Chapter thirty-two: Song of Solomon
Kate looked up at Thomas, her heart pounding violently in her chest. He had taken a little bit of her innocence, but left her virginity intact. Now, they were in her room and he'd stopped to make sure, if this was what she wanted. If he was, what she wanted. Kate was so unsure of how she'd been caught up in this heat. She wasn't sure what to say to him in this moment. She bites her lip, unsure how to answer him in this moment.
He gently runs his hand through her hair. "I'm warning you Kate," his voice has gone hoarse, but she can hear the passion in his strained voice. "if you don't stop me now, I'm not going to be able to stop myself."
Kate shivers at that thought. She rapidly considers her options, including telling Thomas to leave her. But she doesn't want him to leave, she wants him. As soon as that thought hits her hard, Kate makes her decision. She'd waited with Emmett and lost him. With Thomas, until their future was clear, every day would be unclear and she wasn't going to deny herself a single moment with him.
"Have me then." he looks at her, his blue eyes deeply searching her face. "I want you, Thomas." she admits honestly, she was tired of fighting this connection between them.
Thomas kissed her deeply, causing her to shiver in anticipation for the upcoming moments. His hands reached around her shoulder and waist, tightly pulling her to him. Kate let out a moan as he moved his clothed entrance against her. She arched her back with a moan, moving her hips against him to find a rhythm. After a few moments, Thomas broke the kiss and sat up to remove his union shorts. She can't help but blush as he helps her slide her shorts down her legs and they soon join his shorts on the floor.
He hesitates for a moment, waiting for her to nod before bringing her shift over her head. With that final piece discarded, she is now completely naked before him and his piercing blue eyes can see every detail of her skin. Kate blushes as he studied her. She wants to break eye contact with him, but can't break eye. Not when he's looking at her as if she's the most beautiful thing he's ever seen.
"Kate," he breathes as he leaned down towards her, cupping her neck in his hand. "are you sure?" she nods. "I can stop if I have to."
Kate smiles as she grips his hand. Even though they're both naked and he's probably in agony at this moment, he still offered her the chance to escape again. "I'm sure." She whispers as she reaches up and touches his cheekbone softly. "I want to be with you."
Thomas kisses her throat, gently trailing kisses down to her breasts. Slowly, he eased himself inside her, causing her to hiss at the feeling. She shifted uncomfortably, wanting this bit to be over as quickly as possible. As if reading her mind, Thomas cupped her face in his hands. "Do you trust me?"
"Yes." Kate gasps out.
"It's your first time, it will be-
"I know." she says with a faint smile. "But…I know you; you know what you're doing."
"Alright," he inhales, breathing deeply before moving forward to kiss her again. "hold onto me." Kate shifts, running a hand up to his shoulder. "Try to relax."
She smiles at him as he reaches for her left hand, the hand that should be bearing a wedding ring at this moment, a corner of her mind notes. Thomas twines his fingers tightly with hers, pressing a kiss to her knuckles before leaning forward to kiss her. Kate stretched upwards slightly, matching him kiss for kiss. She can feel him adjusting himself at her entrance and he breaks the kiss once he thrusts inside her. Kate let out a sharp gasp, clutching his hand tightly as she adjusts to the unexpected feeling of him completely inside her.
"God," Thomas groans out, his hand digging tightly into the sheets beside her. He wants to continue, but he's holding off for her sake. "I'll give you a moment."
He was breathing hard and fighting for control, she can sense he wants to continue, but won't. He wasn't like what she'd heard about most men. Men had needs, but he was putting her above him. She'd heard that lying with a man for the first time, would be painful for her but most men viewed the moment as a conquest. A moment of triumph of having claimed such a prize. But, with him, there was no conquest. Kate would never again doubt his love for her, she felt the final walls around her heart break, and this powerful sense of love for this man filled her completely. She'd met her match and her soul mate.
"I'm alright." she assures him, knowing it'll be better once he starts to move.
"Are you sure?" he asked as he gently brushed a strand of hair back from her face. "You're so tight," she blushes slightly at his words. "that must have hurt you."
She bites her lip before confessing. "Not…all pain hurts."
He presses multiple kisses to her lips. "God, you're so beautiful." Those tender and passionate words bring tears to her eyes and she bites her lip to attempt to keep back a sob. That doesn't escape his notice. "You are Kate. When I'm finished making love to you, you'll know you're a beautiful woman." He adds for good effect. "My woman."
"Make me yours." She whispers as he leans forward to kiss her again. She brings her other hand up around his neck, running her nails through the hair on top of his head.
Kate held onto his hand as continued to deeply kiss her. Each kiss from him seemed as if he was attempting to suck every dark memory from her past and replace it with one of his love for her. He would probably succeed; there could be no one for her after him. She knew this down to the depth of her soul. She knew after by the time the sun would come up tomorrow, she'd be completely his, forever.
His lips moved to her neck, causing her stomach to clench with desire. He moves inside her, causing her to let out a moan of pleasure as she tightens around him, drawing him in deeper. She ran her hands down his back as he dipped her back onto the bed, running his hand under her head. It was her first time, and it exceeded all of her expectations. It felt so natural and right with him. Kate closed her eyes, reveling in the senses as he moved to each beat of her heart. No one would ever love her more than this man would, she could feel it with each little touch he bestowed on her.
She brought her hands back up to his shoulders, her hand lingering over the scar from where she'd dug the bullet out all those years ago. She'd felt nothing like the pleasure and pressure building up inside her. Kate arched against him, gasping against the sensations assaulting her body. She clenched tighter around him, causing him to let out a groan in the back of his throat. Thomas gripped her hips tightly, forcing himself deeper inside her. Kate bit her lip and closed her eyes for a second as she felt the explosion growing closer.
He started speaking in Romani, causing shivers to run down her spine. she reacted by digging her nails into his back as his thrusts grew harder, cries began to escape from her mouth. He slid his arms under her back, pulling her to him as if he could force her body to mold with his. Kate wanted to scream so much, but couldn't. All she could do was gasp, her cries high and short as she struggled to get a breath. His breaths were low and forceful as he continued pounding so hard inside her. She let out a cry as he suddenly thrust so deeply inside her it was as if he'd intended to bury himself completely inside her. Kate broke under him. Again, he said something in Romani as he released his seed inside her. She held tightly onto his neck as the waves of pleasure overwhelmed her body.
God, how she wished this could have lasted forever. Thomas collapsed atop her, cursing under his breath. He pulled her closer to him and held tightly onto her; his grip testifying that he would never let her go. Kate was in awe of what they'd just shared together. She couldn't believe what she'd just shared with him. It was a truly unbelievable feeling to have shared such a moment with someone. He'd been right, she did feel beautiful, but she felt more than that. She felt loved; honestly, truly and deeply loved. But best of all, she finally felt complete. She wasn't half a shell anymore, she was his.
"Are you alright?" he asks as he looks down at her. "You're crying."
"I'm alright. Honest."
"Are you sure?" his concern causes her to smile. "I didn't want to hurt you."
"You didn't." She struggles to confess what's on her heart to him as he carefully watches her expression. "I've never," she inhales as her voice breaks. "that was beautiful, Thomas."
"Kate." He gently wipes her tears away with his thumb.
"Is it…always like that with two people?" she asks him, causing his hand to still. "Is it?"
"No." he shakes his head. "It's never been like that for me, with anyone, until you." he admits. "You were made for me Kate." He kisses her tenderly. "Every inch of you, you fit perfectly in my hands. I don't believe in God, but if I did…I'd say he made you especially for me."
She smiles faintly at him as he carefully exits her. He lies on his back with an exhale and Kate scoots close to him, wanting his closeness. He pulls her towards him, an arm over her shoulder while he looks up at the ceiling. The peaceful smile on his face prompts her to ask. "What is it?"
"I don't hear the shovels anymore."
Kate blinks in surprise. "What? How is that possible?"
"It was you." he turns towards her. "You helped me."
She frowns slightly as she reaches for his hand, which he brings to rest over his heart. "How? How could I help you with that?"
"You help me… with everything." He curls his hands over her fingers. "The whole f**king thing. Being alive. Business. I found you." his tender words bring tears to her eyes. "And you found me. We have each other." he tightens his hold on her hand. "I'll never lose you. No one ever will have you or take you from me." He holds her gaze. "You're my love Kate."
"And you're mine, Thomas." she admits, causing him to smile as he pulls her closer to him. "You're my love."
"I'll be more than that to you." he kissed her. "I'll be your husband, Kate."
He kissed her again as he rolled on top of her. She couldn't answer to being his wife yet, but she knew that she was going to marry this man. Hopefully, they could reconcile their differences soon because she wanted to be his wife.
Shariebery: Wish granted.
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Idcam: Yup, all the walls are broken down. Lucky for you all, my plans changed, so I had time to finish this chapter up!
