Since the spell Emma and Regina casted on the moon to block it wasn't gone yet, Yazi was still weak. So instead of going off with Emma, Regina and Mary Margaret to get Henry's heart back, she stayed with Hook, Neal and David preparing the Jolly Roger, or at least providing moral support, to set sail with a couple more passengers than before. More specifically, the Lost Boys, who made them promise they too would be taken to Storybrooke.

Turns out, contrary to what Yazi thought, they actually didn't want to stay in Neverland. They wanted to go home, back to their families. They were miserable around Pan, who was always ordering them around and suggesting very deadly games. And she could understand that.

Well, all but Felix, who for some strange reason was still Pan's loyal follower. All he had been doing since they got on the ship was glare at everything and everyone. She wondered if his eyes ever got tired.

Yazi wondered if Henry was dreaming about something as she stared through the window in the first mate's quarters. Captain's quarter was reserved for Henry when he woke up. All three men had agreed that she should stay in bed so she could rest after everything she had gone through, and she was alright with it.

If he was dreaming, she hoped it was a nice dream. Away from everything he had to endure for a week and a half.

"You feeling okay?" she heard Neal's voice ahead of her, and she looked up to see him standing at the entrance.

"Overall" she replied, tilting her head to the side, shifting her position "I just can't wait to lay in my bed for five days straight when we get home" he chuckled slightly upon hearing her words.

"You think that's healed?" he asked quietly, motioning to the bandage on her skin.

"I don't know" she had completely forgotten she had it on her, she could barely feel it "Maybe?" she asked doubtfully, reaching out for it and taking it out slowly. It was kinda bloody, but nothing too excessive "How is it?" she wondered, moving her head to the side so he could get a better look at it.

"It's almost completely gone" he announced. The only sign there was of a previous injury was a small scar, that was clearly in its last moments.

"Must have healed somewhere between the Dark Hollow and the eclipse" she commented absentmindedly "I don't want to see another new moon for at least three months" she added, rubbing her eyes tiredly.

"Time does work differently here" Neal shot logically, placing his hands on his pockets "Pan can change the phases as he pleases"

"You think he can change the color too?" she questioned, as she thought about the last day in Neverland, before she had to part ways with Neal, when a red moon showed up mysteriously, out of nowhere. She didn't know why she was thinking about that now, but she was.

"What do you mean?" he questioned, and Yazi was reminded of the fact that he hadn't seen the red moon that night. It was just her, almost like a private show.

"I'm just tired. When I'm tired, I ask stupid questions" she replied, shrugging it off, making him chuckle once again.

"Henry?!" they heard Emma's voice as she stepped on deck, putting and end to their conversation "Where is he?!" she smiled, that could only mean that they had succeeded in recovering Henry's heart.

"Go" Yazi motioned to the door, and he nodded before going off. She wanted to be there, too, but she knew it was better to stay put. She still feared she would stumble if she got off the bed, especially because they would begin sailing away soon, and a moving boat was not the most solid platform.

Besides, Henry had seen her for several days, he probably wanted to be more with his family, whom he was completely isolated from in Neverland.

She could hear voices, but she was too far away to distinguish what they were saying. Though she had a feeling it was only good things. She knew the three women were not going to come back until they could effectively save Henry, and the fact that they had was all the proof she needed.

She smiled slightly, beginning to drift off, all the exhaustion she had been accumulating for the past few days falling on her all at once, but then she heard steps. Someone was approaching her.

"Yazi?!" she opened her eyes again, recognizing that voice. And soon enough, Henry was standing at the door. He was beaming, and sprinted towards her, immediately wrapping her in a tight hug. Considering her body wasn't in its optimum condition, it was a little too tight, but her joy of seeing her best friend safe and sound overlapped it "I'm so glad to see you"

"Me too" she nodded with a smile when they broke apart, and then proceeded to sit straight "Even if I do feel like hell right now" she said jokingly, and he chuckled slightly "But what are you doing here? Don't you want to be with your parents? With Neal?"

"I wanted to see how you were doing" he admitted, sitting in front of her on the bed. She shook head in disbelief, the smile still on her face. He should be resting right now, he had been through a lot, but instead came to check up on her "And talk to you" he added a bit more quietly, almost bashful, and she gave him a curious look upon hearing that.

"Is something wrong?"

"It's not like that, don't worry" he shook his head in assurance "I wanted to apologize actually"

"What for?" he had nothing to apologize for.

"Not listening to you" he replied, and Yazi sighed. That wasn't his fault "You kept warning me about Pan, but I didn't listen"

"The only person to blame here is Pan" she stated calmly "He is a manipulative person who's used to always getting his way. He takes advantage of people without any regard for who they are. If someone else had the heart of the truest believer, he would have done the same with them" she searched his face for any sort of compliance or agreement, but found none, so she kept talking "He used me too" she admitted, and he frowned in surprise "The night of the duel, he knew I wouldn't be able to hold on, so as soon as you fell asleep he locked me in a cage"

"Why?"

"Because he knew that if there was nobody around for you, it would be easier to persuade you into sacrificing your life" she replied. She still didn't understand why he had chose her instead of anyone else to give Henry hope and then crush it down. The only reason she could think of was because she was the only child that came to save him. She was no ordinary person to the boy, just a best friend. Not that she had any problems with that, there was nothing more she could ever ask for.

But she was not going to think about that any longer, he was taken care of. There wasn't anything else to worry about.

"Stop blaming yourself" she kept saying "If anything, blame me. I was there. I should have done something"

"You did all you could" he assured, shaking his head "I should've trusted you more"

"You did in the end" she said optimistically.

"Yeah, you were very persuasive" he agreed with a smile, making her chuckle.

"And I meant every word" she said firmly, but softly "I will always believe in you. Don't forget that"

"I won't" he replied "And it goes both ways" she smiled slightly, but her expression then shifted slightly, as she remembered there were still a few things with pending discussion.

"There's something I need to tell you" she announced, and he frowned.

"What is it?"

"I could" she admitted, leaning back towards the end of the bed.

"Huh?" Henry asked, giving her a curious look.

"You asked me if I could hear the pipe" she clarified, giving him a brief look before focusing her gaze on the floor. She couldn't bare to look at him "I could" he arched his eyebrows in surprise upon hearing that declaration "I always have. I thought I had moved past it when I returned, but it turns out it still hurts"

"What does?" he questioned, and she sighed. It was almost embarrassing to admit it, it made her feel like a terrible person "You can tell me, Yaz" he continued, his tone soft

"I know, I just...Don't want you to think less of me" she said quietly, avoiding his gaze.

"I would never do that" he assured, shaking his head "You don't have to worry about it. I promise" she smiled slightly upon hearing his words, believing he was telling the truth. She took a deep breath, gathering her thoughts before beginning to speak.

"Being an orphan" she finally admitted "It still hurts. It wasn't as bad when I was cursed, because I had the slightest bit of hope that I would be able to see them one day" Aria Griffin thought that her parents had abandoned her in an orphanage, but at least they were alive somewhere. And she had never told anyone, but she actually planned to look for them once she was old enough "But after the curse was broken, that hope died. And I realized that I will never see them again, I didn't even get to say goodbye"

"What about my grandma?" he questioned, and it took her a second to realize he was talking about Mary Margaret. The family tree was quite confusing, especially now that they had to add Pan to the equation "She fostered you. She's not the same as your mom, but she does love you"

"And I do too" she admitted "But...I can't ask her to take care of me anymore, she has her own family to worry about" and she wasn't really part of it. She was an outsider to everyone there.

"She won't be able to do that" Henry insisted, and Yazi knew he was right. That wasn't who Mary Margaret was, she always took care of everyone, even neglecting herself sometimes.

"And that's my point" she said calmly, as the woman's face flashed through her mind "I feel like I've turned into a duty for her, a weight she has to carry" a burden, if she went to extremes. She couldn't help feeling she was getting in the way of the relationship with the people she cared about the most in the world, her husband and daughter.

"You feel unloved" he realized, and there was no judgement in his voice, no anger. Just plain understanding "That's why you could hear it" she was under no circumstances blaming Mary Margaret for that, not even Regina for having killed her family. It was just her, who wasn't able to protect them, and now she felt like she couldn't either.

"All this time I was telling myself that there was no way I would stay in Neverland with Peter Pan and the lost boys" she continued "But there was a very deep part of me that was actually considering it" she was ashamed to admit it, but she promised herself she would tell Henry everything, and that included the dark fragments of her narration.

"But you didn't" he pointed out "You were strong enough to not give in to the temptation" she sighed, kinda agreeing with his words, but it still didn't feel right "Storybrooke's your home, you would have just felt miserable staying in Neverland. Especially after everything Pan did" and that was exactly why it felt terrible to admit it. She knew perfectly well what kind of person he was and what he was capable of doing, but she still played around with the idea that she could get used to it.

"I'm a terrible person" she scolded herself absentmindedly, chuckling dryly, and completely forgetting Henry was there.

"You're not" he stated firmly, and she looked at him, not entirely convinced "You're the kindest person I know" she shook her head in denial.

"That's not true" she stated, shaking her head, and he frowned "I lied to you" she admitted, avoiding his gaze "I wasn't sent to infiltrate the camp. I got into an argument with...Everyone" she scoffed at her own stupidity, it was so immature of her "Because they didn't listen to me, even after I warned them so many times about Pan and his twisted mind" she made a pause "I decided to leave them, so I could look for you on my own" he remained quiet, listening attentively "Pan offered to take me to you, and...I agreed" saying she was a kind person was an overstatement. She was far from it, and she couldn't let him think that of her. It wasn't fair, she wasn't an angel "Even knowing that it was stupid and immature, I never stopped to think about the consequences it could bring"

"You made a mistake" he replied sympathetically, and Yazi couldn't believe he was acting so calm about it "Everyone make mistakes all the time. That doesn't make you a bad person"

"You don't understand, Henry" she stated "I wanted to hurt them" they way they had hurt her by underestimating her "Make them see that I was right, and they should've listened to me" she felt tears pricking her eyes, but she couldn't stop now "I'm not this...Perfect person you think I am"

"And that's exactly why I get along with you" he said firmly, and she looked at him with a frown, not understanding what he was saying "If I wanted someone that always does the correct things and never loosens up, I'll hang out with Melody Stone" she smiled slightly as some tears began streaming down her cheek. She knew who he was talking about, it was a girl in their class, who was the epitome of a goody two shoes. She was always sucking up to the teachers and telling everyone else what they should and should not do "I mean, c'mon. You were a thief. A lost girl. You can turn things into gold. You know how to use a sword. How cool is that?!" he sounded very excited when he said that last part, which made her chuckle a little bit "Yeah, you're reckless and hot-tempered. Too forthright and sometimes incredibly impulsive, but you're also my best friend. And dealing with all your craziness is part of my job, one I'll do gladly. Nothing is going to change that"

"Thanks, Henry" she admitted gratefully, pulling him for a hug, which he returned tightly. She felt slightly better; it still didn't ease the guilt in her heart, but, at least, it would make the process easier, even if it took a very long while. Which she was sure it would "You should probably get some rest" she indicated once they broke apart "Tomorrow we can watch Captain America or something"

"I'll take you up on that offer" he said with a smile, as he stood up to leave "Good night, Yazi"

"Good night, Henry"

Little did they know, they would not be able to watch anything for a very long time.


We're getting near the end of 3A! 3B probably won't be as long as this part was, but Yazi will have a major role in regards to Henry and the memory loss we all know it's gonna happen. That's all I'm telling you though!

I hope you enjoyed this chapter, and I'll try to get the next one to you as soon as possible!