It had been six months since since Jessie's suicide attempt. She was doing a lot better. The doctor had put her on anti-depressants and she was seeing a therapist twice a week. It really helped her sort through all of her feelings about the baby and other things. She was in a session right now.
"John's graduation is tomorrow right?" The doctor asked
"Yes."
"How do you feel about that?"
"I'm happy for him but I'm a little sad to."
"Why?
"Well he's been my support system through all of this." "Even when I didn't want him to." "We've had sessions together so you know how close we are." "I'm leaving for cheer camp next week and when I come back John will have left for college." "All my life he's been with me and now that familiarity is going away."
"Life can't go without change."
"I know." "It'll just be a big adjustment for me."
"I know it'll be different but it doesn't mean you won't be friends."
The next day Jessie and her parents and John's parents all went out to dinner.
"John we are all so proud of you." Preston said. "This is a graduation present from Molly and I. He handed him a hundred dollar bill.
"Wow, thanks a lot." John said.
"You deserve it." Molly said.
Jessie was leaving for cheer camp tomorrow. It was a hot night around midnight. Jessie had her fan on. She was laying down watching TV. She heard a knock on her window. She got up to let John in.
"Hi." She said.
"Hi. He said coming inside.
"What are you doing here?" She asked as she laid back down.
"Well we probably won't be able to do this anymore." He got in bed next to her. They were facing each other. "So I decided to come over."
"I can't believe you won't be here anymore when I get back."
"Me either."
"It's gonna be so weird." "The last year has been so crazy and you've always been there for me." "Now you won't be."
"I might not physically be here anymore but I'll always be here for you."
"I know but it won't be the same." "I wouldn't have blamed you if you stopped talking to me after everything that happened."
"Why would you think I would do that?"
"I'm crazy now."
"You're not crazy." "You were just having a bad time understandably." "You're getting help and doing great."
"I tried to kill myself, that's not something a sane person does."
"That's when you were in your dark place." "Seeing you in that hospital bed, I'd never been so scared."
"I know." "I guess I'll always have these as a reminder." She said holding up one of her wrists. "If it hadn't been for you, I wouldn't have made it through this." She hugged him and kissed him on the cheek. Without thinking about it he kissed her. She kissed him back. It was slow for the first couple minutes but gradually became more passionate. Both their hearts were beating a million miles a second. Rolling on his back he pulled her on top of him. She felt his hand go down to the end of her tank top. "Stop it." She thought. "Stop it now." "You and John can't do this." "It'll ruin your friendship." "I might never see him again though." She broke the kiss. "John." She said unsure.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing it's just um…
"You don't want to?"
"It's not that." "I'm afraid."
"Of what?"
"Doing it, with you."
"You don't have to be." "I'd never do anything you don't want."
"I know." "I want this, I do."
"You do?"
"Yeah." "I'm just scared because you know, it's us."
"I think that that's what makes it so special, because it is us." "We both care about each other."
"You have a condom right?"
"Yeah." They kissed. He sat them both up. He took off her shirt. She took off his. She put her head back and moaned as he kissed her acrossed her neck. Even though she'd been with other guys, she couldn't explain it but this felt different. John felt the same way. He never dreamed he'd be doing this with Jessie but now that he was it felt right. He laid her down underneath him. As he got a condom out of his wallet and put it on, she took off her shorts and panties. She spread her legs and he slipped inside her. She whimpered a little as he did. It'd been almost a year since she had sex. Plus she'd never had one that big. As they kissed he started to move. She moaned knowing she had to be quiet because her parents were down the hall. "Jessie." He groaned. "Oh John." She moaned. A few minutes of them enjoying each other passed. "Baby, have you still never… He asked breathlessly in-between kisses. "Never." She said. He went faster. "Ohhhhh." She moaned loudly. "Uhnnnn." He groaned. She started to shake. She wasn't exactly sure what was since she never experienced it before. "Oh John ohhh, my god, that feels, oh my god, John." She moaned as her eyes rolled back in her head and a wonderful feeling washed over her. "Oh Jessie." He groaned giving in.
Afterwards he was holding her. She was smiling.
"Wow, so that's what's supposed to happen?" "That was fun."
"I told you." "I always make sure the lady is taken care of first." "Come here." He kissed her. "That was great."
"Did it feel different to you?" "I mean in a good way?"
"Yeah, it did." "It felt nice." The fell asleep.