A/N: Please read this as it will explain what will happen in the next 6 chapter updates:
Sincerely Yours follows the calendar for updates, we decided to place in fillers until the next chapter that fits the main storyline, and still keep up with updating twice a week.
These fillers belong to the same AU, but don't necessarily belong in the current timeline. We have fillers that explain more on their past, and little interactions that don't fit into the main plot that we wanted to have. The idea of fillers actually came about when our friends in the BoruSara Discord server mentioned that this story had arcs. Hahaha!
Tyy and I had fun writing these fillers, some are more serious than the others and the genre for each filler changes accordingly. We hope you enjoy them, too. :)
We don't own Naruto/Boruto.
Just another day at the office—another long day, forcing Boruto to work after hours in order to settle a sudden inventory crisis. Of course, Boruto had asked Sarada to stay as well and help him settle things and that ended in the two of them having dinner together in his office, eating and talking more than actually getting anything done.
It was better to talk over a meal in good company, they could always breeze through the work afterward and tonight they were actually taking the time to get to know each other more. It all started with them exchanging silly stories from the childhoods and Boruto admitted to Sarada how he used to be such a brat, always causing trouble for his dad just to do it and she told him about how she used to sneak food outside for a stray cat that somehow turned into a dozen different cats that her parents had been shocked to find.
Boruto liked the thought of her wanting to care for those helpless kittens, making sure they were fed and given attention any chance she got. He laughed when she smugly stated that she found each and every one of the kittens forever homes that were safe and loving. It was cute and it really made him smile.
The conversation deepened soon enough, from silly childhood stories to slightly more controversial topics. "Being a troublemaker means you got a lot of attention from people, I'm sure." Sarada laughed. "It makes me wonder why you aren't dating, honestly."
She was definitely taking a shot at him, and while Boruto was unsure of the best way to respond to her, he knew he couldn't just say nothing. "Don't tell me you want to exchange tragic, ancient love stories too." He muttered, giving her a knowing look.
Her dark eyes lit up and she smirked. "It sounds like you have your fair share. But why not," Sarada stretched and looked outside of his office. "No one will be around to hear it, anyway. Would you want to go first, or should I?"
"You." He said easily, unable to think of anything relationship wise that he would want to share with anyone, including her.
Sarada tilted her head to the side and averted her gaze. Leaning back on the chair, she sighed. "I have a number, but I'll tell you the most recent, which isn't so recent." Although she wanted to sound casual about it, there was no mistaking it still hurt her to recall. "My first boyfriend, back in high school… he cheated on me, and it really changed my view on love, you know? I never thought someone I put all my trust in would do something like that to me… But, that isn't the main story, sorry… I didn't date for a good year after that. When I graduated and got into university, I met someone and we really hit it off."
She grinned and picked at her food for a bit. "We did everything together. Spent so much time together. When you're young and in love, you get all these wild ideas like traveling the world together and moving in. I really thought 'this is it. He's the one'."
Boruto's brow twitched and he took a bite of his chicken to keep himself from saying anything. He really did have a word vomiting issue. It surprised him to hear Sarada speaking of someone this way. He didn't like it, but he was curious and wanted to know what happened to them.
"We stayed together well until after university. He got delayed and had to stay, while I found work here in Ichiraku. It was hard trying to work and come and see him. But we made it work, at least, I thought I did." Sarada refused to look at Boruto. "How we broke up was kind of weird. We didn't fight or have any tension between us beforehand, it was like… he just woke up one day and decided he didn't love me anymore."
"The fuck?" Boruto scoffed, the words slipping out before he could stop them. "I mean… what? That doesn't even make sense." How could anyone just wake up one morning and not love someone anymore—especially Sarada.
Sarada laughed and had a sip of her drink. "I know, that's what all my friends said. As I said, it was weird. You don't just stop loving someone one day, right?"
"No… you don't." He agreed quietly, setting his fork down. "But love is hard. It's complicated… and downright frightening."
She nodded thoughtfully. "It is, but it's also wonderful. Imagine, baring your heart and soul to someone like that." Sarada shuddered and went back to her food. "Anyway, looking back, maybe I should have fought for us a little more but that just pulled the rug under me and we stopped talking after that conversation. I… I haven't heard from him since." She paused to chew and swallow her food, watching his reactions closely. "I wanted to give up working here for him, you know? He was about to graduate and got a job three cities away. I wanted to quit and move to be with him. It was a good thing I didn't."
"I can't believe you even considered something like that." Boruto gawked at her. His appetite had been replaced by nausea and his face showed exactly how he felt about it. It was too hard to believe that Sarada of all people was that in love… to consider quitting her work and moving just for some guy.
The corner of her lips tugged up, her voice lowering. "I loved him that much." Sarada sighed and shifted in her seat. "But that was the end of it, and I thought to myself, I don't want to put myself in that much of a disadvantage anymore. I focused on my career and barely made time for dating since. I guess I just… I don't want to get hurt like that anymore."
"I understand," Boruto said under his breath. He could relate to wanting to protect yourself from that kind of pain. He never wanted to love anyone again. He never wanted to hurt again. "I guess I feel the same as you. All that nonsense is not for me." He'd gladly stay single for the rest of his life first.
She hummed and nodded her head. "For a while, I thought that, too. But I do miss dating and being in love. More than the feeling of being in love with love, it's more like… I want to have someone to call 'mine.'"
"Oh?" Boruto's brows rose in interest. This was an unexpected finding for him. Sarada wasn't completely focused on her career and she was actually hoping to have another relationship with someone. Something real. It was scary just thinking about it. "Maybe you should go for it." He shrugged, trying not to sound as bitter as he felt.
"Maybe if I find someone I like," Sarada shrugged a shoulder up. "Or if someone finds me." She grinned and then nudged him with her elbow. "How about you?"
Being unready to have the ball in his court, Boruto cleared his throat and tried to think up something appropriate to share. "Well… I did like this girl once in middle school. Told her how I felt and she didn't want anything to do with me afterward." That was the start of his dealings with love and relationships. He'd always regretted saying anything at all.
Sarada lifted a brow. "And then? That's it?"
Boruto sighed and ran his fingers through his hair. "No. There's a lot. I fucked up more than anything honestly… can't say that I have any good memories when it comes to dating or love." Sex was easy, everything else was a complication.
She crossed her legs and averted her gaze. When she finally looked at him, Sarada asked quietly, "Absolutely none?"
"No." He answered easily. "Nothing good. And all the bad is fucking tragic. It's always been horrible for me. I'm not meant for love."
"Oh… That's too bad. I always thought you would be perfect for it."
"Me?" He snorted. "No… after what happened in middle school, I was never able to come out and say how I felt to anyone. In high school, I fooled around with a lot of girls. Well, not until my last two years though. I found out a lot about girls back then. Thought they were all the same and all they cared about was using guys. I did my first investment in my senior year and word got around. Would you believe 'middle school girl' actually asked me out after that?"
Sarada's face contorted and scoffed. "Wow. What a user… Did you go out with her though? Please say no."
"No. Of course, I didn't. Actually, I've never dated anyone. There was only one girl after that, that I actually liked." It was always the hardest to think about her and Boruto was still so full of regrets, but he couldn't help how he felt.
"But you have been with other girls before? Like, you just didn't call it a 'date'? And see, you did like someone. Tell me about her." Sarada inched closer to him, pulling her chair forward and leaning her cheek on her hand, giving Boruto her undivided attention.
"Been? If that involves fucking, sure. Anything else, no. And she's… she was complicated. I could have probably had something with her, but I was already so done with the idea of love. Even after I realized how I felt about her, I refused to admit it. We were friends though and deep down, I always knew that she liked me as more than just a friend. If I could go back, I would have gone about it differently. I would have told her… I would have shown her. But I didn't…" it was one of his biggest regrets.
The shift in the air made Sarada hush. Her eyes drifted to his, and then his hand. Sarada placed hers over his. "Can you tell me why?"
"Why I didn't tell her?" He asked for clarification, wondering idly why he was actually able to talk about this with Sarada at all.
She nodded, smiling softly at him. "Only if you want to, though. I don't want to make you uncomfortable."
He should have been uncomfortable. Truthfully, he was still uneasy, but it was only because of how touchy he was over this topic. Boruto didn't mind talking to Sarada about it, even if he should have. "I loved her. I know I did, but I was afraid. I didn't want to lose what we had or push her away, but that's exactly what I was doing. Things got awkward and she distanced herself from me. I know she was hurting, knowing about all the other girls I was sleeping with. The last time I spoke to her, she told me everything—how she'd been feeling all along and—shit… I was drunk and such a fucking idiot. I still didn't tell her. I just trampled on her feelings."
There was a silence that filled the room, and perhaps after hearing his stupid mistakes, Sarada should have been afraid and let go of his hand. But she didn't. Instead, she turned his hand over and laced their fingers together.
"Did you try to talk to her after?"
With her hand in his and her soft, unjudging tone, Boruto still found himself calm enough to answer her. "I never got the chance, Sarada."
Sarada averted her gaze and let her other hand wrap around his. "It's okay. It sounds like you two were really close. I'm sure deep down, she knew how you really felt about her."
"Even if that is true, which I doubt, it still doesn't make it alright. I should have told her. I could have made her happy, but instead, I made her hurt. I think I'll always regret not making things right."
"Maybe you can't make things right by her, but you can still make things right." Sarada looked at his face and continued carefully, "Next time, you'll know what to do and that's how you make things a little better." She offered him a warm smile and moved her chair a little closer to him. Enough for her to bring his hand to her cheek and lean on it.
Boruto hummed, agreeing with her completely. "That experience definitely opened my eyes. I stopped taking everyone for granted and still to this day do everything I can to make the people special to me know that I care. Sometimes it's still hard, but I try and as long as I'm doing that, I hope I can keep moving forward. I don't ever want to lose someone precious to me again without them knowing that I care."
Her smile widened, although she moved her lips to brush against his knuckles, Sarada never removed her dark eyes from him. "See? You're already making it up to her. You learned and are moving forward. That's the best thing you can do for her."
"Thanks." Boruto smiled sadly. "I do feel a little better about it now. She's never been easy for me to talk about before. Maybe you're right… she wasn't one to hold a grudge, but it's me who can't forgive myself for it."
"Really? I'm glad you told me, then." Sarada smiled, still brushing her lips on the back of his hand. "Since my breakup happened while I was here, a lot of people already know about it." She shrugged. "If she can forgive you, there's no reason for you not to forgive yourself. I don't think she'd want to know you're suffering still."
"Probably not." Boruto sighed, focusing on her lips on his hand. "I still wish I could make it right though. Find closure or something… does that make sense?"
"It does," Sarada nodded. "Maybe you still can, if you really think it would help." She sighed and stopped rubbing her lips on his hand, in favor of murmuring against it. "I thought I would be brave enough to seek for closure, but I guess I'm not."
"Unfortunately, I don't have the option." He frowned. "But you… fuck that guy, Sarada. He wasn't right for you. He was a fucking idiot."
That made her giggle. "Maybe he just found someone better, but I'm afraid to find out. I blocked him out, though some of his friends are still my friends, but we don't keep in touch. And what do you mean you don't have an option?" She raised her brow. "You always do. It may not be a good option, but it's still an option."
Boruto closed his eyes and breathed in deeply, pulling her hand over to his cheek. "She died, Sarada." He whispered, his heart aching at having to voice that irrefutable truth.
Sarada's eyes widened by the tiniest bit and her breath caught in her throat. "Oh, Boruto…"
"It's okay. I've moved past it, but I do regret how things happened between us. There's nothing I can do about it now, only make sure that I never let something like that happen again. If I love someone, I have to tell them and more importantly, show them."
"I'm so sorry," she whispered. "It seems like you show it well." Sarada smiled meekly.
"You really think so?" He smiled then and placed a soft kiss to the back of her hand. "Then why am I always pissing off everyone? Girls. So difficult."
Sarada giggled, leaning a little closer to him. "Maybe because you're an idiot," she whispered. "Just a hunch."
"Alright, fine. I'll accept that. I deserve it." Boruto laughed too. "I don't mean to be though. I only want to do right by everyone."
"I think you do just fine." Sarada smiled.
Boruto smiled back at her and then closed the distance between them to kiss her cheek. "Thank you. That means a lot to me."
A/N: We recall some people wanted to learn more about Boruto and Sarada's past, and we would want to flesh it out some more. We already have the first four (including this one) fillers written out, we just have 2 more to write about. Hihi.
Let us know what you think about Boruto and Sarada's past love lives in the review! Do you sympathize with Boruto? Would you have had the courage to tell that girl your feelings? Was it a waste for Sarada not to fight harder for her ex? If you were in her position, what would you do? Tell us your thoughts, if you please.
Cheers,
Kairi and Tyy
