SerenityxEndymion: yeah I thought they needed to get that out of the way. Plus I did remember all the times where they got into physical spats and knew it wasn't totally out their character norm to do this which is what I was making sure of to. yeah I don't mind somewhat misleading chapters as long as the end result is what the views, like you guys and myself, still get what we want. And the next time they see each other will be less punchy for sure. And yeah I ALMOST put that in the title but I didn't want to give it away.

Puffgirl1952 the 2nd: you know I was debating on it, but giving it back to her the way she did was fitting in think since she doesn't directly give it back to her. she drops it and leaves. Its her way of saying 'I'm only doing this cause your still a fighter senshi and for the innocents out there that's needed, and I'm hoping that by doing this you'll see the point of all of this.' Had she handed it back to her then it would have seemed like it defeated the purpose so this way she's still letting her be a senshi BUT it doesn't mean that their good friends still. Their kind of far from that right now and she just showed Rei just how they are. Thanks though.

Joanne Frances Tiano Cajilig: glad you liked it, and yeah they both have heavy pills to swallow and that will be coming up shortly to. and yeah usagi father will be mentioned on things soon to.

Rjzero00: wow thank you. I'm glad it blew you away. Yeah usagi needed to do that so that the ending I had in mind could play out as well as it did. Especially so that the aftermath of Rei's perspective could play out the way it will. Yeah the motoki picking apart Mamoru's stuff was good but this was in my mind its own level of awesome. Two of the most stubborn characters on the show going head to head and the one showcasing why in the end she was the better everything to the other. And Rei didn't downplay Minako cause Minako's been on usagi's side since the first blow up took place. Deep down she knows Minako has her own skill sets that she used while being in England, but she didn't like how Minako was the first to go to Usagi's side and not side with her. so she didn't bother making a comparison. And it was for the conversation since in the SMC their not really at odds with each other, even in the manga their actually a bit closer as friends and in the live action Rei may be distant but she's not a total bitch or anything. The anime made her and usagi's relationship/friendship worse than the other versions. So I had to get everything together in the right proportions to make it fit right. Glad you enjoyed it though.

LoveInTheBattleField: thanks. And to you as well.

kera69love: yeah she feels that way but she doesn't like to admit it obviously. She feels her feelings on the matter make her weak and doesn't want to admit it even to herself. No usagi cant help it but she's going to deflect until she cant deflect anymore, then its defeat. That happened physically to her and now she has to own up to it. and Rei has had that higher than thou attitude for a while so this put her in her place in more ways than one. she was the one that felt she should be leader, among other things and downplayed Usagi's role for a lot to. plus if I recall correctly when the girls were making a play in the anime to get Mamoru back from the negaverse, usagi did give Rei the moon wand for protection in case she herself got captured while trying to save mamoru. And furthermore, if I also remember correctly you could kind of see the slight anger in her when she showed the wand to the other girls. She was aggravated, angered and even looking a little jealous. I always though that was because yes she had to convince the girls that usagi had given it to her for safe keeping, which she did but really because she felt the lack of energy in it. only usagi can activate it and she felt the lack of power in it. it angered her that it was obviously meant for usagi as leader and it was one more thing to get pissy about cause there was actual proof that she wasn't meant to be leader but usagi was. Usagi was putting her life on the line yet again, and usagi was the one making the right call to give her moon wand away to those that would keep it safe so that they enemy couldn't use it against them. it had been a smart call to make and I think that rei was as secretly proud of her as much as she secretly hated that usagi made such a tough and smart call that she hadn't. but those are my thoughts on it. usagi knows what she's capable of and wants her to her fullest potential to and not stuck in this jealous past that Rei is in.

Princesakarlita411: yeah luna finally wised up. your about to find out and same to you to.

Sailormoonfan1987: you'll find out, you'll find out, you'll find out. lol

Marie Kin: yeah I guess in a metaphorical sense she did drop the truth tea all over her. lol and yes there's a lot of pinning and fighting still to come between the characters.

AimlesslyGera: yeah I've seen a few stories like that and they either got dragged on to much or they were, the ones that I read, were left incomplete. I didn't want to do either.

CassieRaven: yeah she did deserve it and it was the check she needed and you'll see what I mean soon enough.

Serenity24Luna: thanks.

karseneau1: basically yeah and this will definitely have an impact on both girls and luna to since she did see the confrontation happen.

Ch18: I wouldn't say Mamoru is damaged goods or that she's selfish defined. He's not the exact prince that she remembers just like she's not the exact princess that he remembers. They still have those memories and personalities in them making them one in the same however they still are just usagi and mamoru. He just doesn't know how to express himself right cause she was always the one doing the expressing and the work beforehand. She was always the one fighting for them, she just wants him to fight for her now and he's working on that. granted she didn't know how to fight either in the beginning having never fought for a guy before, she went off instinct and won, his instinct is, while well intended not delivered well at all at the moment. But things are changing for them both.

SerenityDeath: I think it was the fight that was needed in the moment. Thanks and I will.

Guest (1): thanks. 😊

Hotgirlow: she always did ignore it a lot didn't she? Lol things will come around in time you'll see.

setokayba2n: oh opps yup

Jovemako: yeah I had a feeling if the senshi had been there it would have been stopped way earlier and things wouldn't have gotten worked out as they did so it needed to really be as audience free as it got. And yes there is. And yes there are many relationships in this story that need to be fixed.

Oracle Sybil: I had to smile at reading the first sentence in your review. Lol I appreciate the positive feedback, its entertaining to read a lot of these reviews. And okay was just curious was all. Whenever I was looking for a story mine was always on jealousy types or sexual themed ones. Lol

Guest (2): oh she will trust me, there's another scene of them coming up so it'll be interesting.

InuKaglover4ev22: okay good, and I honestly thought I put him down as being 19-20 cause through Usagi's POV she's guessing his age. he never specifically stated how old he was so she was guessing (for example in ch.16) that he was 20 which yes that means he still an adult regardless, but 19-20 is better than 22-23 hitting on her, or liking her in that way. As for usagi and rei's fight, I almost had them going at it for longer but there was no more furniture for them to break up plus after a while her grandfather would have heard and came over to see what was going on. either way it had to end. But yes it was a long time coming. I almost did have her take it but it didn't feel right for this story to do so, so I had her give it back the best way possible without her being to nice about it. they will get a chance to talk though. And yes to say that their not friends anymore hurt them both on different levels but it was needed. and yeah luna definitely knows she was wrong now and will be speaking with usagi on it shortly.

No extra's: rei has learned a huge lesson and you'll see that coming up soon. Don't worry he backed up a bit.

Yin - Yang M: thanks, I'm glad it worked out as it did and that popcorn you described made me want some to. lol

Selenity Hime 13: oh yeah it was so deserved and I think for Usagi to do it was very fitting. It shows her rise above being subdued by Rei even in the small senses. Telling her verbally how it is and explaining things a bit to her is a definite step (though a small one seen) in their relationship.

25 reviews really nice, glad you all are enjoying this, I've come to see that we are nearly the end, we've over halfway through now and I might just make it to 30 chapters but might not but either way its going to be great. please read and review!

Breaking point ch.20

Rei POV

I sat on my knees for who knew how long. My nose was bleeding still, my body felt like it had been put through a small ringer. I had definitely lost the title match on that fight and I only had myself to blame. I let my emotions get the better of me while Usagi remained calm and poise. I hated her for it as much as I respected her for it. She really had learned from us all and I hadn't wanted to see it.

So she gave me a taste of it. It bothered me that I could tell she was holding back from truly hurting me. I still had a bloody nose and definitely some bruises on me now. I wanted to lash out again. Kick. Scream even. Yet I had no more energy in me to do so. Instead I stood up and cleaned up the mess that we made during our fight. I knew I deserved it. Both the mess and the beat down.

Usagi had stood up for a lot in life but when it came to me she backed down, she tried to make peace unless we were play fighting. A stupid argument over a comic book. Over a boy we both liked or even because she tricked me into eating something hot. This however was way different than anything before. I got my ass handed to me on a royal platter and my inner Mars I could feel was rolling her eyes at me in disappointment.

I had to admit to that to. The voice in my head telling me in subtle ways how wrong I was, was myself, from the past. The part of my past that I tried on occasion to ignore. I felt like if I let it fully in then I would lose my identity here in the present. I had already let the senshi business take part of my life but I didn't want to lose anything more. Till I had to realize I wouldn't be losing anything…I was gaining.

I looked out the window. Luna's form long since gone when she left. She didn't give me a verbal tongue lashing but her words were cutting nonetheless. Usagi could have very well made me incapable of being a senshi again and she only let me keep my transformation stick for of my own safety as well as the safety of civilians that would be around me if anything were to happen so that I could still do my duty.

She still cared enough to do that and knew well enough that I was still a capable fighter for the defense of innocents. No matter what personal crap was going on between us, she knew I'd never let an innocent get hurt over petty squabbles between us. She's smarter than I gave her credit for. Plus, I couldn't believe she actually picked it from my pocket to. That's when it hit me. All the time's I put her into a grip she was figuring me out.

She was configuring my next move so she could take me down quick and fast. I had a bad feeling that was the ONLY reason why she got wrangled into some of the head locks I put her in, to get close enough to swipe my stick. I wiped the blood from my mouth before it could dry completely. It still left a red tainted smear on my lips that I could taste. My nose was definitely sore and in pain, not broken thankfully.

I walked into my bathroom and washed my face off. I saw the redness, the sores that would be there for days to come. I wanted to be upset at her but she proved herself worthy of so much and I knew deep down she shouldn't have had to. I felt the tears coming on hot as my emotions overcame me. Her final words on our friendship came to mind. It hurt more than I wanted to admit to hearing those words.

I prided myself on being tough, clever, intuitive, in control…yet today Usagi proved she was all those things and more. I didn't even get the chance to tell her about the issues around Chibi Usa, I was too busy reacting to her trying to talk to me. I fought against her in pure anger and let so much take over. That's not who I was. At least I tried not to let that be who I was and yet it came out, and she won.

I had to face facts…had to face the truth…I had been messing up as a friend. I looked away from myself in the mirror, not wanting to see the disappointment in those eyes. The eyes of Mars as she'd look back at me. I felt it stirring within. She wanted me to face more but I had a feeling I had to have Usagi here for the rest. How did I get so bad, do far off from being a good friend that I couldn't even LOOK at my past self in a damned mirror?

I forced myself to return the focus and saw her eyes. Her dissatisfied feelings towards me and what I had let happen between Usagi and myself. You knew you had this coming…her voice rang out in my head. You knew this day was bound to come and yet you ignored my warnings. I didn't want to hear it but in my emotional state I couldn't banish her to the back of my head like usual, I was stuck listening to her.

I tried to tell you to ease up…to listen to her…to stop with the badgering…to let up and be there as I was for our princess…but you didn't listen. Now look where you're at…without your friends…you're lucky she left you with your transformation stick…I'm not sure Queen Serenity would have been as kind. Her words sparked anger at myself within them. I for so long pushed her to the back of my head I didn't heed her warning.

They were barely there whispers back then, I didn't want to admit to it. To my own faults. To consumed in anger to let anything else even a part of myself in to reflect, to talk to…to accept ownership and responsibility. I shifted so much to Usagi on issues. Made her feel bad for things that weren't her fault. Anything to avoid the anger at myself. Anger that I wasn't as good as I thought I was.

My own pride got in the way. Made me upset from day one when Luna made her the leader when I felt deep in my gut it should have been me. That she, the cry baby who made moon eyes at tuxedo mask wasn't worthy of being our leader. I felt that she wouldn't take the responsibility seriously. When in reality I just hadn't wanted to admit that a bubble headed blonde could be a better leader than me and she was.

I even tried to manipulate Ami to my will, even when Makoto didn't budge. I got upset when Tuxedo Mask, before we knew he was Mamoru that is, would protect her mostly over any of us during battles. He did help us out a lot but he only ever picked her up from being smashed or almost killed. I got upset when he made it obvious he had a connection and a thing for her and not myself.

So I joined in on the 'hate and don't trust tuxedo mask' band wagon with Luna. Tried to press Ami to see it our way. My jealousies getting the better of me to make her suffer for gaining his attention. I remembered my thinking back then had been 'if he doesn't want me, and if I can't have him, then neither can they have each other'. It was selfish to feel that way and luckily no one figured me out on it.

Didn't make it any less worse when we found out who he was and what he was to her. Nor did it help that the one guy I thought I liked turned out to NOT be someone that I liked in that way, but someone that I wanted to take away from her. I cared about Mamoru don't get me wrong and I like him to but not in that way. We bonded a bit over being only children but nothing to extensive in any other way. It became clear to me soon afterwards that I simply wanted what she had and she didn't even have him.

I had him, I 'dated' him, or our version of it…but his attention was on her. He would antagonize her and she would react and gain his attention. It was always on her, and that was what I wanted, the attention of the cute guy. Back then anyways. It had been childish acting and soon enough I knew I had to let that go. So I did…I let it go for 'destiny's' sake but it burned me that she was always getting what I wanted from the moment we met.

Granted none of us knew she was the moon princess, not even her, but once we found out she was I couldn't help but feel a spike of jealousy that once again she got something. Did I want to be the moon princess, no cause I learned around the same time that I was the princess of Mars and I loved knowing where I came from. That I was a fiery princess. I felt pride in it and even felt pride in my duty.

I just hadn't felt pride that our princess and leader was Usagi. I felt she could have been better, that she needed to be better. Yet in my eyes she wasn't. She didn't change much once she found out about who she used to be. She whined about losing Mamoru to Beryl. Whined about having to fight him on occasion. She just whined! I hated it and felt she should be stronger. Perhaps looking back on it now I was in the wrong for that.

Finding out she was a reincarnated princess then having her prince kidnapped and then having him brainwashed couldn't have been easy and I didn't let up on her. I just kept remembering the bratty cry baby I felt she was and I guess I never let go of that perception of her…even when it changed. It's why I told Mamoru that she was a hurricane that not everyone wanted. I hadn't wanted her in my life at first.

Not even close. She was annoying, klutzy, a crocodile tear crybaby and she got in my last frayed nerve ending. It's why I was so happy the day that Chibi Usa came crashing in to our lives. She was someone else that could poke fun of Usagi and get away with it since she was a kid far from home. Yet after a while I knew Usagi didn't deserve some of it and not only did I encourage it, I still treated her as I had…not like a friend at all.

She had been right to call me out for it. I had been jealous of so much. Angry at her for so much and yet none of it was her fault. Yet it didn't stop me from blaming her for it. Didn't stop me from being mean to her and getting away with snappy remarks. She took it like a doormat till she broke and grew a ridged backbone. I sighed as I didn't know what this new Usagi would bring next. More so I wondered, "When did I fall so far from where I once was as a person?" yet I knew there'd be no answer.

Luna POV

I knew I was going to have to have this conversation with her. It was a long time coming especially after Artemis rung me out…verbally speaking. So when I had finally had a chance to check up on Usagi she was in her room. Doing her homework. My first instinct was to make a smart remark but I knew that wasn't right. I sighed, I had to make this right and NOT poke fun at her or act shocked when she did something right.

I had been a bad advisor for to long. The many nights and days where I had watched over her and saw how she was told me how wrong I had been to make my assumptions about her. She looked to me as I entered the room, "Usagi we need to talk." I could tell she knew this would be a serious conversation and instead of trying to evade it as I thought she initially would she gave me the floor.

This also told me how wrong I had been about things. She was facing her problems head on. I wondered how much I had missed since she distanced herself and broke apart from us. How much did I not see BEFORE then? I hoped up on the bed where she sat as she put her books off to the side. Her features were reminding me more and more of her former princess self yet she wasn't exactly the princess I remembered.

That's where one of my faults lied. I forgot that she was still just Usagi, not just a princess. I forgot that she was also still a teenager that I had made into a senshi and told she needed to fight the forces of evil and do it without complaint. That she had a destiny to complete yet I never asked her what she wanted. I never bothered to wonder if she had any aspirations. I never bothered to treat her with any respect beyond what I felt she deserved and didn't try to see if she had evolved.

That would stop now, "First off I wanted to tell you how proud I am of all that you've done." I began, as I saw her face shift from 'what do you want?' to 'am I hearing you right?'. It was sad to read that on her face but I knew it was accurate. "I think I spent so much time pushing you to do better and constantly on you that I failed to realized that you were and are doing better." I admitted as she shifted once more.

I couldn't tell if she was feeling more or less guarded and I should at this point know her mannerisms by now. That was also my failure. "In everything. I'm honestly ashamed of myself for not seeing it sooner. I am your guardian and advisor after all, and yet there were so many things I missed simply because I assumed. I didn't pay attention. I listened to the wrong people and it didn't help." I could tell she was listening to me.

That she paid attention, unlike myself that say in the temple when she came to all of us for advice when she put herself and Mamoru on a break. My only concern had been that she had made a mistake, that the future of the royal line was at stake and she was acting irrational when she was looking for comfort and support. I let my feelings over the royal moon line take over and gave her the impression of what I saw her as.

It wasn't true. I saw her as more than that, I just needed to see her to. Yet even before that though I knew Artemis had strong points. He had been right about so much. I needed to be a better advisor to her, "In the beginning you needed me as an advisor, but I didn't realize that over time you did surpass me or the need for me." it hurt to admit that. "In many ways and I failed to see that. Yet I should have been the one to see it first." Yet it hurt worse that I hadn't caught it a lot sooner than before…especially before Artemis verbally blasted me.

I think she saw how genuine I was being. How much I felt regarding this and I did feel greatly upset at myself for letting this happen. For failing to be there for her and for failing in my duty towards her. She deserved better. "I have to say I'm a little shocked to hear this but pleased nonetheless." Her words give me a dash of hope that perhaps our own relationship isn't as far gone as I once predicted we were.

I had hoped that I hadn't strained our relationship too far. That we could still get back to a friendship as we had been at once before. She did seem skeptical though and that worried me, "While we still have more talking to do and progress to make as we can restart our friendship here." I had to admit that her words did hurt me a little bit. I had hoped that we could pick up where we left off and just talk about it but apparently I had done more damage than I thought I had and had to make up for it.

I would do it though. This young woman had saved the world several times over, she was the one who accepted her fate and became a strong senshi in this war. Perhaps the strongest of all with her bravery, her growth, her will power and most of all her generous heart that saved more lives than I thought was possible. Saving the lives of our enemies even. I truly didn't give her enough credit in the end.

"Since we seem to be a bit knee deep in things here…I'm going to jump to waist deep and see if I can I ask you about something?" she nods her head, "Yes, ask away." I clear my throat, this wasn't going to be easy to ask. It should have been asked a long while ago to. "What happened with Diamond? I was given a summed up version but I want to know from you, what happened when you were trapped with him?" I watched as a lone tear came down her face. I could sense right then and there a great pain had come over her.

She almost chuckled but in a near depressing way. As if the reflection of it was still in the back of her mind and wouldn't ever leave her. As if she had hidden away and dealt with a great pain and loss of her own. It was painful to see the expressions on her face change out even as she held herself away from me. What had he done to her? "I don't think the king knew just how bad Diamond had it for his wife. Had it for me…" her words became hollow as she spoke, as if distancing herself from what had happened.

She looked out the window and breathed in, "When I woke up it was dark, with only a few lights on. Barely enough to see across the room I was trapped in. I felt for my broach and found it laying just next to me." that's when she gave a sardonic chuckle, "He didn't even bother to take it from me." that was shocking. One would think he'd remove it from her so she had no source of power to rely upon.

"He knew it was essentially a useless gem so close to the dark crystal. He knew that even its power so close to his own was nothing compared to the heart of his and left it sitting next to me." I hadn't known how powerful that prince really was but it shouldn't surprise me. He was from the future after all. Who knew how long he'd been alive to master his talents. To hone his skills to get what he wanted in life.

We didn't knew much about his backstory so to know that such a powerful unknown enemy had Usagi held captive for even those few hours while she was unable to transform was terrifying. I couldn't believe how clueless we had been and our 'hope' that Usagi would be fine once Mamoru got to her. What happened before he got there though? "When I woke up in that room he held no fear of being around me."

That was unheard of. Enemies that were new to this world to see someone possess powers when normally they didn't should strike fear yet he was unaffected by it. "Being the infamous Sailor Moon only meant to him that he had what he wanted. His trophy." It was appalling to hear how he viewed her. A trophy. The next Queen of the Moon was NOT meant to be a trophy to anyone let alone to the forces of darkness.

"The crystal for him was an added bonus that he planned to merge into his dark crystal. I wasn't a scary figment of good to him, I was an object to desire to have. He wanted me alive to rule beside him." Why the hell hadn't the king told us about this? How did he know so little about the enemy? Did he NOT want to admit that even with all of their advanced technology that one man's obvious disturbed need to have his wife could bring the kingdom to its knees? Why weren't we told about this?

All he told us was about the rogue planet that formed the dark moon clan then the attack that happened. He made a mention of the criminals that were sent there by them but not of the individuals there. How did he not know? As a king he should have known or at the very least should have known about Diamond obvious possible sociopathic or psychotic obsession for his own wife.

So many questions I wanted to have answered but only the king knew and I had no way to talk with him. "He used his powers to lift me from the bed I was on and tried to touch me." my heart started to pound in my little body. I was glad I was sitting as I was feeling weakness in my extremities from what I was hearing. "I used the only strength I had left to push him away but he used his third eye to control my body. I had no control over my own form at that point forward." That part broke me as I saw her face.

Her own tears that just fell unheeded as she spoke. No balling out nothing like that. Her tears were that of her experience. "I wasn't just power's powerless, I was physically powerless. I couldn't will my body to move. Couldn't force it to do anything. It was like my muscles were locked in place and would only move to his will. They only control I had was to talk till he didn't want to listen anymore. Then even speech was rendered null." To hear her tell me what happened I couldn't stop the tears from pouring out myself.

I saw her emotional state and could almost feel her feelings as if they were my own. There was so much emotional pain that I was getting from her and it scared me on what she had gone through. The very pain that I never gave her the chance to tell me, "Once he stopped me from speaking the only thing I could do was cry. I was immobile." I begged internally for it to not go on to be worse only for her sake.

"It was like I had been drugged, only problem was with this I could feel everything. His touch on my skin. His breath on my face as he got close enough to brush his lips to mine." And that's when it hit me. I saw the tears fade away. Dried up and saw the emotional anguish she was in, that she was putting herself through by drudging this up. She didn't need to cry for me to know that this was hard.

It was in her voice, in her eyes, the way she held her pillow close to her now as if it were a shield for her state of mind. To this day what happened to her still affected her. It traumatized her in a way and I hadn't been there as she had needed me. I had let the fact that we were on a strict time frame get in the way of seeing how she was dealing with her time spent with him. We all did and she had put on a brave front for all of us.

I could feel my own tears pouring out for her now. That was when I recalled more of Artemis's words to me. That despite their many accomplishments at the end of the day their still teenagers trying to cope with being soldiers in the good versus evil war AND living a normal life. I couldn't help but wish that I could hold her as either of her mother's would from both this life and the last.

"The only thing that stopped him from continuing on was Mamoru coming in to pull me away." She continued on, "But even after that, as we were leaving Diamond wanted to come after us. To take me back. I remembered feeling nauseated that he'd catch up to us, take me back and kill Mamoru…but he wasn't able to." That shocked me. I hadn't known about another attempt on her before they got back.

Then again we really didn't give them a chance to. "Not that he didn't want to he tried. I saw him move with anger towards us, but there was a very windy force that came in out of nowhere and attacked his third eye. He was blinded by it and was unable to track us. I can still hear his angry cries that he lost me. That he lost his shot to force me into servitude to his every whim." As much as I know she felt for him towards the end, in the sense of feeling sorry for him, knowing he'd been manipulated, those actions are just appalling.

He didn't deserve her sadness or her sorrow. Not after that. "To this day I don't know who did it, but it wasn't us. It wasn't the girls as I asked Minako about it back at the crystal palace. I have a strange hunch that I can't prove, that I can never prove, but I THINK it was Emerald." I couldn't help but look up to her then and see how much she looked like her moon mother. So regal as she reflected and seemed to look past the surface of who we thought Emerald was.

I felt myself fall into a silent state of shock as I couldn't help but lower my ears at seeing her mother in her. Her mother on earth was a wonderful and caring young woman who loved both of her kids and her husband dearly, but her moon mother is who she really took after. When I found my voice again I asked genuinely interested, "What makes you think that?" I saw her small smile, but it wasn't a happy one. It was one of sorrow but I didn't believe it was for herself, but for another.

"What woman wants to see the man she loves with another? Even if that other doesn't want the man it still doesn't erase the jealousy. The rage. The blinding need to remove her from his life. I have a feeling she gave Mamoru and I the chance we needed that night to remove any suspicion from Diamond that it was her. Otherwise, I feared she would have found a way to try to kill me within the palace." I couldn't help but want to know more.

Usagi hadn't shared these insights before and while now I knew this wasn't her fault, it was ours I still wanted to know. "How do you know this?" I asked. "Before Sapphire left the Spectre sisters he gave subtle hints to his own love that Emerald had a massive hatred towards me because her love loved me instead of her." I slowly crawled closer towards her, hoping she'd seek comfort in me.

"It's a stretch but something in my gut says it's true. Just like the feeling I had that Beryl was in love with Mamoru when Zoicite tried to kill him, Beryl killed Zoicite because he attacked Mamoru and Beryl wanted him alive." Now I was more stunned, "How do you know that?" how have I missed all of this? I heard her laugh, a little less full of sorrow a little more full of mirth, just a little though.

"Did you not ever wonder why Malachite came after us so soon after we found out I was the princess? He didn't give even himself time to regroup." This was true, we just figured since we were trapped he did it but this is true. "Why he said 'this is for Zoicite'? It was revenge for causing his death. We didn't kill him. I didn't kill him, I greatly wounded him, but I didn't kill him." Malachite took Zoicite with him.

I was dumbfounded none of us realized this before and Usagi sat on it this whole time. That's when I realized, we never discussed it afterwards cause of our discovered of her as our princess, "But Malachite couldn't go after Beryl. He was still brainwashed loyalty to her regardless of what she did to them, that wouldn't be ending anytime soon. So he went after us, the so called enemy as pay back for him losing a fellow brother. This was just like that feeling." I should have trusted her instincts from the get go and not have doubted her so often.

She has incredible intuitive and reasoning skills to boot. Along with effective deductions that I never would have seen had Artemis not have given me a verbal smack down. However, I knew it was necessary but it shouldn't have had to happen. She was far smarter than a few of us gave her credit for. I put my paw on her knee and let her see the sorrow and sadness on my face. For to long she had only seen agitation and irritation.

It was time she saw that I truly was sorry for my words and actions, or lack thereof, "I'm sorry I doubted you…on so much." I apologized. I could see that Usagi knew I was being honest with her and myself. That I accept and acknowledged that I had been wrong and that she was in the right for distancing herself from us. She wasn't being childish in the slightest. She needed the space to show us how wrong things were going.

Usagi POV

To see and hear Luna be truthful and honest about her misguided actions and 'failure' as an advisor really spoke volumes to me. I felt it into my gut how she now saw things. I saw it in her eyes, the way she carried herself now. She had been humbled by Artemis and whatever he said, and now here she was before me, wanting my forgiveness, but accepting that thing weren't going to be that easy.

Trust was a two way street and for a while she didn't trust my instincts or how I felt on matters, now I was going to be putting her through a similar test of means as I was putting Mamoru through. I needed to make sure these actions wouldn't be repeated. I couldn't deal with that again and neither should any of the girls. Even Rei. "I don't deserve to be your advisor BUT if you'll have me, I will still do patrols and guide you when you ask for it but these are your senshi." I saw her hopes and wishes to still be there for me in her form.

This was all she knew for the longest time. Being an advisor. To not have that job completely must have felt a bit hollow. She must feel a sense of loss and emptiness of her own. "You are their leader, their friend and their future Queen, and you should be respected as such. I've been acting and playing the fool for not seeing it earlier." That's for damn sure…I wanted to say something more, yet I kept listening to her as she had finally listened to me even if it was just a little bit.

"My time away from you and seeing what I have seen and hear what I've heard has told me quite a lot and I can only hope that you will someday accept my apology." It was almost strange to hear her being respectful towards me. To hear her apologizing to me. This Luna was a far cry from the Luna that got on me that day in the temple. That made me feel like a 'baby maker' to the Lunarian royal line and that I was making a mistake.

"I'm sorry I let my own personal and petty issues get in the way of our relationship. I got carried away and will vow that from now on I shall not be making the same mistake twice." A vow. I heard it in her voice. Felt it in my heart. She was definitely regretful and I believed her to be honest about her apology, she wasn't just saying it to get back into my good graces, but it didn't mean that all was right again.

I held some trust issues now towards her as well as Rei and Mamoru…don't even get me started on Chibi Usa either. So I did what I felt I could at the moment, "I will accept the apology and state that you can work towards being my advisor again." she nodded, "You will be re-instated back fully when I feel things are going to stay and that this is the you that is true." I wanted to make sure that things wouldn't go back.

She nodded her acceptance as she nuzzled up towards me, I accepted it by petting her lightly as an act of beginning that level of trust again. We were just getting to be friends again and we still had to talk about other things but this was a start in the right direction. Plus I had to admit I had missed talking to her. I missed her being there for me. There were so many things we needed to discuss to and she needed to listen to it all or else this 'probationary period' of our friendship would be over with quickly.

As we had discussed that we both decided to talk on another day regarding the rest as I wasn't emotionally up to it. Going over the stuff with Diamond put me through the emotional ringer and I just couldn't get into depth about the other problems. I needed a break. So, Luna went out for a patrol as I got a text in from Mamoru. Asking me about Saturday still I nearly responded when my mother came to my door.

"Usagi." I looked over and saw her, "Yes?" I asked, "I just got a call in from the neighbors, Jeremy needs you to babysit since their regular babysitter isn't feeling well. Menstrual cramps are no joke." She sighed, "True." I agreed, it was hard to run after a child when you were cramping like crazy. "Anyways I told them you'd be available since I don't know of any plans that you have this Saturday." I sighed.

I did have plans though, "I was actually going to talk to Mamoru about…things this Saturday." I told her. She walked in, "You two in a fight?" she asked, "Something like that. We need to talk it out." I told her, hoping she could get me out of it, "I'm sure you'll be able to do that on another day dear, but Jeremy and his wife need the alone time to have some time together. It's just one evening. I'm sure Mamoru won't mind waiting a little bit longer." It wasn't Mamoru that would be waiting though, it was me.

I was tempted to ask one of the girls to do it for me, but Jeremy and his wife trusted me and knew me, they didn't know my friends. Even if they were trusted by me it didn't mean that they were trusted by them. So I had to concede to the facts that I was stuck babysitting. I didn't dislike it I mean I did miss the little guy anyways and I could use a break from the emotional turmoil I just went through.

I did however now have to delay talking with Mamoru. we needed to talk with zero interference and that meant even small kids. I texted him what happened. He volunteered to come over, but I told him that we needed to talk and NOT at someone else's home where they might come back early for whatever reason and disapprove of me having a guy that their unfamiliar with over especially while I'm watching their son.

He conceded defeat on this Saturday though he did suggest me coming over to his place afterwards. I thought on it and realized I had no idea when I'd be getting out. Their 'date' might take the majority of the night, so I didn't want to make plans up for afterwards if there'd be no time for it. So, we scheduled it out for the following one instead. I knew this time I'd HAVE to tell mother so she wouldn't sign me up for something if I was going to be busy. So yeah, I left the house shortly after that.

I went for a walk down to their home since it was like four houses down. I rang the bell as she answered the door. Putting silver earrings on that I thought were very pretty, "Oh Usagi good to see you, thank you so much for coming on such short notice." She leaned in a little bit, "I wasn't expecting this but yey!" I could tell she was happy to have a night out with her husband. He himself was making himself look really nice to as he grabbed his keys and hit the button on the car starter.

I heard it start up outside, "We left a list of what the 'do's and don't's' are. Food and otherwise, bed-time and if there's anything don't hesitate to call and if he gets fussy and the swing trick on the pad doesn't work, he likes to be strolled around in the park to see nature. It helps to make him fall asleep." She told me as the two walked out leaving me to the house. I found the list and read it off a few times, keeping it on me just to be safe if he got agitated and started to cry out for either of his parents.

He was sweetly playing in his play pen. I turned on the t.v. to watch whatever I could find that was interesting. Then I played with him a little bit. He was an energetic little sprout as he laugh and gave me a toothless grin. He was so adorable it made my heart melt at the sight of him. He looked like the perfect mix of both his parents. I didn't realized how long I had been played with him, rolling some of the toys around when Tyler came in.

He smiled at the sight of me with his nephew. I smiled back, "Hey they asked me to babysit so…yeah." I gave a slightly nervous laugh as he dropped the big book bag down and kicked off his shoes. "Yeah its fine, he told me, sent me a text that I'd see you here after classes." I nodded as he came over, letting the little cutie in my grasp take my attention for a moment as he kneeled in front of us.

I looked back up at him as he greeted me with a gently hug. "I'm glad I get the chance to hang with you again. I smiled, "Yeah me to though I do take watching over innocent children or infants seriously." I chuckled as he played with his own nephew, "If you'd like after we grab something to eat, we could take him to the park to help him fall asleep and watch a movie when we get back." Seeing that he was being genuine in wanting to be my friend I agreed.

I made sure to stand up at that point and grab us a bite to eat. Part of me wondering if he would see that I was nervous about what he was thinking cause truthfully since we started to text more often, I had started to grow accustom to hearing from him and talking to him. It was more often than even Mamoru and I talked when we were still decently good. Tyler he was sweet, kind, nice…he listened to me and I could actually talk around him. We discussed ideas together, we had actual conversations.

I just wished it was with Mamoru that I was doing this with. Yet Tyler made me realize that this may just be what I needed. Not what I wished but what I needed. We grabbed a light dinner, something that was left behind for us to have. As we munched down I feed the little guy a warmed up from the stove bottle of his mother's milk. He happily drank his dinner as we ate ourselves. Tyler was even nice enough to feed me some fries since I had to hold the bottle at the right angle and the little one.

Once we were done about half an hour later, and once I'd burped the tyke we decided to go out for the walk through the park to help him fall asleep. I put him in the stroller as Tyler gathered what his nephew's favorite things were and packed it in as we left out. Having his keys on him we left out the house and walked down the street. I tell you it was funny as hell to see little old ladies give us wide eye looks of disapproval seeing us together.

Tyler even to give them bigger 'oh my!' scandalous eyes, a few times wrapped his arm around my shoulders or waist and kissed the top of my head in a friendly to me but 'screwing with them' gesture. We enjoyed how they would give us disapproving looks since I was still visibly a teenager and we were totting around a child in a stroller. We probably looked like a couple out for a walk with our son and they just walked off like it was improper for us to even be outside associating with the world.

"That was hilarious." He beamed as we both laughed at it. I could never get that reaction from Mamoru, he would feel their stares and distance himself from the situation. From me. I pushed that thought to the side and heartily agreed as we got to the park. We started to talk about his classes then as we talked about my schooling to. That all came to a screeching halt when we ran into Mamoru, though this time it wasn't an instant blow that happened…at least not physically. No he was out for a jog and spotted us.

So when Mamoru walked up to us, even as calmly as he was Tyler stepped up ahead as if in protective mode still. Probably recalled the last time all too well. I knew I had to reign this situation in before it became a situation. "It's fine, we had a small talk, he knows to behave himself." I assured Tyler as he looked towards the dark haired man coming towards us. I sent a small glare towards Mamoru to behave himself.

Right at that moment I got a call on my cell from my mother. "I have to take this. Be good both of you." I pulled the stroller with me out of instinct and turned it towards me so the little one didn't see anything that 'might' happen that I hoped didn't happen. He didn't need to see something and get upset over it causing a bigger disturbance than necessary. As long as Mamoru behaved himself this should go smoothly.

Mamoru POV

This guy was still around. I was hoping after that punch he'd get the picture that she was mine but guess he was either brave as hell or dumb as hell for thinking he was going to come in between us. I was going to win her back. "Not apologizing for the punch." It may have sounded childish but it was the truth. "To be honest I wasn't expecting one. But I do want to thank you though." This had me a bit confused and Tyler saw it.

He seemed a bit cocky but not in a 'I'm the big bad now' but in a 'you really don't know how badly you messed up do you?'. I didn't like it. "For doing the stupid shit you did to lose her." He begins. I couldn't help but check my own emotions on that one. Did she tell him everything that happened? Or at least the revised version? Even still why? Were they that close already? Fear began to hit me once more but I maintained a cool appearance.

I wasn't going to let him see that he was getting under my skin. "It's given me an opportunity that I don't plan on wasting." So, he is making a definite play for her. This isn't some flight of fancy for him. He's found what I desperately tried to keep hidden and, in the process, cause I messed up royally, lost myself…shit! I clenched my hands to my side, an effort to NOT hit him again for his truthful words.

"I admit I've not been the best boyfriend and while were - " but the dick decided to cut me off, "On a break." the emphasis on it didn't help matters or my anger towards him…and myself…at all, "Yes…it doesn't mean I won't fight to get her back." I had to get him on the ropes now and get OFF them…so to speak. Plus if I make HIM want to hit me and act on it then that makes me look better…I think…right?

Either way I had to refrain from hitting him again. Or at least try to. "You may have her now, hanging out with her, being her friend, but in the end, I will be the one to get her back and you will be nothing more than a memory. This thing with you is temporary at best." That's when I see a tinge of anger in his face at my words. Good. "And there it is…the claim of what you think is happening." He tells me as his face turns from an angry forming frown into a slight smug frown. What was he thinking?

"What I think?" I ask him, "Yes, you seem to think this thing between her and I is temporary at best. I don't hate to break it to you, but I don't plan on shirking out on this as you did. Don't get me wrong were friends…for now." his emphasis on certain words was making my temper flare up. "I genuinely care about her. She's too good of a woman to let go. Too sweet, smart, clever, charming…why would I let that opportunity slip by?" his dig at me for my mistakes were really starting to piss me off.

Yet I couldn't deny what he was saying cause it's how I felt towards her to. This just told me I needed to fight that much harder to get her back. To show her that I loved her more than anyone else and that I was willing to do anything for her. Accepting the 'challenge' so to speak I knew I had to play defense as well as offence. "You know you can care for her all you want but in the end I will win this, she loves me, not you." I told him. It was the truth after all, she never denied it and I knew she still did.

The bond that was between us I felt more now than before. I felt her lingering love for me along with how she currently felt. She was still very much in love with me. Even if I had to strain myself to feel that much from her. Even if I had to pull all my energy into the focus to try to use my powers a bit to strengthen it. Not that it worked really, it had to be us coming back together to repair that…but it was worth a shot.

"Not yet anyways." The smirk on my own lips died as his rose up. Damn him. "You know you can love Usagi all you want, I don't care. Kinda hard NOT to FALL for her." He smiled an 'obviously you can love someone' that made me want to repeatedly punch his face in as I grit my teeth in anger. "But I currently have one thing you have lost with her over-all, and are still desperately trying to get back." His words had my knuckles turning white from how hard I was gripping them.

"And what's that?" I near demanded, "Her trust. You lost it with the mental and emotional crap you put her through. Why do you think she's still not back with you yet? She doesn't know if she can trust you with her heart again and to be honest I don't see her relenting on that any time soon." I lost it. I couldn't stop the need to step forward and push him hard enough in the chest to knock him on his ass.

I had to hold my own strength back a bit to avoid letting him realize I was stronger than normal, "What the hell is going on?!" she snapped, getting off her call and between us. I had to say my piece before he did, "Usagi." she looked to me as he got up off the ground. I was already closer to her than he was so I merely leaned closer towards her as I spoke, "He may have a piece of your heart now, but as you once said, 'your heart belongs to me'." I saw her gulp. Almost as if she was shocked I still remembered that.

I looked to the ass then and said, "Have your tiny bit of time together…as friends…" he looked grumpy now but I didn't care, she was hearing me out and soon we would be able to have a long conversation and I could make this all right. I could tell he was looking at me as if asking 'what are you doing?' so I finished with, "Because at the end of the day I am your first love and I intend to be you last your only and your truest love." Then sent a glare towards him, "Not a fleeting scrap of phosphorus." He glared at me now as I left off.

I wished I had seen her face afterwards to know what she was going to tell him after all of that, but in the end I felt the bond open up just a little bit more, and felt how part of her was in joy over the display. That my actions were beginning to win her back over. It was only the beginning to. I knew that and I accepted that it would take a while. I deserved for it to take however long she deemed necessary for it to take me.

I loved her dearly and while she may NOT have been mine at the moment to make demands of to talk with her now, a mistake I was still feeling the brunt of from last time, I knew deep in my gut that the path we were on was better than path that we had previously been on. I jogged off as I left them to their little moment as my words were forever I knew imprinted in her mind…I made a promise to win you back Usagi and I intend to keep it…not for any other reason other than I love you.