A MONTH LATER

HINATA

I am the doctor's office currently. Kageyama insisted he come with me to my appointment. He actually rescheduled an interview ESPN was trying to have with him. My needs came first in his eyes. I told him he could go I don't mind but he can be so stubborn. My doctor walks into the office.

"Hinata Shoyo, how are you today?" he asked. I give him a small smile.

"I'm doing much better," I replied. I really am. It's much easier with Kageyama being home.

"Good good," he replied. "Is it okay to speak in front of this gentlemen?"

"Yes," I reply. Kageyama has only been back for a month. He hasn't rested at all like he should be doing. He went shopping to get me new clothes and everything else I needed. I must admit it was pretty cool being able to pick out whatever I wanted. I mean I seriously have more underwear than one guy needs. Kageyama also got me a new phone too. He had me change my phone number not wanting Ushijima to have any contact with me. I would usually argue but in this case I'm fucking glad. The doctor walks over to me.

"I'm going to check out your face first," he replies. He tilts my head to examine my cheek. He presses on it lightly. It still hurts a little, but nothing compared to a few weeks ago. "The swelling is going down which is a good sigh. It appears to be healing well. Continue to be careful."

"I have been," I replied.

"I can tell," he smiles. "Go ahead and lean back so I can take a look at everything." He touches over my ribs and that still hurts like hell. It took well over 2 weeks for me to even be able to sleep properly. I get nervous when he asks to look at my lower area. I can't bear to look at Kageyama. I close my eyes instead focusing on studying my breathing. "Alright this appears to be healing well. Remember to cut back on anal sex. If you do anything you are going to want to be gentle, okay?" I nod my head yes. "I would like to see you in another 6 weeks just to ensure the healing is going well." I nod sitting up. "You both take care."

"Thank you doctor," says Kageyama standing up shaking his hand. He walks out closing the door behind him. I get down to get dressed quickly.

"Oh boy….." I reply. "At least I'm healing well. All the bruises are already almost gone. Just in the nick of time. I would hate to go to the banquet looking how I did weeks ago." I chuckle a little to lighten the mood. "I don't look like I got in a car wreck anymore."

"What was he talking about referring to your lower regions?" asked Kageyama gesturing his hands to my hips. I turn my back to him. I really don't want him to know….what Ushijima did. The beating was bad enough for Kageyama to handle.

"He just said I need to take it easy," I reply sliding on my shoes. "I'm sure it is due to my healing ribs." Kageyama grabs me pulling me towards him. He presses me into his body as he searches my face. I get nervous not wanting to say the truth. I try to study my breathing once more.

"What happened?" he asked. As I stare into his eyes I can feel the tears welling up. My heart is beating so hard trying not to think how he will handle the truth. We hear a knock on the door breaking our trance. The nurse was saying they needed the room. We quickly head out the door hand in hand. Since he has been back, he doesn't seem to care about hiding the fact he is gay anymore. He always holds my hand, does all the driving, opens my car door. I feel so spoiled. Kageyama quietly leads us to the car but I know that the silence is not going to last long. I get in the car and he closes the door slightly harder than usual. He starts up the car taking off. I can sense the tension.

"Tobio….." I say softly. "Are you okay?"

"I would be okay if you told me the truth," he replies. I shrink a little. He doesn't sound mad but hurt. He knows when I am not truthful. Usually I don't care because I now have nothing to hide from him. "I thought you trusted me."

"I do!" I cry. "I do trust you." I trust him more than anyone I have ever known. I can't even sleep without him by my side.

"There is nothing else I need to know," he replies still focused on the road.

"Besides my upbringing, no," I replied. I watch as he grips the wheel tightly. His face is turning red. I look down at my lap. I think he knows what I am hiding. I can see it on his face. Oh Kageyama…

"He raped you didn't he," he states. I don't say anything causing Kageyama click his tongue. "Unbelievable, that bastard." He hits his fist on the wheel causing me to jump. "I can't play with him anymore….I just can't."

"You won't have to for another 4 years," I reply looking at him in disbelief. "I really don't want this affecting the game for you. I know how much this means to you!"

"Too late for that," he replied. "Volleyball does mean a lot to me but so do you!" Kageyama voice begins to shake so he goes silent for a moment. "I can't believe he would be so vicious." I lower my head wanting him to hear it from me.

"He raped me for hours…" I admit. Ushijima was mad because I wouldn't tell him who I had sex with. He raped me three more times before leaving me on the floor of our bedroom. I couldn't call 911 because they would have asked too many questions. I waited until Ushijima left to reach out to Yachi. It was so hard to keep my eyes opened until she arrived. I was terrified I was going to die if I closed them before getting to a hospital.

"What!" he exclaimed looking over at me. I shake just remembering it as I cover my face to keep from crying. That is only reason my lower half was injured is because of rough he was. I might have been able to hide this if it was just the one time. I need Kageyama to see how strong I am.

"I'm okay now," I reply grabbing his hand. "I will never see him again."

"You damn right you aren't!" exclaims Kageyama. "Team tattoo my ass."

"Team tattoo?" I ask in confusion. I jog my memory because so much has happened since I last heard about it. "Oh I think I recall Oikawa mentioning something about that."

"Just some nonsense Noya has been wanting us to do," explains Kageyama. "They wanted everyone to get team tattoos. I'm not doing it."

"Oh, that would have been so cool," I replied trying to change the subject.

"I refuse to get the same tatt as that abuser and rapist," he sneers. I flitch when he says rapist. "Thank you for telling me because I know you didn't want to." I don't say anything because he isn't wrong. I really didn't want him to know that. What if he looks at me differently? I know he won't but deep down my mind is wondering if he will want me anymore. I couldn't bare the thought of losing him now after all of this.

We get to the condo and make our way inside. Kageyama didn't say anything for the reminder of the ride. At several times during the ride he was speeding. He would catch himself slowing back down to the legal speed limit. I thought Kageyama would open up once we were home but he doesn't. He is so upset told me he was going to the gym to work out his frustrations. I sigh going to grab my new phone. I call Yachi right away needing someone to talk to.

"Hello," she says on the first ring.

"Hey," I greet.

"Hey!" she exclaims. "How are things going? Glad your new boo is back."

"Yes," I reply. I am very happy to have Kageyama back. Although I was happy living in his condo, I felt scared being alone. Not only was I in pain I couldn't sleep due to the night terrors I have been having. I haven't had any since Kageyama came home. I can't begin to explain how safe he makes me feel.

"Why don't you sound happy?" she asked.

"Kageyama found out about…" I sigh. "You know…" I can't even say the word. Yachi knows what I am talking about.

"You didn't tell him?" asked Yachi. "Hinata…"

"I couldn't tell him that part," I replied. "I mean seeing how he is acting right now proves my damn point on why I couldn't tell him."

"I see," she replies. "Where is he at now?"

"He's working out," I reply sitting on the bed. "I wish I never went back to that damn house."

"Don't blame yourself," says Yachi sadly. "None of us thought Ushijima would take it that far." Sure, he was a horrible boyfriend but to rape me for hours is insane. I can't help but think back to what happened. What I could have done differently. Ushijima didn't like that I was fighting him. Despite the pain I was in I tried. He wanted me to climax which I was definitely fighting. He really wanted to humiliate me in the worst way. I sniffle a little thinking about it. "Will you be able to have sex with Kageyama?"

"Of course, I can," I replied. I have been wanting to have sex with Kageyama. Besides the pain I was in my doctor wanted to make sure I was healed enough. "The doctor said I need to take it easy. It almost seems like Kageyama doesn't want to."

"I'm sure he does," says Yachi. "He is probably just worried about you. I mean you went through a lot." I'm a lot stronger than people think. I talk to Yachi some more before ending the call. I busy myself with watching TV when Kageyama comes into the room covered in sweat. It looks like he jumped in the pool with his clothes on.