A/N: I have no real good excuse for why this took so long. life I guess. I Just hope yall are still waiting for this, and I'm hoping it's not to bad. It's been awhile since i've written. On another note i want to say that i plan on responding to every one of your guys pm's, just give me a little time to get back into the swing of things. Hope you enjoy!

P.s- Feel free to leave any comments you guys might have, this chapter has been half written for quite some time so i'm hoping it doesn't seem to...chopy.


I feel the stiffness in my body as I start to wake up. The one that tells me I have been asleep for a long time. I take a moment and stretch my limps, trying to shake off the remnants of sleep. I let my hand wonder across the bed, searching but its empty. Where's my Jacob?

I pull myself up, looking around the small room. My clothes are folded neatly on the dresser, and I remember faintly him undressing me last night. I blush, but i'm touched by his sweet actions.

I try to find out what time it is, but the alarm clocks missing, no thanks to him, and all I see is sun outside. Not early morning, I figure. I notice then my phone laying on the nightstand, and pick it up, the screen illuminating.

Try'd to wake you but it was impossible, if it wasn't for your heartbeat I could of sworn you were dead. Going to the shop for a little, ill be home for dinner. Call if you need me, I love you. -Jacob

It also told me it was nearly 11:00 in the morning. Had I seriously slept that long? I needed to get up, so I slid out of bed, stretching my whole body this time. I can smell the remainder of grilled food and fire cling to my hair and skin, so I decide the first thing to do is to shower. I take my robe of the door, tying it around my body and step out of his room. I can hear Billy's heartbeat somewhere close, and listen harder till I make out the sound of a sports game playing on the tv in the living room.

I enter the bathroom, taking in the lingering scent of my Jacob. He must of showered this morning. I was surprised at how long I had slept in, but then again I was never one for staying up late, and the couple times I did with Ally I had always been cranky in the morning. I started my shower routine, my mind wandering off to what Jacob was doing. He was probably under the hood of some car, looking beyond sexy. I tried to push that thought away. I needed something else to think about. Dinner, what was I going to make for dinner. That was a safe topic.

I finished my shower, drying myself off and pulled my robe back on. I stepped into the bedroom as I heard my cell phone ring. I pick it up, noting the name on the screen.

"Hey Emily. What's up?"

"Ness, Hey. I was going to call earlier but Jake said you were out cold. Rachel and I where going out for lunch. Do you want to join?"

"I'd love to. I just got out of the shower, I just need to get changed."

"That's perfect. Come over when your done and we can head out."

I hung up and smiled to myself. If I was being honest I had been a little worried about how I would be perceived. Sure I had known everybody my whole life, and I knew I was accepted. But I was more then just Ness know, i'm Jacob's girlfriend, his mate. It seemed kind of silly to think it would change anything, but I felt relieved none the less.

I got changed quickly, pulling on jeans and a green tank top. I picked out a zip up sweatshirt and boots, then secured my necklace around my neck. I picked up my phone, hoping he wasn't busy at the moment and dialed.

"She's finally awake." His deep laughter melted my bones, making me wish he was here with me.

"Ness Baby? You okay." He sounded worried then, and I chastised myself.

"Im fine Jacob, Just miss you."

"I'll come home right now." He told me, and I knew he would.

"No no, that's okay. I'm actually going out with Emily and Rachel. I just wanted to hear your voice. I missed you when I woke up."

"Im sorry hunny. I miss you to. What are you girls going to do?"

"Where going out for lunch, not sure after that. But i'll be home and have dinner ready."

"Ness babe, you know you don't have to make dinner, I am a grown man." He teased.

"Oh i'm well aware of that, and you can cook next time." I smiled, we always shared responsibilities. It was actually me trying to get him to stop doing so much for me.

"Deal." I could hear his smile, imagine his face right in front of me.

"What are you doing?"

"I just showered, i'm getting ready to head out."

"Hmmm." I smirked at his tone, curious to what he was thinking.

"What?"

"Oh nothing. Just thinking about you in the shower." I felt my pulse jump suddenly, at the mere thought of it.

"Don't do that." I growled lowly, trying to ignore my body's reactions to his words.

"Do what?" He asked too innocently.

"You know what." I heard his deep chuckle and growled again.

"As much as I love playing that game, the guy's can probably hear me and you should get going." He at least had the decency to sound guilty after teasing me, but I knew he enjoyed it still.

"Ya, I probably should. Ill see you later."

"okay, Love you." I told him, taking my bag from the back of the door hook.

"I love you too." There was a pause then the phone went dead.

I tossed it in my bag, fighting back the stupid smile on my face. Almost four months and I was still putty to his words. Then again I had long ago given up any notion of not being head over heels for him. I knew I had it lucky, most girls my age went through scores of guys, one after the other all trying to find something to fill their needs. I had been born into mine, and while some people might have felt like there life had been decided for them, I knew better. I have never felt anything other than grateful for what I had.

I pulled the door open, making my way into the living room where Billy was sitting in his chair, watching some hockey game. I shook my head at how some men have always seemed to gravitate towards sports.

"Hey kid, I was wondering if you were ever gonna make it out of bed." He laughed, turning a little in his chair to face me.

"Ya, I think that's the last time I try to stay up passed my bedtime." I tell him, cracking a smile. "I'm going out for lunch with Emily and Rachel, will you be alright here by yourself?" He rolled his eyes, making a very Jacoby expression.

"You sound just like my son. You know I do live here full time by myself. I'm pretty capable." He grinned. I stepped forward, leaning down to kiss him on the cheek.

"You know we don't mean anything by it Billy, i'll be back." His attention had already been pulled back to the tv, two men arguing, while the referee was trying to pull them apart.

I headed to the door, briefly contemplating if my car was here. I hadn't even thought to ask Jacob. I knew I could of asked Emily to pick me up, but as I stepped outside it became irrelevant. In the driveway was my Tesla, parked in what I assumed was the same spot as last night. I slid in, adjusting my seat forward as my legs were not as long as my Jacobs. I pulled out of the drive, following the roads back to Emily's house.

My mind wondered back to yesterday, right when we had pulled up to Emily's house. His promise of later was lost to my sleep deprived brain last night, but it was at the front my mine today. What did he think about my question? He had seemed confused, as if he couldn't understand why I want to live here with him. For me it was simple, for my whole short life, he had always sacrificed thing's for me. He had put his life on hold, to help protect me, and raise me. He moved away from his family to stay with me. The very least I could do, was give this to him. It wasn't even really a sacrifice, sure I would miss my family, but I knew we would visit. If I was being honest with myself I knew I wanted some distance from them, at least for a while, so we could start are life, figuring things out for ourselves.

I pulled into her drive, parking on the other side of Sam's truck. Rachel's car was already there, and I walked up to the front steps, about to knock when the front door opened, Sam on the other side smiling. Sometimes I forgot how much better there senses where, even compared to mine.

"Ness. Come on in, the girls are in the kitchen. I'm just about to try and get the boy's down for a nap." He sounded like he was about to go to war. I giggled, noticing logan's little form hiding in the doorway down the hall.

"Good luck with that." He grinned, turning and started stalking down the hall. The boys squealed, scrambling into the room and shutting the door. There laughter was contagious, and Sam was always so good with his kids. Even when Jacob was with them he always had a natural way with them and I had a quick flash, of my Jacob with a baby in his arms, smiling proudly at me.

Woah. I shook my head slightly, clearing that one from my brain. I wasn't even letting myself think about why I was thinking about that. The dangers of those thoughts alone seemed to vast. I made my way into the kitchen, taking note of the two woman sitting at the kitchen table, looking at a picture on Rachel's phone. They looked up smiling, noticing me.

"Thank god you're here, i'm starving." Rachel said, already standing up. Emily was laughing and shaking her head, standing also.

"Ignore her. She's always hungry." Rachel looked slightly bashful, but just shrugged, leading us towards the door.

We climbed into Emily's car, backing out and making are way to one of the small dinners on the Rez. We chatted on the way, while they caught me up on the happenings of the kids and the pack. The place was crowded but homey, and we were served quickly, getting many friendly smiled and greeting. The imprinted woman were always highly respected, so anybody in on the secret was always friendly.

"So let's hear your story, but remember, that's my brother your talking about." Rachel said, simultaneously wagging her eyebrows and scrunching her face. Emily laughed, but looked at me expectantly.

"What do you mean? We told you last night.." I felt my blush, becoming nervous as both woman looked at me.

"Actually, Rachel left early yesterday, but that's not what she meant." Emily said, softer and more understanding than Rachel's directness.

"What Rachel means Ness, is that where all imprints. Where bonded, and we understand things in a way that some may not. So if you ever have any question, or want to know anything, you can always ask us. It stays between us only." She smiled sweetly, only one half of her pretty face doesn't move with the other. Her offer actually did make me feel better, knowing that there was always someone out there that would mostly understand.

"Ya, that's what I meant, sorry, Paul say i'm a little tactless. " She smiled sheepishly, dipping a fry into her ketchup and tossing into her mouth.

"It's quite okay, I actually really appreciate the offer." I gave them a genuine smile, but Rachel was still looking at me.

"Sooo?" She said. I couldn't help but laugh, albeit nervously.

"So what?" I asked.

"Do you have any questions?" I think she was genuinely enjoying my torture.

"Oh umm, I don't know. Like what?" My head was swimming with question, but they were mostly personal, surly they didn't mean those? Most people didn't expect those type of question, and I wasn't use to being asked, unless it was Ally. She was the second most noseist person I knew.

"Oh honestly Ness, you know what I mean. Have you guys done it yet?" Em bumped her, chidding her softly. My face i'm sure resembles a tomato.

"You don't have to answer that Ness, Rachel's just being nosy." My immediate response was relief, but then a little regret. It wasn't exactly something I wanted to talk about with my mom, and I knew Ally couldn't understand fully, cause I couldn't tell her fully. So would it really be so bad, to have someone to talk to? Two woman who clearly understood, and where moms? I battled internally for about 30 seconds, till I made my decision.

"You promise it stays here? " I asked timidly. Rachel nodded her head, while Emily smiled.

"Of course Ness, it never leaves us. Its always been like that between us imprints." She said reassuringly. I fought of my embarrassment, deciding to use this time wisely.

"Well we haven't..uh..you know. It's kinda hard with my family so close, we want to be completely alone." I said, talking fast and glancing around.

"That makes sense, and it's good that you guys have talked about it. Communication is important." Emily said, it was impossible not to feel calmer with her, my nervousness fading slightly.

"Well it's always best to be alone, especially with boys like that. Paul doesn't know how to be quite." Rachel said, rolling her eyes. Emily nodded slightly, smiling to herself. I laughed a little, shocked at the personal detail.

"I remember when it was all that knew. The excitement and rush of it. I was terrified." Rachel said, taking a sip of her soda.

"What do you mean?" I asked, trying to understand her comment.

"Well you know what I mean, look at them. There huge, even Jake is bigger than them all. Of course I wasn't a virgin so I knew what it was like, but still, looking at him I was terrified it would hurt." She said matter of factly. Em looked worried at me, like she was afraid I would get scared off. It wasn't the first time the thought had entered my head tho. I had thought of that one, and was slightly worried about it myself. However I knew it would be worth it, and it would work itself out.

"Rachel, maybe that's not the best thing to say." She started.

"No it's okay, i've already considered that. I'm a little worried, but I have a bit of an advantage, I'm not as...fragile as you guys are." I said, hoping the comment wasn't rude. They didn't look offended, and nodded slightly.

"That's true, i'm sure it'll all work itself out when the time's right. Just make sure you're both ready and prepared. We have plenty of babies running around already." Emily said, laughing softly. Rachel grinned, leaning forward.

"Is this a bad time to tell you guys that i'm Pregnant?" She said, laughing slightly. Em looked shocked, looking at her, then at her tummy.

"Are you really? oh that's so amazing!" She all but squealed, pulling Rachel closer and hugging her.

"What, you just thought I was getting fat?" She asked, mocking anger, but she couldn't keep the smile off her face. "We were going to make the announcement yesterday but it was so hectic." She explained.

I was thrilled, thinking about how happy they must feel, and how thrilled Billy would be. The image from earlier rattled in my head, but I shoved it away, not know. I couldn't even begin to think about that.

"Rachel that's amazing, mi so happy for you. Jake's gonna be ecstatic." She grinned, her hand resting tenderly on her tummy.

We chatted for a little while longer, then paid and left. The car ride back was filled with laughter and I felt happy, truly happy to be here, with the other half of my family. When we pulled back into the house, I could make out the sound the sound of a tv on, and Emily looked about ready to bolt into the house.

"Nobody spill the beans, we wanna be the ones to tell everybody." Rachel said, patting her belly. I nodded, hugging them both then climbed into my car, waving and pulling out.

I was content driving back to to Billy's house, thinking about how wonderful my day been. When I pulled into the driveway and killed the engine, my ears immediately picked up the rhythmic beating of a strong heart. My Jacob was home. I was barely out of my door when the front door opened, and he was making his way down the ramp. I grabbed my bag before closing my door and turning, having about 20 seconds to prepare before i was scooped into his huge arms and spun. I laughed, enthralled by him near me again. I haven't even realized that he had taken half of my heart this morning, not until it was back and I felt whole. He placed me down, his warm hands cradling my face and he kissed me, his perfect mouth soft and loving against mine. Once, twice, three times, till he pulled back slightly and placed one more on my forehead. I was breathless, overcome slightly with my feelings for him. every single time I thought there was no way I could ever love this man more, he goes and proves me wrong. All I could do was smile stupidly at him.

"Hey." He said, taking my hand and starting towards the door. I laced my fingers with his, loving the feel of my small palm in his.

"Hi. how was your day?" He held the door open for me, allowing me in first. He grinned innocently, but as I passed I felt his hand smack lightly to my ass and I gave him an indulgent smile.

"Oh you know, customers and the boys constantly bickering back and forth. It was nice tho, i missed being in the middle of it all." He said, wistfully. I felt a little guilty, i was the reason he wasn't here anymore.

"But being back made me really glad I decided to go back to school. I was walking around today, thinking about all these things that we could change up, just little thing's that I think it would be beneficial in the long run, and seeing the numbers were thinking about expanding. Just tossing some numbers around really, it would be a pretty big project so were not decided yet."

I listened to him go on about his ideas, and numbers. I was thrilled he was excited about this, and was actually getting some use from going back to school. We sat at the kitchen table and talked, and I couldn't help but wonder if this is what it would be like someday. when we couple have our own place, having everyday conversations. Not worrying about someone overhearing, or having no personal space. I realized then that I was so ready for it. I wanted it, and him. I wanted it all.

"Ness? did you hear me?"

"Huh?" I looked up, guiltily, at his smiling face.

"Did I bore you that much?" He laughed, and my cheeks blushed pink.

"No, not at all! I just got distracted. Im sorry. go on." He grinned, shaking his head slightly. He leaned forward, grabbing the edge of my chair and pulled me forward, till i was in front of him, my knee in between his and my face inches away.

"Care to tell me what you were so distracted bye?" He smirked, leaning closer and kissing my cheek. I looked around, stretching my hearing out but no one was around.

"Billy's out at Charlies place. Don't worry, no ones here." He planted another kiss on my jaw.

"I..ah. I was thinking about you..us..This." My brain was turning into pudding, his lips were still slowly moving there way down my jaw, and to my neck. They ghosted over a tender spot, and my body shivered, one of his palms rested on my thigh, his thumb stroking circles.

"Mhmm. Im listening. What about us?" He asked, there was a definite teasing note in his voice. He was enjoying himself. He sucked lighty at that spot, probably renewing a fading mark.

"Uh, here..alone.." My breath was coming harsher know, my chest rising and falling rapidly. I knew it was mid day, and Billy would probably be home soon, but that didn't stop my body from responding to him. I felt my heart race, and I squeezed my thighs together, trying to ignore the desire swimming through me. He wasn't helping, both is hands where know in my lap, running slowly down the top of thighs, and then back up.

"Jacob." His name fell from my mouth like a plea. I wanted him to stop, but I so badly didn't want him to stop. I wanted him to fix it. The building in the pit of my stomach, I wanted him to make it go away. Only problem is, I didn't even know how to make it go away.

Just then the sound of a car door closing caught both of are attentions. I could make out the sound of metal wheels rolling across the gravel. He pulled back, a mischievous glint in his eyes and gave me one lingering kiss. Then he slid his chair back and stood making his way to the door, helping his father up the ramp.

I tried to take deep breaths, calming my frantic heart and willing away the blush I was sure was on my face. I pulled my hair around my neck, covering anything that might of been there. Just then they came through the door, Jacob smiling innocently and chatting with Billy. He was so in for it.

The door closed behind me, a faint click ringing in the air, mixing with Billy's snores.

I toed my sneakers off, and began picking the room up a little. The sound off water running filled my head, distracting me. He was only across the hall, in the shower. My body was on edge, he had teased me all day, and it was driving me crazy. I knew I needed to calm down, so I picked out my clothes for bed, taking deep breaths.

I changed into a loose tank top, and boyshort panties, putting my old clothes in the hamper. If he thought he was getting away with what he had done to me earlier he was so in for it.

After Billy had come home we had chatted for a while, then pitched in to make dinner, ate, then moved to the living room, watching tv for awhile. I was almost certain Jacob had been putting it off on purpose. My suspicions were confirmed when Billy had decided he was turning in for bed, and not five minutes after his door was shut Jacob stood up, announcing he needed a shower and was gone.

I went about, picking random socks up from the floor and tossing them into his hamper. I straightened out my makeup bag on the top of his dresser, tucking my necklace away and when I was satisfied it was clean, I crawled into bed. Awaiting my revenge.

It was only a moment later I heard the water shut off, and smiled. He came in, holding a towel around his waist and his dirty clothes in his other hand. He glanced around, noticing the clean floor and tossed his clothes in the hamper. He walked over to me, leaning over the bed and gave me a brief kiss.

"Thanks babe. I would of done it." He gave me his best smile, and I melted slightly. Okay so maybe he wasn't in so much trouble.

He turned, closing the door and locking it. Then went to his dresser, opening one draw and pulling out a pair of black boxers. I caught his tiny glance at me, he knew I was watching him. He smirked slightly, then like before casually pulled his towel from his waist and dropped it into his hamper. I didn't feel even the littlest bit of embarrassment ogling him, I knew he didn't mind and I was going to take what I could get. He slid on his boxers smoothly, walking to the wall and flipping the light switch off. Finally he crawled into bed, facing me.

"Your awfully quiet." He remarked. My eyes narrowed.

"I'm thinking about the best way to make you pay." I said matter of factly. He just grinned, not a shred of guilt on his face. Reaching for me, he pulled me onto his lap, my legs on either side of his hips. His hands wormed their way under my top, resting on my lower back.

"How about if I apologize repeatedly?" That mischievous glint was in his eyes again, and I felt my body tense in anticipation. I deliberated.

"Maybe. If you mean it." Despite my firm tone my hands found there way to his muscled chest, I was hopeless to stay away.

"Oh i'll definitely mean it." His voice was low, deeper than his normal tone and his eyes were smoldering .

He pulled me close, kissing me passionately for a while, his scent engulfing my senses until all I could feel, or smell was him. His hands strayed, running over my sensitive skin until I was tingling all over. One traveled down my hip, his long fingers brushing teasingly over my ass. He gripped my thigh, scooting me closer to him.

I couldn't decided weather this was so much better, or so, so much worse. His hard erection was nestled between my legs, sending a rush of desire through my body. It craved to move against his, seeking out some kind of relief from the tight ball twisting in my stomach. But I didn't know what to do, or what was allowed, so I remained still, his kisses leaving my panting mouth and trailing down my neck.

The fire grew in me, over shadowing everything else and my hips twiched, rolling slightly over his. The motion sent an electric shock throughout my body, momentarily freezing me with pleasure. His hands tightened on me, and I heard a low growl come from his mouth. It only made it worse, I loved when he did that.

"Jacob.." I moaned his name, losing all control of my body.

I knew this wasn't going to end well, I was to far gone to care about the rules and being responsible. I wanted him desperately. The physical ache to have some part of him, to have some part of this intense feeling in me to be released, was to great. I needed it. Him.

That's when he pulled away suddenly, his hands leaving my body, and in the same second he had both my wrists in his hands, holding my palms away from his body. It was then I realized how frantic his breath was, and how worried and almost crazed his eyes were. I remembered some of are conversations, about how much worse it was for him when he had to handle his own need, ontop of mine.

I was immediately filled with guilt. I didn't want to push him, I could see how much he was struggling. But the tight ball in the pit of my stomach didn't loosen, and I knew it would go unsatisfied tonight.

Burying my disappointment I gave him a gentle smile. I kissed his mouth once, softly and lifted myself off him. I pulled the blankets up over us and took his hand, pulling him slightly down, willing him to relax and join me. He seemed hesitant, but slid down, allowing me to cuddle up to him. My hand rested on his bare chest, feeling his heart slow down to a normal pace.

I accept your apology.

He chuckled once, his large hand enveloping mine. He sighed quietly, his demeanor off, but he turned his head, placing a kiss to my forehead.

"I love you." He said softly. The last shreds of dissatisfaction fizzing out. I knew it didn't really matter. I would deal with it all, every single day, if it meant keeping him.

"I love you my Jacob." I told him, snuggling closer and closing my eyes. Despite sleeping in so late I still felt exhausted. It was only minutes later I was pulled under into my unconsciousness.