still recovering their breath.
He leaned up on his arm to look at her body. Blimey she was beautiful. He felt compelled to touch the softness and warmth of her skin. Stroking her face, idly letting his fingers trail gently down over a breast and then end at the paunch of her stomach. Stretch marks the only other sign of her pregnancy. She had worked hard to lose the baby fat, and while it would never again be what it was, she had managed to regain most of her old curves. She moaned with pleasure, his cool touch on her hot skin. He was weak with longing for her still.
"You've awakened something in me wife." he said, gently touching her cheek. She sensually rubbed her face into his hand and then over her lips. "Is that good or bad?", kissing his fingertips. His face grew serious, "I honestly don't know. You, uh... it, feels right, but I'm afraid of what I may be capable of now. All my emotions are getting stronger. I don't know how much I can control them anymore."
"You've been suppressing them for the last 900 years. It may take a while for you to learn how to harness them." Rose shook her head in sympathy.
The shadow of his regrets still lingered in his head. He pulled her to him, throwing a leg over and wrapping his arms around her, kissing her face. "I love you so much Rose. Please tell me you will always believe it. No matter how I act or what I say. I can be so stupid sometimes." She growled ready to correct his statement. He smiled, "It must be the Time Lord in me."
She laughed, overjoyed at the new perspective he had. "I love you husband. We'll find our way together. All in all, I think we have a pretty good life here." Alice began to cry and all thoughts of an encore performance were left behind... for now.
He got up and grabbed his clothes. "I'll get her." The Time Lord went to Alice's room and picked her up gently. She had tears streaming down her face and it broke his heart. "Now, now, little one. No need for that. Daddy's here sweetheart." He looked at his daughter with tears of gratitude starting in his eyes. The luckiest man in the universe. "Daddy will always be here for you." He held her tight and kissed her as she looked around the room, still drowsy from her nap and rubbing the sleep from her eyes.
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Rose left Alice's room and came down the stairs. "Husband? Alice would like you to tuck…" She had reached the bottom of the stairs, but he wasn't there. She checked in the kitchen, the Tardis. Where could he be? Looking out the window she saw him on the bench in front of the house.
As she approached him, she could see he was stargazing. She didn't know if she should disturb him or not. It was a fine night. Warm, with just a slight breeze. The stars were beautiful. When you're on a planet with no light pollution, you can see so many stars it's almost like being in flight on the Tardis. She came within a few yards of him.
"Husband?" she said quietly to test his perception of her. He didn't respond and she turned to leave him to his thoughts. "Rose? Where are you going? Come and sit with me wife." He held out his hand to her. She smiled and snuggled up next to him on the bench. Alice would be asleep by now anyway.
"I'm sorry if I disturbed you." He looked down at her head on his shoulder and kissed her forehead. "Your disturbance has nothing to do with your presence. You are always in my thoughts, like, air in my lungs, only more important." He put his arm around her to feel her warmth and bring her closer.
They both sat and looked at the stars. Rose, as always, had a question she wanted to ask, but was hesitant. It would be painful, hearing the answer she expected. Still, she wanted to know. "Do you miss it?" she said sadly. "Do I miss what?" he replied, still looking up. "All of time and space." Rose paused to see his reaction, which was none, so she pushed forward. "I've domesticated you good and proper haven't I? A wife, a house, a child. You told me once that was your idea of hell."
"Did I?" He said absently. "Well…Then I was an ignorant, self-absorbed fool." Normally she would object when he berated himself, but this time she agreed.
"Then you don't miss the excitement? The running for your life, the discovery of new worlds and ideas?" He looked at her and smiled. "It sounds to me like you're the one missing it."
"Ok, you caught me." She admitted. "I was in the Tardis the other day, and the sounds and smells made me think of all the fun we had when we were free. I knew if I was feeling that way, then you must be too. Do you ever wish you were still free to roam?"
He chuckled, "I had 800 years of that kind of fun. Trust me, it gets old." She gave him a disbelieving look, and he smiled. "Well… There are times I miss the beauty of it all. There's nothing like having a nebula splashed out in front of you." He sighed to himself then turned to her. "But they have nothing on your beautiful eyes."
She wondered if he could see her blush. "So, you're not bored to death, after living with just me and your books for so long?" He looked at her with mock seriousness, "Just you…? Rose Tyler, you are so lucky I'm a pacifist. You'd get a right good smack for saying something like that to me." She fenced back, "Oh, you think so? Well you could try!"
He grinned and pulled her to him. She breathed in the scent of him as he squeezed her tight, and sighed. "I've never been so content Rose." He pulled away to look hard into her in the eyes.
"Do you really think, there is anything out there, that compares to the intoxication of having you in my bed?"
An expression of marvel lit his face. "Is there anything so wondrous, as helping you give birth to our child?"
He paused and put his hand on hers. "Is there anything more precious, in all the universe, than that little girl upstairs, and the excitement of watching her grow into an incredible woman?"
He pulled her close again, "If you were to grant me my freedom this moment, it would be like torture to me. To be away from the both of you…. I don't want to be anywhere else in the universe you'd care to name." He kissed her gently and then turned back to the stars.
She was awe struck by his words and could think of nothing to add. They sat on the bench until Rose fell asleep, and he carried her inside.
