So did you really stick with me still, I hope I do your justice, taking up your time with this I mean, the movie is still rolling in my head I hope it is the same in
I got a PM the other day from a reader who wanted to know if I really thought that Lorelai would ask her mother about sex, and I really do believe she would, because she is Lorelai - I was lucky that I had older sisters to ask because my mother would have fainted if I had asked anything about sex. But I sometimes wish that I had had the courage to ask her just to see her face.
Oh yeah the same reader begged for Lorelai's baby to be a boy, i know we haven't gotten to that par yet, but NO - Rory is Rory and a girl.
So this is the mother/daughter talk - and again don't let it scare you.
Enjoy
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After dinner Emily got situated upstairs again, in bed, Richard had insisted on carrying her up the stairs, and placed her on the bed, he had brought her everything she could want or need as beverage along with crackers and biscuits, she had a large sortment of books and papers along with her calendar. She insisted on planning the events she had up and running at the moment.
She was reading through the lease for a ball room when a soft knock on the door interrupted.
"Come." she said distractedly
"Mom, can we talk?" Lorelai's voice was quiet.
She looked over at the door "Of course we can, come on in, just not jump up on the bed alright." Emily warned.
"Cool." Lorelai walked over slowly and crawled up on her fathers side of the bed, she sat down facing her mother "Does it hurt a lot?"
"Not as much as earlier." Emily smiled and collected her papers into a pile that she deposited on the bed besides her and looked over at Lorelai "So your father says that you have a lot of questions, ask away." she folded her hands in her lap.
"Yeah I do, but if you are not up for it, it can wait."
"No no, I wouldn't have said you could come and talk if I didn't want to or felt like it as you put it." Emily smiled
"Okay, mom how big is the baby when it's born?" Lorelai started.
"Well that is different from baby to baby, you for example were a small baby, you weight just around 5 lb, but babies are as different as the women who gives birth to them." Emily explained.
"Unless they are identical twins." Lorelai said and looked at her mother.
"What?" Emily looked puzzled.
"Identical twins are not different, they are very much alike. What if two girls, identical twins got pregnant with the same guy would their kids be cusine's or siblings?"
"Sometimes I wonder what is going on inside that head of yours, what made you think of this?" Emily sighed as she looked her daughter over.
"I don't know, it just pops up. You said everybody is different but some people are not they have one who is 100% alike - and just think about what I said, what would those kids be? They would have the same gens technically." she smiled at her mothers facial expression.
"Lorelai - did you have questions?"
"Yes how big do you think this one will be?" she pointed to her stomach
"Oh I don't know but i think it will be somewhere around 7 lb, but it will only be a guess."
"What about my sister?"
"She will probably be somewhere in between, now do you have questions about the pregnancy dear?"
"Yes sorry, I feel weird asking you these things but I can't find anything in the books I've peeked in."
"Go ahead and ask me, if I can't answer I will tell you and if you get to personale for my liking I will tell you that too, is that alright?"
"I won't ask anything personale I think, the fact that you are pregnant is freaking me out enough, my parents had sex, in my world you are both dead from your shoulders and down." Emily laughed
"I think most teenagers think like that." Emily agreed and moved her legs a little, winching when a small pain shot through her thigh.
"You alright?" Emily nodded "Did you think like that? I mean about grandpa and grandma?"
"I think I did, but I still believe that my parents had sexual relation for the last time the day Hope was created." Emily looked up to the ceiling, trying to suppress a smile.
"You emso/em thought like that - well I'm glad that you and dad still love each other after so many years, but don't love each other that much another time okay."
Emily smiled and placed her left hand on top of her stomach "I promise you, this will be the last evidence you will ever have of that kind."
"Aaaww so no baby brother for me and what's her name?" Emily quickly shook her head. "Well alright I do have questions of an uhm….can I call it intimate character."
"Lorelai." Emily closed her eyes at the outburst
"Let me ask first before it gets a Lorelai okay - when I shower it really hurts when the water hits my breasts is that normal?"
"It is very normal, it is something about the hormon levels in your body. It is said that it is to prepare your body to the breastfeeding."
"So you have it too?"
"Not so much anymore, but sometimes it is more than other times, but if it keeps on going like that, please do come and tell me so we can ask the doctor." she reassured her daughter
"I will, uhm…." Lorelai started then looked down at her hands
"Ask Lorelai, don't hide - I'll answer almost anything."
"Have you ever felt that…I don't know….that dad was just using you? I mean with the sex thing?"
Emily snapped her head towards Lorelai "Did you not consent to having sex with Christopher?"
"Yes yes, I did, but now that he is kind of pulling away from it all, with the baby and stuff, I feel a little like he has taken advantage of my willingness."
"Oh alright, well no I have never felt like that with your dad, never. He never pushed for it to happen, on the contrary in fact, I think maybe he felt a little taken advantage of, back when we first started seeing each other." Emily looked down a little embarrassed "But I can still understand why you feel like that, I think we should soon start talking about having Christopher moving in, that way he will also have to take part in the life that will soon happen." Emily thought about it for a while and smiled at Lorelai "He is willing to marry you, you know, so he wants to do the right thing."
"It just doesn't feel right. Do you think dad asked you to marry him because you got pregnant, back then, sorry to ask but it was just a thought." she looked apologetically at her mother, she didn't want to ask that way.
"No, not at all - we made a mistake, just like you did, but my parents would have sent me away to some place where they take girls who got in trouble, as it was called still is sometimes, then I would have given birth and they would have put that baby up for adoption. Your father and I only got closer because of what happened, and we didn't get engaged until almost two years later." she twisted her wedding ring around a few times.
"But Chris is only saying this because of….well it!"
"A child needs a mother and a father Lorelai."
Lorelai huffed and crossed her arms in front of her "Will I know when I'm in labor?" she said after a long pause
Emily chuckled "Well, I thought I was in labor six times before it was real and once you are in real labor you will see quickly that all the other times you thought you were, was just water besides the real thing. It hurts like hell, you might as well prepare yourself for that and it is not a movie scene, it doesn't have to start with your water breaking, I was in labor with you for a total of fourteen hours, and my water didn't break until half way through and when it did I thought thank God now it will soon be over, but it wasn't. You were already stubborn then." Emily smiled at Lorelai that smirked at her mothers remark.
"What does it feel like….to give birth I mean? You say it hurts like hell." Lorelai looked a little worried.
"It does, there is no need to suger coat it, I thought I was splitting in half as the doctor kept telling me to push, and remember I told you that you were a small baby."
"I read somewhere that it was compared to pushing a watermelon through a keyhole without breaking the watermelon, is that accurate?"
"I think that describes it very well." Emily took a deep breath "Uhm…Lorelai when you had sex the first time with Christopher, did that hurt?"
"God yes, it was like the worst, we didn't do it again until like a month later maybe even two months."
"Then multiply that pain with a thousand - that is child birth, as they laughingly calls natural." Lorelai's face crumbled as Emily smiled at her.
"Wow. Really looking forward to giving birth now." Lorelai said with a sarcastic tone.
"I know, but once you hold that tiny baby in your arms you will know that it was worth all the hard work." Emilys eyes glazed over at the vision she got from thinking back to Lorelai's birth, the second the baby had slide out and was place in her arms, it was wonderful.
"I read an article about that they put the slimy, bloody baby on your stomach right after birth, is that right, it sounds so gross."
"Really I didn't know that, when you were born, the doctor took you to the midwife and she cleaned you up after they had taken your weight and length and other measurements, so I didn't see you until you were all clean and soft. Where did you read that?" Emily looked disgusted.
"Some article in a magazine i bought, I'll find it for you."
"I would like to read that, thank you." she sent her daughter an appreciative look, Lorelai was again quiet "What is it Lorelai, tell me?"
"I'm just scared that's all, it doesn't sound like fun or sweet at all, it sounds dirty and as hard, hard work."
"It is hard work dear, it is not a stroll in the park having a baby. You could end up with so many complications during pregnancy, child birth and even after birth, your child could have colic, or get infections, you could get infections and a million other things, but you don't have to do this alone honey - your father and I are here, I know we are hiding the fact that you are pregnant, but soon summer is here and I think we will go to Europe, all of us, for a month or so."
"Really?" Lorelai's face lite up at Emily's nodding "That will be great." Emily started to get up from the bed "Where are you going?" Lorelai was alarmed
"To the bathroom, your sister is constantly pressing on my bladder, you must have the same issues."
"Yes I pee like a hundred times a day!"
"Something like that yes."
Lorelai laughed "It is kinda cool to hear you say my sister!"
"Soon we will find out what your baby is, it is wonderful to know for once - we didn't know what you were, I had bought one pink outfit because I was sure of the fact that you were a girl, but I only told your father that." Emily disappeared into the bathroom.
Lorelai looked around the room, and for the first time in years she noticed just how many pictures her parents had off her scattered around the room, but no baby pictures and she knew why. She started thinking about what she thought her own baby was, she rubbed her hand over her belly "What are you little one - boy or girl?" she felt movement under her hand "Kick me if you are a boy." she felt a small kick "Hmm are you a girl?" she felt another kick "Geez thanks kid that really helped!" she felt another kick. Then Emily returned to the room slowly walking back to her spot and sitting down, winching when she pushed herself back into the pillows.
"Mom can I ask you something?"
"Sure, ask away." Emily tried to get comfortable again.
"If you and dad had had a boy first would you have had more kids after that one, on purpose I mean?"
"Oh I don't know that Lorelai, I think so, I always wanted a little girl, so if you had been a boy I guess, maybe we would have." Emily said slowly
"Okay. Not that I haven't enjoyed being an only child, but it would have been way cooler to have had someone to play with I think." Lorelai didn't notice her mothers expression of sadness, it was hidden away fast.
"Well lucky for your sister then that you are here and that you are having a baby, then she won't have that issue." Emily forced a smile.
"Yeah." Lorelai looked around the room again and for a little while they just sat in silence "Will you help me when the baby comes?" she almost whispered.
"Of course I will, but you will have to take care of it yourself, I will help and guide you, but you have to be there for the baby and all your own needs and wants are put on hold, we have hired a nanny for your baby already so you will have plenty of help, but it is your baby." Emily conveyed
"I know mom, and I will, but you know it all, I don't know anything other than it has to come out at some point." Lorelai got off the bed.
"You going to bed?" Emily looked at her daughter
"Soon yeah, but now I need to pee." Lorelai hurried into the bathroom, Emily leaned back and closed her eyes, running her hand over her bump slowly, it was one of the great benefits about being pregnant, you could almost lull yourself into a trance from your baby's movements and the soothing feeling of running a hand over the stretched skin, she didn't even hear Lorelai coming back and was slightly startled when Lorelai spoke.
"Can I feel her?" she asked hesitantly
"Uhm…yes why not. She is kicking right here now." Emily pointed to the spot and Lorelai softly put a hand to her mothers extended belly, she smiled as she felt the small kicks under her hand.
"Wow she is really active, was I that active?" She kept looking at her own hand on the belly.
"Yes you were, but this one is a night owl, at least you were active during the day, a lot active. Do you feel your baby kicking from the outside?" Lorelai nodded at the question.
"Yeah but not this much, but if that is me in three weeks, then wow, it feels so cool, especially when you don't feel the movement on the inside while you're feeling it on the outside, it is so different." Lorelai was in awe.
"Will you let me feel my….." Emily just realized as she had her daughters hand on top of her own unborn child and that she was also about to become a grandmother, she swallowed deeply "Will you let me feel my grandchild when it gets more apparent?"
"Sure mom." they smiled at each other for a second then Lorelai pulled her hand away as the kicking subsided "Mom I have a million other questions I'm sure, along the way, can I ask them as they come?"
"I already told you you could. I want to help you sweetheart I really do, but it is difficult for me to completely wrap my head around that I am about to give birth to your sister along with becoming a grandmother, so bare with me if I don't always seem like I want to talk." Emily pleaded
"Sure thing mom. I have two more questions right now, I'm sure you will answer one of them and the other I'm not so sure about."
"Then let's start with the last one." Emily folded her hands again
"Do you still want to have sex with dad now pregnant and all?" she really didn't want an answer to her question, but she was herself experiencing all these weird feelings and she just wanted to know if it was normal.
"That is private Lorelai, so you are right I will not answer that one." Emily hoped her expression didn't reveal her true answer.
"Alright fair enough - second question then, if I call up Chris can he sleep over?"
"In the guest room sure, your room no!"
"Why not?"
"Because I know teenage boys and what is on their minds and you could end up….." she trailed off. The shared a look and chuckled "Well I guess that already happened right, yeah go ahead and ask him to stay over."
"Thanks mom, do you want anything before I leave?"
"No thank you, I'm sure I've heard your father at the door several times during our talk, so he will probably be in here when you leave."
"Hear all, see all huh!"
"Something like that." Emily smiled at her as Lorelai left the room, and Emily was right just as she heard Lorelai's door close, hers opened and Richard was there, looking worried.
"No need for that look dear, we only talked, she wants help and guidance so that's good, I hope we can help her enough.
"I'm sure that we can. Now anything I can get for my bedridden wife?" He asked and bowed
"Only some ice cubes for the ice tea, and can you be persuaded to massage my shoulders and neck?" she batted her eyelashes at him with a smile.
"Of course you can darling, and I will hire a full time masseuse for you if you want?" He walked towards the door again ready to fetch some ice.
"No thank you, maybe after the baby comes, but right now just you." she laughed as he saluted her and ran from the room to get her ice.
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So did you like it - I am sure that they at some points in life really got along, but they will blow up I promise you, Lorelai will still be leaving the Gilmore house, but I am holding on to the sentence Emily says in Dear Emily and Richard episode when they decent the stairs - she says 'Wow she put the stroller away first time in a year I haven't tripped over that thing.' So Rory will be almost a year old before she runs. So let me know what you thought about this one - it may be slightly of character but follow me. :-) Leave a little word.