I hope you all are doing well. It's getting crazy here with the rise in cases in USA.
To the Guest who keeps trolling on my spelling. The 'piece of mind' was an intentional present for you. I hope you've been well. I'll change it now. Just want to make sure you're still paying attention :)
This is a bit of a filler chapter, but I really like the idea of them getting to know each other better and talking.
Chapter 32 - Intentions.
Tuesday, February 4th, 2020
I wake to an empty bed. I check the time and see that it's almost 7:15. Before Ana, I'd be done with an early morning by 6am, ready and breakfast eaten by 7am and at work by 7:30 at the latest. Even since Ana, I feel the need to slow down. I want to relax. I want to stay in bed with her. I want to enjoy my life with her. I went back to my punishing routine when she wasn't here and I hated it. I did it to distract myself but I realize I prefer this. Claude probably thinks I've died again. I should text him back.
I see her walk into the room again with a towel wrapped around her and her hair blown out. I watch her as she goes through her morning routine. I've missed this too. It's still the same. She sends voice notes to Nita and Nani in hindi before she begins. I really need to learn the language... she lightly hums as she does her skincare regimen and applies makeup. It never takes more than 10 minutes then she styles her hair if she needs to and ends with wearing her clothes. Sometimes she'll wear some accessories but she always keeps it simple.
I close my eyes for a few more minutes, willing myself to get up when I feel her lips on my cheek. "Wakeup Mr. CEO... time to conquer the world" she whispers.
"I don't want to." I grumble.
She giggles. "You're such a baby sometimes. Wake up!" she gives me another kiss.
"You've spoiled me. I want to stay in bed with you all the time."
"Weekends are for sleeping in. Weekdays are for making money. Now go make dat moolah so I can burn it over expensive clothes." She lightly slaps my ass but I get up and grab her and throw her on to the bed and she squeals.
"Christian... you're insane. I just did my hair... you're ruining it." She says out of breath.
"I want breakfast."
"Do I even want to know what you want for breakfast?" She laughs.
"Cookies." I get rid of her towel and make my way down kissing her.
"Christian... we're going to be late..." she tries not to moan as I start to devour her.
"I love how you're always ready for me baby..." She pulls onto my hair and I push her legs further apart. I lick her entrance and use my tongue, repeating a circular motion as she moans as I drink her up.
"Christian..." she repeats my name over and over till she fall apart, screaming my name. Thank god, we're alone right now.
I pull down my and move up her body. Slowly kissing and nipping her skin, her hands find my hair again and she looks to me with a lazy smile.
"That was quite a breakfast Mr. Grey." She giggles and kisses me deeply.
"I'm still not done baby. I want more."
"I'm so getting fired." She laughs.
"I know the owner, he believes in the power of a good breakfast... you'll be fine." I smirk at her and she laughs again but quickly gasps as I grind my dick against her swollen lips a few times. She bites her lip as she savors the feeling.
I kiss her as I enter her and she moans into my mouth. I lean my forehead against hers and move slowly. "This is how I want to start every morning. Buried inside of you."
"Christian..." she moans loudly. "... don't... stop... Christian..."
"Tell me baby, I want to hear how good I make you feel."
Her moans get louder as I bite her neck right behind her ear, sucking on her skin and start to pick up the pace. I raise my head to face her, "Look at me baby."
She slowly opens her eyes and I feel her tighten her grip around my hips and my cock. Fuck... I never want this to end.
"I love you." She says as she pulls me down to kiss her. I come hard and loud into her and she follows right after me.
"I love you, baby." I say into her neck, trying to catch my breath.
"I really needed that. Thank you." She whispers into my ear.
I look at her. "What happened baby?"
"I just wanted to forget everything for a while." I see tears to start fall from her eyes.
"Tell me baby, what's on your mind."
She closes her eyes and shakes her head. "Too much shit. I'm going to call Flynn's office and see if he has an opening today or for some other day this week."
"Trust me, he'll make time for you and if you need take off from work early, don't worry about anything, it'll be handled." I stroke her cheek.
"I'm sorry."
"Ana, stop. Don't apologize."
She nods. "We should get up and get ready."
I get dressed and we have breakfast. Ana remains quiet for most of it. She's dressed in a cobalt blue dress that bring out her ocean eyes. I lean in to kiss her.
"I love this color on you. You look so beautiful."
She smiles at me. "You're just looking to get more cookies, I know your game, Grey."
I laugh. "You wound me, Miss Steele."
"I wore this dress my first day at GEH. I felt like everyone was looking at me... it was so nerve-wracking."
"Why were you nervous?"
"Well, aside from being the new kid on the block. I immediately noticed that literally everyone wears shades of Grey in your kingdom. It's either, Grey, black, dark blue that actually looks like black or maybe whites... but basically muted colors. And here I was... little miss screaming blue walking around. I think it's why Jose noticed me." She laughs.
"I never really noticed that but I also really don't care what people are wearing at work."
"Yeah, I know. I used to see you around. It was like you had blinders on or were always looking at your phone or out the window... or screaming at someone...I mean Ros is the only one who wears color. Aside from liking my shoes Jose said 'it's about fucking time someone looked alive here. Don't you fucking dare wear grey in this place. I'm sick of seeing these pale white bitches looking like zombies.' That gave me a lot of confidence. I was like if a gay guy approves of my sartorial choices then I'm good." She giggles.
"So you noticed me, Miss Steele?" I smirk.
"I had no choice, you're quite a presence Mr. Grey. Everyone scrambles to disappear when you walk through... it's a real 'gird your loins' situation." She laughs and I can't help but laugh too. "There was this one time we were in the elevator. I was behind you and Ros with Jose and Val and Ros turned back to talk to the three of us. We were talking about something random and the entire time I was shitting bricks praying you wouldn't turn back and give us the death stare. When our floor came, I pretty much ran out with Jose."
"What the fuck... I cannot believe this. I was that close to you and I didn't see you."
She snorts. "Christian, we even met at my graduation."
"What the fuck?"
"Well yeah, you gave out our diplomas and we shook hands but I was out of it. I gave you the most lifeless handshake and I didn't even look up. I was in a very shitty headspace that day. You however, looked very handsome. I'll give you that." She gives me small smile.
"What happened that day, baby?"
She takes a deep breath. "It's a long story involving Carla. I'll tell you some other time. Right now, I have to focus on getting through the workday."
"You're going to be fine baby. I love you."
"I love you." She gives me a small smile and we head out of her apartment.
...
I walk into the conference room on our floor during lunch time to see how the meeting with the Rahman team has been going so far. I talk with Ros and Travis to get an update. Everything seems to be going well. They had a skype call with the COO to discuss how to proceed with due diligence and the Rahman team as been more than happy to invite third party auditors of both our choosing to do a forensic analysis of their assets given recent information before we complete the acquisition process.
I see Ana and Mrs. Rahman sitting on the couch like two peas in a pod, laughing and smiling as they eat. They don't notice me till I go into shake Mrs. Rahman's hand.
"I trust everything is going well, Mrs. Rahman." I smile at her.
"Yes, very much so. Aana here has been instrumental. I feel at ease with her." She looks to Ana with adoration.
"I'm happy to hear that. Miss Steele is one of our best employees." I smile and I see Ana start to feel slightly uncomfortable with the praise.
Mrs. Rahman squeezes Ana's hand. "Please join us for lunch Mr. Grey."
"I'd love to but I have a conference call in 5 minutes. I just wanted to come by and say hello. Please continue. I'll drop by later on."
I say goodbye and head out. I ask Andrea to join me in the office.
"Andrea, please reach out to the WSU PR department and ask them to send any photographs they might have of Ana on the day of her graduation. I realized that I handed out diploma's at her graduation ceremony this year... if they ask, just tell them she works at GEH and we're doing an internal newsletter or something."
"I'll have the photographs to you before the end of the day, Sir."
"Thank you, Andrea."
...
APOV
The Rahman meeting has completely drained me. The constant back and forth in translating and also making sure the COO didn't try to slip something by us has my brain melted into complete mush. I just want to go home and sleep but I need to talk to Flynn. I feel so... uneasy.
"Hi Sawyer, how was your day."
"Nothing exciting happened."
"I miss unexciting days."
"When do you want to start training? Grey said he wants you to train at his apartment gym."
"Of course he did. Control freak that he is. I don't know... I'm not all that eager to go back there just yet. Being there on Friday night was... difficult."
"Take your time... whenever you're ready, let me know."
"Yeah, I will. Thank you for agreeing to do this."
"Don't even mention it."
I get to Flynn's practice. I walk into the reception area and see Marcy packing up to leave for the day.
"Come on in Ana." John calls out to me.
"Thanks for meeting me, John. I've got loads to talk about." I laugh.
"Well, I'm glad to hear that. How are you feeling?"
"I'm slightly better than when we last met. That was a really difficult day emotionally but I've been thinking a lot since then and... well, yeah.. here I am."
"Okay. Let's dive right in."
I take a deep breath. Don't cry, Ana. For fucks sake, don't cry.
"By the way, can I lie down here? My back is killing me."
He chuckles. "of course you can, whatever makes you feel comfortable."
I lie down and instantly feel at ease. "So, it's no secret that since the meeting last week, I've been all over the place. I mean, I've really tried to hold to together and for the first time since my rape, I feel like I'm really losing control. Not that I didn't ever have issues when I was in Portland... I just, being there, my life was so far removed from everything in regards to my family and I just... I had created this routine and it had no connection to anything remotely family related, I was anonymous and I'd be able to recover quickly... but here and now... my worlds are colliding... and it's violent and my emotions are just... I feel like I'm all over the place and it's like ever since the wedding... it's been one shit show after the other"
"You think the wedding the main break in everything?"
"Yes and no. I know this breakdown is a long time coming, I realize that now. All these years, I just ran away essentially, from what happened...from my accident, from my family and the rape. I played a part. Kate was the only one who knew the real me. Then at the wedding, actually the months leading up to the wedding, it was the first time in a long time I was exposed to my family so frequently since I left for Portland. The planning and everything, the new job... a lot of new things were happening that by the time I got to the wedding, I was so physically and emotionally tired. Then I meet Christian, and... we met and I fell in love and he was the second person I told everything to. I told him everything not just as events but how I felt. I shared myself with him... I had never done that before. Kate was my only friend then confiding in Christian then eventually Mia and Elliot... then the whole playroom fiasco, then talking to his parents... I realized that I really fucked myself up because while in Portland I thought, I can't burden people with my misery. No one wants to be friends with a broken girl so I kept to myself and really worked on becoming someone who was worthy and... I don't know... stable, happy, funny? I don't know.. I just... I fucked up."
"Have you talked to Christian about this?"
"I tried to last night. I have a friend at work, his name is Jose, he's a lawyer and we're close. He's told me some really personal things about his life but he knows nothing about me." I tell him what I've shared of myself with Jose which is not much and what I tried to tell Christian but was never able to complete my thought process because I got scared.
"You feel the need to hide yourself from Christian?"
"Yes and no. I mean. I so desperately want to tell him everything but it's a lot. I feel like the dam is breaking but I can't overwhelm him with my shit. I know I said, that there is life after heartbreak and I can understand that rationally but emotionally but if he ever left me... I feel like it would hurt so much more than everything else. It would be like that final nail in the coffin you know. I've faced rejection from a parent, death of a parent, deceit and violence from a sibling who was also a close friend and then to be rejected by the one you love... I mean what else is left after that?"
"Ana, has Christian given you any indication that he can't handle this or that he would leave you because of what you're going through?"
"No he hasn't but... I know he's frustrated. The Vishaal issue is slowly getting on his nerves and he'll lose it eventually and I have no way of stopping that. I can tell he wants to bury them but I can't let him do that. There's too much at stake for me."
"I think the main issue here is that you've never talked out loud about your thoughts and feelings on everything. You've remained confined in yourself, almost as if, a repeat of what happened in your accident. You were trapped inside yourself and now this is all another iteration of the same thing."
"Yeah, I do feel that way. Except, now I can talk and for the first time since everything, I'm being called out on my shit through self-realization. I have a lot of fucking work to do. With Kate, as of recent, we haven't talked as much as I liked. She's a CEO in training to take over her father's company which means she's traveling a lot and she's in a new relationship with Elliot... it's her first serious relationship in years and I don't want to burden her anymore, she's done so much for me in these last 4 years. I told Christian, I wanted to stop lying to everyone. I want my life to grow. I want to build and cultivate relationships and invite my friends to my apartment and cook for them and be my real self... but then the fear creeps in. The idea of them looking at me with pity... I want to stop defining my life by these chaotic truths that have plagued me."
"Explain that to me, what do you mean?"
"I want to move on from the thought process of, my biological mother doesn't want me, I had an accident and was paralyzed and made a full recovery, my adopted family comes from an obscene amount of money and the fact that I was raped by someone who I considered a brother... and now... whenever Christian and I announce... oh by the way, we got back together again...I'll just be his girlfriend... I am desperately looking to define who I am. Me. Anastasia Steele. I am the person who I want to be with my GEH friends and in the workplace in general but... then I have all these truths nagging me."
"Ana, you can still be that person and own your truth in front of your friends."
"Yes but they will see me with pity. Oh, the poor girl who got broken and violated..."
"Ana, have your friends told you personal things about themselves?"
"Yes."
"Has it changed the way you feel about them? Do you pity them?"
"No. I love them. It makes me want to cherish them."
"Then why do you feel like they wouldn't reciprocate in the same way? Why are you already setting them up for failure? You have to try and let go of that defense mechanism. Not everyone is your birth mother, not everyone is Vishaal... I understand you don't want to get hurt but consider the alternative; you're still hurting yourself by denying your friends the opportunity to prove themselves... you never know, they might actually surprise you. Think about Christian, as aloof and cold and stuck up as he seems... wasn't he a pleasant surprise?"
I fall into a laughing fit and John laughs too. "Boy, was he aloof. God, I used to think he was such an ass before I met him... but you're right... he's been the best surprise of my life." Tears start to fall from my eyes for the first time since the session started. "I love him so much, John. I don't want to lose him because of all my shit."
"Ana, if there's one thing I'm dead certain of is that Christian is incredibly steadfast and loyal. If he has committed himself to you, then... he will be by your side, no matter what."
I take a deep breath. "He sort of asked me to marry him this weekend?"
"I'm sorry, what?" John's face is priceless.
"Yeah... that's why we're coming to see you on Friday." I laugh. "I'm surprised he didn't tell you."
"Well, it has been rather odd, I've not heard from him since Friday. I guess he's been occupied." He laughs.
I giggle. "Yeah he has. We had a really good weekend, we talked and got to know each other more. We play this game where we ask each other questions a heavy topic followed by a light one and it's really helping... I also talked to my grandmother and she told me to measure my relationship with Christian in trust and not in time. She also said that we're learning to walk right now and we'll fall every now and then and get hurt but it'll help us get stronger and I have to have faith in that. I need to have more faith in what we have than fear of loss."
"Great, your grandmother is stepping in now with advice, you're helping Christian, I guess my vacation home in France will remain a dream." He laughs and I join him.
"Sorry, John, you're shit outta luck now." I giggle. I take a few moments and then tell him about Saturday morning."I made him show me the playroom and the files on the ex-submissives." I say as I get up from the couch and sit upright.
"How did that go?"
"It was... okay. I mean, he was obviously uncomfortable... and I felt incredibly jealous of these women. It was irrational but I had to keep reminding myself that he loves me and that he is choosing me. That I'm the only person who can touch him, spend time with his family, be the person who he calls his girlfriend... "
"You can touch him?" He asks surprised.
I smile. "Yeah, he brought my hand to his bare chest. We had a fight on Friday night after the Rahman famly dinner at his place. I sort of broke down and was saying all this shit to him and he begged for forgiveness and a second chance..." I start to cry..."He brought my hand to his chest and told me I was the only one he needed and the only one he could trust."
"That's... wow, that's incredible Ana."
"Yeah, I know..." I'm barely able to get the words out.
"I'm proud of the progress you've both made. And listen, the first step is realizing that you need help and that you can't do it on your own which is perfectly fine. You have people around you who only want the best for you, so trust in that. You know you have your work cut out for you so let's do what is necessary to get you to a better place."
...
CPOV
I wait for Ana in front of her building. I want to make sure she's doing okay after her session with John. Ros and I are heading out to SF and LA tomorrow morning to meet with a tech startup that caught Ros' attention in addition to checking in on our other holdings. We were supposed to be there till Friday but I made the fuckers reschedule everything so that we could get all the shit done in one day. I don't want to be away from Seattle more than I have to. I just got Ana back. I wan to be close to her as much as I can.
I see Sawyer pull up and Ana steps out of the car. She looks tired as she walks into the building. I get out and follow her. I catch up to her and put my arm around her shoulder. She looks up and smiles.
"Mr. Grey, I thought you were home. I was going to call you when I got upstairs."
I lean in and kiss her forhead. "I just missed you and thought I'd come by and we could have dinner again. I'm going to be in SF & LA all day tomorrow and won't get to see you at work."
"You're such a sap, Grey but I really like that about you." She giggles.
We get into her apartment and I put my bag in her room. She goes to order thai food and we both take a quick shower. It's difficult not getting distracted, she can't help but laugh when I wash her because she so ticklish. I kiss her deeply.
"Hands on the wall Miss Steele, I want to have my way with you."
"So demanding Mr. Grey." She giggles and turns around and places her hands on the way in front of her and I take her from behind.
"Tell me how you want this baby." I ask as I slowly push into her.
"Hard. Fuck me hard Christian." She pants.
I pound into her. Gripping her tightly and she moans, urging me on. It's loud and rough. Wanting her like all the time this feels obsessive. It's never enough.
It's only 9pm by the time we finish dinner.
"Well Miss Steele, that crab was definitely 'bomb'" I say my best impression of Barney. She laughs out loud.
"Hey don't make fun of Barney! We haven't had lunch in two weeks. I should probably check in on him tomorrow and get updates on his love life."
"How do you get people to just tell you things?"
"I don't, they just... volunteer. I mean in some cases I definitely pester people but only when I can feel it's something serious..."
"Like that employee you told us about ... his wife passed away."
She looks down. "Yeah... please don't ask me to tell you his name. Listen, I didn't mean to tell you all that to make you feel bad, honestly I didn't. It's just that money is not the answer to everything. It doesn't fix things, at least not the things that really matter... or maybe it does, I don't know. I get it why you stay away... sometimes you get hit with a lot of life and it makes you sad. I know I cried when I came home that day because what he was feeling, it reminded me of what Nita must have felt when Ray died and how she had to take care of me..."
She doesn't cry, she just plays with her fingers. I understand what she's saying. I wish I could be brave enough to feel emotion the way she does, to connect with people the way she does.
"Everyone at the company loves you, Ana. I met with Timothy. Ros was able to locate all the employees you mentioned. I even went to Seattle-Mason to meet with James and his wife Anita. They weren't expecting me but I assured them they'd be taken care of and we're working to better our paternity and maternity leave policies at GEH. I asked mom to help Steven out with getting his father paired with one of the top specialists in the field for his cancer treatment."
She looks up to me crying. "Oh Christian..." She throws her arms around me and sobs. "Thank you... they really needed that."
"Why are you crying baby?"
"I'm sorry. I'm just a mess, it's really sweet what you did. Thank you."
"Baby, don't thank me. I should be thanking you. You've opened my eyes. I only saw the world one way. I mean, yes I cared about my employees but I cared about things I could see. Mortgage payments, salaries, paying for kids schools and holidays. I didn't see the real stuff, I think my privilege kept me from seeing that... people who I employ have real problems too and I guess I forgot about that... for some reason I just associated the really extreme problems with people who, charities I donated to, were helping. I lost my way in building all this."
She pulls away and wipes her face. "Yeah, I guess when you've got blinders on, you miss out on stuff. It happens but it's never too late to change things. Again, I'm not asking you to have everyone sit in a circle and pass the talking stick... but just smile sometimes or say Good Morning. You've got such a beautiful face, I love seeing you smiling and laughing." She leans in and plants kisses all over my face. "I love you, Mr. Grey."
"I love you Miss Steele. So much."
"Did you meet their babies?"
"I saw them from afar. They're so... small."
"Yeah, they decided to crash the party two months early but they look like fighters. James told me they're doing much better than before."
"They looked so fragile." I say trying to rid the burning lump in my throat.
"Yeah... it's heartbreaking to see that but they have so much strength in them. Ray once said this to me... it was before he met Nita. He found me crying in my room. I didn't have many friends in school. I was a bit of weird kid... so he was trying to comfort me while he made pancakes for dinner... and he said Annie, anytime you feel like you can't do anything or you're not worthy, you've got to remember that once there was a million of you and you were the strongest. There's a reason for that.' I didn't quite understand it till I was older." She takes a deep breath and looks away and closes her eyes. "Anyway... I'm going to go see them sometime next week just to check in. I'm sure they'll be grown up even more." She smiles.
"The covert I had assigned to you told me you spent time at Seattle-Mason and I couldn't figure out why, you went to see them?"
She replies in a small voice. "Yeah. I wanted to just say hi and take some food for them."
I can't believe this woman is real.
"Can I come with you the next time you go see them?"
She looks to me. "How will we explain that?"
"We'll figure something out. We'll stagger our arrivals or something..."
She smiles and nods. "Okay."
I pull her in close to me and kiss her. "I love you, baby."
"I love you" she smiles back.
"How was your session with Flynn?"
"It was good, only cried once and for a few minutes." She laughs. "By the way, I told him you 'sort of' asked me to marry you."
"Tell me he fell off his chair!" I laugh.
"Well, his eyes almost fell out. So, close?" she giggles.
"I told him about what Nani said and how you let me touch you, poor thing is afraid we won't need therapy anymore and his vacation house in France will remain a dream."
"Fucker... only wants me for my money."
"I like that he doesn't just tell me what I need to do. My therapists in Portland talked more about what I should do rather than helping me articulate what I was feeling. Or maybe I was younger, I don't know but with Flynn he just asks me questions and it forces me to say things out loud which I haven't been doing and in saying those things, I feel a little better, I start to see where the problems lie. He compared it to my accident, that when I wanted to speak, I couldn't and now that I can, I just retreat into myself and don't. He said that at least I could identify what my problems were and that I knew I needed help... which in the first step."
"Ana, you've made way more progress than I have in 7 years with him. I think I've been fighting him all this time and they only reason why he's stayed on is... well, clearly because of my charming personality and money but also, the fucker really loves a challenge."
She laughs out loud. "Mr. Grey, we're enamored by your charming and challenging personality." She lifts up her head to kiss the corner of my mouth.
"I knew you had a thing for me."
She rolls her eyes. "You know, we act like such old people sometimes. Like, we just sit and talk and then we get into bed at 10." She laughs.
"I don't mind it at all. I like that my life is like this now. I feel like we'll never run out of things to talk about."
"Then can we continue this conversation in my bed, please? Today was a draining day with the Rahman meeting and session with Flynn."
We get up and I lift her bridal style.
"Christian, stoppp... I can walk."
"I know but I want to take care of you."
"Careful, I could get used to this. Make you carry me everywhere."
"Deal."
She giggles and we get into bed.
"So, I paid off all my loans and credit card debt today." She says and I hear her voice waver.
"How does it feel?"
"Pretty fucking amazing... and humbling. There are so many people I know how are struggling and I feel incredibly fortunate to be able to pay it off."
"Well, you deserve it. You never cease to amaze me, you dominate everything that's thrown at you."
She looks down and takes a deep breath.
"I have a favor to ask... more like I just need you take on something."
"Sure, baby."
"Remember Luis from the resort? I told you about his grand daughter Rosa who wants to go to MIT?
"Yeah."
"I want to figure out a way where I can pay for her schooling and living expenses. She deserves it. She'll be hearing from the Ivy's any day now... she applied for early decision and I know they offer shitty scholarships, I want to be able to help in some way. She wants to change the world and I know she can do it and going to a school that will give her the tools to do it is the first step."
I look at her with awe. How can I keep falling more and more in love with her?
"We can talk to Travis about it. Come up with a contract of sorts to make sure she's held accountable as well. We can set aside a set amount and have the money sent directly to the school and her rent as time passes on."
"Thank you, Christian." She looks at me with teary eyes.
"What are you going to do with the rest of the money? I thought you wanted to buy a place."
"I do but... I like living with Kate and besides I don't know, I think there are more important things. I'll keep some aside for savings but otherwise I think I'll just donate it."
"Hmm... just run it by me before you make any final decisions. I'd suggest investing it too."
She shrugs. "Okay, I don't know much about that stuff."
I nod. "By the way, would Rosa be interested in an internship? If she's into engineering like you say she is and has no plans for the summer, how about an internship at GEH with Barney? It'll be good for her resume."
Her eyes grow wide. "You'd be willing to do that?"
"You said she's a smart kid. Send me her resume, we can fly her up her, interview her and if it seems like a good fit, we can set her up here with a place to live here for the duration for her internship and she can really learn something."
"Christian, that would be AMAZING. Thank you, I love you!" She kisses me deeply.
"Anything for you baby. I think you'd be amazing at philanthropy. You've got such a big heart."
"I guess I got that from Nita. She's head of philanthropy at AHAK. Watching her inspired me."
"If you want, we can start an initiative for high school students to intern for us in the summers or winters, to give them an edge in their college applications too."
"I think that would be brilliant. There are so many kids who are either from low-income families, and/or undocumented who have so much promise but just need a chance. Maybe if you could start a program where you handpicked kids from all over the nation and spend the summer in Seattle. Like 2 kids for each department and you met them weekly or bi-weekly and talked to them and gave them advice. You'd be such a great mentor."
She runs her hand through my hair and kisses me.
"You have so much faith in my abilities, Miss Steele."
"You're a brilliant man, Mr. Grey, how can I not?" she smiles.
"I'll set it up with Ros. Actually no, you should bring it up with her and I'll support you."
"No, you should go ahead and talk to her."
"Baby, this is your idea. You deserve all the credit."
'Okay, let's bring it up together with her once we tell her about us and she's done burying us in a rage for keeping the gossip from her." She laughs and I kiss her.
We continue to kiss as our hands explore each other. She lets out little moans as I grind into her and take off her pajamas and she lifts my shirt to take it off.
"Why is your light blue now?"
"Cause I felt really blue recently."
"I think we need to change the color now."
"You want pink again?"
"No, just tell me how to change it."
She hands opens up the app and hands me the phone... I see the full spectrum of the rainbow shine on her face as I go through the different colors and she laughs. She's so incredibly beautiful. I settle on red. It reminds me of her dancing at the Sangeet. How she slowly moved her body, it was sensual as fuck.
"Red?" she raises her eyebrow.
"Yeah red. How I saw you at the Sangeet, you looked hot as fuck that night."
She rolls her eyes. And I spank her.
"Ouch! You ass."
"Yeah, I'm the ass that owns your ass."
"You don't own jack shit, Grey." She giggles and I attack her with kisses.
I take off my boxers and tell her to take her shirt off.
"I need you on top baby." I help her straddle me and take me in. It feels so fucking good. I pull her hands from my neck and hold them behind her with one of mine. She looks at me confused.
"Baby, just focus on feeling good."
She looks into my eyes with her lips parted and her eyes darken. She looks so fucking hot as she moves up and down. I bite and suck her breasts and use my free hand to play with her, slowly running my fingers up and down her slit.
She calls my name out as she throws her head back. She tries to increase her speed but I slow her down.
"Christian... please... I ... I"
"What baby, tell me what you need?"
"I... need... you..."
"I'm here for you baby, I'm all yours."
I can tell she's close. I let go of her hands and lie back down and watch her take me. She moves her hips in a circular motion, looking into my eyes. She looks so fucking incredible.
I can't take it, I sit up again and pull her to me and invade her mouth and she increases her speed and I find her clit again.
I feel her get close.
"That's right baby, tigthen that pussy around my cock. I want to feel you..."
"Chrisitan..." she moans into my mouth and pulls on to my hair as comes and bites my neck.
The sensation from that throws me over the edge and let go, shooting my load into her... groaning incoherently into her neck.
I hold her till our breathing returns to normal. We lie back down and remain tangled in each other.
"Sorry for biting you... I don't know what came over me... but I don't think I left a mark."
"I knew you were a freak, Miss Steele."
"Takes one to know one, Grey." She giggles.
I attack her mouth again. It's going to be so much fun unleashing more this inner freak that's in hiding.
Authors Note: Next chapter we learn about Carla and then Chapter 34 will be the baby shower games! YAY.
