WARNING PEOPLE WHO STRUGGLE WITH SELF HARM, DEPRESSION, AND ADDICTION PLEASE ADVISED WITH THIS CHAPTER. THIS WILL INCLUDE DEATH ALONG WITH THESE TOPICS PLEASE IF YOU FEEL YOU CAN'T HANDLE THIS CHAPTER PLEASE SKIP OVER TO THE NEXT CHAPTER.
LUCY P.O.V.
I open my eyes to see if in a wheat field, but the last thing I remember is being in the car to go see Gray. How did I end up here? I started feeling the ground below me, and I couldn't put my finger on it. Golden fields flow around me like if it's ocean so far that it touches the horizon as far as I can see. The sun shines so bright behind me, but it doesn't show my shadow which I thought was extremely ground was too soft if that makes any sense, but I know I'm not where I supposed to be.
"I'm here Lucy, I'm right here" I heard Gray, but it was the sound of his voice that made my head implode.
I grabbed the ground below me to make it stop, but it's not helping. I can't stop the feeling of my brain being squished. I hold up my hands to my ears before I feel something wet and I'm petrified to look down. I need to know so I slowly looked down to see blood covered hands and I tried to remember what happened.
I was driving to go see Gray and then… headlights, but what does that mean? I remember the EMT and all I could say was my name. "I think my name is Lucy"
"I was in a car accident." I felt a warm pair of hands on my face, but I know where I am. She told me about this place when she first went into overdose and came back.
"Big sister, why are you here?"
"Michelle?" I reached out to touch her face because the last time she was so cold, but now she's warm. I thought it started to rain, but the only water was coming from my eyes and it started to pour out.
"Big sister it's been awhile, hasn't it?" She gave me that sweet smile as she took my hands and lifted me up.
"Yes, it has. Are you at peace?"
"Lucy, we all are but it hurts us to see you in pain." Then I saw the one person who had such a soft voice that could calm me down at my worst.
"Mama"
"Lucy, you can't be here. Not now at least. Not today." She tries to push towards the horizon, but it's like if we're in a loop because we end up in the same place.
"Mama please, I'm not going anywhere anytime soon. Can I just stay here and enjoy this moment? I've been waiting to see you guys again." I hugged both of them and held on for dear life, but I can feel something off.
"Big sister, we need you to talk to you because we've been watching over you." She pulls away to look down on my arms to see where my cuts would be.
"It's been hard since you left." I feel even more tears fall.
"I know, but why did you hurt yourself?" I look away, but I just don't know how to answer. "I want to say sorry for leaving so early, but I'm at peace now. I don't feel any pain anymore, and I want you to know that. You don't have to be sad anymore."
"I just don't want to be alone anymore."
"My Lucy, you're not alone you have some many people watching out for you. Gray is there waiting for you. Erza is there waiting for you. Mira is there waiting for you. Even that young man Natsu is waiting for you." My mom says ask grabs my arms to give me some sort of hope.
"Mama, I don't think they can help me. I'm in pain when you guys left. I couldn't stop feeling helpless. Please I don't think I can do this anymore." I shrink down to the ground because I can't lose them another time. This would hurt so much more than before.
"My dearest Lucy" Mama puts her hand on my cheek to swipe some tears off my face. "Listen to me, you will never lose us but it's not the time for you to be here. We will be watching over you, so when you feel the loneliest just remember we are here whether you can see us." She puts her hand on my chest, but I'm not ready to leave yet.
"I don't think I'm ready" Michelle walks over to me
"Do you remember this field?" I started to think and it does look familiar "Mom took us here right before she died. It was the last happy memory we had with her." She grabs the wheat in her hand before starting to walk away.
"MICHELLE! Where are you going?" I started to get up, but then another voice exploded in my mind.
"Lucy, please wake up. I need my sister here with me."
"Please not you, I will do anything to get you back."
"You're strong so please prove me right and open your eyes."
"Lucy, we are all here waiting."
"What's happening to my head? It feels like someone shouting inside my brain." I grabbed the ground one more time and nothing.
"Your friends are calling you back" I look a few feet in front of me and I know those boots.
"Dad?" I can't believe it "I'm sor-"
"My Lucy, you don't need to apologize for anything. I shouldn't have treated you the way I did. You weren't to blame for any of our deaths. If you remember anything please remember this. But your friends want you to go back and I think you should do that." He lifted me up and pointed me to the horizon, but this time it looks like the stars have taken over the sky along with the moon.
"Can I stay here?" They all gave me this worried look "Please, I'm exhausted I just need a break from everything." My mom put her hand on my dad's chest then whispered something to him. He walks over to the same direction that Michelle left in and he starts to merge into the horizon.
"Come here" Mama sits down in the cool wheat fields and lightly pats her lap. I walk over and lay my head down. I feel a little better as Mama plays with my hair. It was always relaxing when she did that. Her perfume starts to drift into my nose, Night Dust, it was always her go to perfume when going anywhere. She needed to go to the store, charity events, art shows and she would just grab Night Dust and spray a couple of sprints.
"I miss you, Mama"
"I know you do, and I won't make you do anything you don't want to. Just take care of yourself because I'm watching you." She whispered into my ear before I drifted off to sleep.
A/N :I DON'T THINK DEATH IS EASY FOR ANYONE WHO GOES THROUGH THAT PAIN OF LOSING SOMEONE (from personal experience) IF YOU FIND YOURSELF STRUGGLING PLEASE REACH OUT TO SOMEONE WHO LOVES YOU FOR HELP. DEATH IS NOT THE ANSWER
A/N: After that heavy chapter I will post two chapters this week. Thank you for reading! Please leave a review! And check out my other stories! HAVE AN AMAZING DAY! :)