AN: Once again, thank you to ktallen911 for being my beta, it is very appreciated. There's been a lot of strong reviews lately. You guys have very strong opinions about characters and are protective fans, I love it. I think a good story should make you go through a whole range of emotions. It's a Calzona story, it has to have drama and although I can't promise some of the drama won't have possible effects on their relationship, I am also trying to incorporate drama that doesn't always try to break them as a couple. And for the things that may or may not come their way that could break them, I have tried to build them a more solid foundation and a more mature relationship. I'm not sure how many people are actually reading this story. I get the same people mostly reviewing every chapter and I really appreciate your thoughts and mostly kind words. It's ok to hate me a little when I throw a wrench in the Calzona bliss. Just know I believe in happy endings :)
As far as me personally, someone was curious about where in the world I am. I am a nurse in Michigan. Which is partly why you are being spoiled with updates. As far as deaths and protesting goes, I just can't even. There are times that I am so disheartened and disappointed by the actions of some people. But our Governor is a beast in the best way and I stand with that woman from Michigan wholeheartedly. Oddly enough, Fred Rogers always creeped me out as a kid but I've found comfort in his quote. "When I was a boy I would see scary things in the news, my mother would say to me, "Look for the HELPERS. You will always find people who are helping". I see helpers everyday in my work and I am so fortunate to have that. I feel simultaneously like we are being treated as heroes and lepers. It's an odd time to be a nurse.
Anyway, this is one way I deal with the stress. Your reviews make me smile and laugh out loud at times. I hope my story brings you a little bit of happiness and comfort. This is the longest chapter yet. Stay safe and healthy. Happy reading :)
Chapter Twenty-Two
"Erica kissed me, Arizona."
"That's what I thought you said."
"I shouldn't have gone over there. I was angry and I wasn't thinking and I gave her the perfect opportunity to hurt you more. I am so sorry, Arizona." Callie apologized. She watched Arizona as she stared at a spot on the wall over Callie's shoulder as if she were trying to burn a hole through the wood. Callie waited for her to say something, yell, scream, cry, anything but she just stood there worrying her lip between her teeth as she stared.
"I'm sorry. Please, look at me." Callie tried again but once again, nothing. "Can you say something? Anything?"
Arizona continued her staring and biting of her lip with no acknowledgement that she had even heard Callie. Her body was tense and she stood completely still. She hadn't backed away from Callie but the silence was making her extremely nervous. Bringing her hands up and placing them on each of Arizona's upper arms, Callie tried again, "Arizona, baby, please, say something."
Arizona looked at Callie for the first time as if she hadn't heard her before. Her breath held as she looked in Arizona's eyes and she saw her go from blank, emotionless to lustful with desire. Callie was confused for a split second before Arizona's lips claimed hers and she was backed into a wall once again. Though this kiss lit a fire in her core and wasn't completely unwanted, she was confused. When the kiss broke, Arizona came in for more, not giving Callie a chance to talk but as Arizona's fingers popped the button to Callie's jeans open and pulled the zipper down, Callie wrapped her hand around a pale wrist.
"Arizona, are you ok? Are we ok?"
"I'm mad but we're ok Callie. I'm mad but not at you. But right now, I really need to show you who your girlfriend is. And remind myself that you're mine and she can't change that." Arizona said as she latched her lips onto Callie's neck and broke her wrist free of Callie's grasp.
"Arizona, you're going to leave a mark." Callie warned, trying to pull her neck away from Arizona's mouth.
"I know." Arizona breathed before she latched back on at the same time her fingers wiggled into Callie's underwear. She slid her fingers up and down her slit a few times gathering moisture before she plunged two fingers into Callie. Her pace was hard and fast and Callie was quickly losing control. For such a petite frame, Arizona was much stronger than she often gave her credit for. Arizona nibbled on her ear and whispered, "You're so wet. Are you enjoying me fucking you, Calliope?"
"Oh God, yes." she whimpered. Callie couldn't take it. She felt the familiar rippling in her abdomen and her walls began to quiver and suck Arizona's fingers in. As Arizona brushed her thumb over her clit and applied a tiny bit of pressure, Callie came undone, Arizona using her free hand to cover her mouth, silencing the moans that were coming from her.
"What was that about not getting laid?" Callie asked with a cocky smirk.
"Yea, well kiss anyone else again and I can guarantee this won't be my reaction." Arizona said as she licked her fingers causing Callie to squirm with a new wetness gathering in her underwear.
"I didn't..." Callie said, stepping toward Arizona but Arizona cut her off, "I know." As Callie closed the distance between them, she pulled Arizona to her in an attempt to return the favor but Arizona pushed away.
"What's wrong?" Callie asked.
"I know it wasn't wanted and it wasn't your fault but you still kissed someone else tonight so you're not getting into my panties." Arizona replied. Callie looked at her to see if she was serious or not and realized with frustration that she was.
"Arizona, please, I need to feel you."
"I'm sorry Callie, not tonight, ok. You go take a shower and get ready for bed. I'll go pop the popcorn and we can cuddle and still have our movie night."
"So what, you just fucked me into submission?" Callie asked. She wasn't sure if she was mad or turned on. Arizona didn't respond, she just shrugged her shoulders and left the shed.
It was Halloween, ten days since the altercation with Erica and Callie had yet to speak with her father. Things between herself and Arizona seemed to be steady and back to normal. The blonde had been upset, furious even at first but not with Callie just at the situation in general and with Erica and even frustrated with herself for not voting the "beast off the island" as Callie recalled her saying with a smile. She had let it go pretty quickly though, as Teddy predicted, and any unresolved anger she may be holding onto was not being directed at Callie. She found her still fuming over Erica at times though, everyone, including the Chief had voted to kick the cardiothoracic surgeon from the program, everyone except Arizona, that is. She had argued that though Erica might be untrustworthy and a poor example of a good person, she was an excellent surgeon and the program would suffer from her absence. Had she voted thirty minutes later after finding out the bitch had laid her lips on her gorgeous girlfriend's mouth then she may have voted differently.
Callie was running the medic tent today with her group and Arizona was scheduled to be at the hospital with hers. She smiled as she thought of how adorable the blonde looked that morning with her homemade cat ears. She had taken construction paper and glued ears to a headband and then Callie had drawn a nose and whiskers on her girlfriend with her eyeliner. Though Callie had tried to tell her that the children may not understand Halloween the same way American children did, it did not deter the blonde. She had simply stated she and everyone on her service that day were required to dress up.
Alex Karev was part of her service once again. True to her word, she had kicked him off the first day back to work after returning from Spain but she had quickly relented and allowed him to return. Alex was just too good with the kids and she needed his help. Not to mention, she really did enjoy his friendship, despite the tough exterior and snarky attitude. So Callie was there to see them off, Alex was dressed as a clown, Charles as Frankenstein, Eliza as a skeleton, which she had to admit, was a pretty cool costume. April was raggedy Anne and Miranda was the only one who hadn't dressed up; though Callie smiled when she saw her open her lab coat to reveal a Ravenclaw tie and a blue t-shirt in place of her normal scrub top.
"Oh stop looking at me like that, Torres, it's for the kids." Miranda said, looking sufficiently annoyed as the petite woman climbed into the back of the truck with her own group.
"I can't believe you got Bailey to dress up." Callie smiled down at her girlfriend.
"I have a way of persuading people to do things my way." Arizona whispered, her breath hitting Callie's lips with close proximity.
"Hmm, is that a fact? Well, I hope the powers of persuasion that you use on me are different from the ones you used on Bailey."
"Wouldn't you like to know." Arizona giggled before she pecked Callie on the lips and turned to walk away. Callie reached out a hand, stopping her and pulled her in for a more intimate but gentle kiss. She smiled as she pulled away, patting Arizona lightly on the ass before she said, "That's better, no go be badass. And please, be careful."
"I'm always careful. Love you." Arizona said, kissing Callie one more time. Callie had been slightly anxious on the days when she was at base and Arizona was at the hospital. She didn't like being separated from the blonde.
"Love you too baby." Callie replied, once again feeling the drop of her stomach and emotional enough to bring tears to her eyes as she watched Arizona walk toward her vehicle.
"She'll be alright, Cal. She's got Teddy and Nick there looking out for her. Not to mention Owen and Addie and a whole slew of other doctors." Sloan said as he wrapped his arm around Callie's neck and pulled her to him, kissing the crown of her head with an obnoxious "muah".
"I know, doesn't mean I can stop myself from worrying though."
"Well, there's lots of injuries coming in to keep us busy. One of the army vehicles out retrieving our supplies was ambushed by rebels. They tried to get the drop on them but the pickup crew was on guard and fought them off. A few of them have some minor injuries that need tending though. That should keep your mind off things for a bit." Mark said with a smile.
"It may keep me busy but it just makes me worry more." Callie replied as they walked together to the medic tent.
Mark had been right, there had been several minor injuries from the troops that came back from the supply pickup. A few bumps and bruises, sutures, and one angry ankle had kept Callie busy all morning and into the early afternoon. Deciding it was time to rip off the band-aid, Callie used her late lunch break to call Aria, "Hey, sis, what's up?"
"You sound like you're in a good mood for five in the morning. How are you, Aria?"
"I am in a good mood. We are moving forward with the next opening and all our stress and hard work is about to pay off before it starts all over again for the next one. I know daddy was reluctant to expand to Europe but it has been so successful, Callie. I'm just getting an early start to make sure everything is in order."
"I'm so happy for you guys. I can't wait to visit one of your European resorts."
"Maybe for our next family vacation." Aria suggested.
"Maybe. Look, Aria, I called for a reason. I hadn't planned on doing this yet, I considered doing it when I come home for Christmas but things have changed here. I want to tell mom and dad about Arizona and I before someone else does."
"Are you sure this thing with Arizona is going to last, Cal? Are you sure it isn't just a fling, or you experimenting, or having a midlife crisis or whatever after walking in on your fiance cheating on you last year?"
"Aria, I really love her. It's too soon to propose but I really hope someday I will get the chance to. It's not a fling or an experiment. And even if Arizona and I were to break up, I still would be open to dating other women. I sincerely hope that Arizona will be my last relationship though, Aria."
"Then tell them, Callie. I just wanted to make sure this wasn't you just pulling an Aria and getting something out of your system. But if this is serious and this is who you are, then you should tell them. I will be there if you want me to be." Aria offered.
"Ok, I'm going to call dad and ask him if he and mom can skype tonight, well at lunch for you guys. Say around noon, that would be nine here for me.
"Ok, let me know, I'll clear my schedule from eleven thirty to one thirty.
"I will. And Aria, thanks, for everything. I love you, hermanita."
"Love you too, Cal."
Callie hung up the phone feeling both relieved and stressed before she dialed her father's phone number. She figured her father was getting ready for his early morning swim as usual so she was unsurprised when the phone was picked up on the first ring.
"Callie?" Her mother's voice rang out.
"Hi mami, how are you?"
"Good, good. Your dad is already in the pool, he has an early start today so he can get some things done at the office in preparation of the grand opening. We are all flying to Spain for the hotel opening in Madrid this weekend. Then there will be an opening in Lisbon early next year and later in the year the Barcelona one will hopefully be opening as well. Aria has been such an asset to the company. I know we were all worried but she has grown up a lot."
"That's great, I'm so excited and I'm really sorry that I can't join you."
"Well, actually, your dad met with a Dr. Hahn, she's a friend of yours who is on the trip with you, he said. One of your father's business partners in Seattle had open heart surgery and Dr. Hahn was his doctor. Your father flew out to see him and meet with Dr. Hahn to discuss his ability to fly this week to Madrid. They got to talking about the hotels and stuff, he mentioned wishing you could come to one of the openings and she said that we should give Dr. Webber a try. Unfortunately, Dr. Webber was with family and not working at the time so I couldn't reach him sooner. I emailed him and he said he would let you know today that you can meet us in Madrid for a long weekend. You would leave on Friday morning and come back Tuesday."
"Wow, mom, I mean that would be great but I made a commitment here and I really don't think I should do that. It's not that I don't want to but it's not just about me, they need me here."
"That's what I thought you would say. Don't worry, I haven't told your father or Aria, I wanted to surprise them if you decided to join us."
"Are you guys available to skype today around lunch time?"
"I think so. Let's see, it's what time there?"
"A little after two in the afternoon. If I call at nine tonight could you all maybe have a lunch break at noon together?"
"We will make it work." Lucia said with a smile.
"Thanks mami. I have to go but I will talk to you later, ok?"
"Alright corazoncita. Te quiero mucho."
"Love you too, mami."
Callie hung up feeling both nervous and relieved. She was ready to tell them. She would prefer to tell them in person and not from half a world away while she was in a war zone but Erica had put a wrench in that and now she felt like she didn't have a choice. She only hoped that her very conservative, Catholic but open minded parents would get over the initial shock and accept her, if not right away then in the near future. She was still the same person after all. Her mom worked with the LGBTQ community all the time in her line of work. Hell, she had even defended some of them in court over hate crimes and wrongful termination suits. This was going to be ok, Callie told herself as she set back to work.
Arizona had missed her kids terribly while she had been in Spain and though many of them had been discharged home and new ones had taken their place, some had been there the entire time the doctors had been, including Bahiri and Taara. Their case was sad. Though they were both medically stable enough to be discharged now, Arizona just couldn't bring herself to do it. There was no one to care for them and they would likely end up in an orphanage unless Arizona could find someone to take them. She was desperately searching for relatives at any spare moment she could get. They were the main reason she and the staff on her service that day hosted a halloween parade with the kids through the adult units to bring some cheer to the adults and allow the kids to get some exercise. Many of the kids had makeshift costumes, from sheets as capes or ghosts to imitating their doctors with stethoscopes and doctors lab coats on. Taara currently wore Arizona's own stethoscope and lab coat while Bahiri had chosen to wear a sheet and be a scary ghost.
All of the kids had laughed and played as they dressed up for the parade and afterward they had gone back to their ward to enjoy a special lunch and some candy that Arizona had smuggled in from her own stash at the base. The kids were now working on school work or taking naps as Arizona skipped down the hall wishing she had her wheelys. She couldn't wait to get back to a regular peds ward in the US where she could wear them again, she thought with a smile. Arizona was happy, this is why she had chosen peds, she felt like nothing could dampen her mood.
"Ari, wait up, can I talk to you?" Eliza shouted as Arizona made her way down to grab lunch. Ok, that could dampen her mood, she thought to herself. Nope, not gonna let it, gonna rise above, she said to herself as she turned around to face Eliza.
"To be honest Eliza, you're not one of my favorite people right now and I don't really want to talk to you."
"That's fair but I just want to say one thing. I know the rumors going around about Erica and I. I admit, at one point it was fun to hang out with Erica and complain about you and Callie and fantasize about breaking you up. I admit I was part of that. But I don't agree with what happened in the village. The way she acted and was willing to sacrifice you. I just don't want you to think I would ever be a part of something like that. I am really sorry, Ari."
"I appreciate the apology but you can't blame me for not trusting you, Eliza. And it's Arizona or Dr. Robbins"
"Can we start over, as friends?"
"Eliza, even if I believed you, which I'm not sure I do, I don't trust you. And even if I wanted to be friends, which I don't, I doubt Callie would like that very much. And though we don't tell each other who we can and can't be friends with, I would have to agree with her on this one. I am positive that being friends with you would be a grave mistake and when it comes to Callie, I won't even risk that. So no, we are colleagues Dr. Minnick, that's all."
"Ari, wait."
"Dr. Minnick, I am your superior, it is Dr. Robbins to you from here on out at the hospital and outside of the hospital it is Robbins or Arizona. Do not make me go to the Chief about your lack of professionalism." Arizona replied before she turned to go take a much needed lunch break.
At 20:45, Callie was pacing the hall of the conference center. Arizona had walked over with her and told her that she would be right outside if she needed her, though the thought of meeting Callie's parents via skype while she told them she was bisexual made Arizona want to vomit. But, she was raised to be a good man in a storm and if that's what Callie needed, she would gladly be there. "Do you want me to come in with you?"
"Yes...no...I don't know." Callie said as she wrung her hands together and continued to pace. Arizona grabbed her forcefully by both arms and stopped her movement, holding her in place directly in front of her. She smiled gently at her as Callie gave her a curious and slightly panicked look.
"Calliope, you are kind and sweet. You are caring and smart and unbelievably strong. You can do this and I will be right here, beside you or wherever you need me to be. You don't have to do this. I know what Erica said and your mom confirmed that your dad did meet her but on a professional level. He met her as a surgeon. What would he think of her professionalism if she outed you to him? It can wait until we go back to the U.S. at the beginning of December for Christmas break or when this mission trip is over if you aren't ready for this." Arizona said as she stroked long strands of dark hair behind her ear and then placed her palm on Callie's cheek. Callie nuzzled it and then smiled at Arizona. She placed a soft kiss on the palm of her hand before she spoke.
"Thank you, for being here. I want them to know about you, Arizona. Erica may have given me a push but I want them to know how happy I am. I think I should tell them alone but then maybe, depending on how it goes you could come in and I could introduce you?" Callie asked, the last part sounding like a question.
"Calliope, we can do this however you want to. I will be right here if or when you need me. No matter what happens, I'm right here."
"I love you."
"I love you too, now quit stalling, Torres, you're a total badass, you've got this." Arizona said, deepening her tone and giving her a nice firm smack on the behind. Callie looked over her shoulder and winked at her and Arizona felt her heart rate climb. That's all it took was one wink from that woman and she was putty on the floor.
Callie took a deep breath and waited for skype to connect. She rearranged her shirt several times, ironing out invisible wrinkles and then she resorted to chewing on the ends of her hair, something she hadn't done in a few years but she was more nervous than she had been since starting her first day of residency.
"Calliope Iphegenia, stop chewing your hair." The stern voice of Lucia could be heard. She only used Callie's full name when scolding her.
"Hi guys." Callie smiled widely and immediately dropped her hair. She had skyped with her family members individually but never together. The time difference and their schedules just hadn't allowed for it. "Thank you all for being here, I know how hard it is to coordinate all of us skyping together at one time."
"What makes you so nervous that you're chewing your hair? Clearly there's something you need to say if you need us all together." Carlos replied, feeling slightly uncomfortable. He had an inkling he knew what this was about and he was still unsure how he felt about it. And he especially wasn't sure how well his wife would handle this. He just hoped this wasn't it.
"First, I want to say that I love you all so very much. You have been so supportive and loved me my whole life. I've always done exactly as you have asked of me and followed the right path. I got good grades, went to college, then medical school, I've never strayed. I'm a doctor and I'm working in a third world country and I'm making a difference in the world, like a real difference. And I have your love and support to thank for that. I am so very happy."
"I can see that mija. I'm so glad you're happy." Carlos said with a genuine smile. She was his pride and joy.
"I feel like I can tell you anything and you will still love me and support me. Even if it's something you don't understand or is hard for you to accept."
"Callie, my goodness, of course we will always love you. You are one of the two greatest things I've ever done in my life." Lucia said with a smile.
"I really hope you mean that, mom and what I'm about to tell you doesn't change how you feel about me or my relationship with you because I am unbelievably happy." Callie said with a bright smile as an image of Arizona popped in her head.
"Just tell them, Cal." Aria urged.
"You've met someone, haven't you?" Carlos asked knowingly, though at the look of absolute, complete happiness on his daughter's face, he found his annoyance dissipating.
"You have?" Lucia gasped with a giant smile.
"Yes mami. Yes papi, I have. And this person is kind and loyal. You will love them because they're smart and funny. Both handsome and beautiful and very supportive. Please be ok with this." Callie said as she looked down at her wrist and saw the bracelet Arizona had given her. She couldn't help but smile as her heart was filled with absolute love and pure joy.
"Anyone who makes you smile like that must be absolutely wonderful. What's his name?" Lucia asked, loving the look on her daughter's face.
"Arizona Robbins. Doctor Arizona Robbins, she's a pediatric surgeon. She won the Carter Madison in her fourth year of residency which is completely unheard of and started a clinic for children and women in Malawi. She's here in Afghanistan doing this mission trip with me though since it is through the Carter Madison Foundation."
"Arizona?" Lucia asked, looking slightly confused.
"Her?" Carlos said, looking at his wife. There was nothing but silence as the two older Torres' looked at each other. Carlos had suspected but having it confirmed was still a blow.
"Well, I am so happy for you, Callie. I can't wait to meet her." Aria said, breaking the awkward silence.
"Yes, where is she? I'd like to meet this woman. This Arizona." Carlos said, coming back to reality. He recognized the name but couldn't place it. He knew Callie had talked about an Arizona when they were in Spain and he had had the same sense of knowing that name but not being able to place it. Clearly it had to be the same Arizona as it wasn't exactly a common name. And though he was far from thrilled, he was curious.
"She's waiting outside in case I need her. I wanted to tell you alone but as I said, she's very supportive and she wanted to be here in case I need her if this goes badly. Or as I'm hoping, it goes well, and you guys wanted to meet her."
"Let's meet this woman." Lucia said, her face void of any emotion. Callie knew that face, that was her, you're in trouble but I haven't decided a punishment sufficient enough yet, face.
"Are you sure you want to meet her? I mean, I know this is a lot to take in and if you need time to just absorb this then I understand and she will too."
"Yes! I so want to meet her." Aria squealed.
"Mom, Dad?"
"Yes, mija, I'd like to meet her. I know her name from somewhere but I can't place it."
"She's been kind of big in the media with the Malawi thing, Dad, maybe that's where. And I'm sure there aren't a lot of Arizona Robbins in this world so it's probably my Arizona that you've heard of. Mom, are you sure you're ok with meeting her?"
"Yes, Callie, I want to meet this woman."
"Arizona. She has a name. It's Arizona, mom."
"Ok, I want to meet Arizona."
"Please, be nice."
Callie took a deep breath, got up and walked to the door. She opened it and saw Arizona pacing and mumbling to herself. She took a moment to watch her and smiled, "Arizona…" was all she managed to get out before Arizona was at her side half in the room and half out.
"You're not crying, that's a good sign, right? Are you ok? Is there anything I can do for you? I'll talk to them. Or, or we could break up if that's what you need but I really hope that's not because that would kill me but I will do that if that's what you need for this to be ok. I love you, Calliope, so much and I would do anything for you to not hurt. How can I make this ok?" Arizona rambled. She took in a deep breath to resume her ramble when Callie placed a finger over her lips.
"Stop. Everything is ok. They're still processing but they want to meet you. And I love you too by the way. But no, no matter what happens, whether they accept this or not, we are not breaking up, Arizona so get that out of your head right now."
"They want to meet me? Oh God, do I look ok? Oh my God they can hear us can't they?" Arizona said, lowering her voice. Callie smiled and nodded her head. Arizona turned pink and whispered. "Ok, I've got this, I'm good. Let's do this."
Callie intertwined their fingers and brought Arizona's hand to her lips, placing a gentle kiss to the back of her hand before she led the blonde into the room. She pulled a chair over for Arizona and waited for her to sit before she took a seat in her own chair. "Mom, Dad, Aria, this is Arizona. Arizona, this is my family."
"It's so nice to meet all of you."
"I enjoyed your little speech." Carlos said with a mischievous grin causing Arizona's already pink cheeks to turn an impressive deep red.
"Daddy, don't tease her. She rambles when she's nervous." Callie defended, sending a loving smile at the adorable, now red woman.
"Arizona dear, you are strikingly beautiful."
"Thank you Mrs. Torres. You are very beautiful yourself, I can see where Calliope gets her looks. Aria too. I would know you were Callie's sister anywhere." Arizona replied, her face on fire from all the blushing.
"Callie tells us that you're a pediatric surgeon." Carlos stated.
"I am. I'll be the head of the department at Seattle Grace when I return from Malawi."
"Ahhh, now I know where I know your name. You took an emergency consultation last winter for my friend's grandchild. And then when I tried to pay for your accommodations, you argued with me and insisted on paying yourself because you were only doing your job. I negotiated with you and we agreed on each paying half. You drive a hard bargain my dear. It's too bad you're such a brilliant surgeon, Aria and I could use your skills in the business."
"You argued with my father?" Callie asked, feeling both impressed and nervous.
"I didn't know it was your father." Arizona said to Callie then turned to the camera again and said, "I didn't realize that was you, I never got a name. Thank you so much for that by the way. I think I fell asleep in that bathtub every night. It was heaven after being in Afghanistan and Malawi."
"How long have you been gone?" Lucia asked.
"It was two years in August. I signed a contract for three with the possibility of getting out three to six months early depending on training and availability of my next replacement."
"Is that something you're hoping to do?"
"I'm not sure how to answer that, Mrs. Torres. It's definitely something I've begun to consider. I'm quite fond of your daughter so I would like to go back to Seattle as soon as possible. I am also very anxious to begin my new chapter as an attending in a real hospital and be the head of my own department. Having a bath tub again is also very appealing. But I made a commitment. I take that commitment very seriously so it's complicated. Calliope and I will talk about it and decide what is best for each of us separately and together before I make a decision but please know that if it wasn't for the commitment I made prior to knowing your daughter, there would be no decision to make."
"By the way Callie talked, I could tell this was someone special but I didn't expect to see two people in love, though clearly you are. This is serious." Lucia said. It wasn't a question.
"Yes ma'am." Arizona replied, there was no denying it.
"And what does your father think of this, Arizona?" Carlos asked.
"Of what sir?"
"Of this?" He waved his hand between Arizona and Callie, "You, in love, with a woman."
"He's a military man so I expected to get kicked out of his house when I told him I was gay at the age of sixteeen but he didn't. He just asked me if I'm still the person he raised me to be. I said I was and he said "ok then". He then asked me about marriage and kids and all that but I was sixteen so I was not too keen about talking to my dad about those things. So then he tried to bring up the birds and the bees, or the birds and the birds as he said, thinking he was being clever and yikes, I was begging to talk about marriage and kids again." Arizona rambled and then blushed profusely as she heard Aria and Carlos laugh. Callie just looked at her with a loving smile and wide eyes. God that woman could ramble and overshare.
"Sixteen is young to know you're gay. What did your mother say?"
"Actually, I was twelve when I realized I was different from other girls. With all due respect, no one says that to a girl when she likes a boy, that it's awfully young to know you're straight. I fail to see the difference. I told my mom when I was fourteen. I came home from school crying again and I just couldn't keep it in anymore. My older brother knew but I was too embarrassed to speak with him. We were in the same grade by then. I skipped two grades and I was at the tail end of my sophomore year of high school at fourteen. She wasn't surprised, she said she had known for a while and was just waiting for me to tell her myself. Then we made cookies and she took me to the roller rink while everyone else was at prom, I wasn't invited."
"Sounds like your parents are wonderful people and very accepting and supportive." Aria said. She was thoroughly enjoying Arizona or more specifically she was enjoying her sister watching Arizona. She was absolutely giddy with the look of love and happiness on her sister's face.
"They are."
"I'd like to meet them or maybe talk to them at least." Lucia said.
"Ok, that can be arranged at some point in the future."
"No, I mean now. Like soon. When we get back from Madrid maybe."
"Why mom?" Callie asked.
"Callie, you're my daughter and I love you very much. And Arizona seems so lovely. You're both so beautiful and smart and if Arizona is all you say and all she seems then you both have very big hearts. You would have no trouble finding husbands and I know that's not what you want to hear. I'm trying, mija, I want to understand. I want to be a good mom and support you but I need time. Maybe talking to them will help me understand, help me accept this because I'm struggling with that right now."
Arizona could feel Callie tense next to her and it seemed all three of the Torres' were waiting for the explosion that would surely pop out of Callie's mouth at any moment to occur as they watched from the other side of the computer screen. Arizona placed a calming hand on Callie's thigh and brought her tan hand up to her mouth, placing a gentle kiss on it before she spoke, choosing her words carefully.
"Mrs. Torres, Callie just turned twenty-nine and for those twenty-nine years you had a dream for your daughter, an idea of who she was and where she was going and that dream is now in jeopardy. I can understand you need time to re-evaluate that image and make adjustments to your way of thinking and everything you thought you knew about your daughter. And you absolutely deserve that time, but please, don't throw away your relationship with your daughter over her being in love and happy. I know it isn't how you pictured it but Callie deserves to be happy. She can still have a full-filling life. Callie has my parent's information and she is very welcome to share it with you. I have had a very long day with the kiddos as it was their halloween celebration so if you wouldn't mind excusing me, I should really call it a night. I have an early surgery and I would still like to read up on it so I can be prepared. I enjoyed speaking with you all."
"You're ready for that surgery honey, you've done your research." Callie assured her, knowing how nervous she was.
"I know, I just want to run through it one more time."
"Arizona, can I get your number from Callie? I'd like to talk to you more." Aria asked.
"Of course. I'd love to get to know you, all of you, better when you're ready. Calliope is very important to me and you're all so important to her." Arizona replied with a smile at the camera.
"Just a minute guys." Callie said, turning to the camera then turning back around to face Arizona.
"Are you going to be ok if I go?" Arizona asked, not caring that the other three Torres' were watching them.
"Yes, I won't be long. I'll just give them the information and finish up. Will you wait up for me?"
"Of course darling." Arizona said and kissed Callie tenderly on the forehead before she waved goodbye to Callie's family.
Callie finished up with her family. She gave them Barbara's email and cell phone number as well as their home number and address. She didn't have the Colonel's cell number. She also gave them Arizona's number, all of them eagerly putting it in their phones, even Lucia. As they were all saying their goodbyes, Lucia stopped Callie, "Can I speak with you alone for a moment?"
"Sure." She said. Her father and sister waved and left the room. When the click of the library door was heard, Lucia continued.
"Callie, I meant what I said, Arizona is lovely. I was shocked by how lovely she is. I was also shocked that you two are already so in love, I thought this was new."
"It's newish. We met last December briefly in Seattle, and then met again in July when we started here. It was clear from the beginning that there was an attraction. She's like a magnet, I just couldn't stay away from her. We began dating fairly quickly, then we became girlfriends. We went to Spain together and I think that was when I realized I was in love with her, though if I'm honest with you mom, I think I've loved her since the first time I laid eyes on her."
"Just give me some time, Callie. I'm torn. I find myself already liking her and it is so good to see you happy. You make a striking couple. But this goes against God and everything I believe in. I'm torn, mija. But I'm going to try, for you. I love you."
"I love you too mom. Thank you for trying. I know this isn't easy for you. I don't believe this is against God though, mami. How can loving someone and protecting them and cherishing them be wrong? And Arizona loves me, protects me, and cherishes me too. It's ok that you're feeling torn, mom and I want you to take the time you need. Because this is who I am and know that if you can't accept this, I won't choose between my family and her. But I will choose myself. So please, accept me because I'm not sure what will happen if you can't."
"I'm trying, mija." Lucia let out a sob.
"Don't cry mami."
"I love you. I should go. Tell Arizona it was very nice to meet her for me please."
"I will." Callie said before her mom disconnected. It had gone better than she had thought it would. Not better than she'd hoped, definitely could have gone worse, but her dad seemed almost smitten with Arizona. She couldn't wait to go hug the blonde and give her a real kiss. No matter what happened now, a weight had been lifted and she felt lighter.
In the weeks that followed, the hospital became busier and busier with emergency surgeries. It seemed the rebels had moved into the area and there were more and more injuries and deaths coming through the door. There were car bombings and villages destroyed, children forced to join the rebels and then ending up wounded or dead on their operating tables. It was taking a toll on all of the doctors, especially Arizona and Alex along with Lexie who had been showing real promise in peds. Security had already been tightened after the incident in the village but in addition to the already tightened security with two extra vehicles full of armed army personnel accompanying them to the hospital and back, they also stayed at the hospital the entire day now and manned the exits and entrances to the building.
It was the Friday before Thanksgiving and Callie had just finished a tough surgery on a thirteen year old kid that had been sent into a field to check for landmines ahead of the rebels and then left to die when he found one. Callie, Eliza, and Nathan worked on the damage to his legs while Bailey and Megan Hunt had worked furiously to save his life. It was a stressful surgery but in the end, they had saved him but he had lost both of his legs. Callie felt the weight of that heavily. She knew in her head that they had done everything they could and even if they had the resources they did in the US, the tissue was just too far damaged and there was nothing they could do but amputate. She took mild comfort in the fact that he would be able to get prosthetics with the stumps she had left him, his right one at mid thigh and his left one just below the knee.
"Good work guys, I know you're disappointed that we couldn't save his legs, I am too but you guys both really did amazing." Nathan said, patting both Callie and Eliza on the shoulders as he left.
"Thank you for your help in there." Callie said to Eliza, trying to remain professional as she was honestly thankful for the help but also not ready to be friends.
"He's going to live. It will be hard for him to adjust but he's young, I think he will get there with time. Thanks to us, he has his whole life ahead of him. I feel pretty good about that. And I really mean this when I say, you are a total rockstar with bones so you're very welcome." Eliza said. They were interrupted as Arizona came rushing up. Callie could tell by the flush of her face that she was upset.
"Hey, did you finish the surgery on the boy already? I'm so sorry, I tried to get here but I couldn't leave Mark with the baby."
"Yes we finished." Callie replied, not knowing how to tell her girlfriend that they had to amputate not just one but both of his legs.
"He's alive, Ari. Your girlfriend is a total rockstar." Eliza said with a genuine smile before walking away.
"It's Dr. Robbins to you, Minnick!" Arizona yelled after her.
"Hey, hey, tell me what's wrong." Callie said, grabbing Arizona's shoulders so she would look at her.
"It's just been a long day. That was a rough surgery. I don't even know how she survived that but she's far from out of the woods. Tell me about this boy real quick, I want to round on him together before you leave."
"We had to amputate both legs but he's alive and in time he will be able to get prosthetics."
"Both legs? Where is he going to get prosthetics in Afghanistan, Callie?"
"Hey, I know you've had a rough day, mine hasn't been a picnic either but Arizona, he's going to wake up and have a chance at life."
"I know, I'm sorry. It's just he's so young and there isn't support here. It's just going to be that much harder for him."
"Tell me about the baby you just operated on."
"A car bombing next to her house sent the roof caving in over her crib. Her head was crushed by a large piece of it. Mark was amazing, so was Derek, she's stable for now but she's going to need a craniofacial specialist and soon. She will never be able to eat or breathe normally again if we can't get one to her. Right now she's trached and being fed through a peg tube that Webber placed for me. Her dad was killed. Her mom and brother were injured but are recovering, no surgery required. I'm going to stay with her for the weekend and monitor her. She can't be left all weekend without a surgeon here."
"No you're not, Arizona."
"Callie, I know it isn't ideal, but I have to stay here with her."
"No, Arizona, you don't. And even if you did, you can't, it isn't safe. I'm sure Teddy, Tim, and Webber will all agree with me."
"So you're going to not only tell me what I can and can't do but you're also going to tattle on me?" Arizona asked, her blue eyes blazing with fury. Callie knew she was emotional, there were dozens of tiny caskets this week and no one knew that or felt that weight more than Arizona.
"If it means keeping you safe while you're emotional and not thinking clearly then, yes, that's what I'll do. I'm hoping it won't come to that though."
"Do what you have to do, Calliope, I am staying with her. I can't just leave her and let her die. I really hoped you would understand that." Arizona said before walking away. Callie could tell she was barely keeping her tears at bay. She wanted to follow her but she decided to give her space. She knew no matter what happened, they would never allow Arizona to stay now. It would put too many people in jeopardy. Sure enough, when the trucks pulled up that night, Callie saw a pissed off and defeated looking Arizona climb into the back of the truck with her group before Callie sighed and climbed into her own.
The ride back to base that night was unusually quiet and grim. Everyone had experienced patients with gruesome injuries that day. They had expanded the burn unit, utilizing as much space as they could. The morgue was flooded with bodies, usually patients that were dead before they even had a chance to try to help them, causing a revolving door for body pickups everyday. The atmosphere in general was tense and heavy and Callie couldn't remember a time that felt less like Thanksgiving than now.
Callie exited from the first vehicle behind the armored army vehicle that always led them now and looked down the line for the one she knew Arizona was in. The fight they had over Arizona staying at the hospital had weighed on Callie's mind and she knew Arizona had been annoyed with her. She hoped she would forgive her though as it had been a hard day and she felt like they needed each other. She smiled in relief as Arizona walked toward her and smiled a small smile in return. As Arizona reached her, she threw her arms around the latina and they stood there holding each other tightly for a moment.
"I'm sorry Callie. I'm not mad at you, I'm just so worried about that baby. I don't think she's going to make it. I really can't believe she survived the surgery after that injury."
"Shh, I know. It's one of the things I love about you, Arizona and if this was Seattle or even if this was the same Afghanistan as it was when we first arrived, I wouldn't have fought against you staying but it just isn't safe for you. And I know you think the risk is worth it but no life is more valuable than another's, Arizona. And you potentially sacrificing yourself puts all sorts of children's lives at risk in the future because you wouldn't be there to operate on them. Besides that, to me, your life is more valuable. I don't want to lose you. It's been a hard day for me too." Callie said, fighting back tears.
"I know. Shhh, it's ok, don't cry. Let's go shower and grab some food to go from the mess hall and go spend the night in our shed."
"Isn't that against the rules? What if we get caught out past curfew?"
"Oh, screw the rules."
"Who are you and what have you done with my girlfriend?"
"Oh shut it. If we've learned anything these past few weeks, it's that the rules don't apply, they don't matter. Life is short Calliope and it's happening right now, all around us. I just want to spend as much time in your arms as I can."
"I love you, do you know that?"
"You might have told me once or twice but I wouldn't mind hearing it again." Arizona said with a smile.
"I love you." Callie said as she pecked a button nose.
"I love you too." Arizona smiled as she threaded her fingers through Callie's and the pair headed to the barracks for showers.
The line for the showers was long as everyone had had a gruesome day. Dinner hours had been loosened so they could basically come and go at their convenience for the night. Knowing this, Arizona and Callie waited until the showers were completely empty before they claimed the far stall with the most privacy so they could shower together. They had taken to doing that as often as they could but it was still a rare occurrence. Showering together was intimate in a different way, they took turns washing each other's hair, lathering each other with body wash and feeling the contours of muscles beneath gentle fingers as they washed away the stress of the day. It was something they had both come to look forward to, especially after a particularly rough day.
"I really love it when you do that, it makes me feel so cared for." Arizona whispered as Callie finished thoroughly washing her body, placing gentle kisses throughout her path.
"That's the point. I enjoy doing it. And I love how it feels when you wash my hair. You always massage and scratch my scalp and it just makes me so relaxed." Callie replied with a smile as she turned off their water.
The pair dressed in warm clothes and headed to the mess hall for dinner. They ate quickly then returned to the barracks for some much needed supplies before they made their way to the shed. They had told Cristina and Amelia where they would be, as they would likely notice their beds empty that night and Arizona had given Teddy an unofficial heads up that they would be out after curfew. Teddy had given her a light scolding and advised against it as her army leader but as her best friend she had squealed and told her sweet dreams.
The floor of the shed wasn't terribly comfortable, even with the pillows and blankets that they had kept stored in a sealed tote there and with the added sleeping bag the two were now sharing; but neither of them seemed to mind. Being able to be together, kissing as they pleased and sharing gentle touches and caresses without having to be discreet or worry was the best feeling and they both had needed it after the two weeks they had just endured.
"Have you heard from your mom yet?" Arizona asked as she ran her fingers up and down Callie's spine, causing the other woman to shiver.
"No, not yet. Do you think she has spoken to your parents yet?"
"My mom hasn't said anything and I'm pretty sure that's something my mom would tell me. Does she strike you as the type to keep anything a secret, especially something like that?"
"Good point." Callie giggled.
"Are you ok?" Arizona asked, halting her ministrations so she could peak over Callie's shoulder and see her face. She kissed Callie's shoulder and waited patiently for her to answer, observing her face for any indication that she wasn't.
"I think so. You know I have no patience with waiting and I have wanted to call and yell at her multiple times over the past few weeks but you help keep me calm so I'm trying to just give her the time and space she needs, let her come to me."
"I think that's for the best. I know it seems like you're her daughter and that should be enough and I agree wholeheartedly but it was a shock and she thinks differently than us. But you are an amazing person, Calliope. You are just so generous and you have the biggest heart and I have to believe that it is, in part, because of how you were raised and the traits you inherited. And that gives me faith. Because a woman that raised such an extraordinary human being, has to be pretty extraordinary herself. And there's no way she could turn her back on her daughter." Arizona said as she ran her fingers through Callie's long locks soothingly.
"You're amazing, do you know that? How do you always know the perfect thing to say?" Callie asked.
"I am pretty awesome." Arizona said with a big dimpled smile. Callie rolled over and tackled Arizona, pinning her beneath her as her fingers found ticklish sides. "Callie!"
"I love you." Callie said, stopping her attack of Arizona's sides and kissing her lips gently.
"I love you too." Arizona smiled as she tucked some unruly hair behind Callie's ears. "Have you thought about what you want to do for our Christmas break? I mean I know you bought a ticket to Boston with us but do you want to go to Miami too?"
"I do, I really do. But my parents haven't even asked me if I am coming home. I'm not sure if it's because they don't want to see me or have just assumed that I am coming there."
"I am sure they want to see you, Callie. Why don't you check in with them tomorrow? I think you should at least spend a weekend in Miami if not a whole week. I know you miss them. You need to buy a plane ticket soon if you're going."
"I can just use the family jet. What about you?"
"Well, I think regardless of what I do, you should still go see your family but I thought maybe Teddy, Nick, Tim and I could come to Miami for two or three days before we all fly back to Afghanistan together. I think they could use some fun in the sun for a few days. And then if your family wants me to come over, I will already be there and if not, I will still have those crazies to keep me busy so you can enjoy your family without worrying about me."
"You've thought of everything, haven't you?"
"Mmmm, wouldn't you like to know." Arizona replied coyly. "Now tell me about this family jet you speak of."
"I think I want to talk less about your family or my family or family jets and focus more on your body right now." Callie said as her hands roamed the small but curvy frame of the woman beneath her.
"I like the way you think." Arizona said, trying to keep her squirming and moaning to a minimum. They had sex twice in the time they had returned from Spain, both times had been on the same day incidentally. To say that she was craving the Latina's touch was putting it mildly. There were days at the hospital when she would catch sight of the dark hair and big eyes, a beautiful smile on her lips and she had to walk away before her self control failed and she pulled her into a supply closet to ravish her.
They were confined in their small sleeping bag so Callie unzipped it and used it as a comforter, frustrated that she couldn't do what she wanted because of the restriction. Arizona took advantage of Callie's distraction and her hands roamed freely and boldly up a muscled body and soft skin. Her hands rested on the two full breasts above her beneath Callie's t-shirt and they both moaned at the contact. Callie ground her hips down into Arizona's thigh that had nestled between her legs and bit her lip at the feeling. Arizona tried to take control and roll them but Callie stopped her as she came back to conscious thought.
"No, I'm going to be in control tonight. I still haven't forgotten how you thought you could just fuck me and walk away." Callie said as she made quick work of removing Arizona's fuzzy pajama pants and the cotton boy panties she had been wearing. She then removed her own pants, keeping her panties on, before she roughly pulled Arizona's hips toward where she sat. Arizona's heart rate increased and she felt her stomach erupt with butterflies at Callie's words as she manipulated the blonde's body. Callie put her feet flat on the floor to have better control as Arizona's legs were pulled onto each side of her waist.
Arizona let Callie take control, though with their current position, she was too far away for Arizona to be able to kiss or touch which she desperately wanted. She pouted slightly as she made eye contact with Callie, "I can't kiss you or touch you, babe."
"Mmmm, that's because I'm in charge and if you do those things, I will forget I want to be in charge tonight. You can kiss me later baby." Callie said, bending down and kissing Arizona's inner thigh. She brought her hands down to caress the taunt skin of Arizona's abdomen under her oversized hoodie, running her fingers up until they met the tender flesh of her perky breasts. Arizona arched her back under her touch and placed her hands over Callie's. Callie removed her hands from Arizona's grip and traced her fingers back down the same path that they had just traveled.
"Take that off." Callie said, nodding at the hoodie. Arizona complied and tossed the offending garment off to the side somewhere to be searched for at a later time.
Callie continued her ministrations, bringing a single finger down to Arizona's slit and ran it up and down her outer lips, enjoying watching Arizona squirm. She placed a hand under Arizona's lower back to anchor her in place as her other hand explored more boldly, dipping in between folds and gathering moisture. She brushed lightly over a swollen clit before tracing a path back down and circling Arizona's entrance. Arizona bucked her hips lightly but Callie removed her fingers all together and brought them to her mouth, sucking each finger slowly. Arizona was about to come undone, it had been weeks since feeling Callie's touch and well over a month since they had truly been able to take their time and worship each other's bodies. She was in no mood to be teased tonight.
"Calliope." Arizona whimpered.
"Yes baby?" Callie asked innocently as her hands rubbed up and down the soft skin of her thighs, abdomen, and shapely ass.
"Stop teasing me."
"I wasn't aware I was."
"Liar. Do you want me to beg?"
"Kinda." Callie replied with a coy smile and a shrug of her shoulders as she bent over and blew warm air across Arizona's aching bundle of nerves.
"Calliope, please for the love of everything holy just fuck me already." Arizona pleaded, her hands in her own hair. A smile crossed Callie's lips as she mumbled, "as you wish dear."
She entered Arizona with two fingers and waited as Arizona gasped and arched her back, giving Callie better access to push her fingers in deeper. She pulled Arizona's ass up onto her legs and she was in full control as she pumped her fingers in and out at a slow but steady rhythm. "Oh my God, Callie." Arizona whimpered.
Callie leaned down and bit hard on the tender flesh of an inner thigh, leaving a healthy bruise but not breaking the skin. Arizona vaguely felt the pain but her mind was focused on the fingers stroking her inner walls both gently and firmly. It was an exotic combination that she had only ever felt with Callie. Arizona whimpered as she felt Callie adding a third finger and she held onto the blankets on each side of her tightly in her clenched fists. Her breath hitched and the feeling was almost too much as Callie used her left hand to gently caress her lower abdomen as her fingers curled inside of her. "Callie." Arizona whimpered again as the sensations taking over her body began to become too much. She was torn between asking Callie to stop and desperately wanting to feel this, no doubt, explosive orgasm she was barreling towards. As the fingers of Callie's right hand continued their delicious torture on Arizona's inner walls, she brought the thumb of her left hand down and gathered moisture before rubbing slow, steady circles over her clit, keeping her other four fingers resting gently on Arizona's lower abdomen. "Callie, I don't think I can." Arizona said, the pleasure that was building just seemed like too much.
"Baby, you can, I've got you." Callie whispered, knowing Arizona was about to have a powerful orgasm. She kissed her inner thigh once more gently and then set to work to send Arizona over the edge.
Arizona felt her inner walls contracting around Callie's fingers as the pleasure she was feeling became almost painful. She felt Callie's skilled fingers thrust in and curl, hitting her g spot as the fingers resting on her abdomen pushed down and the latina's thumb gently circled her clit. Arizona's legs were shaking beyond her control and she could barely breathe, she knew she was seconds away from coming undone as the feeling of pleasure in her lower abdomen continued to increase. Callie repeated the previous action and felt Arizona's entire body stiffen, her back arched and her mouth open in a silent scream as Callie thrust in one last time, curling her fingers and continually rubbing a thumb over her clit. Arizona pulled a pillow over her mouth as her body convulsed and she rode Callie's fingers desperately as her orgasm was extended. Callie continued gently stroking Arizona's inner walls as her body held her fingers prisoner, her walls tight and spasming until she felt Arizona go limp. She pulled her fingers out gently and kissed her way up Arizona's body, removing the pillow from her face.
"Are you ok?" Callie asked with a smirk. Arizona was a sweaty mess, hair plastered to the skin of her face, neck, and shoulders. Her chest and neck were an impressive shade of pink from the deep flush.
"Jesus Christ Callie, I seriously thought I was going to die via orgasm for a minute." Arizona said as she gasped for air.
"I thought you were going to make me stop."
"I thought about it but it also felt so good. I just knew it was going to be powerful. How do you know what to do?" Arizona asked.
"I had weeks of crushing on you and dating you before I could touch you. I spent a lot of time doing my own research." Callie said with a giant smile. "Plus, I've had to fly solo in a cold shower a lot since returning from Spain and a girl has time to think when she's lonely having to pleasure herself in the shower."
"Hey now." Arizona replied, her brow furrowing again. She rolled over and kissed Callie passionately, her hand roaming over her full breasts before sliding over the fabric of wet panties as she rolled them completely and laid on top of her. "I hate that you have to fly solo so often baby but if that orgasm I just had is the end result then I really can't complain."
She really just wanted to feel Callie beneath her, she thought as she pulled down the sexy thong that Callie was prone to wearing, removed Callie's t-shirt, and laid her lower body between bronze legs. She kissed the Latina passionately before she placed her left hand under Callie's back and held her tightly while she brought her right hand down to her center, running her fingers back and forth from her clit to her entrance, slowly and so softly, she was barely touching flesh. She sucked a hardened nipple into her mouth and teased it between her teeth before she laid her head on Callie's chest over her heart and brought her fingers up to rub her clit. Callie was beyond turned on and she knew it wouldn't take her long. Her solo flights in the shower had barely managed her libido these past few weeks, it really had just barely taken the edge off. What she really had wanted and needed was the blonde's body and her touch.
Arizona slid her hand down and entered Callie with a pace that was steady but not rushed. She enjoyed hearing Callie's breath hitch and her heart rate increase. She lifted herself up to look down at her gorgeous girlfriend and used her hips to add some power behind her thrusts causing Callie to moan loudly. "Shhh, baby, I will have to stop if you're too loud."
Arizona used her hips once again to thrust and brought her mouth to Callie's, swallowing the next moan. She knew what it did to her when she used pet names, something Arizona had never been fond of but came naturally to her with Callie. She kept her mouth occupied in a heated kiss as she continued her thrusts, suddenly wishing that they did have a strap-on, the thought catching her off guard, caused her to halt her movements for a moment. Callie opened her eyes and protested, "Arizona, why did you stop?"
"I'm sorry, baby." Arizona said, resuming her ministrations, but Callie placed a strong hand around her wrist and made eye contact.
"Tell me." Callie whispered. Arizona blushed and knew there was no getting out of this, "I was just thinking about how I wish I had a strap-on on right now. I've never thought that before and it just surprised me."
"Come here." Callie said, pulling Arizona into a heated kiss and releasing her wrist so her fingers could resume. The thought of the blonde with a strap-on on sent a wave of wetness to her core. True, she had dreamt about a strap-on but she had been wearing it and using it on the blonde but now that the other image was in her head, she couldn't help but visualize it and she felt her walls begin to quake.
"Arizona." she whimpered.
"Come for me, Callie." Arizona whispered as she bit her neck. She used her hips once again to help her thrust in and pulled Callie's legs up so they were encircling her waist, allowing her to thrust in deeper. She curled her fingers and allowed her thumb to brush over Callie's clit. She added a third finger on the next thrust and Callie felt her walls tighten and she fell over the edge with a gasp and bit down on Arizona's shoulder to silence her scream.
Arizona kissed Callie's sweaty neck, licking and tasting as she came down from her high. As her body relaxed, Arizona was able to remove her fingers and Callie sighed at the loss of contact. Arizona smiled at her as she licked her fingers clean and Callie thought there was never a more exotic or arousing sight than a "just got fucked", messy hair, skin flushed, Arizona. She leaned up into a semi sitting position so Arizona was now straddling her lap and kissed her chest.
She opened her mouth to ask Arizona to move in with her and stopped herself. She wasn't even sure when Arizona would be back in the states. Were they moving too fast? Callie didn't care, she knew this was nothing she'd ever experienced before and she really hoped it was for good. But she didn't want to scare Arizona off so she kept her mouth shut tightly as they separated to redress. They cuddled close together, facing each other, Callie's head tucked in the space between Arizona's chin and chest, their legs tangled together. Callie could hear Arizona's heart beat, slowly but strongly and it was comforting, no wonder Arizona liked this position so much. She wanted to go to sleep every night and wake up everyday to this sound and this feeling. This was what prompted her lips to move as she said, "I want to move in together."
It was barely a whisper, Arizona had to concentrate on not tensing her body or allowing her breathing or heart rate to give her away. Maybe it was the cowards way out but she didn't have an answer. She needed time to think this through. She didn't want to hurt Callie but she wasn't sure she was ready for this. She had never lived with anyone aside from dorm rooms but no one romantically. They had really only known each other four months and been dating for three. She felt like it was way too soon but also not soon enough. Given her torn thoughts, she did the only thing she could do and pretended to be asleep as she felt Callie lift her head and watch her.
Knowing she was being watched, required even more concentration and as Callie stroked a gentle finger down her nose then across her lips, she had an internal battle not to kiss the tan fingertips. Eventually Callie resumed her earlier position and let out a sigh, Arizona felt her relax in her arms and her breathing evened out quickly. When she was sure Callie was asleep, she kissed the top of her head and stared off into the distance while her mind raced with all kinds of thoughts. There would be no sleep for her tonight.