*Warning mentions abuse*

"Hey mama B can I ask you something?" Kensi asked Roberta one night at the bar after closing.

"Is everything ok? Is the baby ok?" Roberta asked walking over to Kensi putting her hand on Kensi's stomach and feeling a kick.

"Yea the baby's fine. It's about Deeks and it's kind of personal so if you don't feel comfortable talking about it just say the word."

"Honey, I will talk about anything and you know it. What's going on?"

"Well, Deeks has been having some doubts about his ability to be a good father and I keep telling him that he is going to be amazing but I can't get through to him. I was just wondering if his... if Gordon was always..."

"a drunk, abusive son of a bitch," Roberta said cutting her off.

"Well...yeah."

"How much has Deeks told you?" Roberta asked.

"That he beat you and Deeks and that he shot him when he was 11. I've heard other stories but that's basically the gist. He doesn't like talking about it but I feel like if I knew a little bit more I could maybe help him."

"No he wasn't always like that. When I first met him he was a kind hearted man I'd even go as far to say a gentleman but he was in with a bad crowd. We dated for a while and then he started drinking. It wasn't a problem at first but then he started experimenting with other drugs and abusing me," Roberta said her and Kensi both getting emotional.

"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to," Kensi interrupted not wanting to push too far.

"No it's ok." Roberta took a breath and then continued her story, "I was gonna leave him but then I got pregnant. When he found out he started going to AA meetings and he even got a stable job we eloped on a whim before Martin was born. He was clean until Martin was about 5. He had lost his job because the store he was working for closed. I don't know when but sometime after that he stopped going to AA meetings and started hanging out at local bars. It was too late when I found out and that's when he started hitting me again. Until Martin was about 8 he didn't hit me in front of him then he started making him watch told him he needed to become a man even tried to make him join in a few times. When Martin met Ray I knew something changed in him he started sneaking out and standing up for me when Gordon would beat me. That's when he started beating Martin too. and you know the rest."

Kenis took a few moments to compose herself and soak in what Roberta just told her before she spoke. "Thank you mama B for telling me. It really helps to know the full story. I keep telling Deeks that he's going to be an amazing father. I know he is and everyone knows he is but he just can't see it. I know it's normal to have some doubts but I'm worried Deeks is past doubting his ability and has convinced himself that turning into his father is inevitable."

"Martin has always doubted himself. Just give him time he'll come around as soon as this baby's placed in his arms he'll see what we all see in him."Roberta reassures her daughter in law.

"Thanks mama B," Kensi said pulling her into a hug.

"You know you're gonna have to start calling me Grandma B," Roberta said smiles coming to both of their faces.