All I Have
Chapter 20
"I spent a lot of time searching for reasons and answers. But you can't find what's not there."
Hours Later
In the morning
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By the time Chris awoke he got out of bed and stared up at the clock it was 12 in the afternoon. He had actually fallen asleep yet he didn't feel rested just more tired and un prepared to face life going forward but he knew he couldn't avoid to voice that at least not to Haley she was slipping farther and farther away from him by the day. She was struggling in every way and he had never felt more powerless with how to help the woman he loved more then life itself.
She wasn't laying beside him this morning he knew when she wasn't in bed she was somewhere in the house attempting to distract herself.
The room the couple avoided all together was the nursery. That was an obstacle they weren't prepared to tackle yet if ever.
Hearing the echo of loud knocking from the front door. Chris got out of bed and left the room. His wearing grey sweatpants and a black t shirt. That was the only color him and Haley wore now. Informing the outside world that they were in mourning.
He went through the hallway and down the stairs. He walked into the entryway and opened the front door.
Chris was so pleased to see the familar friendly faces of Lucas and Brooke.
"We bought lunch over for you and Haley. We know the two of you have a fridge full of food from the reception but we just wanted to drop something by." Lucas said.
Brooke pulled Chris into a hug.
Chris let go of the breath he was holding and hugged her back.
"We would of been by sooner but we just didn't know what to say and how to help. We hope our company for awhile will at the very least life you're spirits." Brooke said.
"It's just what we need." Chris said.
Meanwhile Upstairs
Haley hadn't slept or focused on anything else except for the release she felt from cutting. Her arms were full of cuts now.
She had already filled the tub with water. And got inside it.
Her clothes were getting soaked but soon enough it wouldn't matter. She had left a note for Chris taping it to the mirror bathroom.
Haley plunged the scissors edge into both her wrists one last time. As she winced. The scissors falling from her hands as her eyes shut and the tub filled with blood.
Chris had left Lucas and Brooke downstairs he was now in search of Haley to tell her they were here for a visit.
He walked into the bathroom and screamed the suicide note taped to the bathroom mirror.
The sight of Haley lying lifeless in a tub filled with blood her wrists slashed.
"Haley Oh God! You can't leave me too.! Hold on help in coming!" Chris exclaimed. Calling out to Brooke and Lucas from downstairs desperate to save her.
Hours Later
Haley awoke in a hospital bed with a hospital gown on her body. An iv stuck in her arm and her wrists bandaged.
Chris took ahold of her hand.
Haley could barely meet his gaze.
"I almost lost you. You cut a vein. You almost bled out. Why.?" He questioned. Tears falling from his eyes.
"When am i breathing.? And our daughter is buried dead in the ground. I was tired of being numb. I was desperate to feel something even pain." Haley admitted.
"Once you leave here. You're going to a mental health center. To get some help. While you're away i'm going to get help too." Chris said.
"What if i can't be fixed.?" Haley asked.