Chapter 22
fair warning: mainly smut included in this chapter
Back at the hotel that night, Hotch was pacing in his room, trying to decide if he should go knock on Emily's door.
He wanted to talk to her about what happened earlier that day but once again, he couldn't think of what he was going to say to her.
Without getting lost in his head too much more, he walked to his door. Right as he opened it, Emily was standing in front of it with her hand up, about to knock.
They stood there staring at each other for a moment until she started walking forward at a determined pace, backing him up into his close to dark room. None of the lights were on but the moon shone through the window enough to see everything.
The door shut behind them and once it did, she grabbed his face and crashed her lips onto his for the second time that day. His hands came around to her back, holding her, as he reciprocated the soft touch of her lips. Her other hand went up to the back of his neck and one of his moved to her waist.
After a minute, she went for his shirt and he pulled it off. He couldn't believe how fast this was happening. She backed him up to the bed, still not breaking the kiss until she took her tank top off that she was going to wear to bed. Leaving her in just her pajama shorts and plain black bra, he sat down on the edge of the bed as her lips returned to his and her hands to his face.
He placed his hands on her sides above her waist as she got up on top of him and straddled him. He laid down flat on his back and pulled her in more. He bit down on her bottom lip, making her whimper and come back to him after with even more tongue.
He moved his hands down to her ass, grabbing her and pulling her waist up as she started grinding on him. He moaned through kisses, "Emily..." She didn't reply except with heavy breathing when she looked in his eyes before returning to his lips again.
She broke away from the kiss to unbutton and unzip his pants, pulling them off and returned to what she was doing before, on top of him.
While she continued to grind on him, she could feel him growing harder against her through his boxers. She flipped her hair to the side and kissed down his neck. She came back up to his face and opened her mouth right away.
He decided to take the lead and flip her over without breaking the kiss. Before she could put her legs around his waist while on her back, he reached for her shorts. He slowly slid them off and coming back up, he kissed the inside of her thigh. His hands wandered all over her body. He moved from one side to the other, kissing her other inner thigh, high up. His lips traveled up to her hips and then a trail up her stomach to her chest, then neck, and paused, looking up into her eyes.
They were both breathing hard before he carefully placed his lips back on hers and she grabbed his face and hair. She wrapped her legs around his waist to pull him closer.
Now on top of her, bodies pressed against each other's, feeling her pulse and soft skin, smelling her perfume, and feeling her presence, he knew for sure how he felt. He knew, without a doubt that he loved her.
When his hands went for her bra, she arched her back, letting him get under to unhook it and slide it off. Once it was gone, he brought his eyes to her breasts for the first time, no longer covered by her bra. He stared for a moment in awe, taking in all her beauty. He brought his gaze back to her and kissed her deep.
He could feel her wet against his boxers and knew he needed her. With her legs still wrapped around him, he sat up and slid her underwear down. She unhooked her legs from around him as he pulled them off. Before he leaned back onto her, he slid his boxers down and let them fall off to the side.
She was amazed at how large he was.
He leaned back down to her and hovered over her, staring into her eyes. He kissed her again and grabbed his length, moving it up and down her wet folds. She moaned as he lined himself up with her entrance and slowly pushed in.
Her mouth opened, breaking their kiss and she gasped as he entered her. He was about to stop, not wanting to hurt her and she could sense that. He was larger than she'd expected but her body just had to adjust. Not wanting him to pause though, she grabbed his back with one hand and the back of his head with the other, pulling him closer, letting him know to continue.
He moved all the way in, embedding himself as deep inside her as he could.
Once he did, he held it there, kissed her deep, and took in the moment before he pulled almost all the way out and slid back inside.
Realizing they'd only spoken a single word since she came into his room, he let himself break the silence. As he started going slow, he moaned quietly, "God... Em... you feel so good.", he kissed her neck, continuing to move in and out.
She ran her hands through his hair and he began to slightly speed up. "Ooohh... Aaron...", she moaned.
He grabbed her ass on the side and started picking up his pace. His other hand went to her hair and his fingers tangled around in it. He stared deep in her eyes and kissed her again, both of them inhaling deeply as he started pumping in and out of her even faster.
Hotch had been wanting this for so long, wanting to be with her, wanting to share a moment like this with her, wanting to share his love. It wasn't just sex to him. It was being intimate with her on a whole other level. A new level that he had desired and never knew he'd be able to reach. He couldn't believe that he had her in that moment. That they were together in that moment. That everything felt so right in that moment. He never wanted to let it go. Their touch on each other was passionate, desperate, deep.
They got lost in the moment, without even thinking, they flipped over at the same time, without him slipping out of her at all. It was like they could communicate without words, they both knew what they wanted without having to say anything.
Once she was on top of him, she laid flat on him, pressing her breasts against his bare chest. She'd grinded on him before but never without clothes on or with him inside her and it elicited an unimaginable feeling in her this time.
She began kissing down his neck till his hands came down to her ass and helped her move along, hitting a spot that made her go crazy and she wasn't ready to end what was happening. She couldn't stop though and she brought her mouth to his ear, pressing the side of her face against his. She was panting hard.
"Aaron... I need you to- oh god...", she managed to get out and before she could finish, he knew what was happening. He flipped her over again, hovering over her with his breath on hers.
He knew she was close and he wanted to send her over the edge but also knew she was holding on because she didn't want it to end yet and neither did he.
He slowed down until he stopped and leaned over to kiss her neck. His lips traveled all the way up to her jaw when he stopped and whispered breathy, "Em..."
He brushed the side of his face against hers till he reached her lips and looked at her straight on, noses touching, foreheads pressed together. They were breathing heavy and his hand came up to her face and stroked her cheek.
He never thought he could ever be so close to her, physically or emotionally.
After a long pause, he finally spoke the words he'd been trying to earlier that day.
"I love you...", he said, steady yet out of breath. Waiting for her response, the fear and anticipation of what she might say next, built up. It felt like the longest moment of silence he'd ever experienced.
Finally, she found the words and didn't have to think about it before they came out of her mouth.
"I love you too.", she said, bringing her hand to his face and stroking it as well.
He felt a wave of relief among many other things, wash over him and very softly smiled and claimed her mouth with his.
He started moving again and spread her legs wider with his in between them, allowing him more access. He pumped in and out of her faster.
When he could feel her whimper against his lips, he moved them to under her chin to the side at the top of her neck.
He moved down to her breasts and took one in his mouth while fondling the other and squeezing it, causing her to make sounds of pleasure.
"Ohhhh... Aaron... please...", she whined.
He moved his mouth to her ear and whispered "What, Em? What do you want?", he panted.
He could feel her start to tighten around him. He smiled across her cheek and jaw still by her ear, where he placed more kisses.
"Come with me, Aaron. Pleaseee... ah fuck... oh my god.", she moaned.
She knew how hot this made him and she couldn't help saying it either. He didn't know he could get any harder but somehow he did. He started thrusting himself into her harder and faster, grunting, while still kissing her neck.
She wanted to scream but knew she couldn't have others hear her so she bit down on her lip hard.
She whimpered and moaned in a high pitch. "Ah- ah- ahhhhhhh... Aaron, harder please... ooooooh fuuuuck.", she whined.
He couldn't help it anymore, she told him to do it and so he slammed into her hard. "Fuck... ahh Em... ah shiiittt...", he hissed.
He knew he was close and she was too, she wanted him to go with her. He brought his thumb down to her clit and started rubbing in circles, keeping up his pace of his hips bucking into her. She felt like she was about to tumble over the edge and dug her fingers into his back. Her breath hitched each time he slammed into her.
"Aaron... ah... I'm gonna-", she struggled to get the words out.
"Let go, Em. Come for me.", he said out of breath.
He felt her start tightening even more around him and she finally released it.
She quietly cried out, trying to not be loud.
"Fuck! Oh my god, yes, yes, Aaron! Holy shit... ahh ahhh.", she moaned in a high pitch again, while she rode out her high.
He felt her fluttering around him and all of a sudden, reached his own climax. He slammed into her a few more times, harder than before, riding out his own high, wanting to scream.
"Oh fuuuuckk! Arrghhh. Ah Emily, fuck! Oh my god...", he growled, collapsing on top of her and pounding in one more time, burying himself all the way inside of her, emptying himself completely.
He dropped his head against her neck and hair and kissed behind her ear.
She kept one hand on his back and one running through his hair. Both breathing heavy as they were coming down.
He finally pulled out of her after a solid minute and sat up, helping her up too.
They scooted to the head of the bed and got under the covers and laid down.
He knew she was going to end up staying the night in there, they were both exhausted after what had just gone down. He couldn't deny the fact that he wanted her to anyways even though it probably wasn't a good idea.
Once they were lying down on their sides, facing each other, he stared deep in her eyes that were so close to his. Their bodies were pressed against each other's.
A corner of his lip turned up as he brushed away a few curls in her face and tucked them behind her ear. She smiled at the simple touch when he traced her cheekbone after that, holding his hand in place.
"I've said it before but I'm not going to stop saying it... You're so beautiful, Em... you're so goddamn beautiful. I love you.", he said softly.
She wrapped her arm around his torso.
"I love you too, Aaron.", she said. He leaned into her more and placed his lips on hers. She felt how soft they were and he loved how sweet she was. Neither of them wanted to let go.
"I can't believe that happened... and I can't believe the way you make me feel.", he said. He brought his hand down to around her back.
"I'm glad I'm here with you right now. I don't know how much longer I could handle it. Seeing you everyday, not getting to touch you at all, talk to you like this. This is perfect right here.", she said.
"You're perfect.", he said, giving her another kiss.
She smiled and rested her head on his chest and he kissed the top of her head.
He drew little circles on her back as she grew more and more tired, eyes finally closing.
He decided they both needed some rest and shut his eyes as well, feeling more satisfied than he had for a long time.
He whispered in her ear, "Goodnight, Em. I love you."
He thought she must've been asleep after a moment of silence until he felt a tear fall from her eye onto his chest and she wiped it away with the sheets covering them. He brought her chin up to look at him.
"Em, what's wrong?", he asked.
"I don't wanna ruin this moment.", she said.
"Emily...", he said.
She sighed, "I just feel guilty now...", she said.
"I know... I do too... What can I do?", he asked.
"The only thing that makes me feel better is you. Moments like this. But having these moments is also what I feel guilty about... I don't know.", she sighed.
"Hey, I'm right here. Right now, it's just me and you. Okay? We're not focusing on anyone or anything else. Just right now. We'll deal with it tomorrow or whenever we get back, okay?", he said.
"Alright, fine.", she said.
"Good. You need some rest, go to sleep.", he whispered, stroking her hair.
She looked at him right in the eye and grabbed his face and kissed him.
"Thank you.", she said with a smile.
He chuckled, "For what?"
"For being you.", she said.
He rubbed her shoulder and said, "You bring out the best in me... well... most of the time.", he laughed as she slapped him playfully and giggled.
"I was kind of surprised that you told me that tonight.", she said.
"Told you what?", he asked.
"... That... you love me...", she said shyly.
"Oh, well, I tried to tell you earlier but you told me to shut up and when I tried again, you kissed me so I figured I may as well try again while we were doing what we just did. Kind of made sense to.", he chuckled again. He paused and his tone became more serious but loving. "But, it also just came out... because... it's true, Emily. I do love you and I feel like I've known you so long and I know what you're gonna say, that yes, well, actually we have known each other for years... but there was a huge gap in between. And now it feels like we're re-connected. And I just can't explain it but something has always drawn me to you. I guess it all started back when I met you the first time. You were so sweet and beautiful then too and so intelligent, I knew you were going to do great things, Em, and you have. I'm so proud of you and how far you've come, all your hard work and your successes. That's one reason why I love you. You make me proud of you. That's just one reason. There's so many more.", he said.
"God, Aaron, I thought you were trying to make me stop crying.", she said, tearing up. "I can't list the reasons why I love you but I hope you know that I do.", she said.
"As of tonight, I do.", he said touching her face. "I'm sorry for all the times I've hurt you, Em. I don't deserve having you in my life like this.", he said.
"Aaron, don't say that. You deserve so much. You deserve to be happy. Ever since you said it tonight, it's all I want to tell you, so you can believe it. Or feel better about everything, or at least have it bring some comfort to you. So I'm going to say it again... Aaron Hotchner, I love you. And I don't want to hear you say anything like what you just did about yourself again.", she said.
"You warm my heart, Emily Prentiss. That is one more reason why I love you.", he said, smiling.
She smiled back and kissed him before laying her head back down against his chest. "Goodnight, Aaron.", she said, hugging his side.
"Goodnight, Em.", he said, kissing the top of her head.
She fell asleep within minutes and he laid awake for over an hour, taking in every second that he got to hold her.
Thoughts running through his head about what to do after that night.
He was still married and she was still with Derek. But they loved each other and they finally knew it. They finally shared their love for each other in one of the most intimate ways they desired.
He knew his marriage was coming to an end. He'd tried so hard to save it but he knew it was already over. The only thing was that neither he or his wife had actually walked away yet.
Maybe this changes everything for him and for Emily's relationships. He thought.
Regardless, he had to talk about it with her later and he needed to sleep before then. He eventually drifted off, comfortably holding her for the rest of the night.