Alfie and Ollie's eyes remained glued to her stomach as she stood awkwardly in front of them.
"Uh.." Ollie stammered as he tried to think of something to say. "How far gone are you?"
"Seven months." She answered.
"Oh." Was all he could say in response.
"Ollie, would you mind giving me and Alfie a minute? I will come to your house when I leave here."
"Um.." He said as he looked at his boss, whose eyes were still wide with shock. "Are you sure? I can stay if…" he continued as he glanced at Alfie, knowing he had a short temper as of late.
"Yes, I'm sure." She told him and he nodded and walked slowly toward the door, looking back at the pair of them before he left.
Slowly, Alfie's eyes moved from her stomach to her face.
"I'm sorry. I came a few hours ago while your maid was here, and she let me in when I told her my name. I didn't even consider you wouldn't be alone when you finally came up or I wouldn't have stayed." Lidia told him.
"No. Um," Alfie said as he scratched his neck, attempting to think about something other than her stomach and the child inside. "It's fine. Please…" He motioned back to his sofa and she sat.
"Yes, it's yours." She said, as she watched him, looking from her face to her stomach.
"It's mi- Fuck." He said as the color began to drain from his face.
"Are you alright?" She asked, as he went pale and small droplets of sweat appeared on his forehead.
"You come back after seven months and tell me your fucking pregnant with my child and you expect me to what? Throw a fucking celebration?" he growled at her, the anger of her leaving coming back to him.
"I don't know what I expected. I wasn't going to tell you at all, but then I thought of the child and… I wouldn't be able to live with myself if it grew up without a father simply because I chose not to tell him."
"Are you sure it's not Adam's?"
"Yes. I'm positive."
"Fucking hell." He said as he leaned back and ran his hand over his face.
"You look as if you're going to faint." She said with a worried expression.
"I feel like I'm going to faint…. Fuck. I need a drink."
"I'll get it, you sit." She said as she stood, and Alfie became lightheaded as he saw her stomach again.
She brought him a glass of whiskey and he drank it in one gulp.
"I'm that kid's father?" He asked, nodding toward the bump under her dress.
"Yes."
He closed his eyes and inhaled a deep breath, releasing it slowly and the color began returning to his face.
"Where have you been?" he asked.
"I've been in Scotland actually. I found a charming little cottage in the highlands."
"You've been there all this time?"
"Yes. I only meant to stay for a few weeks but then I realized I was pregnant and decided to stay." She looked at her hands before saying, "I wrote to you a thousand times, but I never sent any of them."
"Why?"
"I didn't know if you'd care to know."
"Well, at least I know how little you think of me." He said as he stood.
Lidia stood and started to walk to him, "No, I just meant- Your lifestyle isn't exactly befitting a child and I would never force you to take care of a child you didn't want. But, in the end I decided you had a right to know."
"Yeah, your damn right I did!" He said angrily. "I have every fucking right to know my child, and you have no right to decide otherwise!"
Lidia was taken aback by his sudden anger.
"I just.. I didn't think-"
"What? That I was a 'good man' as you said in your fucking letter? The letter where you confessed feelings for me that you never had the fucking balls to say me to my face?" his voice escalating.
"That's not fair! You-"
"You asked me if I loved you and that was all! You kissed me when I shut Rosalie out and then when I woke up you were gone! Then you find out you are pregnant and wait seven fucking months to tell me?" he continued yelling.
"No, I-"
"You fucking disappeared! For all I knew you were fucking dead! The fucking coppers couldn't even find you! You don't leave a fucking note like that and then leave before the other person can fucking respond! That was a cheap fucking way to go, Lidia!"
"Well you look like you recovered nicely!" She finally blurted, motioning to the door and Rosalie on her knees.
"Oh, no you fucking don't! You don't get to show up and act like you were thinking about anyone but yourself! No warning, no fucking hint that you were even thinking of leaving; you just fucking did!"
"And how long did you wait after I left before you let her jump on your cock?" Lidia said as an angry tear rolled down her cheek.
"I didn't know that you were fucking pregnant. I didn't know you felt any sort of way about me. You weren't even speaking to me before you were attacked and then we fucked once, and you were gone."
"Obviously because I was angry with you before I was attacked!"
"For what? Hmm? For beating one of my men? Well you know what, treacle, it wasn't the first time and it sure as hell won't be the last. How do you think I got to where I am?" he yelled and then shook his head.
"You beat him because he was with me!" she yelled back. "And then you let everyone in town know it and know no one else could have me but you!"
"So first you say my feelings didn't progress and now you're saying that I wanted you to be with me only? Which one is it Lidia?"
"That's my point! You wanted me to wholly be with you but you still wanted everyone else, including that blonde fucking-"
"So, you left because you were jealous? It was all some plot to get back at me?"
"I left because I thought you didn't want me!" She blurted before calming her voice, "And I couldn't stand the thought of wanting a man that would always want another woman."
Alfie exhaled a deep breath, calming himself and Lidia put a hand on her stomach as her heart raced.
"Are you alright?" he asked, his tone harsher than he intended.
"Yes. I'm fine." She scoffed at him. "I should go. Ollie will be waiting for me."
Lidia walked to the sofa and gathered her things.
"It's dark." Alfie pointed out.
"Well, you have become extremely observant since I left, haven't you?"
Alfie rolled his eyes at her. "You don't have to-"
"DO NOT tell me that I 'don't have to leave' or that I can 'stay if I want'. I came here to tell you about this child, and I have done that. You need to decide what you want, Alfie."
"So, what? This is an ultimatum? If I don't tell you I want you, then I don't get to see my child? Is that it?"
Lidia turned around and looked at him with angry eyes. "I am not the type of woman to use our child as bargaining power. I know where your feelings with me stand. This is about the baby growing inside me. You need to decide what you want to do about that. Do you want this child or don't you?"
And she stormed out.
