Which was the main reason he as the Biju's more or less father wanted to keep the truth a secret but Kurama managed to get the truth out of him just because Kurama had started to get the other Biju questioning him again and he'd rather just one of his way less then normal for a human children to know then all of them. He had admitted in private the very real possibility that some group or at least one person would get them to bring back who is pretty much the Biju's mother granted he even on his death bed was unsure if they could be separated for a second time if that came to pass and if they'd even by the same mentally let along physically . He honestly pleaded with Kurama to keep it a secret and do her best to prevent it from happening he shown honest fear for the Biju's future and if that came to pass like a loving parent would .
''Everything okay Kushina? You look scared and worried about the unknown. Way more then most parents would be''Anya said as she sat down and looked at the moon'' I always have had a love hate relationship with the night exceptionally those when the moon is it. Even before I found the legend of how it came to be and why. It just has this feeling about it I can't place even now'' Anya said
Kurama had done her best to keep the truth from her siblings, they may have started fighting over a lot of things, but they were still her siblings, even though they didn't talk now. The fact that even the old man feared for them if the jubi was reborn, scared her to her core. The woman came out of her daze when Anya spoke up. "Oh, Anya-san... I didn't know you were going to stay up. I thought you Moon ninja loved the moon? Though I suppose if you know the legend, I can understand it making you uneasy. I've always loved the moon and stars though, so beautiful just to stare at when you have a clear sky. Minato talked about how beautiful the night sky was in your village..."
''Most do love it aside from a few ''Anya admitted chuckling at the legend matter but not of amusement at the legend but more so at how stupid, foolish and cold-hearted someone would have to be to bring such a being '' Please who would be ignorant, foolish and cold-hearted enough to try bringing back such a being ? Not only would you be having to find the Tailed Beasts who I personally believe should be allowed to live and enjoy life so long as they are peaceful enough but you'd have to kill the humans who hold them. then there is the fact unlike the tailed beasts its said to be almost completely mindless and possible a trigger for something far worse then it'' Anya remarked
"With so many stories and myths about the power it supposedly possesses that even the Sage wanted to seal it away, I am sure there are plenty of power crazed people who would be ignorant enough to try...From the stories i've heard, I wouldn't have put it passed Madara Uchiha to try something stupid like that if Lord First hadn't stopped him at the Valley of the End." Kurama looked back off to the moon, or the masked man who pulled her from Kushina and took away her free will. The fox turned back to Anya and smiled. "So I don't think you came out here to talk about the moon and old legends. Something on your mind Anya-san?"
Anya shook her head'' And I thought you leaf Ninja anymore wasn't so cynical outside of the Copy Ninja and Tsunade of the Sannin but then again you lost more then even them so it makes sense''Anya said on what Kurama had said ''But you are correct I can't fathom how a mother can be seemingly completely calm about her child in a Chunin exam or higher especially one that permanent injury or even death is wavered add that to Shinobi from a village that still hates your husband from what he did to such a huge amount of the villages force said village known to even kill people they believe are a child of the 4th hokages and I'd assume you'd have denied him or pulled him out when finding that village is
participating ''
Kurama chuckled and smiled. "I may seem calm on the outside but I worried about my little one every day while he was in the Forest of Death. But I don't think I could have stopped him from competing even if I wanted to. I also know about the risk of revenge against my husband, but I cant shelter him forever. I have to have trust in my little one and his abilities, he might not be the best, but he never gives up and even if its a losing battle he never stops looking for the next move to make."
'I know we mothers can't shelter little ones forever despite our desires to'' Anya said as she sipped on some drink she brought with her'' Still did you even try to talk Naruto out of competing this time in the exams or at least tell him to be extra careful do to the village being involved? ''Anya asked and then frowned as she thought of the upcoming matches as well as what Mika had said about Naruto's desire to beat up Neji''How good is your sons healing ability? I mean going up against a Gentle fist user that holds such hate and your little one seemingly wanting to knock sense into the kid I just hope you can take the end result if he gets too injured ''Anya didn't want to bring it up but its something she felt was needed both to prefer the woman before her and to possibly ease her own worry of the blonde as there is just something about Naruto that makes Anya not want any pain or harm to come to the boy
"There will always be some village competing that at one time was at war with us, one would just hope that others don't give into the cycle of hate." Kurama replied as she drank more of her tea, letting out a sigh. "I was going to tell him that I didn't want him to compete but he started talking about his friends counting on him and how he wanted to prove himself to everyone that I just couldn't tell him no." The fox didn't know what she would have done if it was up to her to have Naruto compete. She did really worry about him, especially after what happened with Orochimaru in the Forest of Death...even if Naruto didn't know who it really was. But at the same time she knew that he wouldn't have taken no for an answer from her. "As for his healing ability, he has his Uzumaki bloodline that helps and I have my suspicions that the fox's chakra accelerates his natural healing abilities. As for him fighting against Neji Hyuuga, I do worry. I know a parent is supposed to believe in their child but Neji is at a different level then my little one. But after how harshly he treated his cousin, I never saw Naruto so worked up before. I know he doesn't realize his feelings for the girl, but he got so angry at how much hate Neji directed towards Hinata-chan." The fox wasn't sure what would happen between the fight with the two, but it would be like nothing the boy had dealt with before. Sure he had fought with Haku and her bloodline limit but the Hyuuga Byakugan was one of the three great dojutus and would be a challenge for Naruto. "I am scared for him. After the fight with Hinata, I have no doubt Neji would have killed her if he wasn't stopped. But Naruto wont give up and I would not put it past him to try and kill my little one."
''That's why I worry such a hate filled heart surely won't stop from striking blows that could really mess your little one up if he can't bring himself to quit the match while meaning to or not pushing too many buttons of Neji Hyuuga, While if its even partially true on that specific Hyuuga skill I've heard then I can't help but worry for your little one''Anya said but it should be obvious she is not trying to make Kurama worry but keep preparing Kurama for the possibility no matter how unlikely it is give the Uzumaki bloodline yjr possible outcome
'' Set her strait she is underestimating our baby ''Kushina said taking offense that Anya was talking this way about Naruto even if Kushina herself was worried as she viewed from the memory's of what Naruto seen of that match Neji had with Hinata. She doesn't want to show it but she is scared for Naruto
"I worry for him too Anya-san, but he knows his own limits... and he is not a normal combatant you cant plan for his next move and that can put anyone off their game.." Kurama replied to Anya. She knew that Neji had the skill and talent to cause some major harm to her little one, but at the same time Naruto had his own talents, even if he didn't know it.
"She is just worried about him like we are... And we know what a Hyuuga is capable of...but I will protect our baby.." The fox replied to the woman, as she felt Kushina's worry for Naruto.
''Well if he does get hurt at least he has the perfect parent to care for him ,don't get me wrong fathers can for the most part be just as good as a mother aside from a few obvious matters but your better half just seemed the type that would fit the hopeless father archetype the best ''Anyway remarked as she yawned a bit mainly from traveling ''Care to show us around and introduce us to people you think would be worth mine and my little ones time the next few days?''
Kurama blushed at the compliment from the woman. "Thank you Anya-san...And I do wonder what my goofball would have done when having to deal with his son. I'm sure he would have done fine eventually, but it probably would have been fun to watch him learn." The woman said with a giggle. '"I am sure there are a few people you two would like to meet."
''Yeah he seems the type better suited as a person to play with kids or a older brother if not just a buddy situation feel at best then a father'' Anya said though she couldn't help but laugh a bit at a memory that came to mind'' Back when I still was just some Kunoichi guarding,maintaining and handling the knowledge of my villages massive library your goofball as you refer to him made a offhand comment glad you and him was the Fox and the Hound , I never got the reference till later on . It was kinda adorable and funny in a way on what he meant if I got what he was getting at was right''
"I will agree with you on that one...but I know he would have stepped up when he needed to..." Kurama replied. She heard the comment from Anya-san and could feel Kushina blush hearing the comment from the woman. "Well, Im not sure how much of a hound he was but he is lucky he never told me about that or he would have been in trouble for making such a lewd comment about us..."
"Your husband really is an enigma at times...I wondered some times how he managed to do what he did... it is sometimes like he was a different person depending on when you saw him..." Kurama said to Kushina.
Anya blinked before she snorted with her hand over her mouth'' Please he was too innocent minded to make lewd comments like that at least to someone he only seen as a friend and fellow lover of knowledge, I believe he was more along the lines of referencing a old book title for the fact in the book a dog pursues a fox relentlessly no matter the set backs '' Anya said on the matter on what she viewed the remark was '' I mean how he talked of you was for the longest time you didn't want anything to do with him till that one day he almost like a hunting dog followed the trail you left '' Anya said to help explain how she connected the book title referenced to the phrase used.
'' Please he may have married me but he was the thread the tied you and me together through are boy so he is our husband in that sense ''Kushina was mainly trying to get Kurama off the matter that and trying to keep herself distracted to not show her times when her and her husband had 'fun' as it seemed both Kushina and Kurama back then atleast had one for sure mutual understanding of not sharing sexual exploits if they can help it that and Kurama seemed willing to help Kushina through her time of pregnancy as most woman didn't want to help her along in the matter outside of a few
The woman blushed as how she had made the wrong connection. "Well that part is true... I ignored him for the most part. I thought he was a fool and a wimp, but he was the only one who noticed the trail of my hair, said he admired my hair. Admired it, I couldn't believe it, it was the one thing I hated about myself...but it became my red thread of fate that connected me and Minato together." She turned and looked away, feeling Kushina's emotions washing over her. "He was one of a kind...but Naruto is a spitting image of his father..."
"He was your husband Kushina...to me he was the person sealing me away again and I wasn't going to let that happen..." Kurama said, her guilt coming again as she took shots at herself once more.
Anya blinked when Kurama seemed to have zoned out Anya incorrectly assumed its Kurama thinking of the past thankfully at least for now that's a decent enough excuse to go with
'' That's it ! '' Kushina pulled Kurama into the mind space and thanks to Kurama feeling low so much right now it had allowed Kushina some control over Kurama's state of form in the mind scape for right now Kushina is the stronger mentally at the moment from not feeling as down or the like that and do to they used to be in a reverse set up before the masked man which lead Kushina to understand the workings to a degree of a shared mind scape,so Kurama is over Kushina's lap in the spanking position and Kushina starting to spank Kurama'' I warned you to stop looking down and belittling yourself over the past or this would be the result '' Kushina remarked as the spanking goes on,true this is odd method to handle it but Kurama is older then most beings in a physical form so Kushina wasn't sure what would even be effective so she went with one of varies methods that was used on her when she was too down on herself on things that shouldn't matter at such a point in time,granted the generation that handled her mostly grew up in war and they had to do the direct approach not the slow approach in dealing with most issue's even if that method wasn't as good or more of a short term method it was the safer of the two approaches to do given war time and all.
Kurama just let everything happen for a moment as she was wallowing in her guilt. It didn't last long before the fox twisted out of the woman's grip. "STOP IT..." She yelled out, her voice cracking slightly, but it wasn't anger in her voice, it was like the fox was on the verge of breaking down. "I've hurt so many people, taken so many lives. I made Mito's life hell and I made your life hell. I was so filled with rage that I took yours and Minato's life because I was trying to kill Naruto, an innocent newborn, our baby... My being in him destroyed his whole life, no parents, no one to love him. A whole village hating him, wanting him dead, FOR MY ACTIONS!" The woman fell to her knees as it started to rain in the mind scape. The fox had spent so much of her life blinded by rage and her hate for everything the humans had done to her. Then Naruto became her host and she watched the boy grow up paying for her actions, but he never gave up. And even after everything, after all she had taken from him...he forgave her...
Kushina had expected some reaction but not this allowing rgw fox allowing the spanking to happen for afew moments without trying to get free then deciding to twist out of grip followed by venting out the emotions that likely was bottled up for so long that's for damn sure ,After all Kurama didn't seem the type to be this broke emotional to go this way, Sure Kurama isn't broke in anyway but still emotionally she never meet anyone this bad including those trained in a method that had been ditched in practice for villages but a few people still do it the 'tool' training as in to try stripping a youth of feelings and emotions to be the perfect tool to who is in charge.
''Kurama listen I can't speak for those in the past but even with the Uzumaki bloodline it would have been practically a miracle if I lived longer then a year from the forced unsealing and that'd been if I keep from any stress and took a lot of medicine daily from the fact I lived so long with you in me before the unwilling unsealing happened . Besides I'd be mad myself sealed away with hardly any nice visits over the years''Kushina said gentle as without meaning to from seeing Kurama like a child needing a parent had altered her own size and brought Kurama into a hug like a mother would a upset child and doing the same sort of comfort methods admitting Kurama never had either that much so it may be rather welcome.''And well I may not have been truly in the afterlife but Minato given the situation has been allowed specific allotments for what he did and why so I know he doesn't hold it against you that much ''Kushina had added trying to sooth Kurama with the truth ''And they would have probably done as well as wanted the same regardless to our baby when the time came that you'd been sealed in Naruto at the proper time . Which then they'd probably been successful as he'd not be subject to hate from early on''
Kurama couldn't bring herself to respond, she knew Kushina might have been right, that she wouldnt have lasted long. But her and Minato would have still been alive for Naruto and the fox had seen Uzumaki's recover from much worse. The fox was caught off guard a bit by Kushina pulling her into the hug. She couldn't hold herself together and let the Kushina form she had taken fall apart, revealing the fox as herself. She looked a bit like Kushina, she shared the long red hair and had her tails behind her. The fox embraced Kushina and remained silent as the two woman hugged. "At least he would have had his parents for help..."
'I can't deny that dear''Kushina finally said after a bit as she thought a bit''You know I think you are the kind half by the way as your other half no matter what Minato tries is always angry and even lashed out a few times at your father I never got the details as Minato visiting me is always limited to set amount of times but what I do know its never been pretty for either side and your father is always kind till he has to restrain and punish that side of you''Kushina said as she hated to bring that up but she felt Kurama would like to know that side is still in existence
"No...I'm not the kind half...just the half who got to see your son grow up, paying for her sins but never giving up. My yin half didn't watch Naruto grow up, dealing with so much hate and pain, just like she did.." Kurama replied, she knew her Yin half was still around, thanks to her hosts she did know about the Dead Demon Consuming Seal. "She just lets her hate and pain still consume her.."
''Then you are saying the light as in the yang side being you is mostly the darkness of emotions or in general mostly the darkness given how you have tried to portray yourself ? That goes against the terms unless the terms meant the opposites at one time''Kushina remarked trying to move away from their son and other negative topics that and she may not be that into learning other things she does want to learn about Kurama and this is a easy enough Segway to get it going
Kurama smiled lightly. "If you tried to portray me and my yin half as light and dark, I supposed it would assume we were mixed sides. However it is better to portray us as yin and yang chakra natures... I am the embodiment of physical energy and vitality, breathing life into form. My Yin half is the embodiment of spiritual energy and imagination, creating form out of nothing." The fox remembered the birth of her and her siblings as the old man taught them about why they were brought into the world and about the one they would meet in the future. "As for my Yin half still holding so much hate, it is like raising twins in two separate environments. She was still full of rage and hate when Minato sealed her into himself. Where as with me, I got to watch Naruto grow up, I watched him cry himself to sleep, I watched him deal with everyone hating him. All because of me..."
''Any reason she would say such cruel things to your twos father to the point he'd cry and cry from how hurtful and at times how sad it made him? '' Kushina asked wondering if Kuramas Anger and hate was very destructive to those Kurama cared about'' Don't get me wrong parents and children fight and such but some of the things repeated to me sounded like things you'd say to people wanting them to off themselves from despair ''
Kurama looked down, knowing she used to be just like that. "She is still filled with hate, blinded by rage. She didnt get to watch her kit grow up... So many people used and abused us, we wanted them all dead... Like I told you before, the old man would be so ashamed of me now..."
''Oh you had a kit in the past?''Kushina asked assuming Kurama had a true child sometime in the past and something happened as most memory's Kurama keeps locked from her right now'' And stop that please you bettered yourself clearly you learned from errors of your past ,she just is stuck having not learned ''Kushina added when Kurama had looked down ashamed
Kurama blushed a bit from Kushina's misunderstanding. "...I meant Naruto, Kushina..." The fox knew the old man would be ashamed of her, but at the same time he would still forgive her just like any good father would. "Maybe one day we could be reunited and she can remember there is still good in people..."
This time it was Kushina wo blushed from the misunderstanding ''Oh um well then he is our child and I'm sure you can get away with calling Naruto a kit in public given those cute whisker like birthmarks and no one not even those fools would think its anything other then a nickname brought about from that matter''Kushina suggested thinking that may help Kurama be happy and help Kurama be at ease when the term is used
Though now Kushina noticed the size difference and the slight rocking motion she was doing while hugging Kurama making Kushina blush worse'' Oh um sorry if this set up seems demeaning or something like that I hadn't even realized I made my form bigger and doing the rocking motion ''Kushina said in apology encase it was bothering Kurama granted it doesn't seem to be but it doesn't hurt to be sure and explain the set up
"Well as cute as it might be, I wouldn't do that to him..." Kurama replies as she breaks the hug from Kushina. She stands back up, restoring the mind scape, her illusion form, and hers and Kushina's size. "Its fine Kushina, you were only doing what any mother would do to comfort someone.."
''Hey its fine if he likes being called that you should do it ''Kushina said in a encouraging manner to at least try it if nothing else as if Naruto likes it she doubts there is any harm in it as the village won't change treatment of their son in the first place after all at least not without a few real big heroic advents . ''Hey you had been so adorable in that other form,why change back? Besides its kinda odd talking to you looking like me . Even if it reminds me of how I had that little problem making shadow clones with a few having seemingly your thoughts in them ''Kushina remembered those rather awkward times at first it was a rather pain in the ass but it turned out to be a gift from Kami in a sense as Kurama was a big help come that shadow quirk/trouble as Kushina couldn't find anyone she was friends with that could be a help in her stages of pregnancy for varies reasons yet Kurama had even on the first sings she was pregnant aided Kushina in how to handle the experience and all that. Come to think of it Kushina near asked why Kurama did that''Hey Kurama question ,you recall when I was pregnant right? Why where you so kind and helpful doing that time? I mean up till then neither us really got along aside from our agreement of me keeping dating and 'fun' data from you we hadn't even remotely got along till that point''
"We can see..." Kurama replied as she looked down at herself. "I guess its just kinda a habit now while maintaining your form, that I just let my mind scape form be the same...I guess I don't need to hide anything in my own mind" The fox closed her eyes and returned to her previous form. She looked back at Kushina when she asked her question and blushed a bit, turning away. It wasnt like she was going to get away with denying helping her at all. "Having a life created inside you is truly a miracle...a mother shouldn't have to go it alone, that life shouldn't come to harm..." Except that is exactly what the fox tried to do after the boy was born...
''Ha more proof you aren't malice personified even when you was complete ''Kushina seemed rather pleased at that proof but she was also radiating a sense of pleasure at the truth Kurama had said about why it was done'' I remember that time Anko and you caused chaos to those people who was refusing to sell to me when my goofball of a husband wasn't in the village and while I had those weird craving as well during my pregnancy you even helped get those . Why did you go that far ? ''Kushina was rather interested and its a fair question as well as fair interest given back then matters and how Kurama is the physical mother now
"No, just proof I couldn't abandon the old mans teachings...I still would have killed you for my freedom..." Kurama replied with a bit of guilt, she knew she would have done it without a thought if given the chance. "...You were being treated just like me...considered volatile and dangerous...they just gave me an outlet for my anger..." The fox replied, another person paying for her sins...
''Liar at least on the reason you helped'' Kushina counted on the reasoning of the first help''Do you need a few more swats for that guilt?''Kushina threatened in a questioning manner, given how Kushina is behaving and how Kurama is it should be clear the threatened matter isn't a excuse to do that, she just wants to have Kurama not have guilt or be ashamed of things that Kurama has little to no reason at this point to be feeling that way
"Guilt does not go away over night Kushina-san...and I have centuries of guilt on my conscious...among other things that I will never forgive myself for..." Kurama replied, not phased by the threat, it hadn't actually hurt her. "However, even I need sleep, so we will have to talk later..." The fox said as she left the mind scape.
Only a moment had passed back in reality as Kurama turned back to Anya. "Sorry Anya-san, I just lost myself in the past for a moment." She looked up to the sky and then back down to her empty tea cup and pot. "And it looks like my tea is finished as well. Both of us might want to call in a night. Tomorrow will be a busy day..." The fox got up, taking the cup and pot into the kitchen and set it on the counter. "Good night, Anya-san." She said with a smile before she headed back into their room to check on her little one before she herself went to sleep.
Kushina pouted at that she knows that she had been on the end result of this set of on ways to handle in short term her feelings given war time meant most times therapists wasn't a viable option for Shinobi so it tended to be either quirks, sex ,cranking mentally or some odd treatments to handle feelings and/or stress . Still she wanted to talk me Kurama is nice to talk to now that the fox isn't insulting or the like . Yet Kushina had to resist trying to take control as hearing this she so badly wants to but she didn't despite how hard it was to resist
Naruto was halfway stirred in his sleep from the check and whined abit he hardly has sleep without nightmares for the longest time till Kurama started this and so his opened eyes looking in such state its clear he isn't going to be awake long'' Mamma whats wrong and if nothing can we sleep together tonight?''
Anya did similar but her girl was out cold and doesn't need a change at all so she laid down to sleep and went to sleep granted her state of dreaming was if Mika ever ended up in a match against someone with a hate filled heart