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Ellen
"Last cookie in the pack".
The words still echoed in my ears after he was gone, like a madman screeching his tires.
- idiot. For you I will be the last cookie in the package and not any package. Swiss cookies you asshole-I say huffing with anger.
Everything was going so well, dinner, his words. Only he decided to go further. For Giacomo, sex can be just sex. I'm not like that. I only went to bed with two people who were my boyfriends and I really had feelings for them. With Giacomo it's worse. I know that I am falling in love with him and if I surrender, there will be nothing left of my heart when he leaves me. I need him to be sincere, to have feelings. I am not asking as he said, to marry him. But if it is for him to do as he always does and forget the next morning, I will continue to hate him, as I always have.
When I go home I lie on the couch. Bartolomeu my dog approaches.
- I have been so absent with you, my little one. After they died I abandoned you- I say while I caress his little head. He wags his tail happily and lies down beside me.
He is a brown pug, small and docile. I bought him when I was in the USA and we didn't part ways anymore. I am lost in my thoughts until I hear the intercom ring. I look at the camera monitor and see Lexie, with the girls and the nanny. That's weird. It's almost midnight. I open the door and startled when I see her crying.
-God, what happened?-I ask, startled.
- oh Ellen ...- she almost can't speak because she is crying so much
- Mark is an asshole. I hate him.
- do not tell me that the perfect couple had their first fight? - I ask non conformed - if this happened I will completely discredit love and marriage. Come in. I will accommodate the girls and wait for me in the room.
I pick Sophia up and the nanny picks up Melanie. They both look scared.
- my girls, everything will be fine here at Aunt Ellen's house. Mom is very hysterical- I just try to calm them down, although they must not know the word hysterical.
- what happened Deborah? - I ask the nanny, as we go up to my room.
- I don't know Miss Ellen. They started arguing, shouting in the bedroom and then Lexie asked me to pack the girls' bag and come with her.
- right. Give the girls a bath in the bathtub to distract them. There are ducklings in the closet. Then put them on my bed and see if you can get them to sleep.
- leave it to me. I kiss them both and go back to the living room. Lexie is sitting with her face in her hands crying copiously. I approach and hug her. She hugs me back and we stay like that for several minutes, until we can speak.
- he doesn't even want to hear that I'm going back to work. I studied so much and now I spend the day at home. I take care of my daughters, but all day Ellen, I feel worthless - she says through tears - I wanted to work even if it was part time at Hesgher.
- wow, Mark is grimace. Why doesn't he want you to work? Is he jealous?
- no. He said that I will not take good care of my daughters and said that if I work, he will find another woman to take good care of his daughters - she chokes on crying when she says that - he does not love me anymore. He's tired of me, he wants to get another one. I hate him, I hate him.
- Mark is not like that. You know Mark- I run a hand through her hair and she lays her head on my chest, she looks exhausted- he does silly things, he's a caveman, but he loves you too much. He only said that because he must have been nervous.
- no. He shouted loudly "you don't want to take care of my daughters? Then leave them here and I will find a woman to take care of them".- she gestures with her hand, as if Mark were here. - Mark's cruel. And does he know you're here?
- If I know him, no. Otherwise, he would be here to pick up his daughters. I snuck out after he went to sleep. can I stay here?
- of course Lexie. If you want to come and live with me I will love it. I hate the loneliness. Let's eat something and sleep. You look tired.
- I won't eat and I don't even know if I'm going to sleep. I hate him, only I love him too much- she says like a lost little girl.
- how can you love and hate? I ask myself. Remembering the discussion with Giacomo.
- I don't know Ellen, I don't know.
- it was just a fight. Tomorrow is another day and you will be kissing. She nods and we go to the bedroom. The nanny tries to make the girls sleep, but they don't stop.
- you can leave Deborah. You can go to the guest room next door and rest.
- Yes. Mrs. Lexie, if you need to, you can call me. Excuse me- she says and leaves.
- you are very naughty. Did you want to party?
- The two look at me laughing. I lie down on the bed and start tickling the two and start laughing.
- mama- Melanie stretches her arms wanting to be picked up
- come my love- Lexie picks her up and starts to lull her. I do the same with Sophia and they fall asleep quickly. We set them down in the middle of the bed and lay one on each side.
My bed is huge, it fits an entire family well. That was always unnecessary, but today it's been great. We lay in silence. I can't fall asleep. Lexie breaks the silence.
- you are not well right? What happened?
- nothing you have to worry about today. There are already many things in that little head.
- you can tell me. If I know you well, you're dying to vent. I laugh at the comment. She knows me like no one.
- do you think Giacomo can change one day? Become a family man like Mark?
- I think you already know my answer. I love that headless one too much, but he serves as a friend, nothing more. I've seen what he does with the women he sleeps with and I guarantee you, it's not pretty. I let out a rueful sigh.
- you fell in love with him didn't you?
- is that a question or a statement Lexie?
- it's a question, I already know the answer
- she replies. - I don't know what I feel. I only know that I am entering a combat zone, full of minefields and with the certainty that I can only get hurt. We were silent, each with their suffering and ended up falling asleep.
When dawn comes, I call Luan and tell him that I'm going to Pompeo after lunch. I need to help Lexie and that stubborn Mark. I think about waking up the three who sleep soundly, but first I go down and go to the kitchen, tell the cook that we will have visits for breakfast.
When I go down the stairs I can already hear someone banging on the door. Mark has arrived. The show will start.
I open it slowly and he invades my house like a hurricane, accompanied by the tornado Giacomo.
- what a pleasant way to start the day. I thought it was just Giacomo who had no education, but you Mark Sloan? This is looking like a cavalry.
- where is she? - Mark asks altered. He has dark circles, red eyes and a small cut on his lashes- please tell me they are here?
- calm Mark. They're here, sleeping. Or they were sleeping, right before this scandal. Your face is bleeding.
- I crashed the car coming here and Giacomo had to bring me.
- they are there in my room, go there and behave like the man Lexie deserves. You hurt her very much - I scold him. He doesn't even finish listening and runs up the stairs. I realize that I am almost naked, wearing only a baby doll, when I notice Giacomo's eyes on my legs.
- what is it? Never seen them?- I tease him.
- full of cellulite? no- he replies. Idiot, a thousand times idiot. I do not let myself be overwhelmed by the comment.
I smile and say: - baby, your eyes don't say that you thought my legs were ugly and something there also tells me that you are very excited. He is speechless. Touché.
- now get out of my house. You have not been invited.
- I only go out with Mark and Lexie. She must have done this madness because of you, you snake, you must have turned her head.
- I am not to blame if your friend is an insensitive and ignorant scream. He has this power to take me seriously.
- he is only thinking of the best for them.
- not always the best for you men who only think with your head down, is the best for us.
- why are you including yourself in this conversation? Remembering yesterday, when your eyes begged to grab me and your head, which is the size of an egg, did it become difficult? What is? Did you think I was going to beg baby?
- it wouldn't be a bad idea to see you begging for something Giacomo. But I did not lower myself to those levels. Nothing that comes from you matters to me, nothing understood?
We are very close. I can feel his breath touching my skin. I wake up to real life when I hear the noise of children. When I look, I see Lexie hugging Mark. Each has one of their daughters in their arms. The scene is beautiful. I knew the fight wasn't going to last. I have never seen love as great as theirs. My eyes fill with tears at the scene.
- my God Mark. You said you were going to kill her- Giacomo comments smiling. He looks happy for his friend.
- I'll kill her when I get home from kissing her so much - Mark says trying to hug the three possessively - I'm an asshole, that's all - he scolds himself.
- I'm leaving by taxi Gi, you don't have to worry about me. You can go to work, you've helped me a lot today. You've spent a lot for me.
I Whisper in Lexie's ear when she hugs me: - it was too easy, you should have done more with him.
- he crashed the car, cried all night and asked for a thousand pardons. It was enough - she walks away and winks at me. Women. We are powerful when a man loves us.
They leave and Giacomo remains standing in the middle of the room looking at me.
- what, never seen? - I ask the same question again.
- not so beautiful- he replies.
I open my mouth to answer. He won't let me. Holds me, lifts me off the floor and kisses me. I literally feel like I'm in the clouds!