KARA'S P. O. V
She closed her eyes while tryig to control the last few tears that hadn't managed to stream down her cheeks. Her breath hitching because of the sobs that she was trying to hide, those that remained in her throat while being held by one of the person she loved the most.
The words that were being whipered in her ear wasn't bringing her peace, still feeling a huge tighteness in her chest as a tiny voice continued telling her that she could have done somenthing.
Memories from that afternoon assaulted her mind repeatedly, torturing her all over again with the scene that had managed for the Girl of Steel to end up on her knees between sobs. Her suit still covered in blood, one more trace from the nightmare she wanted to wake up.
Halley had sacrified herself for them. For her. However, she had never imagined that the last time she would see the teenager, would be like that. Her cousin laying over a pool of blood, her bright blue eyes completely lifeless as she screamed her name hoping for an answer.
Her body shivered while remembering the teen's pallor and the cold she had felt when she had hold her in her arms for the last time.
She knew that blaming herself wasn't going to bring her baby cousin back, her daughter, but it was hard not to do it when she had all those abilities and she could have done nothing to save her.
At that moment all she was able to feel was anger because that young girl wasn't going to have the chance to keep growing up, to become the superhero she belived her cousin would have been.
"Kara" it was her sister who got her to open her eyes, Mon-El keeping her close. "They want to do a ceremony to honor Halley, I already told them that…" she didn't let Alex to keep talking.
"When?" she asked.
"Tomorrow afternoon" Alex answered, to what she nodded, knowing that everyone wanted to give Halley a proper goodbye.
"We don't have to do it tomorrow" Mon-El commented, but she didn't know if it was because of her or him, they were both broken.
If only she wouldn't have been injured… Maybe she would have gotten there in time. Maybe she would have stopped the time. Maybe she would have saved that young girl's life, the same one that had lit up her life since the day she met her.
She sighed while caressing with her fingertips Mon-El's Legion ring, the one she had used during that last fight with Reign. She time traveled to the past that and she was going to do it again, she was going to bring her cousin back.
"I need a black hole" she said, hoping that he would understand.
"It's dangerous, Kara" he pointed out, but she already knew that and it wasn't going to stop her.
Once with his ring in her hand and a black hole she could used, she flew through to the atmosphere until she was in the utter space. She knew that she couldn't breath out there, so she speeded up to reach her goal, hoping not to die as well while doing it.
HALLEY'S P. O. V
3 DAYS BEFORE
I opened my eyes confused, blinking to get used to the new amount of light, but frowning in confusion when I heard Mon-El's voice.
"Hey, easy, kiddo" he said gently pushing me back to the stretcher when I tried to sit up.
"This is not real" I whispered while rubbing my eyes, my memories were so confusing.
"What?" Mon-El was staring at me as confused as I was. "You passed out" he said.
"No, I didn't" I shook my head, a lot more had happened. "I time traveled to the Crisis, our Earth was gone and Argo... All of you were gone, even I was" I tried to explain the best I could.
"Are you sure she didn't hit her head?" Mon-El asked while putting his hand over my forehead.
"I am sure" Alex answered while approaching us. "Can you start again, but slower than before?" she asked, to what I nodded as she started to examine me.
"I time traveled to the past because of the Monitor" I began to talk, that time really trying to make sense. "Every universe was vanishing, Oliver died trying to save our Earth and we were transferred to Earth-1" my gaze met Alex's, she knew about what I was talking about. "You remembered it, right?" I asked her.
"You were there" she pointed out, Mon-El observing us still confused as I frowned, remembering Brainy's last words.
"Kara?" I asked. "Is she really dead?" I managed to question them, just seeing how they look at each other as if they didn't want to answer. "Mon-El" I looked directly into his eyes, begging for an answer.
"We don't know" it was all he could answer me while looking away.
"She disappeared three weeks ago after a fight, we think she was kidnapped, but we haven't had any news about her since then" Alex explained, getting me to frown.
"Why did she sent us to Argo?" I asked wanting to understand the whole thing.
"There is an organization kidnapping and torturing aliens" she started talking.
"Like CADMUS?" I questioned her, to what she nodded.
"They gave Kara two options, to stop being Supergirl or to lose you and the kids" Mon-El told me, he was trying not to break down into tears. "We didn't believe it at first, but they knew where you live... The exact same day we sent you to Argo, they set up a fire in your apartment, there was a trace of kryptonite everywhere, you wouldn't have survived" he explained, getting me to look at him kind of afraid.
"What about my things?" I asked, I had left everything there, such as family pictures, journals, Saffire and even Comet's leash.
"We were able to save a few things" Alex answered, to what I sighed, waiting for them to keep talking.
"We let them think that they had won, that you were gone, but after a few days, they sent a new threat" Mon-El continued explaining. "Kara ended up fighting them without any of our help... By the time we got there, she was already gone and I can tell you that there was too much blood all over the place... It was hers" he whispered the last part.
"But you don't believe that she's dead" I pointed out.
"No, there's no body, Hal" Alex answered. "If she was dead, we would already know" she commented, getting me to nod, that was true. "We've tried to fight them, but we almost lost an entire team, so we're trying to figure out a better plan" she explained.
"So what now?" I asked.
"You should rest for today, okay?" she said while pulling me into a hug. "I'm so happy to have you back, kiddo" she kissed my forehead.
"I'm happy, too" I smiled as we pulled apart.
It was Mon-El who embraced me once Alex left us alone, my head resting on his chest as I closed my eyes, just trying to feel safe and calm for the first time in the last month.
"Are we going home?" I asked him, still in the same position.
"It's up to you, I mean, it's okay if you want to stay here" he answered as I pulled away, I had promised Leo that I would come back to tell him what was going on, but I wasn't sure if I wanted to do that. "Or if you prefer to go back to Argo" he added while observing me.
"I told Leo that I would come back, but... I can't tell him that Kara is missing" I explained while looking away. "I promised him that both of you were okay" I told him, seeing how he nodded.
"Your mom has gone back to Argo to talk to Alura, she will tell him a little bit about it" Mon-El told me, getting me to frown. "Val went back, too, he will be here tomorrow" he commented, to what I couldn't avoid sighing.
"Let's go home" I ask him, seeing how he nodded.
The moment I walked inside the house, I felt the tears welling in my eyes, shaking my head a little before walking to my room, just wanting to change my clothes and to lay down on bed.
A knock on the door, made me sit up on the bed shortly before telling Mon-El that he could come inside.
"Hey, What do you want to have to dinner?" he asked as I shrugged, I wasn't hungry. "You have to eat something, kiddo" he commented, but I shook my head again. "Okay, What about chocolate ice cream and sprinkles?" Mon-El asked with a smile.
"Okay" I whispered, a little smile on my face as I got up from the bed to go to the living room.
I sat down on the couch, barely looking around me as part of me was hoping for my cousin to walk there, to hear her laugh as I would run to embrace her, wishing desperately for her to tell me that it would be alright.
"There you go" Mon-El smiled while giving me a bolw of ice cream.
"Thank you" I whispered, still not hungry, but knowing that he was trying to make me feel better even if he wasn't. "How are you doing?" I asked him, seeing how he sighed while looking away.
"I... I haven't been here since Kara disappeared" he answered, getting me to frown. "I've been looking for her ever since then and trying to get the portal to work" he explained. "The good news came when Alex told me that you were coming back, it gave me hope that everything was going to be fine" he commented. "How are the kids?" Mon-El asked.
"They are okay" I told him, wanting to calm him down. "Leo is scared of what might have happened and Jules, she's looking a lot like Kara" I commented while observing how he got up from the couch, only to return with a small box.
"This is yours" he said, handing me the box, which got me to close my eyes in tears.
I slowly pulled out Comet's leash, caressing it with my fingertips before putting it close to my chest as I keep looking through the rest of the stuff.
There were a few books inside, relaxing a little when I saw the one Mon-El had gifted me in my sixth birthday, focusing on the pictures that were at the bottom of the box, having to hold a sob when I saw the last one.
That photo had been taken by Alex just a few weeks after I had started living with Kara. I was sitting on my cousin's lap, a huge smile on our faces as Kara was tickling me, which was probably causing my giggles.
"We're going to find her" Mon-El said, getting me to look at him, he wanted to believe those words as well.
"I know" I whispered, for the first time seeing the stuff toy I was holding in my arms in that picture, it wasn't in the box.
"I'm sorry, kiddo" he embraced me, my head leaning on his shoulder.
"It's okay, it was just a toy" I murmured even if I didn't really mean it.
"It meant a lot to you, so it's not okay" he pointed out, to what I shrugged, he was right after all.
Saffire had been a huge part of me since I was five and for sure his lost was going to be hard, but for that moment I had enough looking for my cousin.
TWO DAYS BEFORE
I had woken up at 7:30 after a long night of nightmares, barely sleeping, but that didn't stop me since after leaving a note for Mon-El, I went to the DEO.
I started training without taking a break, just wanting to be ready for when we would fight the new organization, which was making me push myself to the limits.
"Hey" I turned my head when the door opened, finding Val staring at me. "Are you feeling better than yesterday?" he questioned while approaching me.
"Yes" I nodded. "I just need to find her" I told him.
"We will" he said. "You know, you could train me so I..." he started talking, but I interrupted him.
"No" I crossed my arms over me chest, Val frowning as he stared at me.
"Why not?" he asked, kind of confused.
"I've spent years training to be where I am today, so I don't think that in a day you would be ready to fight" I explained him, turning to walk away from there, but I felt his hand gripping my arm.
"Come on, Hal" he said as I stopped pulling from his grip. "I'll listen to everything you tell me" he added, to what I turned to look at him.
"You're not listening to me right now" I pointed out, having to look away after he stared directly into my eyes. "Okay, fine, but if I say that you can't go out there, you can't, Understand?" I finally gave in, seeing him nodded excitedly.
I started teaching him easy movements, just wanting to make sure that he was able to control all of his abilities, but once I was sure, I started complicating the exercises until we were fighting each other.
I observed him quietly. Val was forgetting to protect himself, so it didn't take long until I wrap my cape around his leg, making him fall to the ground completely defeated.
"Again" I told him, helping him to get up, knowing that he needed a few seconds to relax.
That second time Val defended himself much better, which made increase the strength I was using until I was able to pin him against the wall, my forearm on his chest to keep him in place.
"Okay, you win" he murmured, but I kept holding him in place. "I need to breath" he said, getting me to free him, being afraid of having hurt him.
However, it was just a lie, since it was him who pushed me against the wall, gripping both of my arms so I wouldn't move.
"You learn fast" I smiled a little. "But this is not going to help you out there" I told him, looking for a way to get rid of his grip.
He was taller than me, which was complicating things, but it didn't stop me. I put my right foot in between his, pushing his right leg until he pulled away from me, managing to get him into his knees.
"Watch your feet" I warned him as he got on his feet. "Again" I turned knowing that he was going to attack me, but I dodged his fist, having to contain my laugh when I saw him crashing against the wall.
"Are you trying to kill me?" he asked, kind of upset.
"You have to be ready" I answered him, Val barely looking at me. "Come on, we have to keep going" I commented, waiting for him to attack again.
"Halley, I need you to come with me" it was Mon-El interrupted us.
"Okay, keep training, we'll talk later" I told Val, seeing him nod shortly before leaving with Mon-El.
He took me to one of the conferences rooms, not having time to react when Kal embraced me tightly against him, just staying like that for as long as possible.
"I was so scared when I couldn't find you in the apartment" he whispered, still keeping me close to him. "I thought they had taken you" he commented, finally pulling away from me.
"I'm okay" I assured him.
"I know" Kal-El smiled.
"Aren't you going to say hello to me?" I turned my head while looking for him. "Hello, little cousin" Jon grinned as I frowned, trying to act offended.
I was supposed to be older than him, but the day Oliver sacrificed himself and the New Earth was born, he turned out to have a twin brother and to be twelve, instead of being a baby, as I was still eight.
Ever since that day, they had been protecting me, which I had never liked since I had enough with Kara and everyone else. However, we had grown up like siblings, they were the closest thing I had as older brothers and I was their little sister, we were really close.
"We're going to find her" Jon said shortly before hugging me, so I hugged him back.
"Where's Jordan?" I asked while pulling away from him.
"He's still not really into being a superhero" he answered, getting me to nod.
I had different relationships with each of them. When we were kids, it was Jordan the one that would sit down and play with me calmly while, on the other hand, Jon and I were always fighting, it wasn't that we didn't get along, but that he would be teasing me all the time and that had led us to have interesting arguments and fights as a way of training each other.
"How was Argo? Leo and Juliet?" Jon asked.
"Good" I answered. "They're fine, Leo's probably hoping to come back" I commented, seeing him smile
"Val?" he questioned while observing me.
"He's at the training room" I told him, looking away. "We're friends again, I guess" I shrugged, I wasn't even sure why she was so interested about helping me when he could go back to Argo.
I spent the rest of the morning hearing quietly to Mon-El explaining how the organization worked and what the new plan was, being a little frustrated when he told me that we couldn't rush things, but I understood that it was their first mistake the other time.
I walked back to the training room, observing Val with a little smile on my lips, he was doing so much better than before. Maybe he was ready after all.
"You learned fast" I commented, getting him to look at me.
"How long have you been there?" He asked, sitting in one of the benches.
"A few minutes" I approached him.
I didn't want him to help us out there since I knew that if something happened to him, I would never forgive myself, besides, I knew that he would do anything to save me and I couldn't let that happen.
"I don't think you should come with us" I told him, barely looking at him.
"But you've said..." he tried to talk, but I didn't let him finished, I already knew what I had said.
"Going out there means not knowing if you're going to come back home" I looked at him, Val frowning.
"I can do it, Halley" he said, but I shook my head. "What makes you think that I'm not ready?" he asked me, being confused as I sighed, losing my patience.
"But I don't want to lose you!" I exclaimed, getting him to observe me.
"I don't want to lose you either" he answered in a lower tone of voice.
"I don't need you to protect me, I can do that by myself" I told him as he sighed.
"I know. I know that you don't need anyone to protect you or to take care of you, you have made yourself clear about that so many times" he looked at me. "Last time I tried to help you, you pushed me away" Val pointed out. "It's what you always do, you run away from your problems, you try to stop them by yourself and when you can't, you push away the people that cares about you" he commented, kind of upset. "I'm not letting you do it this time, Halley" he assured me, but I just shook my head angrily.
"You wanted me to move to Argo" I told him.
"And I understood why you weren't moving there" he said while getting up from the bench. "But instead of trying to work it out, you just decided that it would be better to stop talking to me..." he was getting angry with each second that passed. "You stopped going to Argo and I kept asking about you, about how you were doing and it broke my heart when Kara told me that you weren't even going to school anymore, that you were stuck in your room... Just crying and trying to heal from whatever he had done to you" Val kept talking as I closed my eyes. "I thought that it was for the best... I saw how you were hiding from me that day at the market, but then you were crying and begging me to forgive and I... I just couldn't say no to you" he explained while approaching me, tears being contained in my eyes. "I can't" he added, stopping in front of me, my head bowed as I couldn't look at him.
I knew he was hurt because I had pushed him away, though, deep down, I wished I had never done that, I needed him in my life, he had been my best friend since I was seven, being always there for me.
"I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if you got hurt" I told him, still not looking at him. "I know what I'm doing, Val" I said.
"Do you?" he asked, getting me to look at him. "Last time you asked me to trust you, I lost you" he pointed out as I sighed.
"Not this time" I assured him, my eyes locking with his.
He nodded slightly, his hands grabbing my face as I put mine on his chest, gently pushing him away from me, having to turn my face when he leaned forward.
"Val" I named him in just a whisper, only being able to think about Ella, she didn't deserve to get hurt.
"I'm so sorry" he whispered while shaking his head, slowly pulling away from me.
"It's okay" I answered him. "I'll see you tomorrow to train" I told him, trying to fake a smile, even if I was still holding my tears.
"Sure" he nodded with a slight smile.
Without saying anything else, I left the room, kind of wanting to go home and relax for what was left of the day, so I walked to where I knew Alex and Mon-El were working.
"When are you telling Halley that she's not helping us?" I heard Alex asked, getting me to stop on my tracks, just staring at Mon-El while waiting for his answer.
"I don't know, maybe tonight" he answered while turning around, noticing that I was there. "Halley..."
"No, just don't" I shook my head angrily shortly before flying away from there.
I didn't understand why he had decided that I couldn't help them, just feeling how the anger was controlling me as I flew around the city, trying to calm down. I just needed to find my cousin.
ASTRA'S P. O. V
"Why is Halley not helping?" she asked after seeing how her daughter had stormed out of the DEO.
Her niece's husband staring at her as if he didn't know how to answer that question, so she changed her gaze to director Danvers, who was looking at him in complete silence.
"Don't tell me is because she's not ready, I'll not buy it" she warned them before any of could answer.
"I'm afraid that she'll get hurt" Mon-El finally answered. "I kind of know what is going to happen if she goes there and doesn't listen to any of us, it's not the best way to end all of this" he explained, getting her to frown.
"What exactly do you know?" she questioned him, wanting to know what would happen and if there was anything they could do to stop it.
"If she finds herself alone, she will..." he looked away. "Halley will sacrifice herself for Kara and everyone else" he finally completed the sentence.
She shook her head in disbelief, but deep down she knew that her daughter was able to do that, that if the teen found herself in that situation, Halley was not going to doubt about sacrificing herself if it meant that everyone else was safe.
"She's going to try to go with you" she told them, that girl was really stubborn.
"We know" Alex answered. "That's why Val is going with her, he'll try to keep her out of danger" the DEO's director explained.
"I would have explained it to her, but she..." Mon-El said as she nodded.
"She's probably at her safe place" she interrupted him, ready to leave.
"Um..., about that..., she's still here in National City and seems not be moving" it was Brainy who talked approaching them with a tablet in his hands. "She landed in a dead-end alley" he added as she just looked one last time to them before flying to find her daughter.
She couldn't avoid closing her eyes when she saw the scene that was in front of her. Halley was laying on the floor on her left side, only being able to see her back, but the pool of blood was enough to alter her.
"I need a med evacuation" she said through her comms, barely being able to watch her daughter's bloody face, just hoping that teenager would be alright.
Hi!
Since we're getting closer to the season finale, I can finally post this, which I wrote when I finished watching the last Arrowverse crossover.
I don't know what they're going to do with "Superman and Lois", but since their storyline changed after the crossover, I needed to include it.
I hope that everyone is doing well. Thanks so much for reading, let me know what you think,
Ayrin