When Magnus awoke the following morning, he let his eyes closed and just relished that he was still lying in Alec's arms. His head was placed onto his boyfriend's chest, and Magnus felt so comfortable as if he belonged in just that spot. Alec was, even in his sleep, holding him firmly. It was perfect.
Magnus couldn't help but smile a little before he bent his head to plant a tender kiss onto Alec's chest.
He didn't know how early it was, but Magnus wasn't able to fall back to sleep. He'd slept enough in the previous day and felt honestly well-rested.
So Magnus, all so carefully, left the warmth of Alec's body, gladly without waking his precious boyfriend. Magnus was sure that Alec needed a little more rest, so he decided to let him sleep for another while until he would wake up on his own.
He also decided to order breakfast for both of them. Magnus wasn't in the mood to make some by himself, but he was starving, and besides, he wanted something special. Something, Magnus knew Alec would love.
After that was done, he went to the bathroom to make himself presentable. He'd only put on some briefs and his favorite silk robe before starting to style his hair.
Starting hesitantly, Magnus feared to hear his ex's voice, like always when he met her. But, to his surprise, there was nothing but the familiar calm that he always felt when taking care of himself.
Looking him straight into the eyes through the mirror, Magnus smiled at his reflection. He couldn't remember feeling so much at ease, all the more after meeting Camille. Alec, like Magnus had told him, had just found the right words yesterday to well, to heal a part of Magnus' soul he'd thought was beyond repair.
Smiling once more, Magnus caught a movement in the mirror. His eyes moving into the direction, he found Alec standing in the doorframe, watching him with a tender smile. His hair was messy as always in the morning, a dark stubble making his out-of-bed-look perfect. Alec was just wearing some boxers and a shirt, he'd obviously left on the ground before. What. A. Sight. He looked goddamn gorgeous.
"Morning, darling," Magnus greeted him and turned around to face his boyfriend properly.
"Morning," Alec answered, smiling at him before he stepped closer. "Are you okay?" He then asked as Magnus met him halfway. Magnus nodded before planting a tender kiss on Alec's lips.
"More than okay, Alexander," he answered honestly, smiling as Alec stole another kiss from his lips.
"I'm glad then," Alec answered, the relief evident in his voice that was still thick with sleep. Trying to hide a yawn, Alec smiled once more at Magnus.
"You're still tired, go catch up on some more sleep," Magnus suggested tenderly. "I promise I'll be fine," he added, knowing that Alec needed the reassurement. And Magnus felt sure about that. He felt so much better, calm, and loved.
There were no more fears left.
"But I missed you," Alec simply answered, bringing his arms around Magnus, pulling him against his chest. Magnus gladly went with the hug, bringing his own arms around Alec's waist.
"I'm right here," Magnus answered, tilting his head to look at his wonderful boyfriend. He didn't intend to go anywhere.
"And I'm right with you," Alec told him, pecking his lips tenderly before squeezing him again.
"I know, darling. You showed it to me, and I do not doubt anything when it comes to you."
"Good. Coffee?" Alec asked then, a smile appearing on his lips as he changed the topic. "I really could need some, now that I'm awake anyway," he added, earning a nod from Magnus.
"Sounds pretty good. I'll just finish my makeup," Magnus answered with a smile. Alec nodded in agreement.
"Take your time, I'll get everything ready for us. Latte macchiato?"
"Please," Magnus answered, stealing another kiss from Alec before he let go of him. "I join you in the kitchen in a few. Oh...I ordered breakfast, it'll be there in a few."
After Alec left him, Magnus took care of his makeup but decided to not put on more clothes for now. He felt comfortable in his robe, so why not wearing it a while longer?
He sauntered out of the bath into the kitchen, where he found his Alexander preparing breakfast for them. Magnus hadn't heard it coming.
"Smells delicious," he delightfully said as he came to a halt behind Alec, wrapping his arms around his boyfriend's torso.
Alec leaned himself against Magnus, putting his hands over his own.
"I totally agree. I can't wait to dig in," Alec answered, making Magnus chuckle.
"Then let's not let you wait for too long. Can't have one of my favorite humans starve," he answered amusedly, earning a gentle squeeze from Alec's hand before he let go of it. Magnus placed a kiss onto Alec's back before he put his arms away.
They set the table on the balcony together. The weather was just too great to sit inside. Soon after, both dug in, enjoying their breakfast in comfortable silence, smiling at each other from time to time. It was Alec who finally broke the silence.
"I'm glad to see you smile again," he said, apparently happy as he looked at Magnus with so much fondness in his expression.
"I'm glad as well, Alexander. Thank you once more for coping with me while I felt so down."
Magnus knew he'd told Alec so often how grateful he was, but he couldn't help his feelings. Alec was so precious, and Magnus wanted him to know much he appreciated his boyfriends' help.
"I'd do it anytime, Magnus."
"I know, darling. That applies to you, too. In the good and in the bad times."
Magnus knew when he found someone special. And he wouldn't let Alec go. If it was up to him, they would grow old together. And now, after everything that had happened, Magnus somehow knew that Alec didn't intend on leaving as well.
"Yes," Alec tenderly agreed, reaching out for Magnus' hand. They entwined their fingers, and Magnus, overly happy, leaned his head on Alec's shoulder.
It was a few days later that Alec and Magnus laid in bed after an exhausting day. Alec finally had gotten a job in a small but unique bookstore owned by an old couple.
Their children weren't interested in absorbing the store, so they were searching for someone to help them. Alec, from the moment he'd stepped into the store, had loved it there. He came around pretty well with the old couple, and they'd given him the job very soon.
He'd started working there two days ago and was thrilled to finally being able to do something. To earn his own money.
Magnus, once more, got to know a new side of his boyfriend. It was great to see him, so at ease. He couldn't be more proud of what Alec had become.
Magnus himself had started to plan on opening another nightclub. He didn't need the money, but well, he had fun organizing this kind of business. It was exhausting, yes.
But from time to time, Magnus needed a new challenge.
But for now, all Magnus and Alec did, were enjoying each other. Something they did a lot lately. They had less time with each other, with both of them working, but they decided to make the best out of it.
Passionately kissing each other, Magnus let his hand glide over Alec's naked and perfect-haired chest, his thumb brushing a nipple by accident. Finding Alec moan silently into their kiss, Magnus was surprised but decided to try a little more. Putting Alec's nipple between his index finger and his thumb, Magnus pinched them lightly, earning another moan, making his already hard cock twitch in excitement. They hadn't done more than kissing and touching each other casually, though they'd started to do it naked recently. But this time, it felt different in so many ways.
"Is that okay, Alexander?" Magnus asked, needing the assurance from his boyfriend that he wasn't crossing a line, Alec wasn't ready for.
"Feels...good," Alec mumbled sheepishly, ducking his head a little. He already was out of breath, also appeared to be a bit overwhelmed at this new feeling. Magnus wasn't surprised by that.
Alec had never witnessed any of that before. Everything was new to him.
"Just tell me if you're uncomfortable, darling," Magnus whispered, pinching Alec's nipple all so lightly once more, earning another moan followed by a short nod.
"Just...just don't stop," Alec answered shakily.
His own arms started to move up and down Magnus' naked back before Alec's mouth found Magnus' once more. They kissed each other passionately for quite a while before Magnus let his hands wander once more.
The need for air made them pull apart, but Magnus didn't waste time. His mouth found the crook of Alec's neck, licking the soft flesh there. Alec gasped at this sensation and tilted his head, giving Magnus more space.
Magnus kissed the place, letting his tongue follow right away, before blowing onto the moistured skin, making the flesh crawl.
"M...Magnus," Alec moaned, his breath already came in short gasps, as he looked at his boyfriend full of lust and also so much vulnerability.
"I...I..." he started, and Magnus gently smiled at him, giving Alec all the time he would need to voice what he wanted. Cupping his boyfriends' cheek for a moment, he cajoled.
"It's okay. Whatever you want. You can tell me. I've got you," Magnus whispered tenderly, before kissing Alec passionately, yet full of love.
"I...please...Magnus...touch me," Alec answered after they broke apart in need of air. "I...I want you...that...please," he added, almost whining as he looked pleadingly at Magnus. It was evident that Alec was overwhelmed, but the trust and want in his boyfriend's eyes made Magnus' decision easy.
"I will, of course, touch you if you want that, Alexander," he answered patiently, looking at Alec, who exhaled a breath he was obviously holding. He was so nervous, and Magnus understood that pretty well. "But we'll take our time. I want you to feel as good as possible," he added, lifting his hand to cup Alec's cheek. "You can tell me to stop whenever you feel too overwhelmed, okay? Just say it, and we can call it a night," Magnus assured his boyfriend. He didn't want to force Alec into anything he wasn't ready for.
"I want that...I just...I don't know what to do, Magnus. How to tell you, to show you," Alec answered frustratedly, bringing his forehead against Magnus' as he spoke.
"You, darling, you don't have to do anything tonight, besides receiving and, hopefully, enjoying. Let me take care of you. Remember that we have all the time in the world. There's no rush. You'll learn faster than you think, trust me," Magnus assured Alec, gently brushing his thumb over Alec's cheekbone. "The time will come when you'll be able to tell me what you want, what you need. And until then, I'm here for you."
"Okay. Thank you," Alec whispered, evidently grateful for Magnus' words. A little smile lifted up Alec's lips for a moment.
"There's no need to, Alexander We're in this together, don't forget that. We're doing this all at your pace," Magnus murmured, before kissing Alec gently, who hummed in agreement while kissing Magnus back just as tenderly. They watched each other for a while. Alec's beautiful eyes were darkened in arousal, his cheeks blushed lightly. Magnus' heart fluttered in joy at this sight in front of him.
"I'm going to let my hands wander now, okay? Just remember to tell me when you don't like something. It's totally fine."
"I will," Alec answered, almost as if out of breath before he brought his lips back onto Magnus' once more, kissing him in a fierce Magnus hadn't known Alec was able to. And Jesus, it felt absolutely awesome.
While the kiss became more and more heated, Magnus let his hands wander over Alec's gorgeous body, let his nails gently scratch over the sensitive spots on Alec's body, he'd gotten to know over the time. Hearing Alec moaning and wincing in pleasure, Magnus felt his own cock getting impossibly hard.
"God, Alexander...the sounds you make," Magnus moaned by himself now, letting his hands wander over Alec's hipbones and tighs, not paying his cock any attention for now. "Beautiful," he praised as Alec whined once more, his hips bucking into Magnus direction before he came to a halt.
"Don't stop, darling, it's okay to move," Magnus whispered, sensing the fear that came off from Alec for doing something wrong. "Nothing's wrong here, I've got you."
"Magnus," Alec winced. "I...I need you to touch me," he almost begged, blushing furiously at his own words. At his needs.
"I will...thank you for telling me," Magnus gently answered, assuring Alec that he did just right with telling Magnus what he needed.
And so, Magnus did just that. He couldn't let Alec wait much longer.
His own heart pounding in his chest, Magnus let his hand gently touch the full length of Alec's already leaking and throbbing shaft. Both moaned at the touch, their lips connected once more in a heated kiss.
Alec's hand wandered to Magnus' shoulders, squeezing him almost painfully. But Magnus couldn't care less as he gently wrapped his hand around Alec's cock.
Giving it a gentle stroke, Alec sucked in a breath as his hip once more moved on his own, making him buck into Magnus' hand.
"That's it, Alexander," Magnus encouragingly said, not able to hide an aroused groan as he saw the expression on Alec's face. His eyes were closed, his mouth slightly open, his cheeks blushed as another moan escaped his boyfriend's lips. Letting his thumb flick over the head of Alec's cock, he tightened the grip soon after, knowing that his boyfriend wouldn't last long.
It was Alec's first time ever, after all.
"Magnus," Alec moaned as a shudder ran through his body.
"All good?" Magnus asked while stroking Alec's length with his hand. Seeing his boyfriend nodding, not able to say anything, Magnus kept up the strokes, slowly tightening his grip and increasing his speed.
"You...," Alec moaned, overwhelmed by the new feeling he was experiencing. But yet, he didn't forget to think about Magnus.
A fact that still gave Magnus chills.
"That's about you, Alexander. Don't worry about me," Magnus answered, tilting his head once more to gently bite his boyfriend's neck.
But, despite moaning, Alec shook his head and opened his eyes. His dark eyes found Magnus'. And Magnus didn't need much more despite the look on Alec's face.
He gave in, well aware that he had told his boyfriend to voice what he wanted, and that Alec was doing that right now.
Magnus let go of Alec's hard length, earning a sound of protest coming from Alec.
"Just a moment," Magnus murmured gently. As he moved closer, he felt Alec's cock sliding up against his own. Both men sighed in pleasure at the moment they came in touch.
At a slow pace, Magnus started to grind against Alec's length, letting his boyfriend get used to the new feeling. It didn't take them long to moan against each other's lips while sharing a hot and eager kiss. Alec soon started to shyly mirror his moves, and God help him if it didn't felt like heaven to Magnus.
Soon, their movements became more frantic, more erratic. Knowing that they wouldn't get off that way, Magnus reached down between their bodies and wrapped his hand around both of them. A grunt escaped Alec's lips, as Magnus coated both their cocks with their pre-cum and started to pump them in earnest.
The feeling of their two cocks against each other, his hand moving around them, pumping them at a fast pace, was so much more intense than everything, Magnus had felt before.
"Magnus," Alec almost whimpered his hand still at his shoulders, holding Magnus in a tight squeeze. "I'm gonna..."
"Let go for me, darling," Magnus only moaned, knowing that he wouldn't last much longer than Alec. "I've got you, come for me," he brought out, finding Alec's lips once more as they shared another kiss full of passion and love.
Feeling a shudder running through Alec's body, a loud moan escaped him as he spilled all over their stomachs in a powerful orgasm. And that was all it took for Magnus to follow him suit.
Magnus gently stroke both of them through their release, his other arm snaking around Alec to hold him close.
It took them quite a while to catch their breaths, both aware of the intensity this act brought with it.
"Magnus," Alec only whispered after another moment passed by, snuggling impossibly closer to him. Magnus let go of their now softening cocks and brought his other arm around Alec as well, hugging him to his steamy chest. He couldn't care less at that very moment. Holding his dearest Alexander as he started to shudder in his arms was all, Magnus could focus on.
"Alexander," he answered silently, knowing that Alec needed a moment to himself before they could actually talk. Holding Alec close, Magnus tenderly let his hands wander up and down Alec's back, showing him his presence in every way possible.
So this was it.
The moment, Alec finally found the courage to go further with Magnus. And what he'd felt was nothing, Alec had ever imagined.
He'd felt loved.
The way, Magnus so selflessly had taken care of him, and his needs brought tears to Alec's eyes.
He hadn't felt disgusted at himself at any moment. More so like a missing piece of a puzzle that had been put together. The pleasure, Magnus had shown him...Alec couldn't even find the right words to describe them.
And the emotional release that came after the very first orgasm of Alexander Lightwood's life was just as intense.
Snuggled against Magnus' chest, Alec couldn't stop the tears from falling. Feeling so much relief spreading from his chest to every inch of his body, Alec hugged Magnus tightly, not caring about the sticky mess between them. He simply needed Magnus close as more and more shudder ran through his body.
Alec knew for a while now that his father had been wrong with everything he'd told him. But getting to know how it felt to be touched by the man he loved, to experience that kind of intimacy, an orgasm even, Alec finally felt normal the way he was.
He wasn't an abnormality.
He was gay. And nothing was wrong with him.
Feeling so much joy and relief, Alec took his time to let everything out he didn't know was needed.
It took him a while to calm down, to stop his tears from falling, hiding his face in the crook of Magnus' neck, wettening the skin. And Magnus held him, gave him all the time he needed.
"I guess that was very much needed," he assumed as soon as he realized that Alec had calmed down enough to talk.
"I'd say you're right," Alec hoarsely answered, chuckling a little before he looked at Magnus, smiling at him all puffy eyes and tears streamed face. "Thank you, Magnus," Alec said then, squeezing Magnus tenderly. They had done so much for each other, had helped one another with their problems and issues. Alec would forever be grateful for meeting Magnus in that dark bar.
"Well, I have to thank you, too, Alexander. We're equal, I'd say," Magnus answered, smiling just as much as Alec did.
"Was it...was it good for you?" Alec asked then, blushing heavily as he waited for Magnus' answer.
"Alexander...I don't even find words to tell you how good it felt for me. But this wasn't about me. How do you feel?" Magnus asked then, his voice gentle and caring. He planted a tender kiss on Alec's lips, giving him time to think about his answer.
"At first...it was overwhelming...I didn't know what to expect, you know? Uhm...but it was so intense, it felt so good. And you held me all the time and took care of me, and I felt so safe and loved. You...you made my first time perfect. Thank you, Magnus," Alec answered, the emotions evident in his voice. "I love you so much," he added, smiling tearfully at his boyfriend, who watched him with so much love and the same watery eyes.
"I'm glad that it felt good for you, Alexander. And I feel honored that you let me take care of you like that," Magnus almost whispered emotionally, and another shudder ran down Alec's spine.
"You don't need to thank me for that. Since we met, I knew that it could just be you. It's just...I trusted you from the beginning. You helped me through all my fears and, well. You are the one for me," Alec answered, squeezing Magnus and kissing him lovingly. Magnus held him just as firm in his arms.
There were no more words needed after that. Holding each other close, they lay in bed for another while before deciding to shower together. Not letting go of each other, they let their hands wander over their naked bodies, washing each other in tender movements. Sharing kiss after kiss, they just enjoyed their newfound closeness, not bothering how much time passed by. They just relished the fact that they had so much luck, having found each other.
Alec still had a way to go, but with Magnus at his side, everything was possible.