I left Kara's apartment feeling angry enough to break something. I decided I would head back to my apartment as I had nowhere else to go. I got about halfway there when I sensed someone was tailing me. I stopped dead in my tracks to find a drunk man lumbering close behind.

He approached with rum fresh on his breath. "What are you doing out here all by your lonesome, Sweet Cheeks?"

The anger I had obtained from Kara combined with the residual anger I had from that prisoner, blinded my judgement. This anger turned into a burning thirst and I tried to stay in control. "Just walking home. I think I should get going."

I tried to continue walking, but the man, even in his drunken state, grabbed my arm and pinned me up against the wall. "Don't go so fast. Stay and have some fun with me."

My eyes locked onto the pulsing vein under his skin. He began drunkenly kissing at my neck, my face mere millimeters from his throat. Through the smell of rum, I could sense the sickly sweet smell of his blood pumping through his veins. My breathing became labored with my fangs painfully extending.

I grabbed the edges of his sweatshirt, twisting him around so his back was against the wall. I pinned his arms up beside his head. He was a little spooked at the speed, but his drunk smile returned quite quickly. "You're fast for a little thing."

I looked down at my feet biting my tongue so hard it began to bleed."Oh, you have no idea."

I squeezed my eyes shut and tried to regulate my breathing, but the smell was too much. I moved my face into the crook of his head, my breath causing him to shiver. I gritted my teeth, but I couldn't hold back any longer. I opened my mouth wide and sunk my fangs deep into his flesh. He gasped at first and then as always he began to moan.

I could taste the rum in his blood like a spicy kick to his already sweet nectar. I got lost in the rush. I could sense his heartbeat getting slower and slower with every sip, but in that moment I didn't care. I never wanted to admit it to myself or anyone else, but feeding on a human was the best feeling in the world, like a fireworks show on the 4th of July. In the midst of feeding, I heard a familiar voice. "Carly, stop! You're going to kill him!"

I lifted my mouth and the man fell onto the ground. He was weak, but alive. I looked toward the end of the alley to find Lena standing there. I tried to stay calm as I crouched down beside the man, staring deep into his eyes. Since he was weak, it was like a walk in the park.

I swam in the colors of his eyes as I spoke my command. "You will remember none of this. You were walking around and fell asleep. You will sleep until morning and put a bandaid on your neck because you have two bad mosquito bites."

He repeated me perfectly as his eyes closed and snoring ensued. I stepped away from him and wobbled. The world spun and I was dizzy. Wait, I'm drunk. I didn't know I could do that. Drunk blood must be the key. I licked my lips as Lena approached.

"Whaattt...are you...doing he...re...Lena?" I asked with slurred speech.

She walked into the light of the streetlamp, stepping over the sleeping man. She scanned my face and demeanor with shock. "Are you drunk?"

"Yeah, I th...ink I ammmm." I said, a dumb smile plastered on my face. "I guess dr...r...inking bl...ood from a drunk per...son does that. Why are...you here?"

"I saw you leave Kara's and I followed after you. I decided we should do the blood test tonight so Lex has less suspicion. What happened? I thought you were afraid to hurt people. Not…" Lena looked from me to the man and back again. "Into drinking random drunk homeless people."

I put my hands on my hips. "I took ang...ger from Kar...ah and it turned in...to hunger. I tried to stop, but I just could...n't."

"Do you want me to take you back to Kara?" Lena asked, pulling one of my arms over her shoulders.

"No no no. We got in a f...f...fight. Let's do this blood test...thingy...at your house." Then I thought about it for a moment. "Wait, do you have a hou...se?"

"Yes, I have a house." Lena noticed the look on my face. "Did you think I lived at L Corp?"

I drunkenly nodded. "Yessssss I never see y...you anywhere else."

Lena rolled her eyes and carried me to her car. She set me inside and got in the driver's. Within 20 minutes we had arrived. It was a mansion on the hill with no neighbors for miles. It was three stories tall with almost all glass walls, it looked like something out of a movie. She pulled into her four car garage and closed the door behind us.

I unbuckled myself and got out of the car, almost falling on the floor just as Lena caught me. She helped me into her living room, which was massive. A giant marble fireplace, a plasma television, a bar, and a grand piano. Reminded me of the Cullen house from Twilight.

She set me on the couch and grabbed her supplies from the other room. When Lena returned she sat on the coffee table in front of me. I pulled myself into a sitting position. "Wo...n't the r...r...rum ruin your t...test."

"No it is quite easy to separate alcohol from blood. Besides, you being drunk will help with the next part." Lena said, turning to open her box of supplies.

I raised a brow. "What p...p...part?"

Lena jabbed the needle into my wrist with no warning. I jumped at the sudden prick, but I wasn't afraid as I normally would have been. She took the blood and closed her case. "I will test it tomorrow night when I find time to analyze it. If I can figure out the components of the controllant, I might be able to make a antidote."

The room spun again. "How l...l...long will this al...co...hol last for?"

Lena looked at her watch. "Your metabolism will break it down. Right about now."

Suddenly the dizzy feeling vanished. I felt lighter and everything returned to its normal brightness. I could think clearly and understand what was going. So I asked, "Why are you suddenly being so nice to me?"

She sighed. "I want Non Nocere to work and I understand that to everyone else I'm evil, but if you looked from where I was coming from it isn't that bad of a plan. I want to save people, not hurt them. What I did to you when I was testing my original contacts was wrong. I was blinded with my hurt from Kara. I didn't realize how much damage I was causing. I want to make amends and try to free you from Lex, it's the least I can do."

"Lena…" I said, grabbing her hand before she could get up from the coffee table. "I forgive you for all of that." She looked surprised so I continued to explain. "I used to be so angry that you would do something like that to me, but then Crisis happened. I lost almost everyone I ever cared about and it broke me. I know what betrayal and pain can do to a person, so I get it. Your pain blinded your judgement, but you can see more clearly now."

"Carly, I'm not changing my mind about Non Nocere."

"I'm not telling you to." I said with a sigh. "All I'm saying is step back and look at the big picture. You understand being betrayed and lied to, but look at the reasons as to why Kara did what she did. I know you may never forgive her or any of us for lying to you for so long, but just understand she never wanted to hurt you. That was never Kara's intention."

"Maybe…" Lena began, quickly switching the subject. "What about you and Kara? You said you got in a fight with her and took her anger?"

I nodded. "Yeah. I came back to the apartment and she suspected something was wrong. I couldn't tell her without collapsing in pain so I told her I couldn't say. She wouldn't leave it alone so I knew I couldn't stay there. I gave her a kiss, accidently absorbing her anger in the process. Then I left, heading back to my apartment when that drunk man got too close."

"If I fix this." Lena squeezed my hand. "When I fix this. You can tell her everything. She'll understand."

"I don't know if she will." I said, sadly looking down at my feet. "If she discovers I've been working for Lex, took a prisoner from jail, killed someone, and then almost killed another, I don't know how she'll react."

"It was against your will, Carly." Lena said

I bit my lip. "I know, but that doesn't change the fact it was my hands that did the deed. If I had fought harder against his control then maybe…"

"Maybe what?" Lena exclaimed. "You would have writhed in agony or worse died? You had to follow his orders or it'd end in tragedy. Why don't you go upstairs and get some rest? You can stay here until this whole thing blows over. We can head over to the warehouse tomorrow morning together."

"Thank you, Lena."

Lena pointed me to the stairs as I searched for one of the spare bedrooms. She began to clean up when she saw I left my phone on the couch. Making sure I was out of sight, Lena looked through my contacts to find Deirdre as one of the first names. She pressed talk and Deirdre answered after one ring. "Deirdre, this is Lena Luthor. There's something I have to tell you…"


Kara left her apartment and headed straight to The Tower. She had been crying for hours with no understanding of what was going on. After our kiss all the anger from her vanished. She felt more at peace, but now sorrow was replacing the anger. She arrived at The Tower to find Alex and J'onn inside.

When they saw her puffy eyes, worry consumed their features. They approached with Alex giving her a tight hug and J'onn patting her shoulder. When Alex pulled back, the three collected around the table and there were questions.

Alex asked first. "What happened?"

"Carly…" Kara mumbled, a tear rolling down her cheek. "Something is wrong and she won't tell me what. She is avoiding me and vanishing for hours on end. Deirdre said it would hurt Carly for her to tell me, but I just want to help."

"Hurt Carly? What is Deirdre talking about?" J'onn asked

Kara shook her head. "I don't know. She said I should trust Carly, but I know something is wrong. I've caught her crying and avoiding my touch. It started the day she moved in. Something must have happened between me leaving that night and then returning the next morning. She said she had a panic attack, but there's definitely more to it."

"Maybe, you should listen to Deirdre." Alex suggested with a shrug. "If Carly is in a bad situation, it's probably safer for you not to know. She loves you and if hiding this from you protects you, then I completely get it. Just give her time and she'll tell you."

"I don't think she will tell me. I tried to ask her what was wrong and she said she couldn't say. That it was dangerous to say." Kara ran a hand through her hair. "She has never hid anything from me before. What happened that she couldn't tell me about it? None of it makes any sense. And that kiss…"

Kara raised a hand to her lips, remembering the feeling the kiss gave her. J'onn raised a brow. "What about the kiss?"

"Carly kissed me and it felt like she was draining the anger from me, absorbing it somehow." Kara looked toward the others with wide eyes. "She said she took my anger."

"How is that possible?" Alex asked herself aloud.

"Some vamtronians have special abilities." J'onn said, remembering his past encounters. "In my many years I have come across these special vamtronians. Some can teleport, read minds, move objects telepathically, and Carly, well, she can absorb emotion. If you're angry she can take it into herself. Same with happiness, fear, sadness, and pain. Some can even give these feeling to others with enough practice."

"How did she discover this ability?" Kara and Alex asked at the same moment.

J'onn shrugged. "I'm not sure, but I'm betting it has to do with whatever business she's involved in. Someone helped her discover this ability, yet this sort of thing only comes to the surface in full vamtronians, never halfs. So if Carly has this power…"

"She became a full vamtronian…" Kara muttered

Alex looked from Kara to J'onn with realization. "Does that mean she killed someone?"

J'onn nodded and turned his attention to Kara. "Have you noticed severe changes in Carly aside from how she has been acting?"

"Actually yeah…" Kara thought about it for a moment. "She looked a whole lot paler, her eyes sunken, and her skin was like cold stone. The other day I even caught sight of her hand in the sun for only a moment, but no smoke rose off her skin."

"Then she must have transitioned, but why?" Alex asked the group. "Carly, never wanted this. Would she really kill someone?"

Kara shook her head. "Not of her own free will she wouldn't."

"That's because it wasn't of her own free will." The group looked over to see Deirdre and Cillian standing in the doorway. Deirdre approached. "I told Carly I would keep this secret, but I think you guys should know the truth."

"Why are you suddenly interested in telling us now?" Kara asked with crossed arms.

Deirdre sighed. Before she could speak, Cillian jumped in. "Deirdre was going to leave it alone and allow Carly to handle it on her own, but she got a call from Lena Luthor this morning."

"Lena, called you?" Alex exclaimed

"Yes, she did." Deirdre bit her lip. "Lena called me using Carly's phone. She told me that last night Carly almost killed a drunk person on her way back to her apartment. Carly is being overwhelmed by all the lies and new feelings. She didn't want me to tell you because of how it could hurt you, but I think it's time."

J'onn stepped forward. "Hasn't she already killed someone, if she has these powers of absorbing emotion?"

"Yes, but that was against her will." Deirdre said, holding up a DVD. "I have a friend who has been keeping tabs on Carly for the last few days. He saw her go into a certain warehouse and so he hacked security cameras, scanning for weird things in the last week. The night you asked her to move in has the reason why she has been acting this way. Do you want to see?"

Kara decided. "Play it."

"Are you sure?" Deirdre asked with concern. "I have not seen what is on the DVD, but Carly told me of what happened that night. My friend who copied the disk also said it's not for the faint of heart. Are you sure guys want to watch this?"

"We have to." Alex spoke for the group. "If we are to help Carly, we need to know what happened."

"Put it in."


The next morning, Lena drove me to the warehouse. I could've flown, but I just wasn't in the mood. Everything that happened last night came to the surface and I hated myself right now. I hurt Kara and almost killed some drunk man. He wasn't an angel, but that doesn't change the fact that if Lena wasn't there, I could have killed him. I was becoming the monster I feared.

We arrived at Lex's office, who smiled at our entrance. "Look, who's buddied up. Should I be worried?"

"No." Lena said, taking a seat at the table. "I just drove Carly here because she stayed at my place last night. She had attacked a drunk man on the street and could barely walk."

"What an interesting turn of events." Lex commented as I took a seat across from him. "Did you kill the man?"

"No, but if Lena hadn't showed up when she had I might've." I admitted

I looked down at my feet with self hatred. I didn't want to be a killer and here I was attacking drunk homeless people. I could've just pushed the man away and flown off, but the hunger took control of me. I couldn't control myself and I hated that feeling.

Lex smiled at my pain, but changed the subject nonetheless. "I have your next mission ready to go. I know it's only been a day, but this can't wait. I have gotten some info on the whereabouts of some Leviathan agents planning something big."

I leaned forward with crossed arms. "What do you want me to do about it?"

"I want you to sneak in and get more information about what they are planning to do. It's only lower level agents so you shouldn't have any problems with the bosses. I'm giving you an Image Inducer to hide your appearance with a voice modulator for double measure. Get in, discover their plans, and get out. We can't take action until we know everything and I can't let them know what I plan to do until I know what's going on."

"Lex, shouldn't we wait." Lena objected. "Her friends suspect something is up and if she vanishes for another day or two, they will know something is wrong. Carly has already been vanishing for hours on end and they won't let that slide much longer."

"Let them suspect. They won't find any of us for a long time anyway."

"What is that supposed to mean?" I asked

Lex smiled. "We're going underground, sort of speak. Our cameras were hacked early this morning, which means they'll know what happened to you. If we stay here they will catch us before Leviathan can be taken down, so Brainy is finding a better suited location that will mask us from the others. We'll be long gone before they even take a step."