Chapter 20

It was just like the time when Levi was sick and stayed over night at Eren's house. He woke up in a lovely morning, his chest doesn't hurt anymore but he can still feel the weight on his shoulders.

He figured that Eren might have went down stairs according to the opened door. How nostalgic, Levi look for the rest room but this time he knew very well where it is, then he carefully went down the stairs again due the over sized pajamas that Eren gave me. He poked his head through the arched way of the kitchen. There he saw Eren's back facing at him while the Alpha is cooking something.

Levi quietly tip toe to the Alpha, snaking his around around him and rubbing his head on the others back. He felt Eren flinch followed by a soft chuckle.

"Good morning Levi. How's your sleep?" Eren lowered the fire, he turns around and hugged Levi.

"Better." Levi purrs, rubbing his face on the Alpha's chest.

"That's good to hear. Breakfast will be up soon." Eren stepped back and stir at soup he was making before facing Levi again. "Ummm, you want to talk about it?" Eren asked sheeply.

Levi can see how Eren tries to choose his words. Does Eren thinks he's traumatize? Well, a normal person can be traumatize to what happened on their date but Levi is not normal person.

"Levi, you don't need to talk about it if you're not comfortable. It's alright y-"

"-Titan is dead." Levi blurts out.

Eren stared at him, shock was written all over his face. "Wha- How-" Eren cut himself off. He averted his gaze, he bit his lower lip and Levi can see how his eyes water but no tears fell.

"I killed him Eren." He blurt out again. Eren's eyes widen at his statement. Levi continues with his trembling voice and teary eyes, "I'm so sorry. I should have gave Titan to you then. He wouldn't have-"

"Levi, shhh." Eren cooed and held Levi tight on his chest as the Omega cried. "It's okay, it's not your fault."

"It's all my fault! I didn't took care of him! I ignored his meows because-" I was to busy with my own problems that I don't give a fuck about anyone who tries to approach me. Levi kept the remaining sentences to himself.

Levi cried harder due to the sudden realization. What he did to Titan was the same thing he did to Eren, to Reckon and to Hange. He shut himself to the world around him and it caused one of his precious to leave him. "I'm sorry." Levi cried, hiding his face to the Alpha's chest.

"Levi, listen okay?" Eren pulled him from his chest and lifted the raven's chin, making their eyes lock. "It was not your fault and it will never be. Even if you gave Titan to me, the cat will scratch me and he'll run to you no matter what."

"B-But-"

"You loved him, Levi and I know Titan loves you too. We both knew how critical his health is and how he suffer before we found him. Let's not take his death as a bad thing but let's look at the brighter side, he can finally rest now and he was able to feel wanted and loved from you and I knew very well that he'll remember those times with you."

Levi cried harder but this time he didn't hide his face, he lets Eren see his most vulnerable state. It seem stupid to cry over a cat but it was Levi's cat, the only living thing that he invited on his room (Hange is not invited, she just come and go. She is not counted).

Titan had change him so much. Levi was able to even out is OCD and it help him a lot.

"Thank you," Levi sniffs, somehow he felt better now that one of weight on his shoulder are gone.

Feeling Eren's hands on his cheek, he tried to reach out and kiss those tan hands but Eren stopped him and kissed his tear soaked face. Levi didn't mind the gesture, he felt like Eren is kissing the pain away but only until those soft lips were press on his, Levi went weak on the legs. But Eren didn't push him further.

"Are you okay now?" Eren lets him lean on him until his legs get back on the earth again.

"Better." Finally Levi let himself smile.

"So, where is your mom?" Levi asked. Eren did mention about Carla when he took Levi home when he was sick, it was normal for the Omega to wonder.

"Oh, she died when I was 12."

"Oh... I'm sorry."

"No, it's fine. Though, it would be nice for you to be able to meet her. She was the most kindest, lovable, strict and did I mention kind?"

"Yes, you did." Levi chuckles.

"This house is used to be bright with all her smiles and laughter, and fire." Eren chuckles the last words.

"Fire?!" Levi almost choked on his food.

"Yeah!" He exclaimed, very proud of the idea. "She tend to set the kitchen on fire, I mean literally. She cooks so well but she's not good at handling machines even if she already read the manuals almost everyday." Eren laughs at the memory, those days are fun."

Eren visualize the house while his mother is still alive. Windows opened, letting the light inside and making the curtains dance with the cool breeze. A white table clothe was spread on the dinning table, a vase full of fresh flowers on the middle that never fails to lighten up the mood. Eren saw himself as a child sitting on his chair like he always do, probably gobbling on his food that his mother made just for him. He tends to look up from his plate and smile at the person across his table where he expects to see his mom smiling back at him.

But. It was not his mom that smiled back at him. It was a tiny raven-haired Omega. His smile lights up the house, blue stormy eyes that exceeds any type of fresh flowers that never fails to pull the strings on his heart. His raven hair waves with the breeze, a pale hand settled on his bangs, keeping the strands away from his eyes. The sight simply took his breath away. This Omega is not his mom but the person who took his heart.

"Wow, what else can you tell me?" Levi said then he continues with his food.

"She was ...wonderful." Just like the person who sitting on her chair.