A/N: I won't say enjoy... I'm sorry

Chapter Nineteen

Hold On

Sam smiled feeling the soft body against his, Mercedes was nestled against him with her head resting on his shoulder, he ran his hand down her back in soothing half circles earning him a sweet smile but her eyes remained closed. He couldn't resist leaning down and kissing her tenderly before shifting slightly so that he was facing her fully.

"You're doing it again." She mumbled without opening her eyes.

"Doing what?" He asked knowing full well what she was talking about but didn't care.

"Watching me sleep, I feel those green eyes on me as well as other things." She replied wiggling a little making him groan. She giggled and started to turn over but he stopped her and kissed her deeply and tickling her causing her to burst out in a fit of laughter.

"Stoppp!" She said in between laughs which turned into a deep moan as Sam positioned his self over her and kissed her again while grinding his erection into her center. She was naked from their love making last night and he was sure she was sensitive so he went slow and began kissing her shoulder and let out a deep groan when she wrapped her legs around his waist.

"Mmm… we need to stop, you need to soak and I have to get dressed." He said still grinding into her.

"You're the one still going." She replied huskily before grinding against him making him groan again. His alarm started going off and he took it as a sign, kissing her once more before pulling away and sighing deeply.

"Come one shower with me and we can finish this during lunch." Sam said getting out of bed and holding his hand out for her.

"Let's make it a late lunch… I meeting Tina remember?" she replied biting her lip because she was lying. She had a doctor's appointment to check to make sure after her miscarriage that she could still conceive, she intended to tell him after she gotten all the information from the doctor's.

…

After they showered and had a quick breakfast she got dresses and walked him out.

"So one thirty for lunch?" He asked standing in front of the car door.

"Sounds good to me! Good luck today baby. I love you." She said kissing him gently and starting to pull away but he held onto her and deepened before letting go with a wink.

"For you to remember me by." He said with a wide grin and she just shook her head and waved him off before heading inside since she had an hour before her appointment. She had just got to their room before she heard the knock and rolled her eyes knowing that it was Sam, he had been doing that lately saying he was leaving only to turn back around and pretend he forgot something and when she would open the door he would kiss her and leave.

"Sam you have a key and I know you haven't left anything." She said before opening the door.

…

Sam's meeting was pretty standard as he walked through the gallery space he picked out smiling at the painting he painted in secret for Mercedes. He had many 'meetings' but not like she thought they were, he had been working with a jeweler to design the perfect engagement ring and today was the day he going to pick it up. He planned the whole engagement out and couldn't wait to ask her finally, the gallery was empty minus the one painting he had of her on display so when she walked in it would be the first thing she saw. He looked at the time and realized it was already one thirty and knew she would be coming at any moment so he quickly dismissed everyone that had decorated and set up for them to have a quiet lunch before he proposed. He let out a deep breath taking the ring out of his pocket to admire it, it was a gold pear shaped cut with Amethyst stone setting. He wanted something that screamed her and luckily for him it was exactly what he thought it would be and more, after a few moments he quickly put it back and waited for her to come.

When she hadn't shown up he figured she lost track of time with Tina and would just her call to get her eta but got no answer so he texted her. When his phone finally buzzed he got excited only for it from Kurt asking how it was going which he quickly responded that he was waiting for her to arrive and ask Kurt if he could try get a hold of her while he called Tina.

"Why are you calling me when you're supposed to be asking my bestfriend to marry you?" Tina answered.

"Wait… she's not with you?" He asked and felt the hairs on the back of his neck stand up.

"No why would she be?"

"She told me she was meeting with you today and that she would come after."

"Sam I haven't seen her all day and she canceled today."

"Oh no! She's not answering my calls or texts, hold on Kurt's calling." He said switching calls.

"Sam she's not answering I tried four times."

"I have to go… I'm going home to check on her." He said hanging up and running out of the gallery.

Sam rushed home after he couldn't get her to pick up the phone or respond to any of his texts, that feeling of utter fear began to wash over him as he pulled up and noticed her car was still in the same spot. She hadn't left the house he rushed up the steps opening the door and let out a shaky breath when the door was slightly opened already, he walked inside and felt his heart beat growing faster the further he went inside.

Loving and fighting

Accusing, denying

I can't imagine a world with you gone

"Mercedes?" Sam breathed out walking in to the dark house his stomach began churning. He heard the crunch under his feet as he continued walking through his house.

"M-Mercedes?"

The joy and the chaos, the demons we're made of

I'd be so lost if you left me alone

Sam saw the broken glass and the book shelf laying across the floor but no sigh of Mercedes. He tried to speed up his pace but his body wouldn't let him. The further he went the more his heart sank. Flashes from that night finding his mother barely breathing came flooding in so fast that he shook his head to make the tears that were threatening to fall stay at bay but the lump in his throat was growing as he approached his room. The sheets were ripped from the bed, pictures and clothes were thrown around, feathers from pillows were everywhere and the wall beside the bathroom was a bloodied hand print.

You locked yourself in the bathroom

Lying on the floor when I break through

I pull you in to feel your heartbeat

Can you hear me screaming "Please don't leave me"

"Mer.. Mercedes?" He said barely above a whisper as he eased the door open, he let out a ragged breath and took a step back shaking his head. He felt his self falling to the ground with his hands in his hair tears streaming down his face as he saw the love of his life laying still on the floor, blood on her body and in her hair. He couldn't see her face because it was covered by her long locks, he crawled over to her and wrapped her in his arms rocking back and forth crying into her hair.

Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you
Let me take your hand, I'll make it right
I swear to love you all my life
Hold on, I still need you

A long endless highway, you're silent beside me
Drivin' a nightmare I can't escape from
Helplessly praying, the light isn't fadin'
Hiding the shock and the chill in my bones

Sam didn't remember getting into his truck or even placing her in the back, he just knew his body was in auto pilot, doing all the things he did before… he caught his self looking at her through the rear view mirror waiting for to move or make a sound but she was still, her hair still shielding her face from his view. He didn't remember getting out and rushing in but he did as fast as he could cradling her tightly.

"She needs help!" Sam shouted when we arrived at the hospital but refused to let anyone take her. His grip on her was tight and had to be pried by two large male nurse, the second she was out of his hands something snapped and he tried to get her back but the men were holding him back as he screamed for them to give her back to him. Please give her back to me. His mind screamed as he was being pushed back his will to fight draining as he watch them place her on the gurney. Mom give her back! Send her back please… don't let her get too lost!

They took you away on a table
I pace back and forth as you lay still
They pull you in to feel your heartbeat
Can you hear me screaming, "Please don't leave me"

"Sir! You need to let them do their job. You need to calm down or we will have to sedate you!" The larger of the two men said trying his best to keep Sam calm.

Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you

Sam saw them rushing her to the back her small hand just dangling off the slide, the same hand with blood on it and the same hand that left the hand print. He blinked hard as tears filled his eyes and fell freely, he felt his legs give out and his breathing growing rapid the further she went away the harder it became for him to breathe. He could hear them shouting and trying to get her to respond but he didn't hear that sweet voice… he didn't hear her.

Let me take your hand, I'll make it right
I swear to love you all my life
Hold on, I still need you

I don't wanna let go
I know I'm not that strong

The world around him went by in a blur, his mind raced as he sat on the floor with his head in his hands. He didn't see or hear Puck and Quinn arrive and try to talk to him, he didn't hear Santana as she demanded to speak with someone to get an update on Mercedes's condition. He wasn't even sure how they knew but as he looked up he saw all of their friends there looking worried and Tina crying. The only thing he could hear was her soft voice telling him she loved him and that she would see him later, her sweet smile as she waved him off before going back inside.

I just wanna hear you
Saying baby, let's go home

He felt some one gently nudging his shoulder and shot his head up seeing the doctor looking at him with an unreadable expression. He quickly stood and blinked away the tears that were still coming, he took a deep breath and waited for the doctor to say something.

"Sam Evans?"

"Yes, I'm him."

"Mr. Evans…" Sam knew that tone, he knew what he was going to say but he refused to hear it again.

"No, no… she's fine, you're going to say she's fine!" Sam said hoarsely, he saw his friends standing around him with heartbroken expression and closed his eyes shut tight shaking his head.

"Mr. Evans… She has endured a great-"

"She's not gone…"

"Mr. Evans please let me speak"

"NO! I won't, you won't sh-she's fine! I was going to ask her… we are trying to have a… NOO!

Let's go home
Yeah, I just wanna take you home

Sam shook his head moving away from the doctor and running towards the direction they had taken her, shouting her name, looking in rooms as he passed them he could hear the doctor trying to stop him but he pushed away the warnings and then stopped when he saw her. He felt his heart stop and his eyes well up with tears as he moved closer but something stopped him… he couldn't see her like that, he didn't want to remember her like that. She was too beautiful to be remembered this way, he feet didn't listen to his mind and continued to move forward until he was right in front of her.

"No baby..."

Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you

... Next chapter will be up soon I promise. Please don't hate me until next time XOXO!