Chapter 19: Play Nice Kids
"So, how is the first day going?" Alexis asked as she bounced up to her husband.
"Fine." He said dryly. And now it starts. This is precisely why he had stayed it Mercy-West all those years. Now he had to avoid her.
"That's good." She said with a smile as she cocked her head.
"Lexie, we can't do this. This is our job. We can't be- This is work." He grumbled as he looked up at her.
"Oh. Sorry. I'm just excited. I mean after last night..." She said with a giggle.
Last night. Oh yes, last night. One of the worst nights of his life. Losing Meredith, that was the worst. It was bad. Imagining her in the ground all of those years. But last night, it was rough. It was bad. To see her with another man. Much worse. As bad as it sounded, at least dead she was his. Now, to see her walking around. Prancing around. Okay, she doesn't prance. But to see her with someone else was pure hell.
"Yeah. Last night." He muttered.
She was talking about the sex. The horrible sex. She seemed so pleased with it. But it didn't matter how hard he tried. It wasn't good. It would never be good. Whacking off to a picture of Meredith was better than last night. At least someone was satisfied.
"Well, I have to go." He said as he grabbed a chart and headed off to find Dr. Scott, the man who was retiring at the end of the week.
"See you later." She sang out with a big smile on her face.
Derek walked down the hallway. He knew it was just a matter of time. A matter of time before he saw her. It was going to be daily. She was going to see her every day. He was secretly wondering how he could contain himself. How he was going to look her in the eye and keep a straight face. He quickly walked towards Dr. Scott's office. He nodded for Derek to come in.
"Derek Shepherd." He said with a grin as he motioned for him to come in. "I have to say, I can't think of anyone I would rather have follow in my footsteps." He said with a grin.
"Thank you, David." Derek said with a nod.
"And you finally crawled out of that shit-hole, Mercy-West." He said with a chuckle. "You will be happy here."
"I hope so." Derek agreed.
"I should be finishing up my last case tomorrow, then you can take the reins." he said happily.
"Not a problem." Derek said simply.
"Any questions?" David asked as he looked up.
"Have you seen Dr. Grey?" Derek asked as he looked up.
"I assume you are talking about Meredith, not Ellis?" He asked as he glanced up.
"Um, yeah, Meredith." He said softly.
"Why do you need her? She's fifth year Cardio." He said with confusion.
"Oh, I just..." Derek trailed off. I just want to pull her into an on-call room and have my way with her. Make her scream my name until the hospital windows break. That is why I want to see her. And to talk. I do like looking into those eyes.
"You know what they call her, right?" David said as he looked up with a grin.
"Uh..." Derek looked up in confusion.
"Resident Bitch." He said simply. "Man, she is the nastiest resident I have ever seen. I bet only two or three of her interns survive."
"You're kidding, right?" Derek said with a chuckle.
"No. She's rough. A little spitfire. Charming, though. You have to be charmed. Even when she's glaring at you. That girl... Anyhow. Tomorrow you will pick up the new patients." He said as he started throwing things in boxes.
"Well, I appreciate everything." Derek said with a nod as he turned and walked out.
"Dr. Grey is around here somewhere." He yelled after him. Derek nodded.
Meredith walked out of the scrub room, Eastman and Mather following close behind. It was another routine surgery. Successful, that was all that mattered. She was tired. Leaning over the OR table killed her, although she would never admit it. She walked slowly down the hallway, rubbing her back and moaning. Usually she would hide it from her interns, but today it was hitting her hard.
"Are you okay, Dr. Grey?" Dina Eastman asked as she looked up with concern.
"I'm okay." Meredith said softly. Usually she snapped. Not today. Today she was going to be nice. For the moment, anyhow.
"Are you sure?" Kent Mather asked as he too looked at her.
"Damn-it! I'm fine. Go do something. Mather ask the nurses if they need any extra help. Eastman- Oh shit." She moaned as she looked up.
There he was. Mr. Good Hair. Mr. Hotness. The man she loved. The man she loved but she was not going to be with. Him and his perfect hair. There he stood, leaning. Yes, leaning. Why the hell did he have to lean like that? Too tempting. Far too tempting. There he leaned, reading a chart. Yes, good looking, and he can read.
"What?" Kent asked as he looked up. He followed her gaze.
"Nothing! Get to work!" She snapped loudly.
"But you didn't-" Dina said quickly.
"Find something!" Meredith finally spat.
What was he doing here? Why did he have a chart? What was going on. Well, she was going to find out, and she was going to find out right now. She marched. Purposefully. Loudly. No one was around. For the first time ever, there was no one around. She marched right up next to him and grabbed his hand. He stumbled, nearly falling over as she dragged him to an empty exam room.
"What the hell?" He said as he stumbled inside.
"What are you doing here?" She asked loudly Derek looked into her eyes and smiled.
"Well, you pulled me in here." He said with a chuckle as he studied her face. Oh...she's getting mad. I'm getting to her. Oh, I see that look. She wants to hit me. Oh crap! She's hitting me. "Owe...owe. Stop!" He said as he grabbed her hands.
"You know what I mean. Why are you here? At Seattle Grace?" She asked in a huff.
"Oh... Yeah. I work here." He said with a grin.
"What? No! No. You don't work here. You work at Mercy-West." She said frankly as she glared at him.
"Not anymore." He said quickly as he pushed the hair out of her face. She swatted him away.
"No. You don't work here, Derek. You have to leave." She grumbled.
"Can't. I already have the coat. See, Dr. Derek Shepherd, MD. Oh, and I have a tag too." He said as he showed her.
"Seriously?" She said as she shook her head. Now, you have screwed yourself. He works here. Yeah, that's going to work really well. Now your plan, it just flew away. I can handle this. I can. No, you can't. You want him. Look! Where are your eyes now? Shit! She quickly pulled her eyes away from his waist.
"Seriously." He said with a nod. "And if you want in my pants, just tell me."
"I do not want in your pants!" She said defensively. Derek rolled his eyes.
"Dr. Bailey has been after me for three years. I decided to do it." He finally explained.
"Because I'm here." She spat as she glared at him.
"Get over yourself. Not you. My career. I want to further myself." He said with a chuckle. He looked at her face. "Okay, fine. Partially because of you, but mostly because I quit at Mercy-West four days ago."
"This is- We can't-" She muttered as she looked around nervously.
"Why? You moved on. I saw that last night." He said angrily. "Not to mention, you want me to work things out with Alexis."
"Urghh!" She growled. "I hate you!" She spat.
"You do not." He said with a laugh. "You love me..." He said with a chuckle.
"Seriously? Seriously?" She laughed. "Why? Why, God why? What did I do?" She said as she shook her head and closed her eyes. She felt his hands on her face. Then came his lips. She pulled away.
"No." She said simply.
She looked into his blue eyes. They pleaded. She pleaded. He leaned in again. His soft lips touched hers. He sucked softly on her bottom lip. She quickly ran her fingers through his hair as he placed his hand behind her neck. She felt his tongue slide in. So perfect. He tasted perfect.
You want him. But you can't have him. But you want him. Come on... You can't just say no...
Meredith jumped up and wrapped her legs around him. He turned around and laid her down on the exam table. He heard her moan softly. She was perfect. He didn't want to stop. He wanted to stay in the room forever.
What are you doing? His wife is out there. As in sickness and health. Death do they part or whatever... You have to stop. But I don't want to. You have to. You have to. Fine.
"What?" Derek asked as she pulled away.
"I hate you." She said with a smile as she made her way to the door.
"Sure, you do." He said with a chuckle. Now that was good. Yeah it was. To only have two long legs wrapped around...
"Oh! I didn't know this room was in use." A doctor said as he walked in.
"It's not anymore." Derek said as he walked out. "Not anymore..."
"Rub my back." Meredith told Adrien as she laid down on the bed.
"What? Meredith Grey asking for help?" He said with a chuckle.
"Rub my back." She said again. "Please." She said with a huff.
"Of course, my dear." He said as he put his hands on her. "So, how was your day?"
"Fine." She grumbled. Fine? Who are you kidding? Not fine. Not good. He's there. He's everywhere. In the scrub room. At the nurse's station. He never goes away.
"You don't sound so sure..." Adrien said with a frown.
"It was okay. Just too long." She mumbled into the pillow.
"I hear we have a new Neurosurgeon." Adrien said, attempting to make conversation.
"Mmmm." She moaned, not answering.
"You are tense." He said as she rubbed her shoulders. I wonder why? Maybe because all day long I think about my best friends husband... And the penis. Thank god I don't have one, because I would be walking around with a boner all day long.
"I am. I'm sore." She moaned as she rolled away from him and on her back. "What do you think about California? Florida? Canada? France, what about France?" She asked as she looked up.
"What do you mean?" He asked as he laid next to her.
"We could move to France. I know a little French, and you could teach me..." She suggested.
"Where is this coming from?" He said as he looked into her eyes.
"I don't know. Maybe I'm losing my mind." She said in a huff as she rubbed her face.
"What's wrong?" He asked with a puzzled face.
"Tired. Just tired." She moaned as she pulled the covers over her body.
"So..." He said as he ran his hand across her hip.
"Seriously? You just rubbed my back. I am stressed. My body feels like it was run over by a steamroller. Sex is the last thing I want." She said as she rolled to her side.
"Goodnight then?" He asked as he looked at her.
"Goodnight." She said. They both laid there for a few minutes in silence.
"Mer?" He said softly. "I love you..." He said quickly. He listened. He listened to her breathing. "I know you're awake. You're not snoring." He said frankly.
Meredith laid there in shock. He just said he loved her. He loved her. That was huge. It was a huge step. She laid there quietly. He just took a huge step. A leap. But she didn't know if she could jump too. Sure, she was fond of him. And she liked him a lot. And maybe in time, she would love him. But there was Derek. Derek changed everything. Derek made it impossible for her to think straight. What to do? She quickly began her best fake snore.
"And now you're faking!" He said with a laugh. "Meredith Grey." He said as he grabbed her side gently, causing her to giggle.
"Fine. I am awake." She finally admitted as she rolled over and looked at him.
"I love you." He said as he looked at her again.
"I- I- I can't say it." She said softly, with tears in her eyes. She knew she was going to hurt his feelings. "I- I just- Not yet. I can't say it yet." Adrien looked into her eyes. He almost understood how she was feeling.
"That's okay. As long as you know. As long as you understand how I feel. It's okay." He said with a nod. "Night."
"Goodnight." She said with a smile as she closed her eyes.
Meredith rolled her eyes when she saw Derek standing in the elevator, a big grin on his face. It was empty. An empty elevator. In other words, major trouble. She wanted to get on that elevator. She wanted to get into some trouble, especially with him. But no. She had will power. She could say no. And she was doing it.
"I'll take the stairs." She said as she wheeled around.
"No willpower! It's sad...really." He said as he shook his head, riding up in silence.
That was good. You did good. You stopped yourself from digging yourself into a deeper hole. You spared yourself from having to look at that perfect body. Those perfect abs. That perfect ass, and oh yes that perfect little- Not little, definitely not little-
"Dr. Grey!" Derek said as he rushed up to her.
"Damn-it..." She mumbled as she continued on her way, pretending she didn't hear him. A shock collar. Maybe I can convince Alexis to put a shock collar on him. But why would she... Must have a reason... Hmm... Meredith rushed into the locker room and opened her locker.
"Dr. Grey!" Derek said as he walked up to a half-naked Meredith. Oh God. That is going to be a problem. Those damn long legs. Oh, nice panties, baby. Even nicer if you'd take them off and- She's talking. More like spitting words at me. Probably should listen...
"Dr. Shepherd, you have no reason to be in here." Meredith said coldly as she pulled her scrub pants up.
"Actually, I do. I need an intern. Who's your best?" He asked as he watched her tie her pants.
"Um... Take Eastman. She's shy. I want her off my hands." Meredith said quickly.
"Okay then, I'll have Pierce." He said with a grin.
"But you- Whatever. Fine take her." She said in a huff as she walked past him. "I have surgery."
"That was a great surgery, Dr. Shepherd!" Ellen said exuberantly as they walked out of the scrub room. "Thank you for allowing me to work with you."
"Thank your resident." Derek said as he looked over at her.
"Dr. Grey suggested me?" She said in shock.
"More or less." He mumbled as he walked to the nurses station. He started writing on a chart as he leaned against it. "You need to check our patient." He told her frankly. Derek glanced up when he heard a giggle. It didn't stop. Two of them. Two nurses were giggling and looking directly at him.
"Can I help you?" He asked the young temp nurse. The other scattered quickly, leaving her alone.
"Um..." She giggled as she looked down at him.
"What the hell is going on?" He asked, getting irritated.
"Is it true?" She finally said with a laugh. She was young. She was inexperienced.
"Is what true?" Derek snapped loudly.
"They're- The interns. They call you Fantastic Four..." She said as she looked down and began laughing. She quickly wheeled around and took off. Derek stood there in confusion.
Fantastic Four? Fantastic Four! What the fuck? Four. As in four!? Who? The interns! I have to go find one of this worthless pieces of shit.
Derek followed the trail. No one was talking. No one wanted to say anything. No one was willing to admit what was going on. He was bound and determined. Someone was to blame, and he had a pretty good idea who it was.
"Hey!" Derek shouted at the intern who everyone was pointing to. "Are you Dr. Mather?"
"That's what it says on my tag." He snapped as he looked up. He quickly began to chuckle.
"Who said it?" He said with a clenched jaw.
"Said what?" Kent asked as he looked down and smiled.
"Cut the shit. Who said it?" He said again. "Dr. Grey, right?" He asked as he looked into his eyes.
"I don't know what you're talking about? Maybe if you told me?" He said with a chuckle.
"I have the ability to make or break you." Derek said firmly.
"Dr. Grey is-" Kent started to say.
"Nothing compared to me. Sure, she could make you miserable. But I can make her miserable. I can make her suffer. Then I can make sure you suffer. So I would suggest spilling it all right now. Was it Dr. Grey?" He said as he glared. Kent looked up at him and reluctantly nodded his head yes.
Derek smiled. She said it. There was only one reason. Jealously. There was interest. She was thinking about it. And what's not to think about. He was well endowed. He had the ability to make her shout. To send her over the edge. He could do a lot to her.
"Dr. Grey...Hmmm..." He said with a smile. "Let me tell you a few things about Dr. Grey..." Kent looked up at him with wide eyes. He was going to give him the dirt. The dirt on his resident. And he was going to eat it up like candy.
"What? What do you know?" He asked as he leaned in. Derek chuckled at his eagerness. He was giddier than a sixth-grade girl.
"Man, to man?" Derek asked as he lured him in. This was going perfectly. She was getting hers.
"Of course, man to man." Kent said with a big nod.
"Well, I've heard that Dr. Grey hasn't been doing so well in the love department, you know what I'm saying?" Derek said with raised eyebrows.
"What do you mean, like- Like she and de Gaulle?" He said in shock.
"Well, what I've heard... Just a little doctor's lounge conversation... Nine not exactly hitting the mark." Derek said as he walked along.
"What do you mean?" Kent asked with a grin.
"Well, apparently she- She hasn't had an orgasm in years." Derek said with a chuckle.
"Seriously?" Kent asked, eating it up.
"According to de Gaulle, it's been years. Since her last boyfriend. Nine years, I guess. It's been frustrating for both of them. Apparently, this guy was the only one that could satisfy her needs. So now she's pretty out there. Way out there. Whips and chains. Crazy shit. And that's not even helping the situation. I just feel bad for de Gaulle. Must be hard on his ego. He can't satisfy his woman. But then again, maybe she's like sticking your dick in a cave, don't matter how hard you try, you just aren't touching, you know?" Derek said with a chuckle.
"Wow. No wonder she's such a bitch." Kent said with a laugh.
"You aren't lying." Derek said with a smirk. "de Gaulle gets more satisfaction from jacking off to one of her old porn tapes."
"Grey did porn?" Kent said in shock.
"You didn't know? Hmmm. I thought everyone knew. Oh well, you didn't hear it from me." He said as he walked away. He looked up seeing Meredith up ahead. "Dr. Grey." Derek said as he dragged her to the side down an empty hallway.
"Yes, Dr. Shepherd." She said as she continued reading a piece of paper. He just looked at her an shook his head. Finally, she looked up. "What?" She said quickly.
"You know, it's not nice to spread nasty lies..." He said as he gave her a look.
"Whatever do you mean, Dr. Shepherd?" She said as she looked at him and then at his pants.
"I think you know." He said with a smirk. "You're just lucky I'm so well-natured."
"Maybe if you would elaborate, I would have an idea as to what you are talking about..." She said with a smile. He gave her a look of disgust. "Oh... Oh yes. Mr. Fantastic Four." She said with a giggle.
"That is not very nice, Meredith." Derek said as he shook his head.
"To my defense, it was before you were working here. Alexis was going on about your 11 1/2 cock, which makes me want to vomit, eat it and then vomit again. Like I could let her spread that lie. So, I fixed it. Made it a little bit more accurate. And let's face it, it's not. Nowhere near." She said as she looked down.
"It is..." He said with a smirk.
"It is not. But you keep telling yourself that." Meredith said with a laugh.
"I know how we can find out." Derek said as he raised his eyebrows.
"I bet you do." Meredith said as she shook her head and walked away. "By the way, it was so worth it."
"You say that now. We'll see if you are saying that later." Derek said with a chuckle.
"What's that supposed to mean?" Meredith said as she turned her head.
"What goes around, comes around, baby." He said as he spun around and walked off, leaving her dumbfounded.