JPOV
I watch as Bella sleeps peacefully in my arms for a couple of hours before I start to become impatient with wanting to see those brown eyes of hers. Shifting my body, I lean down to place soft kisses around her face until she starts to stir underneath me. I trail light patterns along her right arm to make her more alert and wake her up which works after a couple more minutes. I can't help the sigh of relief I let out as her brown eyes gaze into my own.
"I'm sorry, darlin'," I say softly. "I couldn't wait any longer to see those chocolate orbs." I lean my forehead to rest against her own. "I'm sorry I didn't get to you in time."
"Don't," Bella says firmly. "It wasn't your fault," She tells me as she struggles to push my body to the side until I let her and as soon as I'm on my back she has me straddled. "It's all on him for what happened. I'm sure he would've found another way to get to me had you not gone out with Peter. Seeing as he got passed Charlotte with ease, I don't even want to know what would have happened if it was a different scenario. She wasn't even supposed to me there with me. I invited her in because Charlie wasn't home, he was supposed to be home, but he wasn't," She starts telling me which makes me quickly shift our position so that I am sitting up with her in my lap rubbing gentle circles on her lower back with my thumbs.
Guilt.
Loss.
Sorrow.
"There isn't anything you could have done about Charlie," I tell her. "He had his mind set on getting you back and in his sick twisted mind he jumbled everything up with what he thought was love but was just an obsession."
Bella nods and sits quietly before laying her head into the crook of my neck, seeming to breathe me in deeply as her arms wrap tightly around me. I pull her against me tightly, relishing in her body warmth that feels like forever since I've felt. I nuzzle her neck gently, places a soft kiss in the crook which earns me a soft sigh of contentment. My lips move on their own accord kissing and make their way to the front of Bella's chest and up to her throat before placing a kiss on her lips. Bella tangles her hands into my hair, pulling me closer and kissing me more firmly making a soft groan escape from myself.
Our kisses and touches become full of need as we pull and tug at one another impossibly closer. Wasting no time, I pull away from her soft warm mouth to discard her shirt, throwing it somewhere in the room to be forgotten about which reveals her completely bare chest to me. Groaning softly, I reach a hand up to cup her right breast gently earning me a soft sigh from Bella. Leaning forward I place my mouth around her left breast, flicking her nipple with my tongue which in turn has Bella grinding against my groin.
Without even thinking about it, I have her body underneath my own as I discard both of our clothing within a matter of seconds and reattach my mouth to her delectable skin. Bella's breathing speeds up as I kiss down her flushed chest to her torso until I get to the slightly protruding hip bone where I gently nip. I smile as her arousal travels up to my nose as I trail my tongue down to the pot of gold. Bella reaches down, tangling her small hand in my hair as I dive in for my meal making us both moan. Within a minute Bella is squirming under me as I bring her quickly over the edge. I don't allow any time before I crawl up her body, swiftly sliding home which causes another orgasm from Bella.
I groan at the feeling of being wrapped up inside of her and the need to have my lips against her skin wins over as I pepper soft kisses around her face before Bella attaches her own mouth to mine. Thrusting as deep as I possibly can into Bella's hot center, my hands trail their way down, massaging and pinches her tight taunt nipples.
"Jasper," she moans while arching her back, forcing her chest even closer to me as I cover her mouth with my own, shoving my tongue in to tangle up in hers.
Bella's insides clamp down on me, forcing me to fall over the edge right along with her. Collapsing down, I hold my body weight off of her as I pepper kisses along her chest as we catch our breaths. I feel Bella's hands slip into my hair, gently massaging my scalp as I trail up from her chest to her throat until I get to her lips. Pulling away after a few minutes I look into her eyes to find everything I could hope for.
"I love you, Isabella Swan," I say softly, almost shyly and wait for the response.
BPOV
My heart skips a couple of beats and a swelling in my chest forms which makes me overly happy and excited. Butterflies flutter in my stomach as Jasper reaches up to gently stroke my cheek as a smile spreads across my cheek. He loves me. Of course, Charlotte had told me that he loved me, but hearing it out loud is different. It's real.
"I love you, too," I reply just before I reach up and tug him down to kiss him.
The kiss isn't rushed. The kiss is slow. The kiss is passionate. The kiss is long and drags out until I feel as if I could pass out from lack of oxygen, but I never want it to end. Jasper on the other hand, pulls away, placing chaste kisses everywhere he can reach making me giggle. His mouth covers mine once more, I send him all my love and contentment as we kiss. My hands knot up in his silky blonde hair, pulling him closer to me, needing all of him against me. Jasper quickly shifts our positions so that we are on our sides, flushed together, not breaking any contact. A few minutes more and I need more oxygen, so his mouth pulls away, panting along with me.
"Jasper?" I say quietly after we calm down which seemed to take a bit longer than normal on my part.
"What is it, Darlin'?" He asks just as quietly, no doubt sensing my shift in mood so quickly.
I love you.
I love you.
Those three words hadn't been the last thing I said to Charlie before I left for Jaspers.
I put dinner in the freezer and there's potato soup in the fridge.
Instead I spoke thirteen words, none of them assuring that he knew I loved him before I left the house. I was excited about seeing Jasper again and couldn't wait to go over. I can't help the scrunch in my face as I try to fight back the tears that threaten to escape from me. Jasper rubs my back gently, kissing the top of my head as I bury my face in his bare chest. The blankets get shifted around us after a few minutes covering my exposed skin as my back fills with goosebumps from the chill of both his hand and air.
"Charlie knew you loved him, Bella… just like you know he loved you," Jasper tells me quietly as sobs rack through my body.
I know what he is saying is true, but I can't help but still feel as though it wasn't said enough because… what if he didn't know? What if he died thinking that-
"Can I help you, darlin'? I don't like you feeling like this," He whispers as his hand strokes my hair, gently massaging my scalp every so often. Without even thinking twice about it, I nod my head knowing he will be able to reprieve me from my emotions until I can handle them on my own. "I know it hurts like hell right now, but I promise I'm not going anywhere. I'll be here no matter what."
Closing my eyes, I let myself relax into Jaspers chest as he slowly pulls away all of my emotions, replacing them with calmness and love and tranquility. Breathing out a long breath, I listen to Jaspers breathing, letting the sound lull me into a peaceful sleep.
Somehow, I wake up feeling somewhat refreshed but as I feel around next to me, I shoot straight up with anxiety coming at me full force as I realize Jasper is in the room. The bathroom door opens revealing a half-naked Jasper walking into the room before climbing on the bed, kissing me gently on the cheek. Just as the anxiety came to me, it dissipates into thin air as soon as my eyes land on Jasper, filling me with relief instantly.
"Come on, I have a bath going," He tells me softly, helping me up out of bed and into the bathroom.
The blanket gets discarded onto the tile floor, leaving me completely bare and as Jasper works on pouring bubbles in the water, he spares some glances at me. I can't be too sure if it is in relation of my nakedness due to the fact his expression changes quickly and maybe it's due to my current mood. Once he seems satisfied with everything, he strides over to me, lifting me up gently into his arms and getting into the big tub filled with bubbles. Jasper pulls me between his legs once we are settled into the water, so I relax fully against his naked front.
"Do you want to know everything?" Jasper asks after a while slowly wetting my hair to begin washing it.
"No," I say with my voice rough from emotions and crying.
"If you ever want to know all you have to do is ask," He informs me as he squirts shampoo into his hand and slowly starts to massage my scalp, letting the soap lather up in my hair before rinsing gently.
Keeping my eyes closed, I let myself enjoy his touch. Before I can bite my tongue, my mouth is opening, and words are coming out. "He would pretend to be you once he realized he wouldn't be able to touch me willingly while I was awake." Jaspers hands still their motions before carrying on and waiting for me to continue which I do, after a deep breath. "The first couple days he just tried to convince me that I was meant to be with him… that he was sorry he left, and he would try to get me to take walks with him, let him touch me as if nothing happened before. As if everything was normal but as I kept pulling away, he kept getting angrier and angrier with me. Maybe he just never knew me at all but everything he tried to do and get me to do didn't work in his favor. Eventually he started locking me into one of the bedrooms and left me there showing up every so often with a strange look in his eyes…"
A soft kiss to my temple is what I receive when I grow quiet. "I'm here, darlin'. I ain't going anywhere." His hands massage my conditioner into my hair as he speaks softly. "What do you mean he would pretend to be me?"
Turning my body around, I straddle his lap, laying my head down just under his chin. Hiding my face is more like it… "He said he met someone… a guy who was able to help improve his abilities," I shrug slightly, closing my eyes at the sensation of Jaspers hands running through my conditioned hair. "I guess since I wasn't doing as he expected, he made me dream of someone I thought was you… always on the beach… always saying goodbye but after some time alone I'd get the feeling of being watched and soon after he'd show up. He'd smell like you, only slightly different, he'd sound like you but with something off in his voice…"
Water runs over my head as he rinses the conditioner out. but he keeps silent as he lets me talk. Every now and then I will feel his lips against my temple, coaxing me into opening up again but letting me know he is there if I can't.
I begin again quietly. "He would feel like you but not at the same time," I squeeze my eyes shut as Jasper moves our position slightly and I can feel him moving under me, grabbing the loofa and pouring soap onto it. "I wouldn't know it was him at first… I wouldn't be able to move or try to open my eyes until he wanted me to. The fake you would leave to go for a hunt and some time would pass until he came up pretending to be you. Only at the end was I able to open my eyes to see and when I did, a blood curling scream would wake me up. One day while I was in the bathroom, he made himself welcome on his own accord and waltzed right in…"
The hot water pours over my shoulders, rinsing off the body wash before his hands grip my hips gently to turn my body around to face him. I pick up the cup he used on me and repeat his motions back. Keeping silent, I wash his hair, massaging his scalp before running my fingers through his hair to help get rid of the shampoo before switching to conditioner.
"I don't think he was himself," I begin again quietly. "Sometimes he'd be there… but at one point he stopped being there and let whatever it was, overcome him. I think that's why he was able to stop."
Jasper grabs the loofa from my hand and quickly washes himself before standing up with me in his arms. Before I can comprehend it, I have a big fluffy towel wrapped tightly around my body as he starts drying my hair with a different one. I stand there as he dries my hair before turning around and leaning against his chest closing my eyes. I don't understand how my mood can change so fast, I'm exhausted from it, so I am sure Jasper is feeling it even worse and I feel bad for it.
"Why don't you get changed and I will go make you something to eat really fast?" Jasper suggests, placing a kiss to the top of my head running his hands up and down my forearms.
Simply, I nod in agreement and wait until he's out of the bathroom before I start drying myself off and changing into the clothes he left for me consisting of one of his t-shirts and baggy sweatpants. Pulling up my hair into a loose ponytail, I brush my teeth before heading out of the bathroom and slowly down to the kitchen.