April screamed as she was pushed behind Casey. He took a defensive stance before her, willing to protect her with his life. Both had been taken back by the sudden roar from the Dojo soon followed by a murderous turtle darting out and at the tortoise. In the process of reaching his desired target he almost knocked April over.

Slash was caught off guard, now having his former friend clinging to his back as he yelled and cursed him, punching him where he could reach. The black skinned tortoise was able to grab hold of him, throwing him off but never taking a stand against him, even if he wanted to. He would remain true to his vow, he would not hurt his mate's brothers.

Raph was able to recover quickly, landing on his feet as he skid across the lair. "I'LL FUCK"EN KILL YA!" he shouted, running back at him with the full intent to murder him. He could not hear the shouts from his family nor see them. His eyes were locked and fixated on the bastard that had hurt his brother, his chosen mate. "I HATE YOU!" No matter what he did the other only blocked, pushed and defended. He never once launched a blow at him, only further enraging him.

"RAPHAEL!" Splinter's own voice boomed but his son was lost to his rage. Tears filled the old rat's eyes as he could see the same anger and rage that had befallen his own brother and friend so long ago. "I have failed you my son…" Try as he may, a part of him always knew his hot tempered son would lose to the rage in his heart.

Leo watched, half hoping Raph would kill the bastard. Yet upon seeing his father's tears he knew he needed to take action. "Mikey…" he turned to see the horror in his little brother's eyes. "Come on, I need you to help Master Splinter…" He snapped him out of it, Mikey took their father and kept him back away from the fight. Leo ran in, trying to keep Raph from getting hurt either by himself or the bastard. "Raph stop it! You are tearing this family apart!"

Oh those only made him angrier. The red banded turtle turned his white eyes to the fearless leader. "DON'T FUCK'EN DEFEND 'EM!" He went back to attacking the beast, hoping to tear him a new asshole but only managed minor cuts. He tried harder to sever something vital, knowing he would relish in watching him bleed out.

"Raph STOP IT!" Mikey cried, tears flowing freely from his eyes as he held tighter to their father. He hated this. Hated what the family was becoming. He wanted it to go back, back before Donnie went missing. He wanted his brothers back, when they joked and had fun, not like this. Not divided and fighting.

The blue clad brother narrowed his eyes. Already the child was causing issues within the family. Causing trouble and dividing them. Gritting his teeth, he tried to think of anything he could do to help. Leatherhead…he was strong, possibly strong enough to hold an enrage Raph. Without hesitating he opened the lab door, clearly startling the gator. "I need your help to control Raph, he didn't take the news well!"

Leatherhead stood abruptly, seeing the chaos outside before he wasted no time in running to help, driven by the cries of his orange clad friend. The lair was pretty trashed by then, he had to navigate through the broken dishes, appliances and he wasn't quite sure what else.

They each took a chance at grabbing hold of him. Each found it far harder than they had thought. He was strong like this, yet they knew in no time he would burn himself out, expelling too much energy to keep it going long.

Slash wasn't helping him at all. Joining in on the insults, slinging the shit right back at him. "Are you angry that I had him first?! Or pissed because it's my hatchling and not yours?!" Oh he knew he was going to pay for this, but he said he wouldn't hurt them. He didn't count his wounded pride. "I never used his mouth, maybe I will use it once he wakes up, just to be sure you don't get the chance!"

"BASTARD!" he charged at him, locking his sais in his spiked shell, he swung back and forth, punching him in the head as he tried to throw him off. He got a few good hits before Slash grabbed him and threw him hard across the lair, through the open door of the lab and toward Donatello. Raph was able to use his sais to dig into the stone floor, stopping himself just before hitting the resting turtle.

Everyone had held their breath, watching as Raphael was thrown toward Donnie, each so afraid that he would hurt him even more. Slash moved toward them, wanting to handle his mate should he be injured but Leo stopped him, warning him if he come any closer he would not hesitate to use his ninjatos against him.

"YOU DON'T EVEN CARE ABOUT HIM!" he grit his teeth. "NONE OF YOU CARE ABOUT HIM! IF YOU DID YOU WOULDN'T LET THAT BASTARD STAY HERE!" he readied the attack, hoping that this time…this time he would finally end it.

A gentle touch to his hand, Raph shot his white eyes to his own hand, following the arm to the injured turtle. "Raphie…" his voice was so small as he spoke, so weak and tired. So kind. His rage died as quickly as it came, he dropped the sais and held both his hands to his brother's.

Reddish brown eyes sparkled as a small sweet smile graced his lips. "Raphie…don't be mad…you scare Mikey when you get like that." Donnie watched as his elder brother buried his tear filled eyes in his hand. "Raphie…what's wrong?"

So many emotions ran through him. Anger, hate, sorrow, relief, pain. The use of his old nickname from when they were kids made him recall thing he rather leave buried. Of when they were tots. How he almost got Donnie killed. He nuzzled the gentle hand of his ever concerned brother. The brother that was too good for any of them. As he was fighting, Don was worried about him and how he was making Mikey cry. "I hate myself…" he finally muttered. He fell to his knees looking at his brother with sorrowful emerald eyes. "It's meh fault." He choked back a sob. "If I hadn't blamed ya…if I had taken better care of da mutagen…Spike would never have become Slash…none of dis would have happened to ya." He tightened his grip on the olive skinned hand. "I'm sorry Don…so fucken sorry…"

"It's not your fault Raphie…" Donnie spoke, tears in his eyes not from the pain his body was in but for how broken Raph was because of him. "You didn't do this to me. Spike didn't do this to me…" he laughed softly, lightheartedly. "I'm the one who left the lair. I'm the one who ran off and got caught." The weak turtle tried to sit up.

Raph was quick to try and push him back down but the stubborn turtle refused. So he helped him up. He could see all the bandages, all the wounds that had been inflicted on his brother during his fight with the Kraang, Newtralizer, Slash and the whole of Shredder's mutant army. "Donnie…"

Said turtle leaned on Raph's shoulder, using it for support. "I missed you." He took off the oxygen mask. "I missed all of you…and…I'm so happy to be home." The poor turtle's breaths were shallow and quick, never once complaining of pain as he listened to him.

Donnie always felt safe with Raphie when they were younger, even now he felt comfort in having him close. Raphie always seemed so warm to him, despite his cold personality at times, he always had a soft spot for him. Something that Donnie was grateful for, happy even that this did not change. That he still had Raphie to keep him safe and warm.

The older turtle smiled then. Wiping away his younger brother's tears. "We know ya are. Relax…aint no one…" he looked to Slash, he wanted to move, to get him off his mate but he held back. "Aint no one gonna take you away from here. Not now not ever again." He moved from Donnie, laying him down just a moment before walking to the lab door.

"RAPH!" Leo darted at the door, knowing what he would do. "Don't!" It was too late. The Lab door was slammed shut and locked. He pounded on it, banging it with his fists. Yet he knew it was no use. Donnie had made it a shelter; near impenetrable from the outside, hell he even reinforced the…Leo took off, running past the turnstiles toward the garage door. Again he was too late. He was just able to see Raph's feet as he slammed the door shut and locked it.

"Raphie?" the weak voice drew him back. It sounded pitiful, but he really didn't want to be alone. He was afraid to be alone right now because of all that had happened when his brothers were not there.

"I'm here Donnie…" he began. Fist in tight balls. "I wanna talk…" He turned to him. Slowly he walked back, his eyes red and swollen from crying as he grabbed a stool and set it down by the table that Donnie was laying on his side.

The soft hand reached for his face, his thumb wiping the tears away. "You must be so pent up…without me here to help you…" Donnie shook his head. "I never meant to leave…I was scared to lose you all…"

"Shhhh…" he could hear them banging, but the sound was muffled. "I know ya didn't wanna. It's been hard around here, with fearless act'en all high and mighty. I cant talk to 'em or Mikey…not even ta Splinter…" He put his hand over his brother's as it remained on his face. "I don't know how ya do it Don, but ya always calm me down. Ya know just what ta say ta make it better." He looked so weak, so tired, there was no way Donnie would be strong enough to push that kid out.

He chuckled. "Does that mean I'm…your favorite?" he was joking of course. Yet it made Raph smile. That's all that mattered. "Go on…tell me all about…what I missed."

"Don't think ya like it Don…Ya want gumdrops er Honesty?" He already knew what Donnie would want. Whenever they had their little therapy sessions, he always pushed him to be honest about how he felt. He rubbed the back of his neck, looking away from him.

"Honesty." Hell his voice was so weak and small for him. He hated it. Hated how small he sounded and how small he felt. How he couldn't help himself, but he could at least lay there and listen to his brother. To help him in any way possible.

Raph smiled more. "Alright. Honesty it is."

~LRDM~

"It's no use, we can't get in!" April sighed as she sat beside Casey. "Donnie made sure we would survive an apocalypse in there." She had helped him build it, piece by piece, ensuring that if the foot ever did come down there, they would be safe. Hell there was even a hidden vault of nonperishable food and dozens of bottles of water if they needed to stay in there for a long period of time.

Slash growled, just imagining Raphael and what he could be doing in there made him enraged. Perhaps it was a mistake to bring him here after all. He should have taken his chances with his own brother, he doubted he would try something like he had again, but still…what more could he do?

"It's your fault!" Leo snapped as he tried to pick the outer lock. "Damn it Donnie…" he muttered as he broke yet another pick. He only had three and this was his last chance to try and get in.

"My fault? He's the one that ran out like some demon hell bent on ripping my throat out!" He snarled, slamming his fist into the wall.

Mikey shot up, moving toward the far larger tortoise with his arms crossed. "You're that one who got Donnie's eggo preggo! You're also the one who encouraged Raph by saying those sexual things about Donnie! AND you're the one who threw him in there in the first place!" he huffed.

"Wait…" Casey looked at all of them. "Donnie is pregnant?! Since when?!" Oh shit this was way messed up. "So tall dark ad gruesome here is the dad?!"

"Got a problem with that meat stick?" Slash snorted.

"I wanna see a paternity test." April muttered, hoping that Donnie wasn't going to be bound to that monster for the rest of his life.

He turned to the girl. The one person he still considered a true threat. Anyone could see that Donatello still had feelings for her. "You will never know how lucky you are." He walked toward her, prompting Casey to stand between them. "All he ever cared about was you. Those late nights in the lab, countless explosions trying to create retromutagen after you walked out on him, after you said you hated him." He lowered himself to her height. "Do you really care about him? Or are you more preoccupied with yourselfish desires?"

"Hey back off her!" Casey pushed him back with his hockey stick. He wasn't afraid to take him on. "You don't know shit about them or what the fuck is going on."

"Don't I?" he asked. "I know far more then you think." He leaned forward, looking her in the eyes. "Do you just like to play games with him? Small kisses as reward for when he does something for you?" he scuffed. "Nothing more than a tease."

Casey pushed him back. "What the fuck is your problem?! Do you get off on pissing people off?!" He pushed him again. "You need to just stay away from her you hear me?!" He smacked his shell hard with the hockey stick, shattering it. Casey didn't care, he only wanted to make his point.

"Pathetic." He grumbled, moving to look at Leatherhead who was speaking with Splinter.

"I am sure that Donatello will be fine without me to oversee him. He is very stable and I am sure will make it through. The crack in his shell will heal in time but it is unknown if it will scar or not." The mutant gator spoke soft yet reassuring words to the old father.

Splinter nodded. "Thank you, for everything." He turned from the scene. "Raphael will not hurt Donatello, give him time and I am sure he will come out." He slowly walked to the dojo. "I need to meditate…"

"Damn it!" Leo broke the last pick. Clearly they were not getting in there until Raph opened the door. Who knew how long that would take? He leaned his shell against the wall and sighed. That bastard was going to be in a world of shit when he got out.

"Leo…" Mikey sat next to him. "Don't be hard on Raph when he comes out." There was no joy in his voice. Even now it was far too serious of a situation to take lightly. "I know what he did wasn't right, but…he hasn't been able to talk to anyone about stuff…ya know like he can with Donnie." Mikey already knew why Raph sealed himself in there. Why he needed time to talk with Donnie.

"Why cant he open up to me or you or even Master Splinter?" He was frustrated. If he was the leader why did everyone go to Donnie for everything? Was it because the hated him? Lately he had been feeling the pressure as well, building up because he couldn't vent without Donnie, perhaps Raph was more so.

"Those therapy sessions work for him…and besides you know why he cant talk to you about it." Mikey smiled and pushed him. "Most of them are about you!" he chuckled softly. "Even so, I know Raph wont hurt him. He always had a soft spot for Donnie. Ever since…" his voice was low.

The eldest sighed. "I thought he left that in the past. They were just kids…"

"Raph is still upset about it. Donnie came so close to no longer being with us." Mikey sighed and stood up. "Chill out on him bro, Raph will be just fine when he comes out, you'll see." He gave a smile before turning to April and Casey. "So whose turn is it to pick the pizza anyway?"

~LRDM~

"And I never felt so angry in meh life then when we found out ya were taken by Slash…" Raph pulled the blanket up, ensuring to keep Donnie warm. "I never thought I could get so mad, until just a bit ago…" it felt so much better then bottling everything up. To just let it flow out like a flood gate.

"You need…to remember your…breathing." Donnie's eyes were half lidded. He was tired but he knew Raph needed to vent or another violent outburst was sure to happen. "Whenever…you feel…upset…in through…your nose…out through…your mouth…slowly…"

"I know Don, but it aint always as easy as ya make it." He squeezed his hand again. Having told him nothing of their recent revelations, he just couldn't bring himself to tell him. "I don't see how ya always follow Fearless. Hell even Mikey don't always listen to 'em."

The younger turtle smiled. "Because…he needs…someone to…" he closed his eyes, wanting a moment to think clearly. "Leo…is under a lot…of pressure…pressure you would…understand…" he opened his eyes. "Like you…he talks…to me…about it…" he looked his brother in the eyes.

Raph sighed. "Yeah but I still don't get why he made ya his second. I've got a good idea why…" he was sure it was to try and win favor with Donnie. "But…" he was cut off by his brother.

"He…didn't…Master Splinter…did…" Raphie's eyes widened, clearly he never thought of that possibility. "Leo…originally…wanted you…" he shifted slightly on the hard metal bed, gritting his teeth as he felt the pain shoot through him.

"What are ya talking about?" Master Splinter told Leo no? Why did Splinter choose Don over him? "Why Donnie boy?"

He frowned. "You…let anger…guide you…just like today…you didn't…care about…those around you…just…blindly charged in…"

"He raped ya Donnie, what was I supposta do?! As ya big brother? I'm supposta protect ya." Raph felt like a failure. Felt like he had let Donnie down because he wasn't there, he didn't stop it. "I shoulda been there…I shoulda stopped ya from running off that day…I shoulda been stronger…" he couldn't hide the tears as they fell from his eyes. He failed him.

"Raphie…" Donnie reached his hand up and gently thumbed his tears away. "It is not…your fault…it is not…Spike's fault…" He watched as his strong brother looked at him, eyes so pitiful and filled with sorrow all because of him. It broke his heart. "I ran off…I thought I…could out run…them…could of…gotten…away…" he tried to hide the pain in his voice. "Newtralizer…he took me…from the…Kraang…Spike…was locked…in a cage…it was…Mating Season…" his hand trembled. "I was gone…three days…here passed…three months…gone so long…"

Raph lowered himself to Donnie. Pressing his forehead against the other's. "I wont let it happen again. Donnie boy ya hear me? Aint no one gonna touch you like that again…Not Slash, not Leo, nor Mikey…Nor me." He held his head between his hands, his eyes looking into his brother's. "I'm gonna protect ya…I will be strong enough ta keep ya safe, ta keep all of ya safe."