May 17,2008
Dear Bones,
First of all, I want to tell you that I'm really sorry. I know that's not nearly enough in this situation but I can't do anything else to undo this mess, you know?
They wouldn't allow me to go back home and get my things, and they wouldn't allow me to write anything to you. I had to be completely under wraps.
I promise, I gave them a list, and you were on top of it! I had to trust that they'd take care of it. I mean, they're FBI, right? They took away my phone and keys and took me to the safe house, where I had to stay for 2 weeks to recover from that gunshot wound.
I missed you so much. If only I had known that you thought that I was dead, I would've done everything in my power to reach you. What they did to you is tearing my heart apart, and I'll never trust those bastards again.
I know now that this was entirely Sweet's decision, and believe me, one day I'll call him out on this. We are not his lab rats!
I can't imagine what you've been through. I can just imagine how I'd feel if they'd told me that you were dead. It would've been devastating for me! I wouldn't be able to bear my life without you, and you had to live with the reality of my fake death for 14 days!
I was relaxing in that safe house, dreaming of how it could be between us...wondering when we'd see each other again...and in the meantime you were going through hell! I dreamed of you hugging me tight when you saw me again ( believe me, I really was looking forward to that) and wasn't prepared for your outrage. Don't get me wrong...you had every right to give me that right hook to the chin. By the way, it still hurts a bit...
On top of everything, in the evening you caught me in the bathtub! You really have no limits, do you, Bones? What about giving a guy a little privacy? By the way, you destroyed that record, and it was one of my favorites.
That same night I was going through the situation over and over again. I only wished I hadn't been wearing my crazy beer hat at that moment. Believe me, I love my beer hat and the comics and everything...even my little yellow ducky...but I know it must have looked kinda silly.
And when I was standing there in front of you, in my birthday suit, all I could think about was how embarrassing it was for me, because of the hat, not because I was naked. I don't think I have anything to worry about in those terms, and you clearly seemed to appreciate the view from your front row seat..
How I wish this situation could've had a completely different outcome...an absolutely different outcome involving both of us.
The next day we found out everything about Zack and his involvement with Gormogon (see, I can remember the guy's name). It always rips my heart apart to see you hurting. I understand how betrayed you felt, and I only can offer you my support and you always have my shoulder to lean on if you need it.
Yours,
Booth
AN: I am still angry how Sweets handled the situation. This could have been much more different.