Jake's POV:

Its day 10 of Meghan being in the hospital. Her condition is still the same, still unconscious in the crappy thing you call a bed.

I don't think i've let go of her hand since I went home to shower a few days ago. Ive been lying next to her the entire time, only getting up to eat or go to the bathroom or occasionally move out of the way for the nurses.

The nurses told me a few days ago that she could possibly hear what I'm saying and she encouraged me to talk to her as much as possible so she wouldn't freak out when she finally did wake up.

"megs" I mumbled as I rubbed her hands.

"I don't know if you can hear me or not but the nurse said you might be able to" I started, "if that's true I want you to know how much I love you and will continue to love you and the baby forever. I can't wait for us to be parents, I'm so excited."

"Oh my god" I gasped "Cagney and Lacey are gonna love this kid"

I smiled as I began to think of the baby having two older friends to play with.

I lifted my head off her chest when I heard footsteps approaching. I smiled when I saw Meghans friend Annie walked in.

"hey, is it okay if we come in?" she smiled nervously as she lingered in the doorway.

I nodded then furrowed my eyebrows as she said 'we'.

My smile dropped when I saw Meghan's ex walk in the room beside her. I wasn't sure what I was feeling at that moment. I felt extremely angry that he thought he could just show up here like it was nothing but I could also see the good in the situation, he came because he cares right?.

"I don't want to cause trouble, I heard what happened and I wanted to see if she was okay" he assured me.

I gripped Meghan's hand tighter as a way of not letting her go, even though she couldn't move.

"so, how's she doing?" Annie asked as she sat down on the chair.

"the same, she's been the same for 10 days now" I smiled sadly.

"what kind of injuries did she have?" Jeremy asked.

"um, a couple fractured ribs and a cracked scull"

There was a few moments of awkward silence. None of us knowing what to say so we just all stared at different spots in the room.

"so, she's pregnant huh?" Annie asked excitedly.

A smile immediately formed on my face as I nodded.

"yeah, six weeks now"

"and the babies okay?" Jeremy added

"yeah, somehow" I grinned.

At that moment the entire squad walked in. There was suddenly alot of people in one room and I was sure if a nurse came by they would have to leave.

"hello, I'm Annie. Meghans friend from college" Annie smiled as she shook everyones hand.

"This is Jeremy"

As soon as his name was mentioned I felt ever single person in the room tense. it was known around the group that Meghan was cheated on and everyone knew his name.

"I promise I don't want to cause trouble, I just wanted to make sure she was okay" he assured everyone but mainly Holt who was unnervingly quiet.

"excuse me" a voice was heard from behind the group. The group split in two as a nurse slid her way through.

"normally I wouldn't allow this many people in the room but I'll let it slide" she smiled.

"I have a question. Take your time to think about it of course. Would you like to hear the heartbeat?"

I had no idea what to say. I wanted to hear the heart beat so badly but I didn't want to hear it for the first time without Meghan. But who knows how long she'll be like this for.

"I'll need to think about it"

"of course" She smiled again before walking off.

"what do you guys think I should do?" I asked the group.

"I want to hear it but I want here to be here"

"I think you have other opportunities to hear the heart if you don't chose to do so now. Meghan will be happy either way" Amy smiled.

"I think I'll wait until she wakes up. I want her to be apart of this" I nodded a is Made my decision.

Amy smiled as she placed her hand on my shoulder.

"it sucks not having her at work" Charles sighed as he walked over to the side of the bed I was on.

"its quiet without you" Rosa added.

"I miss you guys too but I don't want to leave her, what if she wakes up and I'm not here?" I sigh.

"We understand. Take as much time as you need" Holt spoke up for the first time.

"well we just came to see how you were doing. We'll leave you guys alone" Terry gestured to Annie and Jeremy before dragging the squad out with him.

There was another uncomfortable silence once the others left. I was still trying to decide if I was pissed at Jeremy or not.

"oh um, I found this the other day" Jeremy said as he dug around in his pocket. He pulled out a necklace and handed it over to me.

"it was her mothers. She lost it years ago"

"Thank you" I half smiled as I took the necklace.

"You finally found it?" Annie exclaimed to Jeremy. "I remember her being so upset about losing it"

"it sounds really special to her" I smiled as I looked down at the necklace. It was sterling silver with a butterfly on it. It explains the butterfly tattoo on her rib cage, she always said her mother liked butterflies.

"it was. It was her mothers necklace but she gave it to Meghan just before she died. After she died she grew really attached to it and would never take it off" he explained. "she said she would 'sooner chew of her own leg' than take it off"

"sounds like her" I chuckled.

"well we better go. We want to get back before it gets dark" Annie smiled.

"if she wakes up. Tell her we came" she added before the two walked off.

I fiddled with the necklace before I gently lifted her head and slid the necklace around her neck.

"that was super awkward" I chucked as I rested my head on her shoulder.

"I never thought I would meet your ex. Probably a good thing I didn't meet him sooner, I would have punched him"

"god I miss you" I whispered as I took in a shaky breath that was soon followed by another lot of tears. I hadn't cried this much in m entire life.

"please..please wake up soon. I cant go much longer without you" I sniffled as I clutched her shirt. I brought my arm up to my nose and smelled the sleeve of her hoodie. It still smelled exactly the same after almost a week wearing it. Whenever I started to cry again I simply sniffed the hoodie and I would relax, it was like my own safety blanket.

"you're so beautiful" I whispered as I took her in.

Despite not showering or brushing her hair in a week she still looked perfect. Her hair was still straight and neat, her skin was still warm and soft, her eye lashes still had a little mascara on them. The cut on her eyebrow had now scarred as well as the one on her lip. The nurse took the bandage off her forehead a couple days after the accident.

"how are you still perfect?" I smiled as I brushed back some of her hair and kissed her forehead.

I sighed as I slid down the bed and turned on my side as I wrapped my arms around her. I put one hand on hers then put it on her stomach while I played with her hair with the other hand.

"Jake?"

hehe cliff hanger. Well, not really you know whats about to happen