This is not the chapter you think, sorry but flashback time.

The next chapter after this, shit will hit the fan, but this flashback is important in how the story moves forward after this.

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Trigger warning: some non con stuff.

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Let's not wait any longer.

Lego

1971

On Platform nine and three quarters, beyond that brick wall, steam flooded out from the train's chimney. Students young and old said goodbye to their families as the hour hand drew closer to eleven and students rushed onto the train. But not Peter, little Peter Pettigrew had found himself in a very sticky situation after he had accidentally bumped into some much larger and scarier boys.

"The little first year's all alone." The older Slytherin boy said as he glared down at him.

Peter tried to move away but one of the older boys grabbed the back of his jumper, "Where do you think you're going," one of them said dragging him bac.

"Stop it," he cried moving his hand back trying to pull is jumper loose from their grip

"Halfblood probably," one of the boys mused, "I wouldn't worry about missing the train, you won't be missed."

"They probably made a mistake, you smell of squib, "The tall blonde one spat at him.

Peter shook his head nervously still trying to escape their hold "My mothers a witch, she went to Hogwarts." He tried to reason

"Doesn't mean you should piggy," one of them laughed tapping him in the stomach with the tip of his wand.

"Leave him alone!" a small voice called stopping the boys.

The tall blonde boy turned to face the small girl who had spoken up against the bullies, she was with another boy and for a moment Peter felt he could breathe.

"Aww," the older boy purred moving closer to her, "It's little McKinnon," he said holding out a hand trying to tap her cheek patronisingly, but she moved away. "You're so cute when you're angry." He said mockingly down at her.

"Leave him alone, Malfoy." the small girl said with such ferocity, you almost forgot that she was only eleven.

Lucius glared down at her, no longer entertained, "Why don't your run along, You little.."

"Lucius," a voice interrupted from behind them. The blonde turned to face the Gryffindor prefect, his fake smile shinning.

"Nathaniel," he greeted with false sincerity that Nathaniel Mckinnon saw straight through.

"Leave my sister alone, Malfoy," Nathanial said politely, "I'd hate to have to take points, we're not even at school yet."

"No worries, We were just on our way," Lucius said giving his fellow Slytherins the side-eye before walking away. "Blood traitors," Marlene heard him hiss funder his breath as he passed but she simply rolled her eyes at the overused insult before looking to the boy they had been picking on.

"Are you a First year?" she asked tucking a piece of hair behind her ear.

Peter looked to the girl, she was very pretty, she had dark brown hair and light skin with the most beautiful copper brown eyes he had ever seen. He nodded nervously, his voice having had failed him.

"Me too," Marlene said encouragingly before asking, "what's your name?"

"P..Peter," he managed to stutter out.

"Well Peter I'm Marlene and this is Remus," she said gesturing to the boy she had arrived with."We were just about to go find a seat. Do you want to come with us?"

Peter nodded eagerly, not wanting to be caught alone again, "Sure."

And so the three of them, Remus Marlene and Peter got on the train that would take them to Hogwarts, but their group was not complete yet.

"Here's one," Marlene said after a long walk up the train looking for a compartment.

She poked her head in through the open glass door. "Do you mind if we sit here?" He heard her ask whoever was sitting in the compartment,

"Of course not." Another boy said.

Peter followed Remus into the compartment to find two boys lounging on the seats. One with shaggy hair and glasses, the other with black hair and piercing grey eyes.

"I'm James," the boy with glasses said as they entered the compartment

"I'm Remus and this Peter," Remus said sitting down next to Peter but he was focused on something else.

Marlene and the dark-haired boy were staring at each other as she moved to sit down next to him.

"I'm Marlene," she said holding out her hand for him to take which he did.

"Sirius," he greeted her, smiling brightly making her blush.

If Peter could have gone back, if he could have changed one thing, he would not have let her go into that compartment.

Marlene was the most perfect girl to ever walk this planet, of this Peter, was sure. She was kind, caring and protective of her friends, of him. She cared about him, truly.

When he first met her, he knew she was odd. She was one of the most understanding witches she had ever met and very open-minded. many people thought she was strange in that way her ability to understand people. Peter thought it made her amazing if she wasn't the brave and outgoing girl he knew she was, well maybe they never would have met. The small and effervescent girl had caught his eye and when first year came to its end he was convinced she would be his one day.

But complications arose as the years passed, one was that what Peter noticed about Marlene, her beauty, her kindness, her warmth, Others started to notice as well. She grew more beautiful and for Peter that meant drawing in unwanted attention from other boys, one boy imparticular.

Sirius and Marlene grew closer and closer, and by 6th year James Potter even grew jealous of the attention Sirius lathered onto Marlene.

Like now as Sirius leant over her in the hallway talking about who knows what.

"What does he even see in her?" James asked Remus and Peter as he watched them begrudgingly.

"Beautiful, funny, talented, smart, the list goes on," Remus laughed as James pouted.

"Peter, help me out," James said gesturing over to their fellow students.

"Sorry prongs, can't do that," Peter said, entranced while he imagined himself in Sirius's place.

It was a normal picture, one which Hogwarts' halls had seen many times, a boy and a girl, a clear attraction. For Marlene and Sirius, it may have even been a key moment, but it was not to last long.

Axel Mulciber and Rabastian Lestrange descended on the pair and everyone knew that meant nothing good.

"Look at them, two blood traitors together how cute," Mulciber said folding his arms over his chest as they stood before the Marlene and Sirius.

"Not exactly what I was thinking, I find it a bit sickening," Rabastan said, disgusted by the image.

"Oh yes how cute are we Marlene," Sirius said in agreement looking over to the girl.

"So cute Sirius, can't you hear it the pitter-patter of blood traitor baby feet," she said nodding over at him.

Rabastan laughed at the idea before his eyes locked on Marlene, "Well If you ever change your mind Mckinnon, I'll show you how pure blood ladies should behave." Rabastan said leering at the girl as he moved closer.

"What did you just say?" Sirius asked through gritted teeth, "Did you hear that Marlene," he said looking back to her.

"I don't know about you Sirius but I think he just made a very disgusting implication," Marlene said playing along with his game.

"Yeah me too," Sirius said in agreement, "Marls what do think we should do?" He said in false cluelessness wrapping an arm around her shoulders.

"I don't know Sirius, but I can defiantly teach him how to behave." Sirius watched her gleefully as in a flash her wand was drawn and with a flick, her spell was done.

The belt around Rabastan waist loosened, falling to the ground before springing up like a worm and in one loud crack started cracking at the Slytherin boys backside

"Fuck off!" Rabastan screamed at the belt stomping around his feet trying to stop the belt beating at his legs while other students watched and laughed, he pulled out his wand pointing it at the piece of leather. "Incednio," he cried as the leather burst into flame before crumbling into ash.

"You'll pay for that Mckinnon," Rabastan said glaring at her.

"I don't think I will."

"Come on Marls let's just go," Sirius said taking her hand in his before pulling her away.

"See you in class McKinnon!" She heard Rabastian call from behind her but Sirius had a tight grip on her hand as he dragged her away.

Later that night, the boys sat in their dormitory as Sirius went on.

"James I'm in love," he whined from where he laid, looking up at the roof.

"I know mate, I know," James said boredly.

"Sirius in love, what Hufflepuff are we talking about," Remus jokingly said as he sat up.

"I'm serious, I'm ready," Sirius said sitting up on the bed

"We know your Sirius but who the hell is ready," Remus said smiling over to him

"Is my heart a joke to you," Sirius said dramatically placing a hand on his chest

"You can't do that to her Sirius," Remus said seriously over to him. "you'll ruin our friendship with our one friend girl."

"Friend girl?" James asked confused by the phrase.

"Well it sounds weird when I say girlfriend," Remus said

"Remus is right," Peter said finally speaking up, Sirius' words alighting a fit of anger in him he could not quite control, "Besides you'll use her and then get bored of her like you do all girls."

"Don't say that Wormtail, I love her," Sirius said truthfully, "Don't I James?" he asked looking over to James who through a pillow over his face.

"Don't ask James. If you love her you'll know." Remus said staring up at Sirius.

"Well I do know," he said standing up, "if James knows it just proves it." He said pointing over to James as he smothered his face in a pillow. "What you can cry on and on about Lilly but I can't mention Marlene," Sirius said ripping the pillow of James's face.

Remus laughed looking between to the two, "Sirius do what you want, but if we lose her because of you Padfoot, I'll end you," Remus said pointing a threatening finger at Sirius who slapped it away.

That was something Peter could agree on, If he lost Marlene because of Sirius he would end him.

Peter walked out from the dormitory, he had been tasked with sneaking down to the kitchens to grab them some food, but the young girl who sat in the Gryffindor common room drew him in.

"Are you okay after today?" He asked breaking her from her thoughts as she stared into the fire.

Marlene jumped a little at the sound of his vois=ce but smiled back at his comforting voice, "Yeah I'm fine," Marlene said running a hand through her hair, leaning back on the couch.

"Marlene," Peter said sitting next to her, " I always know when's something's up with you."

"I'm just sick of it," Marlene huffed "Stupid boys who will become even worse men."

"Well you only have to deal with them for another two years," Peter said trying to cheer her up.

Marlene laughed, "Oh I feel some much better now."

Peter shrugged "Its a short time in the scheme of things."

"You're right."

Peter smiled at her "I am most of the time, but we don't tell James that we let him believe he's right."

Marlene gave a small giggle before she breathed in deeply before her head tipped, resting it on his shoulder making Peter seize up, "I can't wait for school to be over," She said softly.

Peter frowned, "Don't say that you love it here."

"I love some of the people here, not most."

Peter slowly moved to place an arm around her shoulders, "It will be better I promise " he said softly to her.

Marlene smiled that beautiful smile up at him and for a moment Peter thought his heart would explode, "Well let's hope you're right about that."

A year passed and Peter thanked his lucky stars every night that Sirius had gone back on his word and decided against admitting his feelings for Marlene. Peter had been able to spend his finale year where she was still his, where she was his Marlene and no one else's, but his luck was running out.

It was the night after a full moon, 7th year. They were celebrating their last successful full moon with moony, and the end of their last year at Hogwarts.

She had glowed in the moonlight that night, their time at Hogwarts was coming to an end and the war was escalating. They lived in uncertain times and no one was safe. They were all scared, not that they would admit it. But their time within the safe walls of Hogwarts was finished and now it was time to enter the real and dangerous world.

James was somewhere off with Lilly while Remus had gone off on his own enjoying his final moments on the forest outskirts.

while Peter was looking for Marlene.

He had to tell her how he felt, how he had always felt. If he didn't do it now he would regret it.

He heard her voice through the trees but it was joined by someone else's.

The voices were hushed as he grew closer and the sight that met him made him freeze.

Sirius was kissing Marlene. He was holding her close to his body, her hands resting on his chest as they bathed in the moonlight.

Peter ducked behind a tree his eyes tearing as the anger burnt through his lungs.

He could hear lips on lips and the beautiful sighs that escaped her mouth, ones he hoped to one day cause. How dare Sirius touch her. How dare she let him. He saw her first, she was his first. She was meant for him, she made him the happiest he had ever been, she was the only one who saw past his looks for what he truly was and she loved him for what he was, he knew she did. But here she was now, wrapped up in stupid, self-righteous, playboy, Sirius Black's arms. Peter shook his head,' no,' Sirius was his friend Peter told himself. But Sirius doesn't deserve her.

He heard the couple break apart

"Marlene there's something I have to tell you," he heard Sirius ruggedly say to her.

"Yes," she replied breathlessly.

He heard Sirius take a deep and needy breath," love you," he whispered hoarsely, "I always have and I know if you don't feel the same way that's fine, I won't push it, I just need you to know before this is all over that I love you and-"

"Sirius stop," Yes Marlene, tell him you don't feel the same, tell him he's being foolish, Peter prayed from his hiding spot.

"I love you too," He heard her whisper.

And all Peter could do was run.

The order of the Phoenix, a bunch of prideful self-righteous idiots who couldn't see the truth that was right in front of them. They were losing this war, not that anyone would admit it. But they were already, ready to die for the cause, do whatever it takes, but Peter was not. He was not going to sit idly by and wait for the death eaters to find them and kill them like ants in a nest. He had a plan and it was working, yes his allegiances had changed but not for selfish reasons, he couldn't let her go, he could let her die. The only thing that made him feel better anymore was Marlene, her smile, her touch just the sound of her voice telling him how one day everything will be okay. Yes, her and Sirius's relationship had escalated but Peter new Sirius, it was a passing phase this attachment to Marlene, Soon Sirius would make a mistake and peter would be there to pick up the pieces.

"Peter, are you coming inside?" Marlene asked coming out onto the balcony to check on him.

"In a moment." He said turning to look at her smiling at the sight of her,

But Marlene could see something distant in his eyes, "What's up ?" She asked moving closer.

Peter shook his head, "Nothing just a long day."

"Well I understand that but come inside, Sirius and I have to tell you all something," she said before taking his hand and dragging him inside.

Sirius sat next to James, drink in hand while Lilly fussed around the kitchen with Remus.

Marlene let go of his hand and moved over to Sirius.

"Okay so what going on," Remus asked as he moved into the room with Lilly.

Peter's eyes remained on Marlene, she was nervous, that much was clear and whatever it was it made peter nervous as well.

"We have some news," Marlene said timidly but Sirius took her hand nodding to her encouragingly.

"Good news or bad news," James asked.

"Good," Sirius said with a wide smile, looking up at Marlene lovingly, "very good."

"I know," Lily said mischievously.

"Really," Marlene asked Lily nervously.

"Of course," Lily said smiling at her best friend, "trust me I know," Lilly said gesturing to her own rounding belly, "You're pregnant."

Peter froze at her words, surly not, Marlene's not pregnant, he watched Marlene place a hand on her stomach gleefully smiling down at Sirius making his stomach seize up in revulsion.

"She's pregnant " Sirius confirmed, smiling brightly.

Excitement buzzed in the room as his friends cheered and laughed at the revelation, but not Peter.

Peter saw red, he was unable to hear the excited words of his friend as he quietly left the room.

She was pregnant, with his child. She was having Sirius's baby.

Marlene

"Peter!" Marlene cried happily Launching her self into his arms, "oh my god I've missed you."

How have you been

I'm fine how are you

"I'm good," he nodded as she led him into the kitchen, "I miss you, I haven't seen you in so long."

"Yeah it has," she said as she moved throughout the kitchen "you should see Atty, she's getting so big."

"No." He said softly "I'm asking how are you? Sirius doesn't really tell me anything these days."

He noticed that at the mention of Sirius's name she stiffened a little before pretending she hadn't reacted at all, "Yeah I'm okay I guess."

"Marlene?" Peter tried, "I always know when somethings wrong with you now what's wrong?"

"I'm fine," she said in denial, "just I a bit restless I guess."

Peter smiled nodding at her, "I understand that you love your job."

"Loved," she corrected her voice bitter, "Yes I miss it but someone has to look after Atty."

Peter nodded biting the side of his mouth, "Well it should be Sirius, we need you out there."

Marlene smiled before her tired eyes widened. "oH, How rude of me would you like something, food, tea?"

Peter shook his head "I'm fine I ate at headquarters."

Once again her body froze her hands clenching on the counter.

"Is Sirius there?" she asked softly looking down.

Peter moved closer, "Yes."

Marlene turned to him, a fake smile on her face as her eyes grew redder, "Did he say when he would come back."

"No, he didn't."

Her finger tapped anxiously on the table, "I spoke to him a few days ago but haven't heard anything since," she said rubbing a hand over her face," do you mind asking when he'll be home next."

"Of course," Peter said his hand moving to rub soothing circles on her back.

"Thank you." She mumbled as she tried to hide the emotion in her voice, but he could still see the tear that leaked from the corner of her eye.

"Come here," Peter said pulling her gently into his arms, wrapping them around her waist as she, in turn, wrapped hers around his neck.

"It's okay," he whispered into her hair holding her close to him as she let out a few soft whimpers. "I just miss him," she whispered softly before pulling herself away.

They separated but his hand fell, taking her hand tightly in his, drawing her back in closer to him.

Marlene looked from their hands up to him, she could see something was troubling him. "Peter, what's wrong?

Peter too looked down at their joined hands before staring up at her, "Marlene have you ever wondered if we are on the wrong side,"

Marlene looked confused, "On the wrong side of what?"

"of the war," Peter said softly.

Her eyes widened and he knew immediately he had made a mistake "Peter! How could you say that!" Marlene said loudly pulling away from him, but he didn't let her go.

"Marlene no, you haven't seen much since Atria was born but we all know it, Marlene, we're losing."

"It's a war Peter, yes right now we are in a tough spot but we'll get out of it!"

Peter gritted his teeth, "Dorcas is dead! Fabian and Gideon, dead! Your parents are dead and that was simply because they refused to pick aside." He exclaimed to her as she flinched at his yelling, Peter bowed his head, he didn't want to yell at her but why couldn't she understand."We all just don't want to admit it, they'll kill us off one by one until we're all dead."

"Peter, don't say that," Marlene said shaking her head.

"But it scares you doesn't it," he said his hand tightened around hers and Marlene began to grow nervous under his intense gaze.

"Of course it does." She said timidly.

"Well, What if I could protect you? I could protect you."

"Peter." Marlene sighed.

"Marlene I love you!" he exclaimed, "I have loved you since the moment I first saw you and to watch Sirius push you aside like your nothing, It's just so frustrating, I could never do that."

Marlene shook her head, "Peter, I'm with Sirius, I love Sirius."

Peter huffed trying to pull her closer, "Like he deserves you."

"And you do!" Marlene cried finally ripping her hand away from him.

"Yes." he spat, "Sirius is never here, what if something happened, he couldn't protect you. I am the only one who can protect you."

"How?" She demanded.

"Trust me," he said moving closer to her his hands striking out to grab her hands viciously as the anger rose up within him, "you trust me don't you,"

Marlene looked into Peter's manic eyes, subtly trying to get rid of his hold without angering him more. She felt herself being pushed back further until her back touched the counter and his body leant into hers, now she was panicking," Peter stop it," she whispered.

"Marlene I love you," he whispered leaning forward in an awkward forced hug, his nose dipping into her cherry-scented hair.

"Peter get off me," she tried to forcefully remove his hands from her, tugging them away but his grip simply fell to her wrists instead.

"I can help you, let me help you," he whispered huskily as if lulling her to sleep, she felt his lips brush her jaw and Marlene snapped.

"PETER GET OFF ME!" she finally screamed in his face shoving him away with all her strength, done trying to gently let him down. His face snapped in a single second as if he to was done with the pretence.

"WHY WON'T YOU LISTEN TO ME!" He shouted at her before moving forward and grabbing her face, pulling it close to his. Marlene's hands flew up to his trying to pry his hands off her face, small grunts escaping her as she struggled. "I am the only one who can save you! let me save you!" he said his lips dangerously close to hers but Marlene didn't seem to notice. She was staring at something in the doorway her eyes wide.

"Mama," came a murmur from the doorway and Peter turned to see what was drawing Marlene's attention away from him. The small creature that had stolen Marlene from him and tied her to Sirius forever stood in the doorway.

"Mummies coming Atty," Marlene said with a trembling voice to the confused toddler while still tight in Peter's hold.

"Peter please let me go," she said quietly only for him to hear.

He didn't immediately, he faltered, his eyes angrily burning into her as she nervously looked at her daughter, the thing. He ripped his hands angrily away from her face as Marlene rushed away from him over to her daughter.

She picked Atria up and placed her on her hip, the small girl wrapped her arms tightly around her mother's neck

Peter gritted his teeth. No this couldn't be it, he had to make her listen. He was still the same Peter who loved her, who would do anything for her, why couldn't she do the same. Sirius could have the girl and he could have Marlene, take her away and keep her safe. But as she looked at him now with scared and distant eyes he knew, that would never happen.

"I think you should go, Peter," Marlene said looking down at the ground, Peter took a step closer to Marlene but she followed with a step back.

He tried to reason with her "Marlene please you-"

"Go," she said, her grip visibly tightening on her daughter.

Peter took one last look at her, if she didn't come with him now that was it, he could not help her. He could always force her but that wouldn't work, she would get her wand and yes physically he could overpower her but with wands, she was the clear winner.

So he left her and as he walked away he could not forgive and forget. She had made him believe she cared for him that she loved him. But it was clear now she would never love him. She only had eyes for Sirius, it had always been Sirius, if he had gotten rid of him earlier maybe Marlene would be there holding their child not a Black bastard.

This was her last chance, the death eater's where coming and if he couldn't have her no one would.

That night he was called back to that house, back to her.

He looked down as Sirius cried for her, over her beautiful mangled body, her beautiful eyes wide and dead.

He went home and he cried, he cried for the life he had lost with Marlene. If she had just chosen him.

Present time

Her body was slumped against the trunk of the tree.

He brushed her hair out of her face and gritted his teeth in disgust.

The beautiful parts of Marlene were dominated by Sirius's features. Hints could be seen but Peter couldn't even bring himself to focus on them because all he saw was him. But what made him want to strangle the girl was the fact that even Marlene's beautiful copper eyes had not survived, instead, the cold Steele of Sirius's had won the battle in the genes.

He had been watching her, she was nothing like Marlene. She was cold just like the rest of her family.

As much as he wanted to wrap his hands around her neck and strangle her until her eyes burst from her skull, he couldn't. She was his fail-safe

Sirius wouldn't touch him if he knew his daughter hung in the balance and the dog was getting closer and closer, gaining on the rats tail. It was only a matter of time. He knew he couldn't run, Sirius would hunt him down to the far corners of the world if he had too, but Peter was confident that with Atria, Sirius would do just about anything to keep her safe.

he watched as she began to stir, she was waking up, she had begun to twitch ever so slightly every now and then and her eyes moved beneath her lids.

He uncorked the potion in his pocket and crouched down in front of her, his face close to hers as he pried the girl's mouth open, that made her wake up. She jolted in his hold but he kept a tight hold on her pressing her into the trunk of the tree.

"Shhh," he hushed but she struggled with wide eyes as he poured the contents of the phial into her mouth before slapping is hand over her mouth.

"Swallow it," he demanded, but she kept shaking her head trying to push him off. Her hands flew up as she struggled to get his hand off her mouth. Her legs kicked out but he pushed his body forward pressing her harder into the tree.

He moved a hand to press it against her throat, placing pressure on her windpipe before demanding again, "swallow it."

She gaged slightly but he held his hand over her mouth stopping her from throwing up. And after her body had begun to spasm in need for oxygen she gave in and swallowed.

After she had ingested the potion he moved his hand before wiping a single drop away from her lips.

"There we go," he tutted still crouched down in front of her, watching her eyes fill up with tears.

Atria still felt very awake and she tried to lash out but her body had slumped, she felt paralysed, now only in control of her eyes.

"You won't be able to move for quite some time," the ugly man in front of her explained his face so close to her she could smell his rotten breath.

He moved a hand tucking her hair behind her ear, a small sound of fear escaping her lips as tears leaked out of the corners of her eyes.

"Don't be frightened it's alright, " he said gently, but the gleeful glint in his eyes terrified her.

His hands fell, resting on her neck as he fumbled with the tie around her neck, she felt his dirty fingers pull the tie loose taking it from around her neck as she began to internally panic. he tucked it away in his pocket and he didn't stop there, his hand stilled on her neck, he looked to be contemplating something. His hand rested there, her pulse beating rapidly under his hold as he placed a small amount of pressure on her windpipe. Atria made a choked sound but he did not stop. His eyes were wild and full of hatred as she looked at him, but for what? She didn't even know him, but he seemed to know her. She sat still, tears flooding down her cheeks as she kept trying to will her body to move.

She heard him growl and his hand moved away as he stood up. He took one last look down at her before without another word, walking away and leaving Atria alone in the woods.

He had to get back to the hut, and a full moon was on the way.

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