Chapter 20: Aljara'a

Author's note: Sorry for the wait guys! I'm struggling to find the best road for the upcoming development and don't want to mess it up! I'm a perfectionnist and I hate it xD. Stay safe guys and take care of yourselves 3 !

Rey's ear was against his torso, listening to his heartbeat like a lullaby. His hand was clutched in hers as if he was afraid she would run away. Her lips drew a smile. This night will be engraved in her memory forever. He had made his confession that night but she still haven't answered. She had to tell him. Ben should know how much he meant to her.

" Ben? " she whispered as her eyes met his.

"Mmm?"

Ben was still cloaked in a cocktail of bliss and solace. His heart and mind was at peace and that is something he hasn't felt for many years, as far as he remembered. If he didn't feel her body heat, he would swear that was all a dream and pray to never wake up. His nose grazed her hair and breathed in her delicate scent.

Her face was still flushed and her pulse raced thinking about what she was going to say.

" Ben, I-"

Then, emptiness. His body disappeared as fast as he appeared earlier in the evening.

No more warmth, just the cold air of her room and the neon lights on the ceiling over her bed.

Her fingers curled into a fist on her bed sheets.

"Kriff!" she snarled.

The following two weeks were excruciating. The bond didn't allow them together for a reason that escaped her. She felt like running in circles around the base. Doing the same maintenance stuff over and over. Her traitorous body ached for his touch every single night and left her frustrated, like an animal in heat. She felt embarrassed to have such primal urges and she had no one to talk to. The only thing she could do was touching herself thinking about him but it was never enough. Never.

While she was cleaning blasters, she heard about food supply twenty kilometers north of their base that was going to be shipped on the main Destroyer and sent back for durasteel exchange. She looked at the speeder laid against a tree in facing her body, lost in her thoughts. The young woman shook her head in hope of a semblance of realism. That was a stupid and dangerous idea. A crazy idea but so was loving the Supreme Leader, her sole enemy.

It took her a long while to get to the cargo area unnoticed and yet one hour later, she still wondered how on Jakku she ended up in that container on its way to the First Order main ship. It felt like her body was on auto-pilot. That wasn't rational. Not at all. She will have to lie to her friends again, for him, and she hated it. That wasn't how she imagined her friendship with Finn or Poe or Rose. Something in her chest tightened at the simple thought of their reaction if they knew. Would she be able to bear their distrustful gazes just like she did with Poe? Would they understand? Or would they turn away from her?

Love.

Love was stupid. Yet it was something she yearned for all her life.

There was a big shake indicating the freighter has arrived at docks and she felt him instantly through the Force. It was a sweet relief realizing she didn't came all this way for nothing. She waited patiently until the unloading was done. When she deemed the area safe to get out, she slipped out of her crate and started her wandering in the long corridors in hope to find the other part of her soul. She had to be careful though, as her chances of success in mind-tricking stormtroopers would decrease the more individuals there were.

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Ben was heading to his conference room followed by his generals in his usual attire and mask when he felt her. What on Naboo was she doing here? He felt her closer and closer until he reached the door of the conference room.

"Kriffing girl!" he thought.

Ben had to make up something fast because if they discovered her, it would be a living hell for both of them. He paused in front of the door then turned to his generals, trying to act as natural as possible.

"Allow me a moment. I have a private call to make"

The generals nodded and he slid inside the room. The metallic sound of his helmet hitting the table echoed in the room. There was nowhere to hide, except below the table.

"Rey, get out of hiding place" he said with a sigh.

Small fingers appeared from under the table, then a flushed face followed by the rest of her body.

His fists clenched as he walk towards her.

"Are you out of your kriffing mind Rey?! This ship? Really? Do you want to die or what?"

She recoiled, offended.

"I'm happy to see you too". Her tone was caustic. She did not expect the warmest of welcomes considering the trouble she got herself into but that condescending tone was a bit much to her taste.

Ben couldn't believe she would put herself at risk just like that, without a second thought.

"How did you get in here? How will you get out? That's insane! What if someone sees you?" he said, pacing as his hand ran through his hair.

His anxiety was palpable through the bond so she raised her hand to his cheeks, boring her hazelnut eyes into his.

" Food crates got me here and you have a cargo leaving in two hours that will take me back. It's been two weeks and the Force hadn't connected us. I wanted to see you but I guess it wasn't mutual"

He closed the distance between them even more and cupped her face.

"I'm happy to see you but I'm scared for you too" he whispered; his lips met hers in a chaste kiss.

He looked at the door. The general were outside and the door was the only exit.

"I'm having a meeting right now in this room and the generals are waiting outside. Get under the table where I seat over there, the meeting should not last more than thirty minutes." he said, pointing at the far end of the table.

Rey hastily obliged, followed closely by Ben. She crouched under the table and Ben sat on his chair. Thankfully, though the under of the table was segmented with panels, there was enough room under there to fit both his long legs and Rey's tiny body. She heard a hiss indicating he put his helmet back on.

"Show off" she whispered, rolling her eyes.

"Mouth shut!" his modulated voice said, moving slightly backward to look at her.

The way he gave her orders, with his helmet on, aroused a fire in the lower part of her body she didn't expected at that moment given the circumstances. Her traitorous body was still aching.

"I'm not stupid" she said, forcing a frown.

With a wave of Kylo's hand, the door opened. Each of the generals picked a chair to sit down. The masked face rotated towards Pryde; the one who requested the meeting in the first place.

"Make it short General, I have a tight schedule today"

"Of course Supreme Leader"

For twenty minutes, General Pryde went through the different ongoing operations on the different planets involved, most of them having for sole aim the recruiting. Kylo went through the paper file while listening.

Rey was barely paying attention to what was said, too focused on the zipper between Kylo's legs. There was no zipper in his other trouser as far as she remembered. Or maybe was she too busy looking at his naked chest. She slightly parted his knees and slid between them.

"What are you doing Rey?" he asked through their bond.

"Nothing" she answered, slowly unzipping his pants.

Her hands freed his cock from his underwear and she took it hungrily in her mouth faster than hyperspace.

Kylo gasped and the paper crumpled through his tightening grip. All the eyes in the room flew to him. At that moment, he was thankful for his helmet. Rey was sucking on his cock and he couldn't help but wondering how she managed to make no sound while making him feel so good. She lived dangerously and though a part of him was concerned, another was totally turned on. It didn't take long for him to get rock hard, especially with her expertise which she had Maker knows how. Maybe she knew how to please him just like he knew how to please her and that was all thanks to their bond? Who knows? Why did it matter anyway? The woman of his dreams was sucking his cock in the middle of a meeting with his generals.

Her mouth and tongue teased his tip and Ben saw stars but his mind became a mess when her fingers joined the ballet held for his pleasure. He wouldn't last long if she went on like this.

"Is there something wrong Supreme Leader?" Hux asked, slightly irritated.

"Everything's….fine" his modulated voice said with an notable tremor. "I...I think we discussed everything….that needed to be discussed. Dismissed. Everyone out!"

The generals looked at each other and one after the other left the room. They were used to the Supreme Leader mood swings so it was nothing new. When the last one exited the place, he closed and locked the door with a wave of his hand.

Rey increased his speed, taking it as a signal.

"Fuck!" It was all he managed to say as emptied himself in her mouth. He slightly moved backwards and his eyes under his mask went down to met hers. She swallowed his cum, though a drop remained on the corner of her mouth. Her gaze was hungry. Kylo did not remove his helmet as she stood up next to him. He used the Force to drop her pants to her ankles and push her back against the wall. There was a small gasp that came out of her mouth but she couldn't move. He froze her there.

His gloved fingers reach her cunt which was already drenched from her previous ministrations.

" You're a dirty Scavenger" Kylo said, showing her his coated fingers.

Rey felt his ache growing more and more but was unable to move. She couldn't see his face but she knew he enjoying it. That arrogance was typical of Kylo.

Kylo then only kept his Force hold on her pinned wrists and upper body. That was when she started to press her thigh together.

"You will be treated accordingly" he said, his modulated voice showing dark undertones.

Kylo pressed his body against her, and slid two gloved fingers inside to tease her sweet spot; sending pulsating waves to stimulate it.

Rey's lower body jerked from the pleasure she felt. The leather was such a foreign but exciting sensation. He was stroking her fast, faster than the previous time and orgasm threatened to invade her body. She wanted to feel him inside her, not his fingers, no matter how good it felt.

"Please... I want…"

"What do you want? Say it. "

"Don't….don't make me say it" she said flustered, heat rising to her cheeks.

He removed his finger and place the tip of his cock at her opening, making it glide between her labia. She moan at the heavenly feeling, trembling with need. To her surprise though, his fingers went back inside and stroked her faster and faster….and faster.

Her body trembled as she came and screamed his name. Kylo released Force hold and put his cock back in his pants.

"This is your punishment for being reckless and board my ship. You have twenty minute before the shipping starts. Better hurry" he said to her.

Rey's eyes shot daggers at him. She could feel he was smiling under his mask and it was even more infuriating.

"You….you're...you're impossible!" she said, fuming.

Her legs felt like jelly when she gathered her clothes. Once she was dressed, she walked towards the exit without a single glance at him.

"Be careful, sand kitty" he managed to say before she disappeared behind the door.

In the transport crate, Rey was frustrated and angry at her body for making her do such stupids things. The past two weeks, she had this ache that kept growing and now that they were finally together, he...he just….

Not that it wasn't pleasurable but she wanted to feel him. She needed that connection. Her arms circled her knees realizing she still haven't told him.

"Damn" she whispered, as the ship landed.

When she got back to the camp, Finn ran to her, worried.

"REY! Everybody was looking for you! No one knew where you were!"

"I….I just needed some time alone. For training."

"Why didn't you tell me then?"

She turned to face Finn, anger filling her body.

" Do I have to make a report for you on every single thing I do Finn? What are you? My supervisor? "

The vehemence made him recoil. She could feel the worry in his voice when he spoke again.

"Rey, are you sure you are alright?"

Her blood was boiling and her face suddenly felt warm. The sun felt too blinding and too hot. It made no sense. How was that possible? She grew up on a deserted planet, she should be used to it. Her vision went blurry and that is when she realized something felt wrong. Her mouth opened to speak but before she could, everything went black.