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Chapter 18

(Jay's POV)

We go back to the garage to work on the vehicle's once we get done talking. I watch Paul as he changes a belt and I see him keep glancing at me. I mean I'm still thinking about what that Rachel girl said to me in the back of the gas station by the water when she cornered me.

I don't know why she was so mean and lied to me about being with Paul. I didn't think it would hurt that bad but when she said she had sex with him last night but my chest got really tight. Then my whole body hurt at the thought of him kissing someone else and doing things with another.

I sigh quietly, I'm still very confused on what some of the things meant and Paul was really vague with me. I hate not knowing what stuff means, I never had to worry about this stuff before because I didn't care. Plus, I haven't been around others my age. So much to understanding what half this crap means.

I tell Paul I'm using the bathroom and I open my phone and go to google. I mean that's what it is there for, right? I didn't have anyone else to ask and I didn't really want to ask my daddy. I mean I talk to him about everything but this seems like something I should maybe keep to myself.

I quietly search up what vanilla means and I scroll through all the terms and when I see the one for the sexual slang I open it. I read it fast and I instantly get embarrassed, oh my goodness. I click on the link below it about different things about sex with kink and when I read about things I lean back nervous, I don't understand some of it. I will search into more of this later.

I hurry closing it and look up other things that she said and I literally hurry shutting my phone as I lean my head on the wall. I feel stupid and like a little kid now, I really don't want to go out to face Paul at all now. Gosh, I'm so dumb.

I open my phone again and text my dad quickly asking if he could pick me up and to make an excuse so Paul wouldn't suspect anything. He texts me back fast asking if I was okay and what is wrong. I just tell him I don't feel the best and want to go home but to tell Paul something else.

When I open the bathroom door, Paul looks me over smiling but looks worried. "Want to help with the truck that's coming? It needs an oil change and an air filter," He says and I nod as I head towards him trying not to be embarrassed about how stupid I am.

I watch him as he finishes the car and when I hear my dad call my name from outside I feel relief hit me, thank gosh for my daddy. Paul looks me over confused and pulls me outside to my dad, making me smile at my dad nervously.

"Hey princess, I have to show you something. Hop in," He says and Paul pulls me closer.

"Let me close the shop Mike and call the guy coming and I'll come as well," Paul says as he walks towards the garage holding my hand as he pulls his phone out.

"Son, that's okay. I kind of want some father daughter time for a few. Hope you don't mind," My dad says as he looks anywhere but at Paul.

Great daddy, make it obvious. I feel Paul grip my hand harder and look to me and searches my face for a minute.

"Yeah Mike, that's fine," Paul answers and I hear the anger in his voice and the way he starts shaking.

"Bye Paul," I say quickly before I hurry jumping in my dad's truck. He waves at Paul quick before he backs out and takes off looking at me.

"Okay, tell me why I had to lie to Paul princess," He says and I sigh looking at him.

"I really don't feel well daddy and want some time to myself to think," I answer and I know he is looking at me.

"Did something happen?" He asks as he slows down some and I hear his daddy voice come out.

"Paul didn't do anything daddy. Just some girl saying stuff and I just want to be alone for a bit," I answer and I hear my dad sigh.

"Okay princess, I'll take you home," He says sounding worried.

Once my dad leaves I sigh sitting on the couch putting my head in my hands, I wish I knew things. I know Paul's experienced and heck I don't even know barely anything about sex. I know the concept because come on who doesn't.

I mean I never even thought about it before because I never cared to learn that stuff but now I wished I did. I mean I was never around others just my dad so all that stuff never mattered to me. I'm too embarrassed to ask Paul and I know I can talk to my dad but I don't know if I should about these things, I know he told me he never wanted me to date. I mean I guess I could talk to Sam, he would help me understand things.

I wish I could just be confident enough around Paul to ask things and figure them out. I want to do more than kissing with him, I truly want to learn so much more. I want to touch him and explore his body to understand everything but I don't know if he wants to do all that stuff with me. I mean would he teach me? I know we kiss and he rubs on me some but I don't know what he exactly wants.

I groan and lean my head back on the couch stressed and confused on what to do and when I see someone leaning against the wall I gasp scared tell I see it's Paul.

"Oh my God, how come I never heard you?" I say looking around wondering where he came in but he doesn't say anything just stares at me.

"Paul?" I ask nervously and he growls low making me look his face over fast, he's very upset.

"Why did you text your dad and want to leave little girl?" He asks as he stalks over to me on the couch. I blush and look down, great what do I say?

When he stops in front of me I peek up to him then down fast as I play with my shirt nervously. It's when he squats in front of me that I shift back trying not to look at him.

"Little girl I asked you a question. Don't you want to be my good girl baby?" He asks and when I feel his hands travel up my thighs I peek to him.

"Come on be my good girl," He says softly.

"Paul," I whisper nervously even if I wanted to please him and he shifts and grabs my hips pulling me close to him making me look to his face.

"Jay baby, you can tell me anything," He says and I blush.

"Come on little girl, let's talk about whatever it is you want to talk about," He says.

I shake my head embarrassed as I try to get up but he grabs me and moves me fast so I'm sitting on his lap on the couch.

It's when he nuzzles into my neck and nips it that I relax into him, "Talk to me Jay baby, we can talk about anything together," He whispers.

I fight with myself not knowing what to do, I want to talk to him but it's so embarrassing. How would I even start the conversation? God, why is this so hard?

"Little girl come on, talk to me. Please Jay baby," He whispers against my ear.

"Can I touch you?" I ask fast and when I realize what I said I still shocked at myself.

He pulls back and I see his eyebrows shoot up. I cover my whole face as I get embarrassed as hell, why the heck did that just come out of my mouth?

"Jay baby you're going to have to be a little clearer on what you mean," He says carefully.

I feel panic rise in me and I'm so embarrassed that I even said that. I mean who says that? God I'm a freak!

I move fast and take off upstairs to my room and I hear him chasing me. When I hit my bed, I lay face down on it trying not to cry from embarrassment. God, I'm so stupid! Why am I so awkward?

I feel his arms come around me and he flips me making me cover my face fast as he gets close to me.

"Easy little girl, no need to be running away and hiding," He says.

I don't answer, I just wanted to curl in a ball and pray the bed will swallow me whole.

"Little girl, what do you want to touch? Jay baby you can touch me anywhere you want," He whispers as he gets close to my ear.

I shift keeping my hands over my face not knowing what to say.

"Give me one of your hands Jay baby," He says and I shake my head no.

He's quiet for a minute, "How about I close my eyes and you can have free access to whatever," He says. I think for a second, I mean will it be easier if he isn't looking?

When I feel him lay down by me I peek to him and he has his arm over his face so I can't see his eyes, I don't know why but it makes me relax.

He doesn't move and I carefully uncover my face trying not to feel dumb. I look his body over slowly and peek to his face again but he still had his eyes covered.

I move sitting up and I watch him shift his body and spread his legs some. I wait for a minute before I bring my hand down on his arm muscle and I slowly run my hand over it.

His arms are so big and I know he's strong. My hands slowly move over his arm up to his shoulder as I scoot closer as I get excited.

He's all man and I really like it, I peek to him before I keep going down to his chest. I take my time touching him and I can feel his heart hammering in his chest making me hope he's okay with me doing this.

I move some and get on my knees right by him and when I bring my other hand down I hear his soft groan making me hurry looking to him but he still has his eyes covered. I feel a bit like a little kid being nervous about this but it's all so new to me.

I finally go lower tracing his abs amazed at the way they feel and when I get to his lower abdomen I get nervous a tiny bit as I look his crotch over. I can see the outline of him and I really want to touch him.

I peek to him before I bring my right hand over it as I keep my left hand on his stomach. I take a deep nervous breath hoping he won't freak out if I touch it, gosh how embarrassing would it be if he freaks out. I don't move for a minute as I contemplate if I should really do this.

I finally give in and just bring my hand down, I hear his low weird growl he does sometimes but I pay it no mind as I run my hand over it. It's big and feels hard making me scoot closer bringing my other hand to it as I run them over it confused and excited.

"Jay baby you can unbutton and unzip my shorts," I hear him whisper softly and I still as I blush.

Is he serious? I wanted to so bad but I'm frozen, I feel him shift and I peek to him as I slowly take my hands off it.

"Want me to do it?" He asks and he sounds excited and nervous.

I peek to him again and he's sitting up on his elbows staring at me, "Please Paul," I whisper nervously.

I watch as he moves fast and unbuttons his shorts and has them down really fast. If I wasn't so nervous and embarrassed I probably would have giggled.

I move my eyes fast and stare, holy hell it's bigger than last time I seen him. Why was it so big? I look it over for a long time and I feel him shift and I watch as he brings his hand down to mine on his stomach as he sits all the way up.

"Come on little girl, you can touch it," He says and his voice sounds different.

I nod and when he sets my hand on it and slowly rubs it up I hear his low weird excited growl again but I'm too excited myself. It's so soft feeling but hard at the same time, it's interesting that's for sure.

He keeps rubbing my hand on it flat up and down and I really wanted to see if my fingers can wrap around it. I move my hand from his gently and he stills and snaps his eyes to mine as I glance to him as my face hits up a bit.

"Are you okay?" He asks and his voice sounds nervous but I ignore him as I bring my hand back to it.

"I want to try," I whisper low making him growl.

I go to the bottom and rub him as he clenches his fists together and I try to wrap my hand around it, my thumb and middle finger almost touch but not quite. I just stare at it before I move my hand up it like that.

He groans as I move up over him and I look to his eyes quick and he's staring at me and his breathing is picking up. When I get close to his tip it moves making me jump and look to him wide eyed and he smirks at me as he moves his hips up some.

"It moved," I whisper and he chuckles.

"It does that," He says smiling and he looks excited.

I bring my eyes back to it and move my hand up more and I go over the tip some and he groans low.

I run my hand back down it as I start getting excited, this is amazing. I can feel my body start to respond as well making me more curious on how sex would feel and how everything worked. I move faster going up and it moves again making me giggle and he groans soft.

"Does it feel good?" I ask more courageous because he was okay with me touching it.

"Fuck yes, feels so good," He growls excitedly. I move up and then back down again and when I come up to the tip its wet.

I touch it softly running my fingers over it before I go back down gently and he shifts and thrusts his hips up.

I look back to him and he's staring at me, "You can squeeze harder little girl and move faster," He growls as he grips the bed.

I look back to it and squeeze a bit harder making it move, I smile as I start moving my hand faster bringing it up and down moving the wet down with my hand and he groans loud.

One of his hands come to my back. "Fuck yes little girl, that feels so good. Twist your wrist some as you move Jay baby," He says.

I do as he asks as I scoot closer and he growls gripping my back and when I start moving faster he lays back gripping my shirt as he groans.

"Perfect Jay baby, fuck yes you're my good girl," He groans and I get excited at his praise and keep moving.

He groans and when he moves his hand to mine he stops me making me look to him confused as he breathes hard.

"Little girl I'm going to cum if you keep doing that," He says and I look to his dick then his face.

"Can I watch?" I ask excitedly and his eyes snap to mine.

"Yeah Jay baby," He says sounding excited and removes his hand from mine.

I start moving again as I watch and I move my hand over the tip catching more of the wetness as he groans soft. His hand moves to my hair and he tangles his fingers in it gripping it some as his breathing changes more.

When he arches his hips up groaning as his cum shoots out of him I feel so many different emotions course through me as he yanks my hair. I don't pull my hand away but I slow down and stop as he shivers.

I look over all the stuff on his stomach, chest and my hand before I look to him excitedly,

"That was amazing," I say and his face breaks out in a grin before he chuckles.

"You like that little girl?" He asks and I nod.

"Can I do it again?" I ask.

I watch as he closes his eyes as he laughs. "Jay baby you can do that whenever you want," He answers.

I watch as he gets up and grabs my towel hanging on my closet door and wipes himself then my hand. When he pulls his shorts up I get a bit disappointed, I mean I wanted to mess around more with him.

He crawls on the bed and looks me over and before I know it he pushes me back and kisses me hard. I quickly kiss him back not believing all that just happened, I'm super excited and even more curious now.

When he pulls away I feel his hand run down my body, "Can I touch you little girl?" He whispers as he looks in my eyes.

I stare at him a minute as I start getting nervous, I mean I know he's seen me naked but I'm still embarrassed some.

"Jay baby, it's okay I can make you feel really good," He says gently as he shifts closer.

I search his face as I think, I mean I wouldn't mind him touching me. He let me touch him so it's fair if he wanted to touch me, right?

I finally nod and he smiles huge and sits me up, "Can I strip you?" He asks and I blush some nervously.

"Yes Paul," I answer.

He leans in and kisses me fast before he starts pulling my shirt up and right when he goes to pull it over my head he stops and lets out a growl making me look to him worried and confused.

"God damn it. Jay baby your dad is coming down the drive," He growls sounding pissed and I hurry putting my shirt down embarrassed.

"Don't get mad little girl but I have to go. But I'll be back after I go grab my truck, okay?" He says as he stands but he moves kissing me again before he takes off down the stairs.

I hear the back door opening and shutting making me wonder why he was going that way and how he got here if he didn't bring his truck.

My dad comes up into my room as I sit on my bed just thinking about everything that happened. I'm so excited and I was wondering if this meant that Paul's my boyfriend now or still just my friend. I don't know how this stuff works.

"Hey princess, I was heading over to Forks for a bit to talk to Charlie. I was thinking we can stop at the diner after I get done, you ready?" He asks and I look to him.

"Yeah daddy," I answer as I stand.

When I get into his truck I listen to him talk about the pies at the Fork's diner saying how Charlie says they're delicious. I bring my phone out and text Paul saying daddy is taking me to Forks and before I know it his message comes through saying he's coming down my drive.

I watch as Paul's driving fast throwing up dust and my dad chuckles, "I swear it's like he knows when your leaving," He says looking to me.

"Are you alright to talk to him now?" He asks concerned and I nod.

My dad stops and I'm out fast, "Bye daddy," I yell and I hear his be safe and he will see me tomorrow.

I instantly remember I have training tonight so I can spend the night with him. Paul hurries opening my door for me as he waves at my dad and I see my dad's laughing face. I crawl over to Paul and he pulls me close as we follow my dad on the gravel road.

"Want to just go to the house, I closed the shop and your bag is still in the back," He says and his eyes look excited.

I smile and nod and when we hit his gravel road he leans down kissing me making me giggle and kiss him back but then it hits me. He didn't kiss me when I got in, why? I pull back and look him over for a second confused and he searches my face.

"What's wrong Jay baby?" He asks and I blush some.

"Do you not want daddy to know we kiss?" I ask embarrassed some and I hear his sigh. He stays quiet tell we get to his driveway and he looks me over.

"Little girl your dad doesn't want you to date yet. Baby I'm twenty-one and your sixteen and a lot people will start shit," He says and I shift some, I didn't know age mattered to people.

"Oh, okay Paul," I answer a bit confused.

"Little girl once we can get your dad to say you can date then that's all that matters okay? Also, once he knows we are dating he won't let you stay with me over night," He says annoyed and I look to him strange, why not?

"Why Paul?" I ask and he shifts looking me over.

"Little girl he is your dad, he doesn't want to see you grow up," He answers and I lean back confused some.

"Let's not worry about it right now okay Jay baby?" He says and I look to him and nod. I watch as he gets out but I was still confused some, does this mean we're just friends then?

"What are you thinking Jay baby?" He asks.

I peek to him then my hands embarrassed some, how do I ask this?

"Little girl remember, we can talk about anything. Come on be my good girl and ask," He says as he jumps back in.

I look his face over before I look to my hands, "So are we just friends then?" I whisper confused on what all this means.

He moves and pulls me on his lap fast and brings my face up so he can look in my eyes.

He searches them for a minute, "You're mine Jayden, have been since I first seen you. I don't want to just be your friend, you're my girl. Do you understand?" He asks and I shift, I mean I guess?

"Like your girlfriend?" I ask embarrassed.

I watch as he gives me a cocky looking smile making me search his eyes wondering why he looks like that.

"Yeah little girl, like my girlfriend but so much more than that," He says and I feel excitement hit me hard and I kiss him fast. I couldn't believe I got a boyfriend, especially someone as gorgeous as Paul.