Chapter 18

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I'll think you'll need some tissues for this chapter!

Four months had passed since Rin left Sesshomaru's home to live her life within the forest alone. Her heart still felt heavy, broken about the true power of the porcelain fang.

"If he had told me the truth from the beginning, I would have accepted it and we would be married now. I could have been carrying our child within my own body." Rin couldn't get the picture of a newborn baby out of her mind. A baby with silver hair and golden eyes was always what she saw. A mini version of Sesshomaru was what she dreamt of every night before she left the castle. "It was the best decision to leave when I could."

Rin found a hut that was abandoned with minor damage to the roof. She easily managed to fix it with wood planks against the hut. Inside she only needed to sweep, dust and wash down the floors and walls. With all the time she had, she managed to get her new home complete in a few short weeks. She was happy the last owners left a stew pot and bedding for her to use. Even kimonos.

One cold afternoon, Rin arrived at the river to catch herself some fish for a late lunch. But in her case a snack. She had been craving it almost everyday and she would get antsy if she didn't eat her cravings at a certain time. "Kind of strange I'm craving this and I'm not even pregnant. I don't get sick after I eat. Maybe it's because I'm going to have my monthly!" The only fish her body craved was Ayu. The flesh of its body was sweet and satisfying.

In the months since Rin had left she hadn't once thought of Sesshomaru. He was no longer a lord to her. The only ones she thought of was her family from the village. She missed them all dearly, but her heart wasn't calling to go home to them. It told her to remain here where she resided now. It was quiet, with no village or anyone for miles. It was like her own private land all to herself.

As Rin waited for more fish to be caught, she got a fire going to not only to cook her meal, but also keep her warm. It was the end of January and snow was on its way. It was the worst time for her. Rin had no snow shoes to wear to keep her feet warm and no money to buy some. That day she left with being in such a hurry, she forgot to grab her money sack from the vanity. "I guess I'll go without shoes. So that means I need to stock up on food." The outside of her house had a barrel to store lots of water and for the fish to rest. Inside were storage boxes for vegetables and whatever else she needed.

Time had slipped by and Rin realized she was daydreaming. Rin retrieved her net from the river and was happy to see lots of ayu that she had caught. With her cravings, Rin pulled out two of the biggest ones, slivered a stick through their bodies and stuck them along the flame. As they cooked, Rin rested her head back against a tree, and closer her eyes.

She started to think how much had changed in four months. After she left, no one within the castle, neither Sesshomaru came out to look for her. Maybe it's because she trekked through a river so no one could catch her scent. She traveled for several miles that she lost count after the first ten.

Another change Rin noticed was with her body. Her breast grew twice in size and she put it off as another growth spurt and close to becoming a year older. It was almost her sixteenth year. She felt a bit taller by a few inches, her stomach remained flat for all the fish and other foods she's ate.

The smell of almost burnt fish brought her out of thought. Rin pulled the fish from the fire which was chard in some places. She ate it anyway. She hated food going to waste. She took her time enjoying each piece of fish. She wanted to savor it and make it last.

After some time her stomach growled for more, "though I ate these two big pieces of fish, I'm still hungry." She looked to her pile, "maybe one more wouldn't hurt?" Again Rin put off her cravings for her upcoming monthly as she put another huge fish on a stick.

Since Rin took off, Lord Sesshomaru hasn't stopped thinking of her. From that day he had wished he told her about the necklace from the very start. He knew if he had listened to his mother's words and told Rin from the beginning then things would be different. He knew Rin would still be living within his home, happy and possibly carrying his child.

What angered Sesshomaru more was finding out the twins told Rin everything about the necklace. He wanted to kill them for that. But instead he after thinking long and hard, he banned them, including their father from ever returning to his home or lands ever again.

Lord Sesshomaru gave Rin a week to herself and hoped that she would return. When she didn't, he set out to find her. But when he arrived at the exact river he found her scent leading towards, he was disappointed. Rin's scent had disappeared, even on the other side of the riverbank.

Sesshomaru's next step was to look from the sky. He knew he would have better luck that way. He could see everything from up above from the forest floor. "I'll find you Rin. You may not approve of it, but I haven't stopped loving you. I haven't since I saw that gentle smile of yours back on the beach, that night, all those months back." Sesshomaru would never forgive himself for everything and he knew Rin wouldn't forgive him anytime soon.

In those four months, Sesshomaru hadn't seen one trace of Rin. He even flew out to the east village and hoped that she returned to his brother's family. But he didn't need to step on the land as Rin's scent was nowhere in the vicinity. When he returned home, his mother Lady Masuyo was waiting for him. She sadly told him to move on and let Rin live her life the way she wanted. He was afraid to admit that she was right. Though he hopes one day they will be reunited in the future before her life here was up.

Five more months have gone by and it was late spring. Rin for the last few days had been very busy deep cleaning the inside of her home and making it more cozy for herself. She cleaned everything from her clothes, floors, and the bedding. It was the busiest she's ever been. She grew exhausted and went to bed early after eating several pieces of fish that night, plus a bowl of Kaede's special vegetable stew.

The following morning Rin awoke to the worst pain imaginable. It was so bad that she let out a loud massive, "AHHH." Her screams echoed throughout her home, even outside, scaring birds and animals off that were nearby. The pain shot all through her back and her lower abdomen. Rivers of tears streamed down her cheeks and jaw. She knew her monthly was coming and this was the worst pain it's ever been.

Rin breathed through her clenched teeth and tried to get in the best position to ease the pain. "Why is it so painful this time?" She pulled her legs up, almost touching her chest. Her arms held her legs into place. "Oh god please let this pain subside."

The pain went off and on for hours and finally eased to where Rin was able to relax. She lowered her legs and laid there motionless. "Maybe I overworked myself yesterday and that's what's causing the pain?"

Sweat dripped down her pale cheeks, "maybe a cool bath will help?" When she felt like she could move, she carefully got to her feet, gathered whatever she needed for her bath, and left for the river.

Once at the river, Rin stripped down to nothing, wrapped a towel around herself and stepped into the cool flowing water. It was the best feeling to her. Everything seemed to relax when the coolness touched her body, though the pain could be felt in her lower back. "Ahh." Her hands gripped the river's edge and her knees lifted towards her chest again. "Why is it so painful?"

Not only pain could be felt, a slight discharge between her legs shot out of her. Rin looked down to the water and saw yellowish ooze clouding the water. "What's happening to me?" She placed her hand under the cloud, lifted up the ooze and it looked and felt like globs of snot against her skin. "What the hell…?" More horrendous pain came right after the discharge. "Ahhhh."

Rin pulled herself out of the water, held the wet towel against herself, and pulled her legs to her body once more to alleviate the pain. The cramps she felt were getting worse by the minute. She laid down on her side, holding her legs still and breathed through the pain. "When will this end?" She cried out.

Time had passed and so did Rin's pain. She didn't know how long she had been there but she wanted to be inside her home. When she felt like she could move, she slowly rose to her feet and headed for home that was a few steps away. "I hope whatever this is goes away by tonight…" She froze in fear when a gush of water came out between her legs. With heavy panting and looking down, she was now standing in a pool of oozy water. Then serious pain struck her and she fell to her knees.

"Oh god." Rin realized what was happening to her. She had seen it so many times from when Kaede taught her all those years ago. She remembered seeing it when Sango gave birth to her kids, the female villagers and even Kagome. "I'm in labor!" She cries out more.

Rin knew she had to act fast and get everything prepared to deliver. She knew she had to work and fight through this pain. She had fresh clean towels, blankets, twine to tie the umbilical cord off

and everything to take care of the soon to be newborns arrival.

More time had passed as Rin fought hard through the sharp pains that kept coming and going. A large towel laid under her, with her knees spread apart. Snooty ooze dripped from her and landed on the cloth. Rin had been in labor for twelve hours, not knowing she was pregnant this whole time and she was close to delivering.

Rin could feel the pressure from the baby's head pushing against her core. She was scared and alone, but she knew she had to pull through this on her own. Remembering each step she was taught, she pushed for several seconds when a contraction came. She said a little prayer for a fast and quick delivery.

One hand held herself up and the other checked for the movement of the baby. "The head is out." She could feel a head full of hair and…"fluffy ears!" Salty tears ran down from Rin's eyes. The baby she was delivering was..."ahhh." With this next contraction she pushed again and the baby was coming out more. When the contraction subsided she relaxed. "Please let the next one be the last push."

After another minute of rest, a contraction came and with one final push the baby was out, along with the placenta. Tears of relief left her eyes knowing the baby was finally out and crying very loudly beneath her. With a few deep breaths Rin looked down to see a messy, fluffy eared, silver haired, little girl. It was like Rin's world stopped when she looked at the child. She was looking down to a mini version of "Sesshomaru." Though the child bore no marks it was a mini replica of him.

Instincts kicked in again and Rin tied off each end of the umbilical cord from where she was taught and cut it. Afterward, Rin took a clean rag, dipped into cool water and wiped down the infant till she was clean from head to toe. "Such a beautiful little princess you are."

Rin wrapped her child within a clean white blanket, lifted her up so she could be nursed. When she latched on, her little eyes opened, showing the golden irises behind them. Rin rubbed her little pink cheek and whispered, "your eyes are like warm honey. Just like...like your fathers." Her fingers ran through the child's hair, soft and silky. "Should I take you to see him? Will he accept you?" Then Rin remembered telling him she no longer wanted to be a part of his world. "He probably wouldn't want to see either of us after what I told him. I promise to be the best mother I can be. I may not be able to give everything. But you will always have a loving mother, my little...Taura."

The reason I chose this type of birth was from watching a lot of 'I didn't know I was pregnant' tv show. Were you shocked Rin gave birth? Please Review! Let's shoot for 80 reviews!