Under My Control

Chapter 18

Author's Note : I continue to be humbled and grateful for the ongoing support. Review!

Weeks Later

Wearing black. Lost in thought. Angry. That would some up me these days. Haley was young with her life ahead of her. Her death being so out of nowhere makes no sense to me. Brooke thought to herself. She quietly placed the framed photo of Jamie and Haley on the boy's nightstand before leaving the room. Jamie has been crying himself to sleep every night. The minute he and Jonah got tucked into bed.

Jonah told us that himself. When Jamie wasn't around.

He wasn't back to school yet. He didn't want to face the sad looks and people expressing their sympathy. Lucas and i didn't plan to push him on it. When he was ready he would return to school.

They were making it a point to monitor the situation the best way they knew how. If it got to the point. That they should be concerned. They would bring in a therapist to help him through his grief.

"BB are you going to stay with me and daddy forever.?" Jonah asked. As the two made their way down the stairs.

And lingered in the entryway.

Brooke smiled up at him. "No me staying with you and you're daddy is just for right now. To help Jamie adjust to everything happening in his life. He basically lost his mommy and his daddy at the same time that's alot for a six year old boy to handle." She said.

"I would be super sad if you or daddy went to heaven and left me." Jonah said.

"You don't have to think about that. You're daddy and I are going to be around for a long time. Don't you let's go build a fort. Or we can go and play in you're tree house." Brooke said.

"Let's do both.!" Jonah said.

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"So i have been expecting you're visit. I heard about what happened. I'm sorry to hear about you're friend." The therapist said.

"Thank you but i didn't come here to talk about that. Brooke and I are living together again. Because Haley's son is our god son and it's to us to raise him and make sure he has the best future possible. His sperm donor. Also known as my brother. Left. Signed over his parental rights. It makes me sick. It makes me want hurt him the way he's hurting Jamie for leaving but i won't. That won't solve anything i know that."

"Tell me more about why Brooke moved in.?" The therapist asked.

"She moved in to make it easier on Jamie. Instead of him shuffling from my house to Brooke's. The four of us will live together. Jonah loves it. He likes having another boy around. Jamie is coping and grieving like everyone else who loved and knew her."

"Moving in together should and will change the dynamic of the friendship you and her share. Which can be positive or negative." The therapist said.

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Sometime Later

The two sat beside each other on the couch. Dinner was over. Jamie and Jonah were in bed.

"You can tell me anything Luke you know that." Brooke said.

Lucas looked back at her. "I knew about Haley's Cancer she asked me not to say anything because nothing could be done to save her so i kept quiet."

"You asked me before to admit it. That i had feelings for you that i refused to admit and you're right. I do have feelings for you. But acting on them exploring them. Just can't happen." Lucas said.

The expression on Brooke's face softened.

"I have had these feelings for you since after we broke up. When i got back to town and finally started to heal they resurfaced. I tried to push them down and ignore them but clearly that failed. And now that i think about it. It's probably just a reaction to everything going on. It would be a mistake too. For us. To be anything but friends." Brooke said.

Lucas carefully caressed her face with his hand.

Brooke placed her hands on his chest. Feeling his heart race.

Their eyes locked on each other.

Lucas leaned over kissing her. First gently then more passionately.

Brooke kissed him back. Their lips colliding. Tongues fighting for domination.

He took her hair out of it's ponytail.

Lucas pulled her into his arms.

Brooke pulled him closer to her.

At some point they pulled apart. Gasping for air. Their eyes darkened with desire and want.

"Bed. It's late." Lucas said.

"Goodnight." Brooke said. The two avoiding each other's gaze. As they left the living room.

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