J.R. POV
Jamie just wanted to stay in her room, and Jayce wasn't doing good. I got to her room. I know she had a panic attack again. Do Crosshairs and Drift know what set all this off this morning? I don't want to tell them, but I have to. I didn't think Drift would be downstairs with the others. Doubt they're talking about what's been going on this early. They were all sitting on the couch. I walked up to them but couldn't get my mouth to say something to get their attention.
"What's wrong?" Bee asks, and the others look at me. I know I have a scared expression. He takes my hand, pulls me to him, and puts me on the couch between him and Hound. "You wanted to tell Crosshairs and Drift what caused Jayce's seizure?" Bee asked. I nodded, still unable to get my mouth to say anything.
"You know we were waiting until tonight when the three of you went to bed. You..ok, let's tell them."
I didn't think Bee would change his mind. This concerned Crosshairs and Drift more.
"Bee, what are you doing?" Crosshairs asked, "You know she will cry repeating what happened."
"I know, but she needs to hear what we will do. Might just help a little, but that's good." I bit my lip as Bee repeated what I told him so I wouldn't cry. I knew tears were rolling down my face. Looking at how shocked Crosshairs and Drift were wasn't helping either.
"It's ok, it's better to cry," Bee says as he puts an arm around me. I let myself cry.
"I told you that was a terrible idea," Crosshairs snapped.
"It's fine, Crosshairs," Drift says, trying to calm Crosshairs. "It's ok, J.R. While that's what Jayce seems to want to do, She doesn't push Crosshairs away from her. Instead, she won't let him leave her side for long. I think she's still hesitant but can't take the nightmares and panic attacks."
"How long before she's serious?" I sobbed. The tears blurred my vision that I didn't see Crosshairs walking to me. He picked me up, and sat on the couch with me on his lap. He held me close to his chest and stroked my hair.
"I am so tired of all this. How long before it's over and in a good way?"
"I know, we're doing everything we can to keep Jayce safe, and if it comes to it, Jamie."
I was expecting him to ask me if I was considering suicide. I don't know if I am.
Once I stopped crying, Bee suggested we get Jamie and Jayce dinner, though it was only two-thirty.
"No," I mumbled.
"They'll be ok. Go with them." Crosshairs insisted. He wouldn't force me if I still refused it I agreed to go with Bee and Hound anyway.

Crosshairs POV
"I can't believe this," I say once I hear Bee and Hound have left, "the emotional pain those two are in, how bad their mental state is, how screwed they'd be if Jayce didn't think to contact us. Would they even be alive at this point?" I know Cade and Drift hated hearing that as much as I hated saying it, but it's true. "Jayce is already considering suicide, and if we weren't here.."
"We have no choice but to use drugs now. It will help Jayce sleep. Think being exhausted contributed to the seizure along with her terrifying thoughts and stress they brought on," Cade tells me.
"You don't think that'll be the only one, do you?" Drift asked, concerned.
"I don't know, but I think it's likely."
The only thing we can do is give in to drugs to help Jayce sleep all night, but she's still struggling during the day. We're past planning and can only take action as the challenge arise.

As we stood up to go upstairs and check on Jamie and Jayce, Jayce ran down the stairs and towards the medibay.
"Shit, get back here!" I yelled as I ran after her. She knows what drugs we have. There are some that'll help her, but with her mindset, I fear she's not seeking drugs to help her. I have no choice but to jump onto her to stop her.
"Get off me!" Jayce yelled. This was not like her at all. Cade ran past me into the medibay. Hurry, Cade; you know she can get me off her no problem. That's precisely what Jayce did, but Drift was right there and also jumped on her. He held her arms while I held her legs, which was difficult as she kept moving, trying to break free. There was no calming her the way we have been this time. Cade came back a minute later and injected Jayce with a drug to relax her. The drug would take a few more minutes to work.
"It'll be ok," Drift says as he stroked her hair. I waited two minutes before putting her legs on the floor, so Drift could pick her up and carry her to her room. He sat on the bed and hugged her. I moved the desk chair close to the bed, sat down, and held her hand.

Ninety minutes later

Jayce was calm, and the drug made her tired, but she could ignore how tired she felt for now. Drift was concerned about her but had to stay with Jamie, and I know he hates it. I was holding Jayce while sitting on the bed. I still can't believe how bad she's gotten.
"I brought her dinner," Drift says as he closed the door, "how's she doing?"
"She's been quiet," I say as Drift took her hand.
"I brought you dinner. You need to eat," he moved the desk chair and put the container on it, "it'll be ok, and we'll get through this," he says while stroking her hair. I know we've said that so many times just today, but she needs to hear it. Drift leaves five minutes later and I get Jayce to eat while thinking, what are we going to do with her? Even in the depressed mood, Jamie and J.R. are in; they will notice we have drugged Jayce.

Cade POV
Drift insisted I tell Bee and Hound what happened when they left. We won't be able to talk about the girls tonight like we have been. Drift was with Jamie in her room. Glad she didn't find it odd Drift wanted them to stay in her room. Though I think she was too depressed to question why he wanted them to stay in the room. With J.R. distracted, eating dinner, and watching T.V., now was a good time to tell them.
"Damn, is she even eating?" Hound asked, worried.
"I don't know, I hope so."
"Do we need to contact Bulma or have what we need to make the nutrition drink we had to use during the nightmare situation?" Bee asked.
"I don't know if we need to go that far, but it's a possibility," I tell him before going upstairs. Crosshairs got Jayce to eat though I doubt she'll finish what's in the container. I went into Jamie's room. Don't know why Drift and Jamie are sitting on the floor.
"I'll be right back," Drift says as he stands up. Not very discrete, but how can he be with Jamie in front of him? We left the room, and he closed the door.
"Do you know if Jayce is eating?" Drift asked.
"Yeah, Crosshairs got her to eat, but I doubt she'll eat much."
"I can't believe this is happening. I can't do anything to help."
"You are, you know how Jamie will be if she finds out what's been going through," I say before walking away. Now's not a good time for him to be talking about the girls.

I went to my room, sat on the bed, and thought about the situation, and what else could we possibly do? It's bad enough we've been thinking about what these three could have done if Jayce didn't think to contact us but now to think the same could happen and we'll witness it. Taking Jayce away from the situation doesn't help her and will cause more trouble with J.R. and possibly Jamie. I heard a knock on the door; it was J.R.
"What's wrong?" I asked as I lead her into the room, knowing what could happen. I closed the door and had her sit on the bed with me. It was clear she wanted to say something but couldn't. For her to be so vocal about how anxious she's been about Jayce, and now she's changed her mind.
"It will be ok," I say as I hug her. That's all I said, but she started crying. I know she's feeling like this won't end or in the way we want. What concerns me is what she wanted to tell me. No, don't tell you're suicidal now, J.R. Someone is with each of the girls, so there's no need to ask her if that's what she's thinking. I worry her nightmares will get intense.
"I'm scared I'll be...watching my friends kill themselves," She sobbed. She hugged me and started bawling. It wasn't long before she began to tremble.
J.R. stayed with me for the past five hours. I took her downstairs to watch T.V. with Bee and Crosshairs.

Crosshairs POV
J.R. fell asleep while watching T.V. I didn't think she'd last two hours before falling asleep. I took her to her room and put her to bed. I went to Jayce' s room to tell Bee he can go to his quarters, but he told me I should go to my quarters and get a proper recharge. I couldn't, not with the way Jayce has been today even though she's drugged and shouldn't wake up in the middle of the night. I went to sleep at my usual spot in the hallway.

Waking up three hours later to crying but it was coming from Jamie's room. I got up and walked to her room. The sound of crying was getting louder. Damn it; I was hoping I was wrong. Drift was sitting on the edge of the bed, holding Jamie. The T.V. was on, but Jamie wasn't one to watch something that would make her cry.. unless she didn't know it would.
"What happened?" I asked as I sat next to Drift.
"I don't know. She was watching T.V. I was sleeping. I wasn't in a deep sleep and heard her whimper. She was trying to be quiet. Once I held her, she let herself cry."
It didn't take long before we figured out she was crying because she was thinking about Buddy.
"No way she's just starting to think about him again," I say.
"No, this has to be because Christmas is coming up." Drift put Jamie on the bed so we could both hug her.
After five minutes, Drift wanted to get Jamie back to bed, but she grabbed both our arms. We got her to lie down five minutes later. Drift laid her in the middle of the bed so I could lie with them. Again, I was looking at her back, but it's fine. I stayed until we knew she was asleep.

Drift came with me to check on Jayce, and J.R. Bee was sitting on the desk chair by the bed. That was fine, but we hated how her vitals had to be monitored.
"I'm just checking occasionally," Bee tells us. Though a severe side effect is uncommon, we're not taking the chance. They can be deadly, which is why we tried to avoid using this drug. Even before, with Bulma's support, we hated using this. "How much did you give her?"
"Cade used the lowest dose possible. It seems that was enough for her for now." I realized I probably should have done one more dose once she fell asleep. I don't think we're at the point of needing to use an I.V. I know, like me, Bee and Drift hated that we're at the point of drugging Jayce to keep her calm. We are hoping this is the only time, but...
"What happened?" Bee asked.
"Jamie," Drift sighed, "she woke up crying."
"You think she'll end up like Jayce?" I asked, noticing he's looking at Jayce.
"I hope not, but I said Jayce and J.R. should be fine, but now we have to keep them safe and use drugs on Jayce."
"Might just be for tonight," Bee suggested.