Here is the next chapter. Please read and review thanks love Moon xxx
Molly stepped out of the floo at Grimmauld Place and dusted herself off. She walked into the kitchen where she found the twins looking very guilty about something. "Hello boys what is it? You guys look like you've done something you shouldn't have" she asked more tired then angry. To be honest her rage wasn't directed at them and she couldn't make it be directed at them either.
"Well mum we decided to explore this house a bit more and found one of those portraits of dead people but it was of Sirius. He didn't look old though I would guess he was twenty one or so we were just wondering what we should do with it because it didn't wake up yet!" Fred said as she smiled.
"Well I do know the incantation to wake it up myself. Dad taught us all that one. Not to worry I will use it when Harry is here. I must do something now but think about what you want for dinner and then ask Kreacher for it. I need a break today!" she said allowing them to think of what they wanted the elf to make for them. Molly was exhausted mentally from all she had been through and what she would need to do next. She climbed the stairs and put her handbag and jacket in her room on the chair and straightened herself up. Taking a deep breath in and releasing it she wrung her hands slightly as she approached and entered Ron's room. At some point in the time he'd been in jail they'd gotten a real dementor there and he looked horrified. She gasped in shock at his appearance. He did look awful but then again he did deserve it.
"Ronald we need to talk now sit down. I will do the talking and you will do the listening. When I need your input I will ask for it. When I was pregnant with you a healer performed a scan wrong by error and told us both we were having a daughter. I was so excited to be having my longed for daughter. When you were born a boy it is no secret I suffered extreme post natal depression. I rejected you as a baby until eventually I was given potions to make me all better. We all know I've never been quite right after that fuck up on the part of the healer. Because of this I have ignored you and allowed you to do everything you wanted to without reproach. That changes now. Why did you give Hermione Granger perfume?" she asked extremely seriously.
"Yeah see! I knew you never wanted me! Why did you never want me? Why was I never enough? I cried so many nights because I knew I wasn't enough for you. I did that because she had been telling me what it meant in their world. I did love her and wanted to show her that. I know it doesn't mean the same things in our world but I was giving it to her because of what it meant in her world. She is not from our world so I can't truly see why it would matter. Did you not hear that she loved it and called me very sweet for giving it to her?" he asked as Molly bristled.
"Ronald you were enough for me sweetheart I just couldn't ever show it because of my post natal depression. I wasn't ok for many years and longer then I care to admit. I am ashamed I ever made you feel like that. Ronald you should have known that because we were in our own world that anything from her own world would never matter here. To be honest you made it look to everyone like you were having sex with her on the regular. Did you know Harry did that with Ginny once? Giving perfume as a gift I mean" she said seriously as he bristled.
"What the fuck was he thinking? That's such a creepy thing to do. I mean really! My little sister. He's a half blood so should know these things!" he snapped seriously as Molly rounded on him so fast he jumped.
"Did it never occur to you that he didn't know about magic until he had turned eleven? He told us often enough to explain why he didn't know things. He did it at home while myself and Arthur were here. We told him why it was wrong and gave him one of dad's charts. Did you even bother to notice he never once got a gift he gave to someone wrong after that? He was ashamed and mortified by what it had meant in our world. He thought Ginny was beautiful and wanted her to know this but once he knew that wasn't the way we do things here he changed at once" she thundered as he reeled back slightly from her.
She had thundered at him but her voice had not gone high pitched as it usually did frightening him more then he cared to admit. It was low and controlled. Sometimes Molly had the ability to use a voice like that when she was furious beyond even words. It wasn't her normal ire at one of her kids being a bit foolish. This was too much for words. This was complete and utter insolence.
"Well he has always been better at grasping things then Hermione I just assumed he'd know more about our world. I mean he's the bloody boy who lived isn't he so why shouldn't he know these things?" he asked in extreme confusion.
"Ronald for love of Merlin be sensible for five minutes if you can. He was raised by muggles and moreover abusive muggles. He and I have had a serious talk about that. He knew nothing of our world as they tried to beat the magic out of him. Yes I did say beat. He has had to learn things as he went along and has not always gotten it right either but the point is he always tries to learn. Now we need to discuss what you did to Hermione because I can't simply let that go. Not anymore!" she snapped as he shocked her by crying.
"But it was useless. It didn't even work. She didn't even come after me. She still loves Zabini and will be with him forever now. I love her so much mum. I know I'm poor and a poor excuse for a human being but I thought if I did this she might see me in a different light and love me over Blaise. Mum she will never love me now what am I gonna do?" he said as he burst into tears and looked genuinely horrified about the prospect. She had never seen her son looking so utterly broken. She was torn between being furious and wanting to make him feel better.
"Ronald Billius Weasley! You are a disgusting young man! The normal person would have just asked her instead of resulting to potions especially love potions. You are such a fool! Fred and George make joke products for a living did you really think they might not mess with their labels at some point? What if it had not been a love potion but something more serious? I know they've been working on more serious items lately because of the whole war effort. You are so lucky it wasn't something serious. Hermione Granger suffered extreme depression and bouts of anxiety when you didn't come for her. We are all lucky she is ok now. You have left us no choice but to use the condition. You are an embarrassment. Either you get good grades this term or you are out of the family permanently young man and I mean it! I will not have the whole world embarrassed by your actions and be embarrassed by being related to you. If any of the others had done this I would say the same things to them. So it's either good grades or you're out!" she snapped as he reeled back fresh tears in his eyes.
"But mum surely you wouldn't truly want to do that. Yes I was stupid and did stupid things out of desperation for love. I needed it so much. I don't get it here so looked for it elsewhere. Can you really say you blame me huh?" he said as she looked like she'd been slapped in the face really hard. She had never in her life imagined she'd ever hear him say that to her. It was a shock to say the least.
"I love you Ronald and I will never stop loving you but you are an embarrassment and a disgrace and your actions have shown us this. There was never a time I didn't love you sweetheart. I can't believe you did all this for some kind of love. I have no idea what you thought you might find but you didn't. Ron I will always love you but you truly let this family as a whole down more then I care to mention. Attacking someone who was meant to be your best friend like that!" she said as she now cried herself.
"I am awful at magic mum! I'm like Neville Longbottom was before last year. His gran refused to get him his own wand and he was always awful at magic. I have never had my own wand and I can't do magic properly like this. I'm good but I'll never be great. I want to do well I just physically can't!" he said sounding hysterical.
"Well as it so happens we will be getting you a new wand. Someone has given it as a gift but we are not allowed to say who it was. Once you have a wand of your own which we're not paying for ourselves you will be on your own. If you get good grades this term and do well you may remain in the family. You will apologise to Hermione too for making her life a living hell these past few days. Did you learn anything whilst in jail?" she asked seriously as he looked as though he might get sick.
"It was awful. I thought I might vomit many times. I didn't eat in two days. They had a dementor and I thought I'd never be happy ever again. I am very sorry about what I did to Hermione and I will tell her this. I'd hate to loose her. I do love her so much and I know I fucked up so much in that regard. I am really sorry mum. I will do all I can to get good grades I swear it's just sometimes I feel so extremely exhausted after casting some spells and I don't know why!" he said as she mused that fact in her head.
"Dinner will be in one hour Ronald you may eat it then. Get some rest. I will need to speak to Poppy Pomfrey about what you said!" she said as she left and flooed directly the hospital wing making Poppy jump at once as she hadn't been expecting anyone.
"Poppy I am sorry I scared you so much it wasn't my intention. I need some medical advice in regards to Ronald my son. Has he ever come in here to be treated for anything before?" she asked as Poppy summoned his file to read it over.
"Well yes in his third year he had a broken leg and in his first year he suffered some concussion. Other then a few cuts here and there and a treatment for a boil cure gone wrong at some stage he hasn't been in here much. What do you need help with per say?" she asked kindly sitting at her desk as she conjured an armchair for Molly to sit in opposite her.
"I need to know if it is normal for a student to say they feel extremely exhausted after casting a spell" she asked seriously as Poppy summoned a booklet reading from it.
"It can be if the spell requires a high level of magical concentration. Has Ronald said he felt like this?" she asked as Molly nodded yes.
"Well then bring him here at once to be checked out. It is better he is checked out now then later on where he could do himself some damage!" she said as Molly left and returned with a stunned Ronald who couldn't believe he was here. He looked around in awe forgetting for a moment where he was until he saw Madam Pomfrey.
"Now Mr Weasley you told your mother you feel exhausted after casting some spells. Which spells are those? Also I know you're getting a new wand tomorrow and not a moment too late I might add!" she asked as he looked at her and blushed.
"I can get the hard spells or new hard spells I learn ma'am but the basic everyday ones tire me out to no end. Sometimes I am left panting after a lumos and charms class always leaves me exhausted!" he said blushing bright red.
"Ronald you will now cast a lumos spell and hold it with this special diagnosing wand. You will hold it until I tell you not to anymore. It will tell me what's wrong with you!" she said as he cast the spell and it was very weak indeed. Arthur came through the floo to hear that last bit she had said and was shocked at how low the level of the spell was. He was about to berate his son for his laziness when he saw the extreme exhaustion on his face and grew very concerned indeed. He jumped as a parchment piece shot out of the end of the wand and she asked him to stop reading the parchment and gasping.
"Mr Weasley I am so sorry. I didn't see this before because you never came to me for this reason which was very foolish indeed. You should have known to come to me. It is my job to care for you. I have no idea why you felt you'd get no care here but that much is obvious!" she said glancing at Molly and Arthur who for once did look ashamed with themselves. He was still very much in the wrong make no mistake about that but because of their own actions when he had been born and after that he really did feel he'd never get care anywhere and they were ashamed of that fact.
"I am sorry Mr Weasley but it says here Quirinous Quirrel or Professor Quirrel as you knew him in your first year cast a block on your magic so you could not accurately help Harry Potter out. I can only tell you that the diagnosis says he wasn't focused when casting the spell so your core currently is at forty five percent. It would explain your terrible attention span in classes, low grades and tiredness from casting spells. It would also explain any extreme or heightened emotions you may have felt all this time. There is a cure for this but it does really hurt. It needs to be cured this way as there is no other option" she said handing him a steaming vial she'd summoned from somewhere. He drank it as instructed screaming his head off as many snaps were heard all around the room. He eventually screamed in agony so much so that he passed out.
"He will awake in one hour. He will be fine after that. I would suggest having Ollivander make a house call this once. The sooner Ronald gets his new wand the better!" she instructed and headed off to floo the man in question who was only too happy come by loaded with supplies. Molly and Arthur looked at their unconscious son feeling so very guilty. He'd had an awfully blocked core and they'd not even noticed. This was bad indeed. The vow they made as a family still stood as he had acted of his own volition earlier on but at least now he might actually be able to get better grades. One hour later Ron awoke groaning loudly. That block had done more then they had all initially realised. He now looked older and way more healthy and filled out. To be honest he almost looked like night and day in comparison to how he had looked and he gasped when he saw them.
"Mum it was Professor Quirrel he attacked me. He's got Lord Voldemort in the back of his head. I figured it out I swear!" he said as Molly gasped. It had been true and Albus had told them all about it when it had happened at the time.
"We know that sweetheart. Mr Ollivander is here to give you your new wand!" she said as he cried heavily looking as though the weight of his recent actions was weighing heavily on his mind.
Ollivander approached him and measured him before trying out many different wands on him. He eventually ended up with an ash wand and a unicorn tail hair core. Fourteen inches in length. He cast a spell and it was way more powerful then it had ever been he didn't feel bad at all now. Ollivander left feeling great about finally giving one of the Weasley's their own wand for the first time in a long time. Ron was kept in overnight for observations. He asked for a quill and parchment to write a letter and he did so. Hermione was in her room when a Hogwarts house elf delivered his letter to her. She took it up and began to read it.
Dear Hermione,
I have recently had a most harrowing experience what with my time in jail and now being in the hospital wing. At the age of eleven Professor Quirrel blocked off my magical core. It is the reason I have always been so bad at spell casting and had a terrible attention span. I am so very sorry for my actions. I truly did want you to love me and due to this block on my magic I was mentally and physically exhausted so one could say I took a shortcut or something like that. I am so very sorry for all of it. You didn't deserve that. You deserved better then that. I've been a shit friend. I promise this that this year I will get great grades for my family and for you. It is the least I can do.
You deserved better and you didn't get better. I am a disgraceful friend if one could even call me a friend. I don't deserve your friendship. You are better then me and you always will be. I am sorry about the perfume. You didn't deserve that but I was a fool. When Harry had said what it meant in your world I thought giving it to you would have been fine but it wasn't. I was stupid and I know that now. So content was I in thinking what it meant in your world I failed to realise I would look awful for doing it to you in mine. I meant the vow I gave you about you being with anyone you want to. I will always support you now. Yes I do resent Zabini but that is truly because he has something I don't which attracts all these women to him. Lavender Brown said she had slept with him once to make me jealous. I'm sure that was her aim anyway although it may have been true I couldn't tell. I had never much thought about him until then.
It was then that I realised how much every girl looked at him in awe every time he was near. To be honest I'd love to be that dark and mysterious but I'm not. I'm a stupid, pasty, poor ginger idiot. I am not saying that to get sympathy it is just a fact of life about the way things are. I will never be well off ever. I would be so very lucky if I got your love. You have the world's cutest hair. Your expressive eyes are amazing and look like great pools of chocolate. You have a gorgeous bum which rivals even that of Lavender Brown and she is not without her own merits and assets. Whoever ends up with you will be one lucky bastard. I have let my family down more then I had realised. Mum said I either get good grades or I'm out of the family so obviously I will be getting good grades as I'm not about to loose my family despite what they think of me.
I heard some home truths today about what happened to mum after I was born and it truly shocked me. There were some things even I'd not known. Imagine being told by a healer you're going to have a daughter for their exam only for it/ to turn out wrong when you have a son instead. I can now understand where mum's heartbreak comes from. It was indeed very hard to hear. I have never seen her look more devastated then she did when she told me that earlier on. Coupled with my magical block it's no wonder I was a git. I was awful and I know that. I will always value your friendship Hermione above everything else. If all I get is to be your friend then that will be enough for me. Initially it won't and I will be heartbroken but when you love someone that is to be expected.
I've been thinking about a lot of things recently and have come to some startling revelations. You were the first girl I'd ever met who didn't care about who my parents were or how much money we had. I never understood why it was such an issue until that Hufflepuff Hannah I think she was called explained it to me. I could then see why people had always looked down on me. You didn't care about any of that. You liked me for me and to be honest it was refreshing. For most of my life all I have ever wanted was to be more the then sum of my parts. I have always wanted to be more then just another Weasley as so many people in our world view me. I want to be more then that and now with this block removed I have that chance.
I had always been exhausted after casting normal spells but always assumed it was due to me being poor and having a hand me down wand. A block on my magical core had never occurred to me that's why I never mentioned it. I was given a new wand of my own today by someone mum wouldn't tell me about. I am not sure about it really but I do truly thank whoever it was. If you decide you cannot remain friends with me after all I've done to you I can completely understand. I would deserve no less. Always follow your dreams and never let anyone ever tell you no then you will be a failure like me.
Love always,
Your (whatever I am to you) Ron x
Hermione read it and gasped. This would explain so much about him. She was now highly conflicted. She had hated Ron so much for what he had put her through but this did change things. "Draco please read this letter from Ron. It's important and I need your opinion on it because I was so mad at him about what he did to me but now I am not sure how to feel. Just read it because you won't understand me otherwise!" she said as he grumbled but took the letter anyway.
"Why is this a charms essay?" he asked as she gasped. He had clearly wanted to be sure no one but her would read it for now. She waved her wand in a complex motion he couldn't ascertain and said nothing but soon enough he could read the letter. He looked at her spell casting in genuine awe but kept his mouth closed none the less. He read the letter and gasped at it's contents.
"This would explain so damn much about him and how he was at magic. I am sorry to say but to us purebloods it was obvious something was wrong with him. He always looked exhausted after charms class however I have to say I thought like him and that it was being caused by his hand me down wand. I didn't realise he had a block on his magic. I know all about those because mother made me study it when I was younger. I know for example that when one's magical core is blocked off that their greatest fears surmount until they become so real to the person that they feel they have no choice but to strike out. As he says here he was still wrong indeed but does now understand he shouldn't have done it. I can tell he is genuinely remorseful here. You may do as you like with him!" he said casually as she rounded on him looking annoyed.
"Of course I can! I know that Draco. He will still be my friend but I will be keeping him at arms length for a while. We will see how his now unblocked core helps him to improve as an individual. I am going to sleep now I am tired. You may do as you please!" she said in a condescending tone letting him know she was annoyed over how he had said she could do as she wanted with Ron. Of course she could and she knew it too.
Molly sat opposite Kingsley who heard of Ron's tale in awe and was currently expunging his criminal records. The vow she and Arthur had made would indeed stand but he at least had a clear criminal record now. She would now sleep better at night. She couldn't imagine having her own core blocked and deeply shuddered at the thought. Clearly despite everything not paying enough attention to her youngest son had meant that for four years she had not seen his problem. This was massive oh how her father would be disappointed in her. The fact that she had not even noticed his issue meant there was probably loads more she'd not seen about him. she would need to relearn her son and rebuild her relationship with him from the ground up. It was the only way to go. She would probably start off by talking to him about things he liked and so on to get a better feel for him.
"Kingsley do you know what happens when part of someone's core has been blocked off for four years?" she asked him as he was clearing Ron's record.
"I had a friend that happened to once for five years and all his insecurities and biggest fears seemed insurmountable to him. Everything he was ever afraid of he became deathly afraid of then. It gave him emotional scars he was never healed from. I don't know much asides from that and the fact that he did get better eventually. He never forgot his experiences but he did learn from them. Don't worry Molly Ron will be fine eventually but it will take time!" he said as she thanked him and left. Harry was informed about it and was horrified. He would give Ron one last chance but then if he screwed up he was well and truly on his own. This did explain why Ron always found things so tough. Even Harry had become annoyed by the constant need to teach him things over and over again. Having said that he'd done well at the DA last year and that was to be commended given the circumstances he had unknowingly been in. This year would be an interesting one for sure.